i jus had the chance to read the pprs today, thou i haven been too busy, din really felt like reading the news these few days.
anyway>> the forum today has a whole lot to say about the recent changes in teaching chinese, some mother complaining about the chinese programmes in singapore and a teacher's response to his fellow colleagues on the teachers in singapore being too stressed out.
the recent changes in how to betta teach mandarin in order to allow our younger generation to master the language looks really promising. it actually aims to combine the idea of creative learning and at the same time cultivate students' interests instead of forcefeeding them, like they do with other subjects. it seems like a really big step forward for our education system. chinese is no longer about knowing how to write the words, merely learning how to read them, it's more about conversing in mandarin, instead of writing - as our education minister claimed. so our system is goin to emphasize on daily usage of mandarin, the students no longer have to learn how to write the words in the "ci yu shou ce", which accompanied me though my years of studying the language. words that are less used in daily conversing will be taken out of the syllabus, which makes me wonder what is goin to be left. NI WO TA? who is the one deciding what is being used daily anyway?
promising indeed.
our system has once again bowed down to the students.
this means that if our students continue to show no interest in chinese, we're goin to change the system once again.
but i'm afraid this kind of flexibility is only limited to teaching chinese.
is it because other subjects are already flexible enough? that the teachers teaching other subjects have nurtured enough interests in the youths, such that they have no problem with interest? is it because the syllabus for other subjects is what we need for life?
i really wonder.
let's talk about flexibility.
i dun remember maths having alot of flexibility while my teacher teach them. perhaps there was interests, but we all know that we cant fail maths - that's the biggest push factor. we are, after all, product of the institutionalised kind of education system in singapore.
sciences, flexibility? if u call powerpoint presentation flexibility. tell me again, how many of us pulled though because of the ten years series? i bet those that got A for sci in a level must have done them at least twice, plus alot of prelim pprs from other schs.
now about GP, i cant say for other schools. because apparently, where i came from, we had really weak english grades in O's. Hence, most of the time we were concentrating on how to write a good argument instead of debating about how piracy will actually affect the economy.
look, there has neva been flexibility in the system. when u start somewhere, u start with the most useless subject that you think. so what if china is the nez super power, they're goin to learn english anyway. when u wanna implement creative thinking and not know how it will turn out, u use chinese as a white mice, to test out how it will work with the students. if it doesn't turn out well, then blame it on the family, the lack of interests of student. it's never the system's fault.
i'm not saying i'm all for rote learning of chinese. but when u say there's no interests, can u say that you have interests for all the subjects you're taking? it's a simple excuse for not trying. parents engage a tutor for a subject for their children as long as it counts towards their aggregate. it's wrong. but they can go so far even if the students does not have interests. they only started complaining they have no interests because it's no longer a subject in the criteria. i really think they should be taught about shame. the kind of shame of not knowing one's mother tongue. it's not about blaming them or their background, it's not about shaming them. it's about "lian chi". they should learn that when u call urself a chinese, even a singaporean chinese, when u go out there, u'll always be a chinese. Even if u speak the most fluent english, the best english, french, german - ultimately, u dunnoe ur mother tongue. it's called the mother tongue for a reason. u can tell the world "hey, you noe what? i've mastered french, german, japanese, korean and everything." and u dunnoe ur mother tongue, you're really not that great after all.
well, the mindset of being cool not knowing mandarin should also be changed. i'm qt sick of hearing "i dun understand chinese, please dun speak to me in chinese" from fellow chinese singaporeans. sometimes i feel that there's a tinge of arrogance when they say that. where did all these superiority sprung up from? i should look down on u for not knowing ur mother tongue, not the other way around.
dun get me wrong, i'm not trying to start a hate club for those who knows their MT against those who don't. i guess the former will def lose out in numbers anyway. who wants to be in the 'loser crowd'?
anyway enough of the chinese topic..
to the mum that complained about the chinese programme on channel 8 with the word "bastard" in the subtitles:
guess what? ur kid is not goin to be protected forever. protecting them and censoring what they see or hear are not goin to help them. when u see someone smoking, u tell ur kids never to touch cigarettes. do u jus cover their eyes and hope that they neva see cigarettes in their life? u teach them to differentiate the good from the bad, to choose to be good, to learn to be good to themselves. u tell them why not to smoke, why not to use vulgarities to punctuate their sentences, you teach them what u learn from the tv is not always rite.
it is your job to educate your kids at the family level. dont expect other people to look after your kids.
if u think that the producer should change the time of the programme jus because ur kids are watching tv at 7 o'clock in the evening, mayb it's easier if u write to the forum and tell the mothers to sit there at 7 pm and educate the kids while watching the show together?
dun blame everything on others.
dun blame it on interests, the society, the system, the media, the teachers.
if u have not thought about where did u go wrong, u've most probably already gone wrong.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Friday, November 19, 2004
all the hype about a chinese that went missing in singapore and later found murdered lately...
my heart totally goes out for the girl. i think no matter what kind of grudges adults have against each other should neva neva be taken out on a kid. Moreover she's only 8... what kind of sick pervert can actually murder such a kid... i just feel that whatever that has happened, she's the most innocent victim out of the whole episode...
the case is still being looked into.
i guess as much as the killer is responsible. i cant help but think about what kind of mother would leave a girl in a foreign country for nearly a week or more. and the thing is, she has the cheek to say it's not the first time. If the mother really had the child's interest at heart, really loved her child, would she had done that? leav the girl with some fellow tenant and go back to china. yes, singapore is safe, she had exams... so what? even if it is not foreseeable that something so drastic could happen, some minor accidents like being scalded when she's left alone at home? for god's sake it's an 8 year old we are talking about, not a 14 or 15 year old kid. as much as everyone has different standards of how independant a kid should be, as a mother who ought to be doting on her daughter, how could she ?
it is when the little ger went missing, when the little girl was found dead, then she tot of buying her toys, greatest funeral in the whole wide world, nicest clothes..
i jus cant help but feel that she was doing all that for show.. i dont mean she did not do it sincerely for her child. perhaps due to my own prejudice, i jus cant help it. that she could get more coverage, get more sympathy.. perhaps i'm jus cynical.
On top of that, i CANNOT believe that singaporeans can be so gullible, stupid, naive and rich.
they have given the money to the parents willingly, without duress. they did not stop and think about whether the money will be put into good use. they did not think about wat has led to the kid's death. Out of compassion and not knowing how else to show their condolences, they gave money.
after they realised how much everyone has given the parents, then they started to regret. and wanted to know exactly how much they've given in total. the parents then say that they're going to give half to charity and the other half to bring back to china.
firstly, so what if you knew how much they have? what is it goin to change? you have given the money, it's theirs. How much is it doesn't really concern you. I jus dont understand how singaporean's brain work... it doesn't mean that the money comes from you, den they have to do what eva you say. it was a gratuitous gift, and it is their's to keep. If you had given the money sincerely, You should really keep ur gap shut. IT IS NOT A CHARITY SHOW WE HAVE ON TV, WHERE THEY ANNOUNCE THE AMOUNT THE RECEIVE EVERY SECOND. the parents have not called for "donation" and they do not have the liability to declose the amount. WAKE UP!!
