Me. Myself & i

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Constant reflection, self-searching, seeking for the answers.

I want to stay on track... The picture is clear, I know my options. The emotions shouldn't and shall not cloud my judgment now.
I have never been clearer in my life. I wavered for a while. But upon reflection on the events that took place today, a particular event make it clearer than ever.
I will and shall stay focus. It is what that is required of me. I never should have let my resolve waver in the first place. But as shu she said, I still lack the experience. Even though the event today did not affect me, the meaning behind it and its implications i do not wish to be part of. Cause and effect, neither of which i wish to be part of.

I did not feel very strongly about the entire episode. Purely from a third party perspective, analyzing what had transcend. It is so clear from this perspective and I really can get used to being so objective about some things. To extract myself from the situation and think very rationally what has taken place, what are the implications and what role do i play in this...

At this point, I am not sure if i had really became a more rational person or I haven't completely allowed myself to get involved. I'd like to think it is the former. I really hope I will be able to deal with the other issues in my life the same way, distant and objective. Clear and purposeful. Near inhumane but yet, just trying to do the 'right' thing.

Cheers!

WR