argh
jus fin hcjc qn 5 part a online
not sending to mdm lee yet
cos i dun think i can fin part two liao
de typing is damn fast
it's de bloody diagram that is killing me

sorta brain dead liao
gotta go sleep man
if not i wont be able to wake up in time for mr goh's make up lesson
i think i'm gonna get screwed tml again~
damn it
11 more days onli...
sigh

oh yah
btw
my sister took away de pass word to ensure i dun come online anymore
so ..
everyone out there
i'll miss all of u
sighhhhh
esp coming online
whahaa

yada yada yada
gd nite

hey heyZ~
hrmmm
starting to haf funnie ppl adding me to their frenster but..
some i dun even say hi to?
hrmm
wonder what are these ppl trying to prove..
that they haf alot of frenz?
i mean.. we're not exactly even acquaintance to start with~
sighhh
and dey add me and tt's it lah
no msg no testimonial. i dun even see de link from them to me.
except my ex class mates is in their class..
~~`

anyway>>
manage to fin 2 macro topics.
nia and money~
goin on to third today and doin another njc essay later..
shall do a maths ppr 2 as well .. i think tml
today mus fin hcjc phy ppr 2 before mr goh slaughter me tml~
damn it manz
counting down = 12 days to a's...
it's really do or die liao~
hrmm
wonder how much i can fin in 12 days...
mus bia maths and econs first man..
sighhh
i fang bu xia phys eh..
how?!
undecisive me...

anyway>> effective kenna ignored by some idert.
i think i fan jian leh...
sigh
some pple jus cant be frens with lah...

hrmmm something jus cropped up in my fam again~
rahh
wat 'good' timing...
wonder when will this end man..

did i mention i dun feel like goin u anymore..
as in...
it's so .. regulated?
u haf to comply to this comply to that..
and there is this bidding for cross fac thing that can drive u crasy..
i'm already so unhappy with rules..
how can i cope with all that nonsense....

they claim that taking cross fac can make one more marketable...
i totally disagree.
how marketable can u be if u learn a subject so superficially and for jus a few mths.
after the term u can totally forget about it and take one sum other thing that is totally unrelated to ur core subjects. and then forget about that in another 6 mths.
i can neva understand how schs or education in singapore works.
moreover, u may not be even interested in de subject and u're taking it cos u're too damn unlucky to failed bidding for de ones u really wanted.
wat the heck~

however.. guess i'm stucked with no where to go. i take onli 3 As, no good in gp, no money to go overseas, no hope for any scholarship.. i damn stuck.it's jus one mistake in my secondary sch life and i'll haf to carry it thru my life..
i think nez time my children will suffer like hell.. cos subconsiously i'll be damn strict with them jus in case they follow in my footsteps..
the onli thing i can do now is to do well and go to bloody local u and suffer for another (hopefullY) 4 years. den come out and fulfil my dreamS!!!!! hiak hiak hiak...
frankly, i still haf no idea what to take.
talk about no goals in life.

argh life.
sighz

hehheh~
cannot resist the temptation to get online yeah?
so shall satisfy my needs before goin back to studyin~!!!
muahaha

went sch for econs initially..
had a break and some visitor wanted to find teacher in charge of student council~
haha
turn out it was for some cheer leading competitioN~
and de lady was very very frenlY~
so ended up talking to her in de canteen instead of goin back for econs lesson~
whahahaha
she's from global association for culture and peace~
vice prez summore~
woah i'm impressed
anyway>> got her card and she's gonna email me bout goin to watch de competition~
sounds damn fun lah de organization
hope its not some hrmm very complicated club~ where pple go for de fun
hrmm and mayb some peace? and international harmony~~
world as a global village..
now now.. where haf i heard tis b4~
whahahaha
gp lah duh!
anyway>> the attractive thing about tis is they go ard de world and play!!!!
as in interact i mean
whahaha
they haf soccer competition, art dance wateva that doest not concern language i think..
as she said.. art and sports is a universal language?
hrmm now this is helping my gp i think~
muahaha

k k
enough of de lady and her club~

think i'm rather mentally worn out~ so mus go take a rest.. and tml got maths tuition~ i'm hoping i dun lost track of time.. cos it's happening now.. i really dunnoe where and which dimension i'm in now.. i'm jus trying to max what i do in de shortest period of time
so
i think it's time i go bathe and haf a wink~

cheers!