Secondly, even though the father had promised to make donations with half the money he had taken, seriously, he really has no obligation to carry that promise out. so what if the money was given to them by locals, it doesn't mean they have to do good to our place. i can only think of two possible reasons that the locals are so insistent in the donation promise: (1) they're stupid enough to base on the promise make donations (2) they're merely insistent because they're unhappy that the couple should leave singapore withe so much of our money, and regret giving them so much money. and the only way they can sort of take back some money, is to insist that the couple honour their promise of making donation.
i think singaporeans have made a real fool of themselves. first, by donating money at first instance. money really isn't everything and totally show foreigners how we value life, with money. when they think there's nothing much they can help, they give money. there's a million and one things to do, like simply set up a webpage for the girl, to go and pay respect to her. jus say a little prayer for the girl, and if u wan media coverage, do it in a big group outside taka or something. Why is it that the only thing the singaporeans can give is money.
second, to ask how much money in total they have collected. even go to the extend of waiting outside the court jus to ask. it jus seems to me, the singaporeans have the mentallity that since the money was given by them, they have the right to know the total amount. that they have the right over how they use the money that was GIVEN to the couple. if it was so important how they use, then dun give them in the first place. make donations in the girl's name instead my dear fellow singaporeans.
i jus urge adults to stop acting like fools. if u wanna show compassion, there are million and one ways. if u use abit of brain, and abit of common sense, all these wouldn't have happened. it's unbelievable how naive our people have become. doing charity does not means giving money!
i guess we'll have to thank our mediacorp for all the charity shows for teaching our people that.
mayb we should have a circus of mediacorp artists at the funeral.
my heart totally goes out for the girl. i think no matter what kind of grudges adults have against each other should neva neva be taken out on a kid. Moreover she's only 8... what kind of sick pervert can actually murder such a kid... i just feel that whatever that has happened, she's the most innocent victim out of the whole episode...
the case is still being looked into.
i guess as much as the killer is responsible. i cant help but think about what kind of mother would leave a girl in a foreign country for nearly a week or more. and the thing is, she has the cheek to say it's not the first time. If the mother really had the child's interest at heart, really loved her child, would she had done that? leav the girl with some fellow tenant and go back to china. yes, singapore is safe, she had exams... so what? even if it is not foreseeable that something so drastic could happen, some minor accidents like being scalded when she's left alone at home? for god's sake it's an 8 year old we are talking about, not a 14 or 15 year old kid. as much as everyone has different standards of how independant a kid should be, as a mother who ought to be doting on her daughter, how could she ?
it is when the little ger went missing, when the little girl was found dead, then she tot of buying her toys, greatest funeral in the whole wide world, nicest clothes..
i jus cant help but feel that she was doing all that for show.. i dont mean she did not do it sincerely for her child. perhaps due to my own prejudice, i jus cant help it. that she could get more coverage, get more sympathy.. perhaps i'm jus cynical.
On top of that, i CANNOT believe that singaporeans can be so gullible, stupid, naive and rich.
they have given the money to the parents willingly, without duress. they did not stop and think about whether the money will be put into good use. they did not think about wat has led to the kid's death. Out of compassion and not knowing how else to show their condolences, they gave money.
after they realised how much everyone has given the parents, then they started to regret. and wanted to know exactly how much they've given in total. the parents then say that they're going to give half to charity and the other half to bring back to china.
firstly, so what if you knew how much they have? what is it goin to change? you have given the money, it's theirs. How much is it doesn't really concern you. I jus dont understand how singaporean's brain work... it doesn't mean that the money comes from you, den they have to do what eva you say. it was a gratuitous gift, and it is their's to keep. If you had given the money sincerely, You should really keep ur gap shut. IT IS NOT A CHARITY SHOW WE HAVE ON TV, WHERE THEY ANNOUNCE THE AMOUNT THE RECEIVE EVERY SECOND. the parents have not called for "donation" and they do not have the liability to declose the amount. WAKE UP!!
Secondly, even though the father had promised to make donations with half the money he had taken, seriously, he really has no obligation to carry that promise out. so what if the money was given to them by locals, it doesn't mean they have to do good to our place. i can only think of two possible reasons that the locals are so insistent in the donation promise: (1) they're stupid enough to base on the promise make donations (2) they're merely insistent because they're unhappy that the couple should leave singapore withe so much of our money, and regret giving them so much money. and the only way they can sort of take back some money, is to insist that the couple honour their promise of making donation.
i think singaporeans have made a real fool of themselves. first, by donating money at first instance. money really isn't everything and totally show foreigners how we value life, with money. when they think there's nothing much they can help, they give money. there's a million and one things to do, like simply set up a webpage for the girl, to go and pay respect to her. jus say a little prayer for the girl, and if u wan media coverage, do it in a big group outside taka or something. Why is it that the only thing the singaporeans can give is money.
second, to ask how much money in total they have collected. even go to the extend of waiting outside the court jus to ask. it jus seems to me, the singaporeans have the mentallity that since the money was given by them, they have the right to know the total amount. that they have the right over how they use the money that was GIVEN to the couple. if it was so important how they use, then dun give them in the first place. make donations in the girl's name instead my dear fellow singaporeans.
i jus urge adults to stop acting like fools. if u wanna show compassion, there are million and one ways. if u use abit of brain, and abit of common sense, all these wouldn't have happened. it's unbelievable how naive our people have become. doing charity does not means giving money!
i guess we'll have to thank our mediacorp for all the charity shows for teaching our people that.
mayb we should have a circus of mediacorp artists at the funeral.
I wonder if i'm too stressed up by exams or because of pms... or perhaps jus one of my really whiny mood.
I'm jus very disappointed.
Disappointed in something people call love. Something that people claimed to bring two people together and try to work things out and stay together. Something that adds colour to one's life. Something that is suppose to bring joy to ur life. Something that you share with a special someone that is out there in some corner of the world. Someone that you will one day meet and just know that he is the one.
They've said so many things.
I'm starting to wonder... wonder what really is the meaning. What is the objective. What is it that you are suppose to do?
i thought i found it.
i would think i've dated people of different character. Different ways of knowing them, different ways of developing infatuation into relationship. Different ways of showing their love. Different ways of communication. Different ways of maintaining a relationship..
i guess there'll be a universal way of showing how u love someone. Somethings dont differ very much. you may say that you have a different way of showing ur love, somehow i jus don't feel it...
dun blame it on expectations. it's not... it's jus an intuition.
u noe about my insecurities, you noe how little faith i have in relationship..
i guess there's nothing much you can do to regain my faith...
Mayb u do love me... maybe u think you love me.. only time can tell if you really love or you are jus fulfilling some promise that you've got urself into...
in the end, it all becomes an endurance game... How much u can endure me, and how long can i take being a burden. How long it takes me to find out there is no longer anything left for me to stay.
it jus feels like my 2nd relationship all over again...
i dunnoe where is this goin...
mayb its high time i really give up on relationship all together...
or it's jus my emotional side showing itself today...
I'm jus very disappointed.
Disappointed in something people call love. Something that people claimed to bring two people together and try to work things out and stay together. Something that adds colour to one's life. Something that is suppose to bring joy to ur life. Something that you share with a special someone that is out there in some corner of the world. Someone that you will one day meet and just know that he is the one.
They've said so many things.
