Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007
路人甲
没事的路人，静悄悄地与你差身而过。。。
This is me, a passerby to most of the people in my life. Going in and out of their lives, for a short while. I can't explain it either... Mayb to them, i'm not the kind of friend for life. Looking back, at different period of my life, a different group of people there in my memories. There doesn't seem to be any similarities, except that I know at some point in time, they'll disappear from my life. There don't need to be any life changing events, not even a quarrel... They slowly 消声匿迹，慢慢的不见了。也没有刻意的闭门不见，就这样，失去联络。
probably it is a problem of mine, ever since i have memories, i knew friends are not forever. As much as I wish to have friends who know every dirty little secret in your life, whom my family members can recognise, who saw me through all the milestones in my life.. But i've always told myself that friends will come and go.. At the end of the day, no one has the obligation to be there for you. Or probably i'm just pre-empting myself from any hurt that might occur in the event something happens. After time, the character was formed.. I moved from group to group, at different times in my life...
Well, i guess such a situation has its pros and cons.. 虽然有时会寂寞，但知道自己够潇洒，放得下。并不是没有付出过，但常常提醒自己不是付出就有回报的。当关系太复杂时，大家渐渐把你的付出当成一种理所当然时，我就会慢慢的退后。。。 总觉得朋友们在一起，不希望有太多复杂的情绪。。人与人之间的复杂交际不应存在与朋友们之间，会很累的。。。
i guess that's why 我一向不会干涉朋友们的私事，要做什么，怎么做，我不想左右。牵涉太多，多管闲事，扰人扰己。and I condone the 'morally wrong' acts that people won't allow their friends to do... That others will usually talk their friends out of.. All i do is to say "this is your choice, you know fully well the consequences and u've gotta bear them in the event they materialised." Definitely not 'correct', not the kind of caring friend that people are looking out for..
But in life there are so many things that aren't black or white.. So many grey areas... What is 'right' is what most people think ought to be done...
My attitude, to most people i guess, is too indifferent, too cold to be considered someone to confine in.. And that's probably why i don't have many female friends.. Because they need someone to feel for them, sometimes even to whine with them.. To tell them that what they are doing is what i'd have done, to tell them that i understand.. But the truth is, I've been through it, and still going through it. Truth is i wish to tell them that U've gotta take care and take charge of your own emotional well being. Truth is you are only as damaged as you see yourself to be. Truth is you can do very well even by yourself, that no one is indispensible in your life. You simply move on.
Don't be mistaken, this isn't exactly an emo entry, not even one to complain about my current well-being. Being alone isn't a bad thing, it allows u to learn the most, to see more than ever. As your friends drift in and out of relationships, you see them come in and out of your life. As their lives take drastic changes, they walk in and out of your life. At that certain point in their lives, I have been there, i played a part or try to do my part to put them back on their feet. After that certain point, 不拖不欠, i don't expect them to be there for me... Or at least i try not to :D
到最后，谁不希望有一群和你走过大半辈子的好朋友？但又有几个人如此幸运？一切随缘，一切知足。
没事的路人，静悄悄地与你差身而过。。。
This is me, a passerby to most of the people in my life. Going in and out of their lives, for a short while. I can't explain it either... Mayb to them, i'm not the kind of friend for life. Looking back, at different period of my life, a different group of people there in my memories. There doesn't seem to be any similarities, except that I know at some point in time, they'll disappear from my life. There don't need to be any life changing events, not even a quarrel... They slowly 消声匿迹，慢慢的不见了。也没有刻意的闭门不见，就这样，失去联络。
probably it is a problem of mine, ever since i have memories, i knew friends are not forever. As much as I wish to have friends who know every dirty little secret in your life, whom my family members can recognise, who saw me through all the milestones in my life.. But i've always told myself that friends will come and go.. At the end of the day, no one has the obligation to be there for you. Or probably i'm just pre-empting myself from any hurt that might occur in the event something happens. After time, the character was formed.. I moved from group to group, at different times in my life...
