Me. Myself & i

Exactly a month and a day after my last post ;) Busy busy i have been, with my internship and friends.

Finally have the time to sit comfortably at home and update my blog and my frens who have been following this blog because my internship just ended yesterday, 13 July 2007. My 2 and a half months' of hell was finally over at 630pm yesterday.

Difficult as it has been, I guess i shall not publish the details here. Who knows when any one of them in the office might come across my blog and I'd probably be in hot soup for writing certain things. Freedom of speech on the internet still comes at a price, responsibility needs to be exercised.

Anyhow, on the brighter side, I'm very very glad that i did not decide to give up during the first 2 weeks, when I thought i couldn't handle the stress and working life. When it was so tempting to tell myself that there was no need to put myself through that pain, to subject myself to the stress because at the end of the day, i didn't plan to work there. It was so attractive, the idea to quit my internship and tell myself that i'll be able to find a better job elsewhere, or live comfortably with the allowance my parents were providing me with. But boy am i glad that i persevered, thanks to the advices from my family and my brothers.. Thanks to their listening to my bitching did i survive the ordeal. Greatest thanks still goes to my mentor, shu shu, who always can understand my frustration without me saying much. Shu shu, xie la.

The internship made me realised many things about myself on top of learning about the work/life of a lawyer. Made me realised so much about working life, about facing your boss, about making choices between your life and your work, about time management, about juggling work, friends and family. Most importantly, it has taught me that at the most difficult times, even when you feel like giving up, your sense of responsibility will make u go on, there will be a voice telling you that giving up is not the solution to the problems. By taking the easier route out of the situation, I'll merely be running away and will never grow up/ mature/ lvl up if i choose to do that. As tired or painful as it maybe, I have to go through with it, to work hard and stay positive in order to complete the task at hand. Because by saying i don't know how to do, the task will not go away, it will be there until you find a solution or solutions to it. So it is all about looking for the best solution to the issue, when one way is blocked youve got to find another way. That is how different work and studying are. There isn't a correct answer, you have got to find as many ways to solve the issue as possible and then choose the best solution. It is your decision how to pursue the case at the end of the day and sell it to your client and the judge.

Super tired after the 10 weeks, now it is my turn to rest and relax. To sleep as much as i can, to jog and swim.. and nua before school reopens. Another year is starting soon, almost in the next phrase of my life.. I can already feel the change in perspective.

I need to believe in myself, just like how they believed in me. I will reach my potential, my dreams and goals. time to set the targets for my next academic year.

cheers!
wr