I'm starting to wonder... wonder what really is the meaning. What is the objective. What is it that you are suppose to do?
i thought i found it.
i would think i've dated people of different character. Different ways of knowing them, different ways of developing infatuation into relationship. Different ways of showing their love. Different ways of communication. Different ways of maintaining a relationship..
i guess there'll be a universal way of showing how u love someone. Somethings dont differ very much. you may say that you have a different way of showing ur love, somehow i jus don't feel it...
dun blame it on expectations. it's not... it's jus an intuition.
u noe about my insecurities, you noe how little faith i have in relationship..
i guess there's nothing much you can do to regain my faith...
Mayb u do love me... maybe u think you love me.. only time can tell if you really love or you are jus fulfilling some promise that you've got urself into...
in the end, it all becomes an endurance game... How much u can endure me, and how long can i take being a burden. How long it takes me to find out there is no longer anything left for me to stay.
it jus feels like my 2nd relationship all over again...
i dunnoe where is this goin...
mayb its high time i really give up on relationship all together...
or it's jus my emotional side showing itself today...
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
when you're alone, when you're down and out, when you're faced with difficulties and problems to solve, when u've gotta push urself to move on...
althou there's nothing much that can be done... i guess there'll always be a name, a face, that will make things seems easier... there'll always be words and memories that keep you going... there'll always be hope and dreams that push u on...
althou there's nothing much that can be done... i guess there'll always be a name, a face, that will make things seems easier... there'll always be words and memories that keep you going... there'll always be hope and dreams that push u on...
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Jus had my 24 hour sls assignment yesterday and handed it up this morning. i really have no idea how i have done and would prefer not to find out too soon. The question was quite general, thus we had to do reseach on it first. However, the internet is so vast, everything seems relevant. On top of that, even if i had my own ideas, it jus did not feel rite to write them in the pprs unless i had substantiation or proof from submission or pprs that other people wrote on the internet. it jus seems like i don't have any confidence in what i thought of.
i guess after enrolling into law sch, my confidence level has been dipping and it's currently at the new low. I guess as bad as i was, i've never doubt myself so much before. I've always believed that hardwork will never get you to the top, however it'll bring you somewhere near the top. It jus doesn't seems applicable anymore. or is it that i've not been working hard enough? firstly, i lose out in my language, writen or spoken, i just don't have it. I don't think i even have the belief that i could speak properly in English now. At the same time, my written english just doesn't seems to be for readers of the lecturers' calibre. It looks more for low class newspaper, reporting gossip. Even such reports are grammatically correct.
Also, i'm neither good at remembering things nor a fan of creative thinking. The expectations are such that knowing the rules and tings that were taught are not enough. One has to be able to weave them together, such that you can distinguish what the old cases said and whether the law was right to begin with. I jus find it so hard to critic things there are in our curriculum and even more so when you are brought up to listen and jus learn. Moreover, from the start, there was much emphasis on the importance of certainty in our law system and Precedence by old cases will help to ensure that. it is an indication that in order to be certain in our advice to clients, we are suppose to substantiate all our theories with case lawS
There is this complaint by the industry and our lecturers that local law students are only good at taking exams, in the event that life is an exam, we will definitely score the best in the whole world. How can they blame us? when all the privileges that they provide (such as exchange program and double degree program) hinges so much upon your grades, and first year grades if i may add. it used to be just guessing what the examiner was looking for and write an exam ans to them. Presently, in order to respond to the industry's feedback and government's call for thinking nation, they add the thinking element into the markng scheme. Other than a respond to the question, one has to think out of the box to achieve a good grade. Those people that claim that students are only exam smart has change the examination system. Such that nowadays, people HAve to be exam smart AS well AS think out of the box. so ultimately, Students can continue with their passive learning by memorising wat kind of response is needed to be "thinking out of the box".
There is endless expectations they have of local students, i'm speaking for other levels as well. As long as it is in the demand in the market, they will inflict it upon us on top of all that they had in the past. Grade us for everything and complain that we will only take things seriously if it is graded. Com'on, with all the additional things that we have to do and in consideration that we only have so much time. isn't the fact that if a subject is examinable the most fundamental question you ask urself, in order to allocate your time for these things?
industries based their preliminary impression of a person by his grades; the school based its confidence in u to take up extra curriculum and to represent it upon his grades too. Does these not call for us students to be extra careful with subjects that are going to be graded? I disagree strongly that grades are everything, but grades still count for many things, if not all.
perhaps people may think i'm whining because i am not doin well currently. Think again. Don't you sometimes feel that the government and sch are merely adding on to our workload? when they suddenly realised that what they have taught for last 2 or 3 decades is wrong, there should be a change. However this change comes in the form of additional things to present system instead of making fundamental changes in the system. it's like cracks on an over pressured dam wall - you patch it up here, cracks start to form elsewhere. eventually the whole system is going to collaspe on u.
i guess after enrolling into law sch, my confidence level has been dipping and it's currently at the new low. I guess as bad as i was, i've never doubt myself so much before. I've always believed that hardwork will never get you to the top, however it'll bring you somewhere near the top. It jus doesn't seems applicable anymore. or is it that i've not been working hard enough? firstly, i lose out in my language, writen or spoken, i just don't have it. I don't think i even have the belief that i could speak properly in English now. At the same time, my written english just doesn't seems to be for readers of the lecturers' calibre. It looks more for low class newspaper, reporting gossip. Even such reports are grammatically correct.
Also, i'm neither good at remembering things nor a fan of creative thinking. The expectations are such that knowing the rules and tings that were taught are not enough. One has to be able to weave them together, such that you can distinguish what the old cases said and whether the law was right to begin with. I jus find it so hard to critic things there are in our curriculum and even more so when you are brought up to listen and jus learn. Moreover, from the start, there was much emphasis on the importance of certainty in our law system and Precedence by old cases will help to ensure that. it is an indication that in order to be certain in our advice to clients, we are suppose to substantiate all our theories with case lawS
There is this complaint by the industry and our lecturers that local law students are only good at taking exams, in the event that life is an exam, we will definitely score the best in the whole world. How can they blame us? when all the privileges that they provide (such as exchange program and double degree program) hinges so much upon your grades, and first year grades if i may add. it used to be just guessing what the examiner was looking for and write an exam ans to them. Presently, in order to respond to the industry's feedback and government's call for thinking nation, they add the thinking element into the markng scheme. Other than a respond to the question, one has to think out of the box to achieve a good grade. Those people that claim that students are only exam smart has change the examination system. Such that nowadays, people HAve to be exam smart AS well AS think out of the box. so ultimately, Students can continue with their passive learning by memorising wat kind of response is needed to be "thinking out of the box".
There is endless expectations they have of local students, i'm speaking for other levels as well. As long as it is in the demand in the market, they will inflict it upon us on top of all that they had in the past. Grade us for everything and complain that we will only take things seriously if it is graded. Com'on, with all the additional things that we have to do and in consideration that we only have so much time. isn't the fact that if a subject is examinable the most fundamental question you ask urself, in order to allocate your time for these things?
industries based their preliminary impression of a person by his grades; the school based its confidence in u to take up extra curriculum and to represent it upon his grades too. Does these not call for us students to be extra careful with subjects that are going to be graded? I disagree strongly that grades are everything, but grades still count for many things, if not all.
perhaps people may think i'm whining because i am not doin well currently. Think again. Don't you sometimes feel that the government and sch are merely adding on to our workload? when they suddenly realised that what they have taught for last 2 or 3 decades is wrong, there should be a change. However this change comes in the form of additional things to present system instead of making fundamental changes in the system. it's like cracks on an over pressured dam wall - you patch it up here, cracks start to form elsewhere. eventually the whole system is going to collaspe on u.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Well, daily entries turn to weekly entries and slowly became monthly entries... soon i guess i'll forget about this whole blog altogether..
will i?
it has been with me for the most significant part of my life thus far..