Well, i guess such a situation has its pros and cons.. 虽然有时会寂寞，但知道自己够潇洒，放得下。并不是没有付出过，但常常提醒自己不是付出就有回报的。当关系太复杂时，大家渐渐把你的付出当成一种理所当然时，我就会慢慢的退后。。。 总觉得朋友们在一起，不希望有太多复杂的情绪。。人与人之间的复杂交际不应存在与朋友们之间，会很累的。。。
i guess that's why 我一向不会干涉朋友们的私事，要做什么，怎么做，我不想左右。牵涉太多，多管闲事，扰人扰己。and I condone the 'morally wrong' acts that people won't allow their friends to do... That others will usually talk their friends out of.. All i do is to say "this is your choice, you know fully well the consequences and u've gotta bear them in the event they materialised." Definitely not 'correct', not the kind of caring friend that people are looking out for..
But in life there are so many things that aren't black or white.. So many grey areas... What is 'right' is what most people think ought to be done...
My attitude, to most people i guess, is too indifferent, too cold to be considered someone to confine in.. And that's probably why i don't have many female friends.. Because they need someone to feel for them, sometimes even to whine with them.. To tell them that what they are doing is what i'd have done, to tell them that i understand.. But the truth is, I've been through it, and still going through it. Truth is i wish to tell them that U've gotta take care and take charge of your own emotional well being. Truth is you are only as damaged as you see yourself to be. Truth is you can do very well even by yourself, that no one is indispensible in your life. You simply move on.
Don't be mistaken, this isn't exactly an emo entry, not even one to complain about my current well-being. Being alone isn't a bad thing, it allows u to learn the most, to see more than ever. As your friends drift in and out of relationships, you see them come in and out of your life. As their lives take drastic changes, they walk in and out of your life. At that certain point in their lives, I have been there, i played a part or try to do my part to put them back on their feet. After that certain point, 不拖不欠, i don't expect them to be there for me... Or at least i try not to :D
到最后，谁不希望有一群和你走过大半辈子的好朋友？但又有几个人如此幸运？一切随缘，一切知足。
Thursday, August 16, 2007
这首歌真的好冷门。。。or perhaps i'm not tech-savvy enough. All i managed was a web playing version of it. Sigh... And i uploaded it both on my face book and blog. No idea why it catches my attention so much, probably because it is very soothing and .. touching?
Saw the movie 881 on Tuesday... No expectations at all for this local production. Was very curious because it explored a side of the singaporean scene that I am not exposed to... I was there purely for entertainment. True enough, the show opened with a lot of crappy graphics, budget tech stuff and a hilarious and incredible story line... But it was in its kind of way, very funny. As stupid as the beginning scenes prove themselves to be, i could relate very well to the movie, partly because most of the conversations were in Hokkien and partly because those are scenes so close to home.
The story was a little out the the world, a little immature. But I believe that amidst the seemingly silly plot, was a story of friendship, kinship and love. Using a very silly plot to actually bring out the different aspects of love, the contrast was amazing, the effect was incredible. The outcome was touching. It isn't an out and out art film, out to explore the affections and relationships between people. It is a very simple film, about very simple people, who really love and care for each other. Who really fought for the people they cared for. It is simple, in order to bring out the complexity of relationship.
看完后，我只有感动。
戏中最让我感动的，并不是男女之间的爱情， 而是亲情，母女之间的亲情。。。 我永远会记得那一幕，小木瓜躺在病床上问玲姨为什么她总是面带笑容的。玲姨说“应为你是月亮，大木瓜是星星，我是太阳。我这个太阳要够亮，才能借光给你和大木瓜。。。”
Might not mean anything to anyone out there... But this, to me, is the most touching scene through out the whole movie. No special effects, just a very simple scene between a guardian and ward... The very simple words that were exchanged, brings out more emotions that i have expected..
Saw the movie 881 on Tuesday... No expectations at all for this local production. Was very curious because it explored a side of the singaporean scene that I am not exposed to... I was there purely for entertainment. True enough, the show opened with a lot of crappy graphics, budget tech stuff and a hilarious and incredible story line... But it was in its kind of way, very funny. As stupid as the beginning scenes prove themselves to be, i could relate very well to the movie, partly because most of the conversations were in Hokkien and partly because those are scenes so close to home.