wenrong

YoyOyoYoy
jus found a long lost fren
as in he found me on icq~
LOL
it's been a long long while since i talk to him maNzzzz
very happy~

anyway.. realised today i've slack too much
so i wanna fa fen tu qiang liaoooo
dunwan to come online so much liao
5 wks no updates
i think u all can live with that yeah?
whahahaa
i love all my frenz

i go eat liao!!!
ciaoZ

wR

haha today is a happpy day
saw my sec sch clique pple
damn fun
they were decorating siok's house to gif siok a surprise party
as usual... i was late and walking ard de house trying to look busy
not to mention.. occasionally nimbling de food..... muahahahha
my only contribution was to stick de 3 heart shape balloons up de wall
which was rather diff.. wahahha i do more interesting work..
ATE ALOT ALOT ALOT
i'm getting fatter and fatter..
and i cant believe it when they were discussing how fat they were in sioks room..
rahh they are no where near the word fat..
no one is goin to believe that anyway...

lalalalalla
toopid boy jus jog to woodlands back..
hahaha i cannot even reach sembawang lah...
talk about fit. damn it man
i nid to work out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fat fat fat..
it's haunting me!
sighz
read tis some where "god, if u cant make me thinner .. make my frens fatter..."
*evil luff*

i'm so tiredddd
i nid to sleep
but i'm damn full
anyway
tml got tuition again!
wahhaha tat means got cake!
hahah cos siok's bday~
sighh
damn xing fu eh?
dun rem wat hap on my bday liaoo...
bleai...

lalalalalal i hope tml is another okie day...
i jus wanna fin this 5 wks asap..
i miss my life..
wahhahaha
i nid to get it backkkkkk

k k
i got nuthing much to say..
very very tired..
gotta go orh orh liao
BUAI

YoyOyoy
got alot of things to say today...

firstly..
i've went thru a emotional roller coaster ride today...
dat kind really go up and down one..
whahahaha
i had good mood when i woke up
cos toopid boy goin to meet me today.. den he msg me he's sick - translation he is not meeting me today. so i got very sad..
den i went to tuition and had my fair share of oogling at some ac guy with a very very low and sexy voice. .. den everything became fine....

until i couldnt do my maths.. i haf this feeling i'll fail all my a's subject..
tt's failing when i dont do well yah?
so.. broke down at tuition centre.. thou mr yan din see.. rah..
rather embarassing..
felt betta when i was hafin de yu pian mian xian!
hahah not bad.. quite nice...
den walked ard bugis like a trail behind mr yan tis choo choo train head..
he really walk damn fast eh... and
hahah de happy thing is dat he say alot of ppl look at me..
i took it in de positive way.. hrmm or mayb they are thinking "wah.. so fat..."
sigh.. nahh... i look fine...(tryin to convince myself here)
muahah anyway.. i'm happy cos i neva notice tt pple act. look at me before.. given that i'm always surrounded by pretty ladies.. i'm more of de leaf lah...

anyway>>
i met chris.. and felt really mentally tired after i bombarded him with all my troubles...
sorrie dear.. i dunnoe who to tell liao.. i noe sometimes i haf to learn to deal with my troubles.. but i jus nid to get if off my chest.. hrmm feel very bad for adding on to ur burden.. sorrie lah...
den we went marina bay and sat at the mrt station waiting for time tt he shld be in...
by then i can already drift off in a daze as i talk.. i wonder what is happening to me...
boss say i shld see a doct..
anyway i feel really bad about blabbering nonsense and drifting away at him cos he's not feeling well.. and he seldoms sees me.. this worries him and i HAD to do all that jus b4 he went in..
i think he was rather worried.. until he got up de wrong train and was late.. it's damn sweet of him to say it's all his fault.. althou we all noe i'm some how to be blamed.. *grinz*.. (jus saying all this to prove that i dun always JUS say his bad points)
hahaha yah mus biao yang him once in a while..

yup
and now for my 2 cents worth of de day
i realise..
life can be really miserable with expectations..
if things dun turn out de way u expected
u get really sad..
tt's de prob with me..
i think i expect too much...
and i'm afraid i dun reach my expectation..
in de mean time .. i fred about not doin enough to meet em..
i forgot that when i fred about all this.. i wont be able to perform my best..
thus realisin the fact that i dun reach my expectation...

i also realised expectation fr relation ship is not .. hrmm.. very healthy for de relationship...
everyone noes the story about cinderella and de slippers..
anyone actually tot wat the slippers symbolises?
i think it symbolises expectation from partner.. tt's why cinderella is a fairy tale..
i dun think a guy like chris will ever wear de slippers i haf in mind yeah?
and i can neva fit into de cinderella image in his mind..
well...
so..
relationship without expectation.. might not work.. but we'll def be happier yeah?
=)
life without expectation.. i'll haf to rem to put in my best foot everytime..