Anyway, it's important now that i write in proper english rather than how i speak everyday. I've been receiving comments that my assignments had really bad grammar and the sentences were badly structured. I was totally ruined by my bad english. To say it was devastating was qt an understatement - for first time in my life i realised the need for proper english. However, after some thought, there isn't really any choice but learn to speak and write properly for a change. I mean I'll be relying largely on English for the rest of my education, needless to say my career. Even if i happen to go over and practice for Chinese business, i guess there is still a high probability that i've to use ENGLISH, one way or another, i will be in the clutches of ENGLISH, until the day i DIE.
talk about devastating.
By the way, i just watched De-Lovely yesterday. It was great! It's a musical turned movie, i guess that gave a greater room for creativity than it being a musical. The songs were witty; the plot - thou cliche, but still touches hearts. You can see or rather hear that from the sounds of weeping... and the singing, the actors were superb! hahaha
basically the movie swept me off my feet. Paul suggested it and i'm glad i took his suggestion!
I have been sitting here since ten in the morning, had a break at 1330 for lunch that stretched till 2 plus goin to three... and went for a nap at 1630 to 1845.. and surfing the net till now.. i guess it's time to return to my books, or rather laptop..
exams are near, i totally have no confidence..
sigh..
i think i can say goodbye to my overseas exchange programme in year three.. SULKZ
cheers
wr
will i?
it has been with me for the most significant part of my life thus far..
Anyway, it's important now that i write in proper english rather than how i speak everyday. I've been receiving comments that my assignments had really bad grammar and the sentences were badly structured. I was totally ruined by my bad english. To say it was devastating was qt an understatement - for first time in my life i realised the need for proper english. However, after some thought, there isn't really any choice but learn to speak and write properly for a change. I mean I'll be relying largely on English for the rest of my education, needless to say my career. Even if i happen to go over and practice for Chinese business, i guess there is still a high probability that i've to use ENGLISH, one way or another, i will be in the clutches of ENGLISH, until the day i DIE.
talk about devastating.
By the way, i just watched De-Lovely yesterday. It was great! It's a musical turned movie, i guess that gave a greater room for creativity than it being a musical. The songs were witty; the plot - thou cliche, but still touches hearts. You can see or rather hear that from the sounds of weeping... and the singing, the actors were superb! hahaha
basically the movie swept me off my feet. Paul suggested it and i'm glad i took his suggestion!
I have been sitting here since ten in the morning, had a break at 1330 for lunch that stretched till 2 plus goin to three... and went for a nap at 1630 to 1845.. and surfing the net till now.. i guess it's time to return to my books, or rather laptop..
exams are near, i totally have no confidence..
sigh..
i think i can say goodbye to my overseas exchange programme in year three.. SULKZ
cheers
wr
Monday, October 25, 2004
Hrm, not feeling well today.. the kind of sorethroat i had last dec..
jus watch moulin Rouge yesterday (yes, very lagging) but was by chance found de vcd. so jus sat there and watch the pirated vcd after a long day of research in school.. yes, it was saturday, i went back to do research.. explains my illness today, the law library is unbearably cold.. on top of that, it was raining like nobody's business these few days..
Yup, sobbing like a child while i watch Moulin Rouge.. super maluated.. i mean who cries till like that when watching a show.. Paul commented that he really wondered who actually died looking at the way i cry, he said it looks more like my husband died than nicole kidman.. hahaha i guess i was abit too emotional, and out of control.. haven cried so badly since that time.. haven been so touched by a movie since last samurai..
really busy working on my research binder.. seems impossible for me to finish.. but i really feel good looking for cases to support my case. i mean if there weren't any curriculum, i.e. torts and contracts, to juggle with, i don't mind spending whole day in schl to do the research... but have to keep up with curriculum readings and this.. it's really over stretching and overwhelming.. guess the instructors are really doin a good job of stretching our potential..
hey anyway>> i've gotta go for my tuition.. starts at 630, look at the time now..
yupZz, did i mentioned i felt weird resting at home today, like not used to it? it's qt scary...
take care pple, dun fall sick.
cheers
wr
jus watch moulin Rouge yesterday (yes, very lagging) but was by chance found de vcd. so jus sat there and watch the pirated vcd after a long day of research in school.. yes, it was saturday, i went back to do research.. explains my illness today, the law library is unbearably cold.. on top of that, it was raining like nobody's business these few days..
Yup, sobbing like a child while i watch Moulin Rouge.. super maluated.. i mean who cries till like that when watching a show.. Paul commented that he really wondered who actually died looking at the way i cry, he said it looks more like my husband died than nicole kidman.. hahaha i guess i was abit too emotional, and out of control.. haven cried so badly since that time.. haven been so touched by a movie since last samurai..
really busy working on my research binder.. seems impossible for me to finish.. but i really feel good looking for cases to support my case. i mean if there weren't any curriculum, i.e. torts and contracts, to juggle with, i don't mind spending whole day in schl to do the research... but have to keep up with curriculum readings and this.. it's really over stretching and overwhelming.. guess the instructors are really doin a good job of stretching our potential..
hey anyway>> i've gotta go for my tuition.. starts at 630, look at the time now..
yupZz, did i mentioned i felt weird resting at home today, like not used to it? it's qt scary...
take care pple, dun fall sick.
cheers
wr
Monday, October 18, 2004
heYzz
again it's been some time since i blog
hardly have time for myself nowadays
it's jus sch, bf, law club, tutorials, sleep (hardlY)
i really dunnoe what is happening in my life, the sem is ending and i have no idea what am i doing everday.
it's really mundane.
i'll run to catch a ride from my bf's dad's car, will say hi to the mum, super tired, falls asleep in the car, mayb can sustain awhile and read some newspaper. get to sch about half an hour earlier and go to eat breakfast, may drink coffee or apple juice. then have lecture, go eat lunch, do some reading, talk some crap, take care of my law club stuff... goin home, sometmes with tuition...
i'm losing it. losing direction, where am i goin with this?
it is a serious qn, definitely not becos of pms.
i'm force by myself to do somethings that i really do not like, becos it is inevitable in life. but is this rite?
choices,
it's true that in every situation there's definitely choices. and in everything that you do, it's your choice. However, have anyone wondered that some options are as good as having no choice at all? i mean as an outsider you can say "it's ultimately up to you rite?" but if you had the same considerations as the one making the choice, would you still be able to say the same time. If everything is up to my choice, my likings, my priorities, then there'll never be problem in choosing. It's a matter of how selfish you wanna be, it is a matter of how inconsiderate you can make yourself to be, it is a matter of how self centred you are. I am not saying i'm all noble, always taking other's into considerations first before i make my decisions, but my upbringing is such that i do factor other's feelings into my considerations, jus a matter of degree.
well, for the benefit of those who are still reading, it is about my eca, law club. i've some serious problems with people and the way they work in there. from the beginning the leader has made me lost my faith in her being a good leader, not by the way she speaks, nor because of the way she carry herself. perhaps i'm over sensitive, but it is through sutle actions that shows that she has not put herself into the mindset that she is a leader of a group. i cant deny that she has the capabilities, confidence to take up the post, but has she put herself in that position?it's totally different to say that i want to be a leader and to really do it. to take care of the well being of the group. it's a very small incident, however, it's always the small things that count to me.
i have a vp that always wants things her way, suppose to take care of discipline in the club, did her job and really lose me as well. i mean we're all adults, i agree what we've did is off point and wrong. but com'on, do you really want to say this in the club meetings, how will the person feel? surely there are some better ways to communitcate than publicly point it out? when i say she always wants things her way, i don't think she does it on purpose, she jus haven realised what she is doing. I'm sure she has the club's interests at heart, but when people offer their point of view and most people agree with it, i think we jus have to live with it. That is the meaning of tyranny of majority, and at 19 years old, been through council, she seems to have yet to pick up that point in life.
