Tuesday, April 15, 2014

1.5 months old

1.5 months is how long since we have met officially. Our little angel is growing day by day. Not a day goes by without me thinking about how to be a better parent, how to give you what you need other than feeding you and clothing you. That is perhaps why people over indulge their kids, believing that giving them what the kids want is the best they can do as parents.

Habits changed because of our new responsibilities, sleep being interrupted for night feeds, thinking twice before stuffing food into my mouth, reading about parenting and child related articles online. Adjustments that come with the new addition. 

Grateful that with so much adjustments to make, our domestic helper is playing her part very well. I struggle everyday on how much should I involve my helper in the caring of the little one. Yet my helper manages the demands of the household with a smile. I recognize that things are not entirely easy on her too, so there is a lot of managing of expectations, mine as well as hers.

There are definitely trying times while nursing you, while facing unsolicited advice, especially when I felt I was criticised (even though it was not the intention of the speaker to criticise). Those days are difficult. Bad times, good times, they will all pass. I get angry, upset, rant to my friends and I get back together again. There is no reason to hold on to any emotions.

Living with you, makes me appreciate the simple things - an extra hour of sleep, a smile from you, your cry, your sleeping look, your contented look after milk, watching a one-hour show on tv with the husband, an afternoon out by myself, eating well.