=)
something worth thinking about yeah?
cheers

had a very bad time jus now..
some how some heat wave hit me and i was so pissed off with everything that is happening.. whether is it the way i breath or de way the moon is tonight...

sighhh
2 wks left...
tell me now why am i online again?
ahhaha
de nearer u are to ur exams ... de more things u do that do not concern ur studies..
rahhhhh i wanna go home...
i wanna go back to when i'm young..
when i was in kindergarden playing rubber bands when the teacher is blabbering..
and i come home to watch cartoon...
mummy!~!!!
i dunwan to be 18 anymore....

i'm down with pms for de moment... will be okie in short while...


yada yada

oh yah!
my ka zhua (cockroach) story continues today!!
ahhahaha
i managed to catch it...
den it was so small that it manage to escape thru a really small hole.. or shld i say slit on de floor..
however it walk right back to where i caught it
and stood there quietly..
maybe it was starting to haf feelings for me
whahahaha
aft all.. i provided a place for it for a few dayZ(considering it's size)
i wonder if it has any siblings nesting ard my table..
yuckZ!
shudders..
let's hope it has lost it's way dat's why it is found near my table..
urggg

my sister jus cooked maggie for me..
now i'm hoping that the myth of eating during dat period of de month will not make one fat.. cos i'm eating alot..
feels like being pregnant huh
wahhaha

hrmm i think i go eat den go do my maths liao
it's really taking too long...

cheers!

hrmm came during 4 plus but de web site abit down
wahhaha
so now come again to update my blog..
ahhh
i think i mus haf said something wrong throughout de month
dunnoe why this few days so suay..
first i fell sick
now i'm struck with a real bad stomach cramp tt refuses to go away
hrmm
perhaps part of it is contributed by the fact that i drank abit of cold drinks yesterday
wahhahaha

hrmmm
managed to run through my mirco econs topics today
and fin a phy ppr 1 from hc..
rather low productivity thou
whaha
goin to start on JI maths ppr once i fin dinner
preparing to go back sch tml to pester some econs teacher for my econs mcq...
hrmm
tt's if my stomach allows lah..

oh yah!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy deepavali!
ni ba ba ma ni
wahhaha
hrmm rather old joke..
*tell tale signs that i'm old and out dated..
wonder wat's de most in thing for pri kids now adays...

saw some cartoon in the afternoon
realised de cartoons are getting really ugly..
wateva happened to the cute cute characters?
even characters in disney cartoon hercules look crooked (as in literally crooked face)
ahhaha there's tis sponge bod square pants cartoon.. damn corney.. a yellow sponge in pants tt's really squarish running ard..
haiZ..
i'm old and useless liao...

hahaha
de more i study de more i think i wont get wat i dream for..
haiiiii damn sad
budden cannot dun study right?
so.. mus ying zhe tou pi.. and study!
study study study..
it's getting interesting lah..
studying
whahahaa
neva imagine i would say that manZzz

please god.. jus let me get into something interesting in my university..
or rather let my results be good enough for me to choose something interesting..
dunwan to be stuck no where being forced into something i dun like...
rahhhh

hahaha wrote a testimonial for chris on frenster..
since he put single..
i wrote "great guy great bod. very entertaining and interesting character.. full of weird actions that cracks one up. single huh? gers wat are u waiting for? ..."
hahaha hope everyone get's the Sacarsm in there... or maybe i wasnt sacarstic enough...

i think i'm getting dreamy eh..
i'm starting to drift away while typing..
wat kind of symptom is tiS?
i think i need help~~

i feel sickkkkkkk
wahhh
i wan a new bf!!!!!!!!!
how nice if u can make and mould ur dream bf into real life
whahaha
i wan a rich and okie looking bf who's always at my beck and call
muahahahahha
*evil luff*
hahaha
ok looking cos lydat more secured...
sighzz
oh yah huh.. our sch got one wat~ SUPER assistant CEO's son
hahaha
but heard got gf liao
lalalallalalalalala

issit possible for ppl not to sleep?
i think sleeping is a waste of time eh..
hahahaha
gp qn>> is there a real nid for 25th hour...
sigh
one observation lately..
everyone is complaining everyone else is a waste of time
budden from what they are doin.. they are not fully utilising their time..
like me..
i'm online now complaining i haf not enough time..
so is there a real nid for the 25th hour?
or people are not using their time properly...

frenster is getting cranky...
i'm not allowed to add my frenz.. is it alright?
hrmm
i wanna go chalet!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna laze ard at mos with niang niang and talk about nuthing at all!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go shopping (even thou i dun really shop)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna to go to the zoo!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go tanning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna ... wanna.. fin my exams and feel that i can do well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahhahaha

so this two weeks is bloody important..
there fore.. i'm goin off to eat and to complete my ji ppr asap.