Thirdly, i have this feeling that the group (i wont call it a team as yet) still cant handle problems in a matured way. if you haf a problem with me, look me up, talk to me, we settle it in a matured way. if you keep talking about it during meeting, whether is it hinting or being sacarstic, will jus make things worse. Morever, sacarsm will not bring the group anywhere, what is important is that now we're all in this. what i do might not make ur job more easy, but we work a way out, meet each other halfway. Know what is the problem of your member and address it, don't hint, or call a meeting to talk about things and end up only addressing to that particular member in the club. You're not helping, jus pushing to member away. such things are really delicate human relations issues that are important in a club, unless they learn it themselves. Of cos i can bring it up to them, it'll just look like i'm complaining and everything will be superficial and not be a lesson learnt, not from the bottom of their heart.
i've talked about this with many people, many times. As usual, typical gemini cant make up her mind, after talking to so many people, hearing so many different sides of viewpoint, the more i cant make up my mind, as usual. Anyway, made up my mind to pull through it for a year after talking to a fren. Really put things into perspective after talking to him. Life is never goin to be goin my way, instead of finding an easier way out, might as well brave through it and find yourself a better person at the end of it. Turning around and walk away is so easy, but am i goin to gain anything out of it? as much as i hate to admit it, it doesn't.
i nid to catch up with my work.
the amount of time spent studying few weeks before did not pay off. i got a b- for my first torts test. as in it is not the amount of time you spent studying, it is how you present your ans, how you argue your point and the way you use ur cases. it's all so easy to say, sit there and you wont know what to do. i dont even deserve a low b. that is the painful part. not to mention i was following lectures then, now i really have no idea what is happening in lectures and have yet to be preparing for lectures. been tryin to revise but have been repeating certain stuff that has yet to set in my mind. it is really messed up plus all the tutorials that we have to prepare for. i'm really up to the top...
well, i think i'll stop here, actually wanted to talk about something else, maybe later after my mugging.
cheers
again it's been some time since i blog
hardly have time for myself nowadays
it's jus sch, bf, law club, tutorials, sleep (hardlY)
i really dunnoe what is happening in my life, the sem is ending and i have no idea what am i doing everday.
it's really mundane.
i'll run to catch a ride from my bf's dad's car, will say hi to the mum, super tired, falls asleep in the car, mayb can sustain awhile and read some newspaper. get to sch about half an hour earlier and go to eat breakfast, may drink coffee or apple juice. then have lecture, go eat lunch, do some reading, talk some crap, take care of my law club stuff... goin home, sometmes with tuition...
i'm losing it. losing direction, where am i goin with this?
it is a serious qn, definitely not becos of pms.
i'm force by myself to do somethings that i really do not like, becos it is inevitable in life. but is this rite?
choices,
it's true that in every situation there's definitely choices. and in everything that you do, it's your choice. However, have anyone wondered that some options are as good as having no choice at all? i mean as an outsider you can say "it's ultimately up to you rite?" but if you had the same considerations as the one making the choice, would you still be able to say the same time. If everything is up to my choice, my likings, my priorities, then there'll never be problem in choosing. It's a matter of how selfish you wanna be, it is a matter of how inconsiderate you can make yourself to be, it is a matter of how self centred you are. I am not saying i'm all noble, always taking other's into considerations first before i make my decisions, but my upbringing is such that i do factor other's feelings into my considerations, jus a matter of degree.
well, for the benefit of those who are still reading, it is about my eca, law club. i've some serious problems with people and the way they work in there. from the beginning the leader has made me lost my faith in her being a good leader, not by the way she speaks, nor because of the way she carry herself. perhaps i'm over sensitive, but it is through sutle actions that shows that she has not put herself into the mindset that she is a leader of a group. i cant deny that she has the capabilities, confidence to take up the post, but has she put herself in that position?it's totally different to say that i want to be a leader and to really do it. to take care of the well being of the group. it's a very small incident, however, it's always the small things that count to me.
i have a vp that always wants things her way, suppose to take care of discipline in the club, did her job and really lose me as well. i mean we're all adults, i agree what we've did is off point and wrong. but com'on, do you really want to say this in the club meetings, how will the person feel? surely there are some better ways to communitcate than publicly point it out? when i say she always wants things her way, i don't think she does it on purpose, she jus haven realised what she is doing. I'm sure she has the club's interests at heart, but when people offer their point of view and most people agree with it, i think we jus have to live with it. That is the meaning of tyranny of majority, and at 19 years old, been through council, she seems to have yet to pick up that point in life.
Thirdly, i have this feeling that the group (i wont call it a team as yet) still cant handle problems in a matured way. if you haf a problem with me, look me up, talk to me, we settle it in a matured way. if you keep talking about it during meeting, whether is it hinting or being sacarstic, will jus make things worse. Morever, sacarsm will not bring the group anywhere, what is important is that now we're all in this. what i do might not make ur job more easy, but we work a way out, meet each other halfway. Know what is the problem of your member and address it, don't hint, or call a meeting to talk about things and end up only addressing to that particular member in the club. You're not helping, jus pushing to member away. such things are really delicate human relations issues that are important in a club, unless they learn it themselves. Of cos i can bring it up to them, it'll just look like i'm complaining and everything will be superficial and not be a lesson learnt, not from the bottom of their heart.
i've talked about this with many people, many times. As usual, typical gemini cant make up her mind, after talking to so many people, hearing so many different sides of viewpoint, the more i cant make up my mind, as usual. Anyway, made up my mind to pull through it for a year after talking to a fren. Really put things into perspective after talking to him. Life is never goin to be goin my way, instead of finding an easier way out, might as well brave through it and find yourself a better person at the end of it. Turning around and walk away is so easy, but am i goin to gain anything out of it? as much as i hate to admit it, it doesn't.
i nid to catch up with my work.
the amount of time spent studying few weeks before did not pay off. i got a b- for my first torts test. as in it is not the amount of time you spent studying, it is how you present your ans, how you argue your point and the way you use ur cases. it's all so easy to say, sit there and you wont know what to do. i dont even deserve a low b. that is the painful part. not to mention i was following lectures then, now i really have no idea what is happening in lectures and have yet to be preparing for lectures. been tryin to revise but have been repeating certain stuff that has yet to set in my mind. it is really messed up plus all the tutorials that we have to prepare for. i'm really up to the top...
well, i think i'll stop here, actually wanted to talk about something else, maybe later after my mugging.
