Me. Myself & i

not in a good mood.
stressed out, memories came flooding back, overwhelming me... and i'm super stubborn, cont to listen to all de sappy songs...
i noe it's not the time for me to whine, somehow i think that i dun haf the right to be whining. there's so many things waiting for me to do, to complete, to achieve.. what's there to whine about, what is there to think about? what is there to cry about?

i feel rather lost.

where am i heading? why am i doing all these?

i'm already in this, it's really not up to me to turn back. and i will never turn back.
admitting to defeat is something i don't allow myself to do.
i know i'm goin to pull thru, jus like how i pulled myself thru that period of time... pain is nothing but a process, a phase.. crying will only teach you to be wiser, to learn how to protect yourself from being hurt again...

haha, jus when i tot my life turn for the better, that my fren commented it's been a while since i had been so chirpy. then i realised it never really left, it was at the back of my mind, constantly reminding me of the past.
5 months is not enough.. :) my bestest bud was rite, forget about love, conc on studies, "not hurt enough?" even thou i never told him anything haha

i nid to get a new hobby.. learn how to de-stress. like learning archery? bladding??

i'm sorry about the really bimbotic entry today- i dun mean i haf the looks to be one, but mayb de intellectual level.

wo xin li de gan qing
dou dui ni shuo
ma lu shang tian tian dou zai sai
er yi ge ren tian tian zai deng dai
mei you ni re zi hen hei bai
yuan lai zhe yang jiu shi lian ai
wo xiang yao ni zai wo shen bian
fen xiang wo shen ming de mei yi tian
wo xiang yao tian tian shuo
tian tian shuo
tian tian dui ni shuo....
wo ai ni.
david tao, tian tian

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well, let me think of something nice to say.. to balance it out.
currently, alot of nice frens ard, mostly guys, or all? hemm
good fren, best fren, bestest fren all happens to be guys
and it happens that they're all from ACS, and they're christian~
hmmm
very interesting rite? so far no one tried to convert me yet, maybe they noe they will never succeed hahaha
well, another very interesting factor is they all haf dream gers already !! haha yeap so we're platonic frens k, mai siao siao.. hahah not many pple can have such achievements rite? i'm goin to like become part of them really soon, judging from the fact that been looking at gers (well i still look at guys), and abit violent, and abit loud. starting to curse and swear... very soon, i might not have any suitors at all, not like i have any now but yeah...

hmmm that's de weirdest thing happening around me... *thinks*
yeah>> and my bestest bud is my neighbour, so refer to earlier entry, he has appeared as an eye candy hahah and i actually reminded myself not to give him my blog add. but since we're now bestest bud, i tot it's only right... self proclaimed anti social, cant really talk person. super good christian, dun even drink (wonder why is he a fren now) hmmm good guy, too bad his taken. hahahaha well, if u gers pay me enough mayb i'll keep track of his love life for u all. LOL :) i nid money ah fren.. mus understand..

good fren is supposedly the hottest guy in law fac, i'm still wondering wat they based on to come up with that... cant really comment too much, cos i still want to keep our friendship. hahaha he's cute but definitely not my kind of cute. that's why we can be good frens~ but den again, this guy can be good frens with any ger, think to make his head abit bigger (ego i mean)

and my best fren is an AGP, like a super blur big brother. ask him about outside law stuff and he can talk to u bout it. but think once it comes back to sch work , he always seems to be abit lost. hahaha think my brother here has a bit too much commitments. did i mention we're in same TG for both LAWR/SLS and Torts/contracts? that's why i became his best fren.. easier to inform him about wat to do. i think after some time, we both realised we're both very lost in sch work. hahaha and this is really not working out very well...

well, i think i can haf my male escort agency rather soon, at the rate i'm goin. it's time i find a partner, den start recruiting members. hahahah well, gers can start contacting me and we can start the ball rolling from there...

think i hafta complete my studies in law, i might hafta use my knowlegde nez time....

in de end, it's all going to be worthwhile

when will it be de end?
wat's going to be worthwhile?
who's goin to judge what's worthwhile or not?

shi shang wu nan shiiiiii
Zhiii pa you xing rennnnnnnn

i wannna fly!!!!!!
fly fly fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!