Me. Myself & i

it's a cycle.
i hate to admit it but it is true. I don't like it but i cant control it. i can only choose how i react to it. Only this time, it will be easier. Because past experience has taught me well, too well in fact. That there is no point to brood over it, to be bothered by something/someone which/whom you cant control.

Cant seems to concentrate on anything today. Wanted to write a post on Elected presidency and the political debate last week, but read too many things afterwards and i lost my train of thoughts.

To many things are happening around me, i'm losing it. Losing myself, my focus, my goals, which are the fundamentals of an individual. without these, nothing else exists. Only when i find them, will i be able to stand alone and find the meaning to what i am doing again.
I cannot derived my identity from others anymore. Feels like a hermit, always hiding behind others. Why do i need others approval? Why do i want someone else's recognition?
I'm bogged down by how others perceive me. Only to realise that, who are they to judge me? I'm the one to judge myself, i will give myself my own value, my identity, my pride and earn the respect for myself.

No longer dependent, no desire to be a proxy. You will do as you wish, while i'm my own master.