cheers
Monday, October 04, 2004
Jus had my 24 hour SLS ppr and a 2 hours tuition... Hmmm
dun really have confidence in my ppr, but hell, i've already tried.. i'm not being easily contented here, but i feel essays are really subjective, especially alot of the things expect you to give ur own views, it's either they like it or they don't... i might really get D for this... but i think tt's de way to learn... i dunnoe if i will be able to see it this way when i get my grades.. dun really feel like thinking about it.
hahah dun be mistaken, i'm not feeling down or wateva due to my ppr.
jus that my whole week end is goin to end soon, and monday is goin to come again... and it's another week
i've gotta revise my contract(terms) and Torts(causation) today, so that i can make something out during tutorial nez week. which reminds me i have library research due nez week and 'meeting the client' on thursday.. i guess it's another busy week for me.. not mentioning my tuition and my law club meeting... on thursday there is an overnite stay in a hotel to meet up with 24th.. darn..
i hate this.
anyway, nothing much has happened, my good fren has talked to me again. wahahhaa who can resist me? :p and all my week was preparation for exam, bf, tuition and more studying..
cant rreally remember what haf i been doin..
rem that the petrol bicycle is being banned and electric bicycle still allowed, taiwanese scolded the whole singapore and that chickens and eggs are available at reasonable price again!
hahhahaha
k, i'm being lame.
i'm really deprive of time...
i think i'll jus stay home de whole day to read up instead of goin to watch movie ALONE,
yes alone. cos my bf is not free on sundays... but i have him for other 6 days, so as i told him, i'm not goin to fight with his heavenly father on sunday.. wahhaha
:P
anyway.. i think i'm goin to bring my barang barang out to the living room.. did i mention i'm growing too fat? all tt eating and sitting down is really killing me...
k k.. study time.. i love studying, gives me direction in life.
ahahaha
btw>> i saw a sign saying "dead slow, living children" in a sch compound yesterday, tot it's qt funny..
wahahahha
regards.
wr
dun really have confidence in my ppr, but hell, i've already tried.. i'm not being easily contented here, but i feel essays are really subjective, especially alot of the things expect you to give ur own views, it's either they like it or they don't... i might really get D for this... but i think tt's de way to learn... i dunnoe if i will be able to see it this way when i get my grades.. dun really feel like thinking about it.
hahah dun be mistaken, i'm not feeling down or wateva due to my ppr.
jus that my whole week end is goin to end soon, and monday is goin to come again... and it's another week
i've gotta revise my contract(terms) and Torts(causation) today, so that i can make something out during tutorial nez week. which reminds me i have library research due nez week and 'meeting the client' on thursday.. i guess it's another busy week for me.. not mentioning my tuition and my law club meeting... on thursday there is an overnite stay in a hotel to meet up with 24th.. darn..
i hate this.
anyway, nothing much has happened, my good fren has talked to me again. wahahhaa who can resist me? :p and all my week was preparation for exam, bf, tuition and more studying..
cant rreally remember what haf i been doin..
rem that the petrol bicycle is being banned and electric bicycle still allowed, taiwanese scolded the whole singapore and that chickens and eggs are available at reasonable price again!
hahhahaha
k, i'm being lame.
i'm really deprive of time...
i think i'll jus stay home de whole day to read up instead of goin to watch movie ALONE,
yes alone. cos my bf is not free on sundays... but i have him for other 6 days, so as i told him, i'm not goin to fight with his heavenly father on sunday.. wahhaha
:P
anyway.. i think i'm goin to bring my barang barang out to the living room.. did i mention i'm growing too fat? all tt eating and sitting down is really killing me...
k k.. study time.. i love studying, gives me direction in life.
ahahaha
btw>> i saw a sign saying "dead slow, living children" in a sch compound yesterday, tot it's qt funny..
wahahahha
regards.
wr
Thursday, September 30, 2004
heyZ.. it's been awhile since i blogged... however, not many people will look at my blog, so there's no stress at all :)
think alot of stuff have been happening throughout this period, gotta slowly update one by one...
well, firstly, for anyone tt's interested, i'm attached. dun think i wanna elaborate too much, jus a really great guy that i think i'm not really good enough for (i'm not being humble here)...
secondly, starting to have papers that count, meaning really had to mug very hard for the pprs, even 5% counts... and had my first tort paper today.. hahaha guess wat, all de talk about not having enough time to finish the paper... i was sitting there 15 mins prior to end of paper, looking at others busy scribling, wondering to myself 'why do they have so much to write'... like 5 min before time's up, i was busy scribling something which does not really appear in the ppr..
when paper ended, though i din write alot, i think i put in enough effort for the ppr. i'm not even thinking about the score..
have the postponed SLS ppr on Sat... my dear lecturer brought the qn to vietnam last week and had difficulty sending it back in time .. it was qt irritating, considering the fact that they were talking about how important it was to hand in assignments in time. becos later in our careers, deadline must be followed really strictly as courts and judges do not give leeway... I mean they even went through the trouble to set up a practice workbin for us to try uploading something just to make sure we could do it... and they themselves have the technical problem... Talk about double standard... should have asked him to write us a report (as we have to write one if we fail to turn up for his lecture...)
thirdly, have extra responsibilities right now.. for all who're letting ur imagination run wild, no i'm not pregnant, i joined law club.. am the social welfare secretary in law club.. alot of meetings, invitation to this and that.. with my tuitionS.. i really wonder if i can juggle them all at once... at this point, i jus wanna say i'm super glad i have a super understanding bf who waited for me till 7 in de evening when his lesson ended at 2, jus to go home with me.. lend me his shoulder to sleep everytime we're travelling.. cos i'm really not sleeping enough.. :p
yeap..
sorta 'quarrel' with my good fren..
really good fren i think..
i think i really neglected the people around me.. growing more and more self-centred as each day passes...
getting really really short tempered nowadays.. really impatient..
but we 'quarrel' not becos of my temper or my lack of patience.. quarrel becos i emailed her telling her i'm attached after a while since we met... she thinks we only go to her cos we haf prob in r/s or have bf stuff to tell her.. i'm qt disappointed.. perhaps our frenship did not really grow with time.. i'm qt disappointed with myself, perhaps i really took her for granted, did not stand in her position to judge if what i was telling her was material enough.. like i did not really pay attention to her as an individual..
i was wrong about how free and easy frenship could be... any kind of relationship needs time and care for it to blossom... without care and attention, think it'll jus wither and die... i tot we had a frenship forged so strong that irregular meetings will be adequate... that we know we'll always be there if something bad happens to each other.. apparently it was not the case..
after this episode, i really dunnoe on what occasion can i look for her? what should i say when i meet her? i have said this to other people before, that if a frenship will require one to think thrice before saying anything, then it's really qt superficial, thinking twice is reasonable.... Din't noe it could apply to us one day..
i should not get too emotional.. it's been awhile since i got too emotional.. and i really dun like the emotional me.. i'm losing touch with that and it is good.. having too much feelings is really not good... be considerate towards other's feelings, but don't have too much feelings urself..
even after you're gone, u cont to teach me... u teach me how to protect myself, by staying in my heart.
be back real soon.
good nite.
wr
think alot of stuff have been happening throughout this period, gotta slowly update one by one...
well, firstly, for anyone tt's interested, i'm attached. dun think i wanna elaborate too much, jus a really great guy that i think i'm not really good enough for (i'm not being humble here)...
