sigh..
i'm rather down now..
bleai
cos i had a really great afternoon with him...
but sorta messed it up when i got home..
now i'm really really down.
argh...
jus wish i can noe what is goin on in his head now.

let's jus hope he is sleeping ...
or talking to his mum..

sigh.
think it's someting tt i msg that pissed him off..
argh
but i dun mean anything in a sacarstic way yeah?

hrm..
let's hope that i'm jus over reacting.


yupZzz
thinking of quiting my pathetic job..
thinking of doin something really interesting..
but yet to noe wat.
sigh
my life is act. qt a mess as well huh?
why cant i jus stay put in that job?
*wonders wonders*
perhaps the grass always looks greener on the other side.

yupz
he's trying to call..
wah...
let's hope nothing's wrong
hiak hiakz

cheers

ahhh
i'm sorry!!!!
for not updating for de past week
rather buzy...
hahahaha
and alot of stuff i cant publish
so no point anyhow...
yupZ

sick again after my new year break
totally pissed off with my tuition centre
i wanna start biz myself now.
and i mean now!
yupZzz
and rather happy new year btw.
i miss my frens!
hhahahaha
gotta meet up with them reallllll soooN!
hiak hiakzzz

k k
i got to go rest now.!!!
take care!!!!

i've got a mindful of stuff now.

firstly, i cant make it on sunday to help dem.
cos i gotta go help my mom.
and i can onli leave at 1.
de thing is, my sister is buzy with her honors report.
and she's sorta under pressure from her prof.
so.. i hafta make it.

secondly, i cannot dun go. cos i haven been doing anything.
i cannot get ven.
and i think even if i can, i cant do much.
anyhow> i think they jus wan my presence felt.

thirdly, i haben been getting enough sleep.
and i jus came home and had my dinner at 2230...
and everyone comes and bombard me with qns and more qns, tt i cannot ans.
argh.

forthly, i'm worried sick about my sat.
i've yet to get my result.
and i've yet to completely memorising all de vocabs which i'm very sure i'll not be using them anytime soon.

fifthly, i'm really sick. yeah still sick.
de cough is like showin no signs of goin off.
and it gets worst at nite or in de morning....
it's irritating de hell out of me.

and i'm typing with my eyes closed.
i nid to go sleep.

waking up tml to jog and study.

tml will be a betta day.

hrmm...
started joggin today~
hahahaha
feels good.
it feels really good to be able to run and jump about again!!!
except tt at nite i still cough like hell..
wonder wat kind of cough is tis.
i onli cough at nite when i'm home...
argh

anyhow~~
hahaha
decided i'm actually getting alot for doin so little...
i can scan stuff and play computer games without worries.
cos they end up teaching me how to play de game...
and i was reading magazine today as well..
latest issue of YOU magazine, courtesy of mr yan~
hahahahaha
so act. i'm enjoying life. air con summore....
=p

oh yeah..
suppose to call tuition agency tml and tell 'em i'm free to tuition anytime of de day le...
cos i realised as long i sign in and sign out de rite timing, no one cares wat time i go there, wat time i leave..
hahaha
talk about flexible...

=p

good mood todayz

shall go off le~
waiting for boss to tell me all about his first day...
so where's he now?

hrmmm

hrmmm
well well
for those of u who are interested
my life is goin fine...
not much ups and downs lately
like wat pple say, ping fan shi fu..

yeapz.
begining to think i talk alot.
hahahaha
and no action.
i feel bad lah...
was into some things with the clique.
and i think i'm de onli one not doin anything.
am i really that busy?
i dunno.
somehow de time jus couldn't match with theirs.
i seems to be into alot of things that, in actual fact, are not impt.
k, whether impt or not, it's to individual standards.
sigh.
i can always say i haf alot of things to attend to.
gotta take up some fianancial burden at home.
gotta go ard finding a betta paying job in order to do that.
i hafta hope and pray that i get some tuition job to add on to my meagre pay.
but seriously, i think all of us are facing diff kinds of pressure in life. i may think they're leading a good life, free from worries.
but i jolly well noe that everyone has their own probs... so i'm beginning to think that, perhaps all those are jus excuses. to excuse myself from the responsibility. to excuse myself from making the effort to even be there...

but sometimes, it jus seems dat something is holding me back.

anyway>> i shall try to do wat i can... thou not much. hahaha i always feel useless ard em...but be it buying drinks, or running errands, at least i'm doin something....

