Me. Myself & i

Gonna be quite an emo blog today..
Always get emo when i read other people's blogs..
As i was reading my close friends' blogs, everyone is going through so much, yet i'm always caught up with whatever i'm doin..

Then it seems as if i've left my friendships behind me to chase after certain dreams.. And when i looked back, they aren't there anymore. Or perhaps things wont be the same anymore..

Some have changed somehow, and i guess i just dunnoe this person. Some are less trusting, some have less to tell u, some have gone thru some things which changed them forever..

And i wonder, do they feel the same when they look at me. have i changed so much that they cannot recognised me anymore? Am i someone who stop telling them things because i can't seem to feel the bond to want to tell them anything?

Can i do anything to find that friendship again? The kind of trust that if anything were to happen to me, i'll find someone out there willing to cry with me? The kind of confidence that if anything should happen to him/her, i'll be there no matter what i am doing.

Some of my friends have been disillusioned by what friendship means when they weren't treated with the same degree of commitment they put in.. They devoted themselves too much for friends, and they were hurt.

Friends, something so important yet so dispensible.. So difficult to define yet so necessary.. When you have so many so called friends, but so few whom you really can relate to..

I miss them.. Not because my birthday is near. Not because i'm having a 3 months' break.
I miss those times with them. But those times are gone.. When i see u today, you aren't the you i know that time, i'm no longer the me.

So emo... Must be the weather....