secondly, starting to have papers that count, meaning really had to mug very hard for the pprs, even 5% counts... and had my first tort paper today.. hahaha guess wat, all de talk about not having enough time to finish the paper... i was sitting there 15 mins prior to end of paper, looking at others busy scribling, wondering to myself 'why do they have so much to write'... like 5 min before time's up, i was busy scribling something which does not really appear in the ppr..
when paper ended, though i din write alot, i think i put in enough effort for the ppr. i'm not even thinking about the score..
have the postponed SLS ppr on Sat... my dear lecturer brought the qn to vietnam last week and had difficulty sending it back in time .. it was qt irritating, considering the fact that they were talking about how important it was to hand in assignments in time. becos later in our careers, deadline must be followed really strictly as courts and judges do not give leeway... I mean they even went through the trouble to set up a practice workbin for us to try uploading something just to make sure we could do it... and they themselves have the technical problem... Talk about double standard... should have asked him to write us a report (as we have to write one if we fail to turn up for his lecture...)
thirdly, have extra responsibilities right now.. for all who're letting ur imagination run wild, no i'm not pregnant, i joined law club.. am the social welfare secretary in law club.. alot of meetings, invitation to this and that.. with my tuitionS.. i really wonder if i can juggle them all at once... at this point, i jus wanna say i'm super glad i have a super understanding bf who waited for me till 7 in de evening when his lesson ended at 2, jus to go home with me.. lend me his shoulder to sleep everytime we're travelling.. cos i'm really not sleeping enough.. :p
yeap..
sorta 'quarrel' with my good fren..
really good fren i think..
i think i really neglected the people around me.. growing more and more self-centred as each day passes...
getting really really short tempered nowadays.. really impatient..
but we 'quarrel' not becos of my temper or my lack of patience.. quarrel becos i emailed her telling her i'm attached after a while since we met... she thinks we only go to her cos we haf prob in r/s or have bf stuff to tell her.. i'm qt disappointed.. perhaps our frenship did not really grow with time.. i'm qt disappointed with myself, perhaps i really took her for granted, did not stand in her position to judge if what i was telling her was material enough.. like i did not really pay attention to her as an individual..
i was wrong about how free and easy frenship could be... any kind of relationship needs time and care for it to blossom... without care and attention, think it'll jus wither and die... i tot we had a frenship forged so strong that irregular meetings will be adequate... that we know we'll always be there if something bad happens to each other.. apparently it was not the case..
after this episode, i really dunnoe on what occasion can i look for her? what should i say when i meet her? i have said this to other people before, that if a frenship will require one to think thrice before saying anything, then it's really qt superficial, thinking twice is reasonable.... Din't noe it could apply to us one day..
i should not get too emotional.. it's been awhile since i got too emotional.. and i really dun like the emotional me.. i'm losing touch with that and it is good.. having too much feelings is really not good... be considerate towards other's feelings, but don't have too much feelings urself..
even after you're gone, u cont to teach me... u teach me how to protect myself, by staying in my heart.
be back real soon.
good nite.
wr
Sunday, September 12, 2004
hemmmm
din go for dinner with my farmer frenz.
went to study, edit abit of my close memo, read some torts. rather productive compared to stayin at home...
feels much better now :) he said it din haf much impression on him. so i guess i still have a fren
hemm.. eugene says i'm super confused, blur, dunnoe wat i want individual. well, wat to do, when things involve more than one person, it jus gets more complex, in an exponential manner...
it's easier to be alone... with occasional showers of blessings.. haha dun sound right.
i'm goin to blog in my other blog.
talk to u nez time.
wr
din go for dinner with my farmer frenz.
went to study, edit abit of my close memo, read some torts. rather productive compared to stayin at home...
feels much better now :) he said it din haf much impression on him. so i guess i still have a fren
hemm.. eugene says i'm super confused, blur, dunnoe wat i want individual. well, wat to do, when things involve more than one person, it jus gets more complex, in an exponential manner...
it's easier to be alone... with occasional showers of blessings.. haha dun sound right.
i'm goin to blog in my other blog.
talk to u nez time.
wr
Saturday, September 11, 2004
as the heart and mind battles...
hahah never tot i'll be caught again. but i noe this time it's a mild one, i could still get myself out of it. i mean i could see it coming, there's a black hole in front of me, take de plunge or step over it...
looking at the situation, his reactions, my past experience, my fren's experience.. my mind tells me to step over it..
"never let the fear of striking out keep u out of the game.."
i'm a coward
"I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn" usher- burn
grinz.
i dunno what i'm typing. jus typing
need to get some emotions out before i go back to my books, if not any attempt will jus be in vain
random tots..
"It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it" Usher - simple things
stop trying to read into things. been doin that too much. but a girl will always be a girl, think too much... hahah if i could get rid of this as well..
well, i think there goes a fren. think i talked abit too much yesterday. jus rem wat i said at the end of the conversation. hahaha very clever, wat a thing to say... "i nid to get a grip" LOL.. i'm amazed with myself, budden how could u blame a person that is chatting at like 2 am in the morning? well, i guess it makes things abit easier now.. hahaha. ;p
let me see, anymore things to say...
hmmmm
hahaha i think i jus found something very interesting that i said yesterday as well..
:P qt screwed.
k k.. life's much easier now...
thou i dunnoe wat i wan, i think wateva i said has actually decided for me.
life's going to be fine, sunny, occasional showers... and jus me
wr
hahah never tot i'll be caught again. but i noe this time it's a mild one, i could still get myself out of it. i mean i could see it coming, there's a black hole in front of me, take de plunge or step over it...
looking at the situation, his reactions, my past experience, my fren's experience.. my mind tells me to step over it..
"never let the fear of striking out keep u out of the game.."
i'm a coward
"I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn" usher- burn
grinz.
i dunno what i'm typing. jus typing
need to get some emotions out before i go back to my books, if not any attempt will jus be in vain
random tots..
"It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it" Usher - simple things
stop trying to read into things. been doin that too much. but a girl will always be a girl, think too much... hahah if i could get rid of this as well..
well, i think there goes a fren. think i talked abit too much yesterday. jus rem wat i said at the end of the conversation. hahaha very clever, wat a thing to say... "i nid to get a grip" LOL.. i'm amazed with myself, budden how could u blame a person that is chatting at like 2 am in the morning? well, i guess it makes things abit easier now.. hahaha. ;p
let me see, anymore things to say...
hmmmm
hahaha i think i jus found something very interesting that i said yesterday as well..
:P qt screwed.
k k.. life's much easier now...
thou i dunnoe wat i wan, i think wateva i said has actually decided for me.
life's going to be fine, sunny, occasional showers... and jus me
wr
Monday, September 06, 2004
not in a good mood.
stressed out, memories came flooding back, overwhelming me... and i'm super stubborn, cont to listen to all de sappy songs...
i noe it's not the time for me to whine, somehow i think that i dun haf the right to be whining. there's so many things waiting for me to do, to complete, to achieve.. what's there to whine about, what is there to think about? what is there to cry about?
i feel rather lost.
where am i heading? why am i doing all these?
i'm already in this, it's really not up to me to turn back. and i will never turn back.
admitting to defeat is something i don't allow myself to do.
i know i'm goin to pull thru, jus like how i pulled myself thru that period of time... pain is nothing but a process, a phase.. crying will only teach you to be wiser, to learn how to protect yourself from being hurt again...
haha, jus when i tot my life turn for the better, that my fren commented it's been a while since i had been so chirpy. then i realised it never really left, it was at the back of my mind, constantly reminding me of the past.