The story was a little out the the world, a little immature. But I believe that amidst the seemingly silly plot, was a story of friendship, kinship and love. Using a very silly plot to actually bring out the different aspects of love, the contrast was amazing, the effect was incredible. The outcome was touching. It isn't an out and out art film, out to explore the affections and relationships between people. It is a very simple film, about very simple people, who really love and care for each other. Who really fought for the people they cared for. It is simple, in order to bring out the complexity of relationship.
看完后，我只有感动。
戏中最让我感动的，并不是男女之间的爱情， 而是亲情，母女之间的亲情。。。 我永远会记得那一幕，小木瓜躺在病床上问玲姨为什么她总是面带笑容的。玲姨说“应为你是月亮，大木瓜是星星，我是太阳。我这个太阳要够亮，才能借光给你和大木瓜。。。”
Might not mean anything to anyone out there... But this, to me, is the most touching scene through out the whole movie. No special effects, just a very simple scene between a guardian and ward... The very simple words that were exchanged, brings out more emotions that i have expected..
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺。。。
another break up has taken place.. Another broken heart. details of which i have yet to be informed, but probably due to circumstances. 有缘无份 heart breaking but better den dragging in on and find that out later in time. When you make the choice to end it, den u just have to work harder to get over. Even if the choice wasn't yours, u've got to accept it and move on. There isn't a second way out. There isn't a less painful way..
At the end of it, u still have a choice, to continue to brood over it or try ur best to get over it. No doubts that you'll feel sad, but you don't have to wallow in it, to drive yourself to a corner and keep asking yourself 'What if..'
没有如果，有的只有眼前的事实 I've learned long ago that ifs and what ifs are scenarios that will never come true, so no point asking yourself those questions. Many things there are no answers to them. Why did you meet this person out of the millions and billions of people out there? Why are you born to this family and not another? You can drive yourself crazy with questions with a million hypothetical scenarios, if i tried harder, if she didn't do this, if i didn't do that, if he wasn't this, if i weren't that... But that'll only make you feel worse, won't it?
In an ideal world, an ideal situation, You can have anyone of any characteristic, features, etc you want. Even if what you ask for is simple and realistic, even if it was someone living and breathing in front of you, if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen. Simple as that.
another break up has taken place.. Another broken heart. details of which i have yet to be informed, but probably due to circumstances. 有缘无份 heart breaking but better den dragging in on and find that out later in time. When you make the choice to end it, den u just have to work harder to get over. Even if the choice wasn't yours, u've got to accept it and move on. There isn't a second way out. There isn't a less painful way..
At the end of it, u still have a choice, to continue to brood over it or try ur best to get over it. No doubts that you'll feel sad, but you don't have to wallow in it, to drive yourself to a corner and keep asking yourself 'What if..'
没有如果，有的只有眼前的事实 I've learned long ago that ifs and what ifs are scenarios that will never come true, so no point asking yourself those questions. Many things there are no answers to them. Why did you meet this person out of the millions and billions of people out there? Why are you born to this family and not another? You can drive yourself crazy with questions with a million hypothetical scenarios, if i tried harder, if she didn't do this, if i didn't do that, if he wasn't this, if i weren't that... But that'll only make you feel worse, won't it?
In an ideal world, an ideal situation, You can have anyone of any characteristic, features, etc you want. Even if what you ask for is simple and realistic, even if it was someone living and breathing in front of you, if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen. Simple as that.
Monday, August 06, 2007
ge wei guan zhong, i just got back from BKK, Thailand safely. For those who didn't know, i was out of town since thursday morning :D
Many thoughts aft the trip, yet to have the time to pen them down.. Sort of incurred the wrath of my dad by going on this trip, so i've gotta stay home and be a good girl for a while...
lazy to write what happened during the trip here.. Not today at least.. Going off to bed soon!!!
:D cheers
WR
Many thoughts aft the trip, yet to have the time to pen them down.. Sort of incurred the wrath of my dad by going on this trip, so i've gotta stay home and be a good girl for a while...
lazy to write what happened during the trip here.. Not today at least.. Going off to bed soon!!!