anyhow, for my present job, thou i haf flexible hours and i can take leave as and when i like. de environment is fine.
but the pay is really little.
well, we win some, we lose some.
but i cannot take it when i haf to do scanning or photocopying of stuff..
k, so far its onli the third day of work.
we shld gif it some more time....
so i shan't comment tt much.

anyhow>> i'm seriously thinking of switching jobs.
something more interactive.
it's really not me to sit there from dunno when to dunno when.
i'd rather be serving pple in some restaurant.
and the pay is betta loh... $7/hr i get to talk to pple somemore.
i jus hope de venue is somewhere near home..
the travelling fare is really killing me.

hrmmm
looking at job agency online....
argh
i've concluded tt not one day can pass without money.
everything and anything has it's price.
so nez time when u say "money doesnt make the world go round" think again.

i hate it when i haf to worry bout $$...
i hate it when someone dear to me needs it and i can do nuthing about it...

damn

hey heyz
took leave today..
cos was drowsy after taking my medicine
still abit lite headed now...

hahah
sorrie din update these few days...
dunnoe wat to write actually...

but my life is great now.
hahaha
i think nothing could be betta...
all seems too good to be true for me.
but i'll jus hafta take a step at a time yeah?
no point worrying myself sick...

hahaha i AM sick..
hrmmm....

anyhow>> finally caught LOTR yesterday~
hahaha
wasn't really wat i expected.
i tot should be betta...
hahaha
maybe it was de medicine yeah?
i was more into de story den de effect yesterday...
perhaps i should catch it de second time.
=)

anyhow>> got tis doin phy qn job. and trying very hard to do all de qn... hahaha gotta hand up tis week end eh..
die die die.
some of em i cannot do !!!
=p
kenna threatened that if i dun do well for my phy i dun hafta see mr goh le.
idert~

yeah yeah...

"hardwork will not get u to the top, but it'll get u very near to the top"

"ideas will always remain as ideas when not acted upon"

hahah
these are things that everyone noes.
but jus how many can do it?
how many can do it well?
and hold on to em?

i hafta start today.

cheers

wr

hrmm
cant stop coughing eh..
mus be de 7up i drank during de wedding dinner...

de wedding dinner suxz
hahahaha
filled with uncles and aunties tt i've neva see b4 in my life.
no idea how to call em as well..
so jus hello uncle hello auntie all de way.
and we were too early.
i nearly grew roots at de table
and my cheeks hurt from smiling at de pple who came to talk to my grandpa.
cant singaporeans be abit more courteous? and be punctual?
wateva happen to de courtesy campaigne.
wasted all de money for nothing.
shld jus gif it out as ers as well...

hrmm
eat snake during work today
wahahha
cos i fin sorting my stuff rather early
den jus walk around talking to the teachers while they sort their stuff...
damn entertaining
a teacher was a nus biz stud b4
so asked her about biz fac.
apparently there's alot of project..
and she's from logistic.
so not my interest...
but got to noe more about choosing wat to study in u.
hahaha
shall worry bout tt later...
=p

hrmm
nuthin much happened today...

haha i told myself
i mus learn not to say "i wasn't told to do this... i wasn't informed of that..." or stuff lydat
cos i shld be more active.
to ask instead of waiting to be told.
i think everyone noe this but it's really qt tough to practise it.
bleai..
i shall try my best
hahahah
cos i'm still qt lazy.
=p

anyway. gotta go sleep le!
hiak hiakzz
tml gotta go help my mum.

nite nite

heh heh heh...
i'm in a good good mood today...
anyhow i hope things will remain as it is today.
i'll be de luckiest ger in de whole wide world.
=)

working from 12 to 5 tml...
tt's 5 hrs. so it's 25 bucks tml.
haiz.
i think i'm getting too lil.
but considering my working environment.
so frenly and free and easy. i really shouldn't complain anymore
i act. walk bare footed ard and ate tidbits in de centre
hahahah k k.. no students today. so nvm.
hahaha
den had de feeling i was swimming in pprs.
cos there was alot of sorting of pprs in a tuition centre.
i think my degree went up a whole lot jus cos of searching for de year and sch.

