Gonna be quite an emo blog today..
Always get emo when i read other people's blogs..
As i was reading my close friends' blogs, everyone is going through so much, yet i'm always caught up with whatever i'm doin..

Then it seems as if i've left my friendships behind me to chase after certain dreams.. And when i looked back, they aren't there anymore. Or perhaps things wont be the same anymore..

Some have changed somehow, and i guess i just dunnoe this person. Some are less trusting, some have less to tell u, some have gone thru some things which changed them forever..

And i wonder, do they feel the same when they look at me. have i changed so much that they cannot recognised me anymore? Am i someone who stop telling them things because i can't seem to feel the bond to want to tell them anything?

Can i do anything to find that friendship again? The kind of trust that if anything were to happen to me, i'll find someone out there willing to cry with me? The kind of confidence that if anything should happen to him/her, i'll be there no matter what i am doing.

Some of my friends have been disillusioned by what friendship means when they weren't treated with the same degree of commitment they put in.. They devoted themselves too much for friends, and they were hurt.

Friends, something so important yet so dispensible.. So difficult to define yet so necessary.. When you have so many so called friends, but so few whom you really can relate to..

I miss them.. Not because my birthday is near. Not because i'm having a 3 months' break.
I miss those times with them. But those times are gone.. When i see u today, you aren't the you i know that time, i'm no longer the me.

So emo... Must be the weather....

went to chijmes, man u was really a let down. Sorry, pal. They've made too many mistakes to say that they've put up a good fight. The whole sucky episode had to end with wayne rooney hurting himself. Good luck England, he has one month to sleep in the oxygen room to recover, i'm sure the whole of england can afford that.

just read the papers today.. amidst all the election reports that i cannot mention here, i finally saw something that i can and actually want to talk about!!!
I cant remember the exact headline but the report was about how singapore's working adults (23-26) still receive allowance from their parents, (and pretty shamelessly think they're entitled to it...)

I'm not complaining when they talked about singaporean adults living with their parents way pass their 30s. but taking allowance from their parents instead of giving them? That's a little too much for me..

If these KIDS are having problem getting by, unable to pay their bills, their transport, perhaps earning 900 per month, then i probably cannot comment. HOWEVER, they are taking the money, on top of their $1,600, $2,200, $3,300 monthly allowance, to upkeep their LIFESTYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!! Chanel bags, feragamo(dunno wat is this) shoes. HELLO??? And the best part is, they pay !!! TOKEN SUM!!!! to their parents just so they THINK they are not taking their parents for granted..

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS SOCIETY COMING TO!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!
what are the stupid parents doing?!?!?!?!? Are they representing the kind of products our education system churns out year after year??

And check out what the parents say "if i dont give it to them, who am i going to give the money to?" "This way, i feel we are able to bond"...
All i see, is a pathetic attempt at keeping the bond between the parent and the child. After 20 over years of slogging, to give the best to ur child, you've lost the chance to walk with him/her throughout the growing up phrase. You've lost the ability to communicate with ur child and you've lost your child to gucci bags and fendi wallets.

The only way u know, u can is to upkeep that habit of his/hers... Then you still have a hold over him/her, only then you can make sure he/she will still talk to you..

Because you know, once you've lost that hold over them, nothing is stopping them to treat u like an invisible sheet of paper..

Because you know, you haven done your part, to teach them about fillial piety, manners, morals, and all the things important to a person..

Because you know, he/she has grown up to be a machine.. all the hardware, lack of software.

How i love singapore.

2 days before my last paper, i have halt the syllabus waiting for me..

I'm at a lost. Kept telling myself i will be fine as long as i do as much as i can. Tellin myself i can push myself thru this. 2 more days and it'll be heaven..

Now i'm not sure anymore.

Even you have given up hope on me... I guess i'm really beyond hope.
When you walked out, I told myself any emotions can only find me after my exams. I must not fall at this juncture. Still, so much is flooding me at this moment..
I can't handle so much yet i know of no one to turn to.

Before i find the courage in me to plough through this, i will have to deal with absolute loneliness.

Cheers people.
Wenrong

I wont be blogging for a long time. Here're the details for my chalet:

Date: 27th - 29th May (Celebration will be on 27th May Saturday)
Time of celebration: 630pm
Venue: Changi Yacht Club Bungalow B
For Map click here
I will send a sms invitation after my exams. You can help my RSVPing me earlier to prepare.
(Note: If you don't plan to come, pls tell me before i sms you.)
Please RSVP me if you are coming and staying over.


Regards,
WR