wenrong signing off.. till nez time.. same time same channel.
here's a song from linkin' park - somewhere i belong..
cheers

waHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i'm super guilty stricken now (wonder wat de heck am i doin online)
anyway>>
arhghhh
i wasted de bloody afternoon away
shit
i'm one step further from my dream of taking my result on stage
tmd!
arghh
anyway
stupid cockroach came to disturb me when i was writing my econs essay jus now
wahhh small but irritating
now i haf my shieldtox, container (to catch de ka zhua) and newspaper by de side
jus in case it strikes again..
skali later the mother comes as well
argh
damn
anyway
i very angry tis morning@
cos my stupid econs teacher was wasting my morning away
shan't elaborate cos i dun haf the time

i'm feeling de heat of the competition liao man
some idiot can actually finish 4 sch pprs in 2 days
and some already fin 11 jc's prelims ppr
damn scary
wat de hck am i doing?!!!!
damn it manzz
i think to get a for maths is like getting 90 and above liao
wat kind of marks is that?!
rahh
getting really very insecured.
not to mention my econs is like sai

arghh
i'm so panicky
i dun think i can sleep well tonight!

and my stupid idert stomach cramp!!!
sighzzz
chinese sayin: wu lou pian feng lian ye yu..
attic already got hole, still rain de whole night
wat de helllllll

my life is goin down hill..
tis 6 wks is hell man!

anyway>> my bf is making an attempt to msg me everynight
and he is saying i shld comment him on his effort
whahaha
stupid boy!
still cannot believe he put single in frenster
wat is tis man..
dun respect me at all can?
sighzz
big idiotic pig!
anyway>> can see him on fridAY!
deepavali!
hopefully i can fin wat i wanna fin before fri

ahhhhh
tml got gp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as in a test like ppr..
dunnoe how am i goin to do if i'm goin to sleep late tonite
wahhh
i nid more time!!
shld sleep less man
pig xia
no more story books!!!
rahh
k k

btw>> really hot tis few days huh
sigh
talk about hellish environment...

cheers

haha.. managed to squeeze sumthing into my head..
thou not alot..
jus something on taxation and inflation
def not enough for a free free monday like today
hrmm did i do anything in de morning?
i think i'm hafin short term memory like a fish eh..
how?
shoots.. mus be from angela...

anyway!
congratulations on my recovery!!
ahhaha thou not fully
i'm having a cough instead of a sore throat..
thanZ to my beloved mum whom got pretty worried yesterday when i called her at ard 10 plus
whahaha
talk about acting pathetic to get some sympathy...
mum's still de best!!
wahahha
oh yah
i've got another proposal for biz..
anyone interested in joining me? or rather giving me de capital
i think i hav 3 or 4 since beginning of tis year.. big and small
perhaps i can think of selling these ideas instead?
whahaha another great idea from de great LIN WENRONG~
muahahaha
kow tow to me!!
...

k k..
tis is enough evidence tt i've recovered yeah?

listening to a supposedly funny hokkien song from may day
i cant make out what they singing eh... my level of hokkien not there yet...

oh yah talking about language..
i realised i'm not good in chinese, eng or any other lang tt i've learnt b4
as in.. i cant really express myself very very very well with any of these lang..
so if ever i happen to learn de 4th lang.. mayb i'll do better in that?
wahhahaha
*imagine myself speaking french.. LOLZ...

*cough cough*
muahahZzz
3 weeks to exams
and
6 weeks to liberation

wahhhh
my future is goin to be determined in 3 weeks!
sighhhh

my sister jus accccuused me of not studying...
wat the heck! i did okie..
jus not very adequate...
sigh.. i'm damn guilty strickened now..
imagine getting a ccc nez year
talk about being stuck no wherE!!
rahhh
shall go back to study again!!!

i'm goin to be a great entreprenuer with good grades!
whahahaha
my dream eh..
dun luff...
see me on de cover of times soon~! LOL

cheerzzzzzzzzz

hrmmm since i haf nuthing to do..
i'll jus publish another one..
still wondering shld i tell anyone about my blog
but most of de time if i'm thinking of such a qn means i wanna tell pple bout it
wahahh
oh well..
de female side of me talking now...

getting rather paranoid on irc..
telling my fren about how i cant rest cos of de ST. and how i cant recover due to dat
which will ultimately lead to not doin well in my phy prac
and a's which means my life will be ruin and i will be sweeping the roadside nez year march.... talk about making ONE mistake in ur life and carrying it thruout ur life...

geesh.. i think i'm beginning to haf the habit of talking to myself...
perhaps due to de fact that i'm alone at home most of de time...
was jus telling siok i might die at home without anyone noeing it
ahhh.. lowest life form man...

