Me. Myself & i

wanted to write in chn... but realised i shldn't be wasting my time typing hypy..
but.. yeah
anyway>>
was super tired today aft meeting niang niang at mos for some phy revision
wasnt very productive thou...
yup
we left immediately when i spotted the ever famous �讪王。de guy who can talk and seat at any seat no matter who's sitting there and no matter wheter ppl mind or not.

on my way home.. tot about the few reasons that can make me feel like goin home or miss home like mad..
firstly, when i'm super duper tired, physically, mentally wateva. jus hide away from de world in my bed. surrounded by the people that care for me de most out of the dunnoe how many billion zillion ppl in de world.
secondly, when i'm extremely happy or sad. extremely happy cos i wanna share it with my fam. no one can appreciate what i feel for betta than my fam, esp my sister~ muahahhaha i mean my eldest sister, currently she's one of de closest person i am bonded to.. *sadly* muahahha. when i'm sad my fam gif me de best listening ear.. i almost forgot.. when i'm angry~!! hahaha they sympathize with me ze most...

thirdly, when i achieve something, the first thing i'll do is to send an sms home.. thru out tis year, i neva fail to imagine de day when i get my a's result and immediately calling all my fam members to tell them good news, that i've done well and got wat i worked so hard for.. but now it seems it's gonna stay as a dream.. but .. i'lll cont to work hard. cont to do what i can to make them proud of me!

forthly, i'll run home when i nid some space to breathe... from all de pple, rules, and what not that close in on u once in a while... at home i dun haf to pretend, i can joke all i wan and say wat i wanna say. i can be less afraid to offend pple. cos they noe me, they noe how i talk how i act, how harmless i am. wont get misunderstood by my fam.

rite.. sounds like i'm taking full advantage of my fam members yeah? hahaha some more stuff that's even worse.. like taking allowance and asking my mum to da bao lunch back summore whahaha .. this is what fam's for... we shld not be afraid that we are taken advantage of, that even so, even we get grumpy about it. we noe we'll still goin to give in to each other becos we're a family. i love my fam... cant help wondering what wld i haf turn out to be if i weren't born here... hahahaa
muackZ
i love them.

haha yah.. den my tots drift to, my bf shld gif me such a feeling. as mention above, like whenever i'm down and out, he's there for me. vice versa. whenever i get excited over something i can share with him. whenever i haf probs he'll be there to share de burden with me, even if he can onli sit there and listen. get angry with me cos someone bully me, or at least pretend to be. hahaha...
i think i'm still waiting for one person to be lydat~ wah.. den i'll propose to him
wahhaha..

sigh.
i neva fail to wonder, are we wasting our time together? are we jus being together for de sake of staying together? like he said, we've been together for a year plus, got feeling. so what is tis suppose to mean? def he does not fit my criteria for a potential partner...
我现在深深的体会到，什么��∶�先了解自己，了解自己�什么，�能够找到自己的幸�。
i dunno what i want. i'm so afraid tt hist will repeat itself. that i will start to get pissed off when i see him with someone else. then realise that there's actually no prob btw me and him.
prob with me is i haf a very bad memory. i usually dun rem what we quarrel about and all de unhappines..
but de prob btw us is so intangible, i cant pin point it out. but i noe the prob has always been there, coming back to haunt us every now and then. some times we'll quarrel but nuthin ever came out of anything.
也许�观和逃��是一线之差。也许看似�观的我，�会逃�，没有勇气�对问题。没想到我如此懦弱。。。

hai. i really dunno how and what shld i do to get a good solution to all my prob. issit possible to get rid of every single of ur worry? read a quote somewhere, it says 'if one day we wake up and everyone was of a same race, same religion, same color. we'll look for sumthing else to discriminate about.' it applies to our probs as well.. even if u solve some, u'll soon find urself more things to worry bout...

does that means we shldnt solve them?

wr