yeahh
and got free dinner
courtesy of a family fren
really nice food and i suppose the ambience if dere wasn't so many pple making noise in de little place.
would like to go there again. when i haf de means.
hahaha
yeahhhhh

k.
as all of u can see.
i'm on cloud no. 9.
i wonder wat will happen tml.
i think i'll fall back to 8th level of hell..
choy choy choy..
hopefully not.
=p

hahaha
finally understand wat's counting de hours while working
but today still not tt bad.
everytime i checked, half an hour would haf passed.
so rather fast.
i hope nez time it'll be one hour.
cos i heard i've got alot to do.
wah.. and i'm onli paid 5 bucks an hour.
they really noe how to save man.
damn...

not goin to d'l de software today.
cos i think i goin off soon
and not goin to see my tutor online.
=p

more sorting tml.
so i'll be busy.
hopefully
cos i wont be entertained.
till nite..........
anyway i'll be at a wedding dinner
hahaha
cos my cute ah gong wanna go.
=)

anyhow>>
i think i'm against goin into relationship now
hahahaha
not tt i'm turning into a fossil
but yah..dating is fine.
but bgr is too serious le...
cos i think :
de ger will suddenly wan more from de guy
time to accompany her, his attention, his care . yada yada yada
and de guy will start to want to convert his attention to something else. hahaha no i'm not slaming guys or wat. but i jus feel so ba...
sigh.
if onli everything can stay lydat.
but i noe things wont last.
cos de ger will start to ask for more. and de guy will start to move back.
or vice versa.

hahaha.
matters of de heart i can neva understand.

take care.
good nite
sweet sweet dreams.
*hugz*

HapPy NEw YEaR!!!
hahaha
k k
boliao

hrmmm
din really enjoy myself at zouk yesterday...
i seriously dislike crowds.
esp if i haf to move ard in it.
and de pple dancing... i wonder if they're dancing or jus jumping or jus rubbing themselves against others, males and females alike...
some pple can jus drink themselves silly and fall everywhere on de dance floor...
they look old eh...
but they dun act their age.
i mean thou u're suppose to relax and enjoy urself, but come'on lah, at least not to de extend of making a fool of urself yeah?
how to enjoy if u drink urself silly?
there's tis group of pple who formed a circle and they were obviously very drunk. cos they kept falling onto other pple.. jumping up and down... wah.. dunno wat de hell lah...
wonder wat happen aft de party's over..
they get throw out of de club? or they jus lie on de streets?
i'm curious..
hahahaha

i tink i was looking at pple more than clubbing.
see how pple dance, see how a fight nearly broke out on de dance floor, being aware of de pple ard me..
hahaha
to de extend some1 told me i'm too self conscious...
den wat? like de ger in his arms ah?
she got drunk and was practically hanging on him lah.
so i still believe strongly tt i shld get a group of really close frens to club with.
hahahah

yeap.
i left abt 2, reached home bout 2 plus. but talked to my fren till 4.
told him everything tt was troubling me.
hahaha
k k.. i think there's no trouble at all.
i jus found stuff to trouble myself wif...
no choice lah... too free lately ..
so mus find stuff to keep my mind occupied.
thou not very healthy stuff but, still can prevent rusting
whahaha

anyhow>>
i din haf a good day today.
i also noe we shldn't meet up everyday...
but yah.. noeing and doin is two diff thing ba..
at de very least i was hoping i get some reply
yet, there wasn't any.
hahah
shall cont tis in another blog.
=p

yup yup.
woke up at 11, slept aft i had my lunch.
till 6!
unbelievable.
den made arrangements to meet a couple of frens.
hahaha it act. took my mind off some stuff.
tt's why i can joke and luff now ba....
hahaha
half de time i was whining to niang niang thou.
sorry niang niang..
tot i was rather irritating.

argh

moving into another phase of my life tml...
working a part time job for qt a long time..
at least 3 mths.
sorta putting half a foot into the working society...
hrmm wonder wat kind of life tt'll be.
sucky?
exciting?
boring?
it'll def be tiring i think...
but think tt's wat i nid now.
stuff to keep me occupied. so i wont be thinking too much
hahahahah

yi ge ren bu suan kun rao
ai shui ran hen mei miao
que bu neng wei le ji mo
gen xian ru ni zhao

ai yao nai xing deng dai
zi xi xun zao
gan jue hen zhong yao
ning ke kong bai le shou
deng dai yi ci zhen xing de yong bao
wo xiang xing zai zhe ge shi jie shang
yi ding hui yu dao
dui de ren chu xian
zai yan jiao

liu guo de lei rang wo xue xi dao
ru he qu fen....
ai bu shi ying zhong xu yao..
..

lalalalla

betta day tml.