"and i want to be free, talk to me. i cant hear u calling..."

yada yada yada yada...
scary tots crossed my mind while i was in de interchange today..
hahaha betta not talk bout it.. aherm aherm..

hrmm i shall go take panadol like siok suggested...

cheers..

ahhhh
i cant sleep due to my stupid sore throat...
now it's escalating into a cold..
and de best part is i haf a phy prac A's exam on tues..
and i din study much today
(partly due to me giving myself an excuse to rest)

GODDDD
HOW?!
geesh
and now i haf to wait till my parents come home doin nothing and no one is online
and my toopid bf is not with me..
geeshzz
how suay can i get...

great.. now a migraine hits me...
it's jus gets better.. and better...
i nid to sleep and rest badly
someone help me get the sore throat off?!
arghhhhhhh

i'm dying of sore throat!!!!
it's torturous.. and i'm suppose to be studying
arghhh
totally dunnoe wat de heck i'm doin..
i hafta do some econs..

i'm typing econs essay to my beloved econs teacher
wonder if she'll reply
becos~ i nid it real soon?

think 3 wks is goin to fly pass real soon..
ahhhhhhh
i jus fin ext for econs..
wat de hell

damn it manZz
betta get goin...

trying if it supports chinese..
nice song by sandy lum ..
love's not a bed of roses...

天阴有雨　我在想你
这一年里　有苦有甜蜜
那无心的言语　挂虑猜疑　只是小插曲
若变成勇气　让我们守在一起



眼看时间咻的一下子过去　到了冬季

在过去的日子里你的怪脾气　我会把它忘记
这三百六十五天所有的回忆　我能想起
最好的事　那就是爱着你
最好的事　那就是爱着　爱着你



不是运气　好多的努力
Oh！爱不容易　如果不愿意
从陌生相遇　如今熟悉　喜欢我和你
之间的关系　是爱人也是知己



眼看时间咻的一下子过去　到了冬季
在过去的日子里你的好脾气　我会好好珍惜
这三百六十五天所有的回忆　我能想起
最好的事　那就是爱着你
最好的事　那就是爱着　爱着你

found tis in my com... i really wish to tell this to my sister... anyway it was her file.. hope it knock some sense into her...

FAMILY VALUES
I ran into a stranger as he passed by. “Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse m e too; I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I. We parted n said good-bye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal, My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down. "Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me n said,
While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
But the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow n blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers,
especially the blue."

FAMILY

Are you aware that if we died tmr,
The company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than
into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?
So what is behind the story?
Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU
You don't love someone because they're beautiful. They're beautiful because you love them. Its true you don't know what you've got until its gone, but its also true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives!!!

muahaha....
my first blog.. interesting huhZz
always tot pple who blog are either attention seeking or attention seeking..
wonder am i one of em now...
ugene ask me if i dun let ppl see my blog den wat's de point of posting?
good qn
but no ans.. cos i dunno it myself
sighz..

wat am i suppose to write in a blog?
daily life? how i brush my teeth today? how i spent countless hours in sch despite it being a sat? how i came back only to study summore...

sighz..
sad life..
got slightly pissed off when i was out today.. wat issit with me getting good results?
anyway it's jus relatively better in class.. i din even go on stage yesterday..
so now i dun even haf the right to worry whether i'll do well in a's
cos according to my classmates, supposedly good buds, i'm a confirm A student. so even if i fall sick within tis 3 wks i'm goin to get an A? LISTEN TO THIS MAN?! people..
and de saddest thing is dat i dun even haf de courage to stand up for myself on tis!
wat was i afraid of? quarrelling? losing a fren?
LOOK who ever is looking at tis.. there's a limit to joking..

looks like i've turn tis into a complain page..
but nuthin good happened today. except maybe a stranger in a red car smiled at me when he drove pass.. partly cos i let him drive pass before crossing de road.

de most pathe thing shld be me getting angry with my bf, and he reacted by msging me while watching soccer.. so.. am i suppose to get more angry? or laugh at my stupidity?
at a total loss of what to do at tis moment..

well.. mayb i'll jus be my happy self again.. i'm a gemini anyway
i haf a strong feeling i'm down cos of pms.. whaha but den again it's not time
perhaps stress is an impt factor as well..
anyhow..
i'll survive in tis world.
for myself.
even if i'm to be dump tml.
even if everyone turn their back on me.
even if ...
de sun dun rise?

hahaha
cheers.