:D cheers
WR
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
张震岳 - 思念是一种病
“他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
。。。
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆”
"I might have mentioned once too many that i've turn cold blooded since meeting you. What i have never talked about, is probably this:
I realised that perhaps i feel more than ever, that i care for people more than ever. I realised that i am beginning to put myself in others' shoes and try to act in their best interests, be it my family, my friends. Every decision that i had to make, through weighing the pros and cons, and even taking into consideration how will they objectively be affected. All these, i've learned from you. Rational as you may seem, "cold blooded" as you might pretend to be, 其实最关心人的就是你，因为你明白过于关心，是会令人窒息的。。。”
“而我们终究也会远离，变成回忆。。。”
This line kept ringing after our conversation yesterday. 单单想象就已经觉得好难过。。Only then that I realised that one day you wont be there for me anymore. 难过，不舍好似最自然不过的反应。接踵而来的，就是不知所措，一直问“为什么？”。然后，像在证明你这几个月的教导没有白费，理智告诉我：没有为什么，没有人会一辈子在你的身边。你能够做的，就只有欣然地接受，记住一切的一切，然后继续往前走。
我没有那么潇洒。。。 even though you didn't say now or when... I guess the reality of things suddenly hit me. Some thing that i have always been telling myself to pre-empt many unnecessary heart aches, some thing that i had so deeply embedded in my mind, some thing that i have realised since years ago - that no one will be there forever... I was caught off guard this time... I was starting to get too comfortable, taking things for granted..
The lessons learned, kept playing in my mind. Going through them again and again. Telling myself that perhaps this is the last stage of my 'training', that once all these is through, i'd probably be 'indestructible'... I guess that's the only thing i can seek solace in. That i shall not experience this ever again, that i shall keep my head always :D
今天我做到了。。。 在难过的当儿，我好努力的做好我需要做的事. 在别人面前，我还是我。
“岂能尽如人意，但求无愧无心。”
离别不是我选择的，但我会记住我所说过的。。。
我会乖乖的。 我已经长大了。。。
温
“他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
。。。
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆”
"I might have mentioned once too many that i've turn cold blooded since meeting you. What i have never talked about, is probably this:
I realised that perhaps i feel more than ever, that i care for people more than ever. I realised that i am beginning to put myself in others' shoes and try to act in their best interests, be it my family, my friends. Every decision that i had to make, through weighing the pros and cons, and even taking into consideration how will they objectively be affected. All these, i've learned from you. Rational as you may seem, "cold blooded" as you might pretend to be, 其实最关心人的就是你，因为你明白过于关心，是会令人窒息的。。。”
“而我们终究也会远离，变成回忆。。。”
This line kept ringing after our conversation yesterday. 单单想象就已经觉得好难过。。Only then that I realised that one day you wont be there for me anymore. 难过，不舍好似最自然不过的反应。接踵而来的，就是不知所措，一直问“为什么？”。然后，像在证明你这几个月的教导没有白费，理智告诉我：没有为什么，没有人会一辈子在你的身边。你能够做的，就只有欣然地接受，记住一切的一切，然后继续往前走。
我没有那么潇洒。。。 even though you didn't say now or when... I guess the reality of things suddenly hit me. Some thing that i have always been telling myself to pre-empt many unnecessary heart aches, some thing that i had so deeply embedded in my mind, some thing that i have realised since years ago - that no one will be there forever... I was caught off guard this time... I was starting to get too comfortable, taking things for granted..
The lessons learned, kept playing in my mind. Going through them again and again. Telling myself that perhaps this is the last stage of my 'training', that once all these is through, i'd probably be 'indestructible'... I guess that's the only thing i can seek solace in. That i shall not experience this ever again, that i shall keep my head always :D
今天我做到了。。。 在难过的当儿，我好努力的做好我需要做的事. 在别人面前，我还是我。
“岂能尽如人意，但求无愧无心。”
离别不是我选择的，但我会记住我所说过的。。。
我会乖乖的。 我已经长大了。。。
温
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