5 months is not enough.. :) my bestest bud was rite, forget about love, conc on studies, "not hurt enough?" even thou i never told him anything haha
i nid to get a new hobby.. learn how to de-stress. like learning archery? bladding??
i'm sorry about the really bimbotic entry today- i dun mean i haf the looks to be one, but mayb de intellectual level.
wo xin li de gan qing
dou dui ni shuo
ma lu shang tian tian dou zai sai
er yi ge ren tian tian zai deng dai
mei you ni re zi hen hei bai
yuan lai zhe yang jiu shi lian ai
wo xiang yao ni zai wo shen bian
fen xiang wo shen ming de mei yi tian
wo xiang yao tian tian shuo
tian tian shuo
tian tian dui ni shuo....
wo ai ni.
david tao, tian tian
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well, let me think of something nice to say.. to balance it out.
currently, alot of nice frens ard, mostly guys, or all? hemm
good fren, best fren, bestest fren all happens to be guys
and it happens that they're all from ACS, and they're christian~
hmmm
very interesting rite? so far no one tried to convert me yet, maybe they noe they will never succeed hahaha
well, another very interesting factor is they all haf dream gers already !! haha yeap so we're platonic frens k, mai siao siao.. hahah not many pple can have such achievements rite? i'm goin to like become part of them really soon, judging from the fact that been looking at gers (well i still look at guys), and abit violent, and abit loud. starting to curse and swear... very soon, i might not have any suitors at all, not like i have any now but yeah...
hmmm that's de weirdest thing happening around me... *thinks*
yeah>> and my bestest bud is my neighbour, so refer to earlier entry, he has appeared as an eye candy hahah and i actually reminded myself not to give him my blog add. but since we're now bestest bud, i tot it's only right... self proclaimed anti social, cant really talk person. super good christian, dun even drink (wonder why is he a fren now) hmmm good guy, too bad his taken. hahahaha well, if u gers pay me enough mayb i'll keep track of his love life for u all. LOL :) i nid money ah fren.. mus understand..
good fren is supposedly the hottest guy in law fac, i'm still wondering wat they based on to come up with that... cant really comment too much, cos i still want to keep our friendship. hahaha he's cute but definitely not my kind of cute. that's why we can be good frens~ but den again, this guy can be good frens with any ger, think to make his head abit bigger (ego i mean)
and my best fren is an AGP, like a super blur big brother. ask him about outside law stuff and he can talk to u bout it. but think once it comes back to sch work , he always seems to be abit lost. hahaha think my brother here has a bit too much commitments. did i mention we're in same TG for both LAWR/SLS and Torts/contracts? that's why i became his best fren.. easier to inform him about wat to do. i think after some time, we both realised we're both very lost in sch work. hahaha and this is really not working out very well...
well, i think i can haf my male escort agency rather soon, at the rate i'm goin. it's time i find a partner, den start recruiting members. hahahah well, gers can start contacting me and we can start the ball rolling from there...
think i hafta complete my studies in law, i might hafta use my knowlegde nez time....
in de end, it's all going to be worthwhile
when will it be de end?
wat's going to be worthwhile?
who's goin to judge what's worthwhile or not?
shi shang wu nan shiiiiii
Zhiii pa you xing rennnnnnnn
i wannna fly!!!!!!
fly fly fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stressed out, memories came flooding back, overwhelming me... and i'm super stubborn, cont to listen to all de sappy songs...
i noe it's not the time for me to whine, somehow i think that i dun haf the right to be whining. there's so many things waiting for me to do, to complete, to achieve.. what's there to whine about, what is there to think about? what is there to cry about?
i feel rather lost.
where am i heading? why am i doing all these?
i'm already in this, it's really not up to me to turn back. and i will never turn back.
admitting to defeat is something i don't allow myself to do.
i know i'm goin to pull thru, jus like how i pulled myself thru that period of time... pain is nothing but a process, a phase.. crying will only teach you to be wiser, to learn how to protect yourself from being hurt again...
haha, jus when i tot my life turn for the better, that my fren commented it's been a while since i had been so chirpy. then i realised it never really left, it was at the back of my mind, constantly reminding me of the past.
5 months is not enough.. :) my bestest bud was rite, forget about love, conc on studies, "not hurt enough?" even thou i never told him anything haha
i nid to get a new hobby.. learn how to de-stress. like learning archery? bladding??
i'm sorry about the really bimbotic entry today- i dun mean i haf the looks to be one, but mayb de intellectual level.
wo xin li de gan qing
dou dui ni shuo
ma lu shang tian tian dou zai sai
er yi ge ren tian tian zai deng dai
mei you ni re zi hen hei bai
yuan lai zhe yang jiu shi lian ai
wo xiang yao ni zai wo shen bian
fen xiang wo shen ming de mei yi tian
wo xiang yao tian tian shuo
tian tian shuo
tian tian dui ni shuo....
wo ai ni.
david tao, tian tian
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
well, let me think of something nice to say.. to balance it out.
currently, alot of nice frens ard, mostly guys, or all? hemm
good fren, best fren, bestest fren all happens to be guys
and it happens that they're all from ACS, and they're christian~
hmmm
very interesting rite? so far no one tried to convert me yet, maybe they noe they will never succeed hahaha
well, another very interesting factor is they all haf dream gers already !! haha yeap so we're platonic frens k, mai siao siao.. hahah not many pple can have such achievements rite? i'm goin to like become part of them really soon, judging from the fact that been looking at gers (well i still look at guys), and abit violent, and abit loud. starting to curse and swear... very soon, i might not have any suitors at all, not like i have any now but yeah...
hmmm that's de weirdest thing happening around me... *thinks*
yeah>> and my bestest bud is my neighbour, so refer to earlier entry, he has appeared as an eye candy hahah and i actually reminded myself not to give him my blog add. but since we're now bestest bud, i tot it's only right... self proclaimed anti social, cant really talk person. super good christian, dun even drink (wonder why is he a fren now) hmmm good guy, too bad his taken. hahahaha well, if u gers pay me enough mayb i'll keep track of his love life for u all. LOL :) i nid money ah fren.. mus understand..
good fren is supposedly the hottest guy in law fac, i'm still wondering wat they based on to come up with that... cant really comment too much, cos i still want to keep our friendship. hahaha he's cute but definitely not my kind of cute. that's why we can be good frens~ but den again, this guy can be good frens with any ger, think to make his head abit bigger (ego i mean)
and my best fren is an AGP, like a super blur big brother. ask him about outside law stuff and he can talk to u bout it. but think once it comes back to sch work , he always seems to be abit lost. hahaha think my brother here has a bit too much commitments. did i mention we're in same TG for both LAWR/SLS and Torts/contracts? that's why i became his best fren.. easier to inform him about wat to do. i think after some time, we both realised we're both very lost in sch work. hahaha and this is really not working out very well...
well, i think i can haf my male escort agency rather soon, at the rate i'm goin. it's time i find a partner, den start recruiting members. hahahah well, gers can start contacting me and we can start the ball rolling from there...
think i hafta complete my studies in law, i might hafta use my knowlegde nez time....
in de end, it's all going to be worthwhile
when will it be de end?
wat's going to be worthwhile?
who's goin to judge what's worthwhile or not?
shi shang wu nan shiiiiii
Zhiii pa you xing rennnnnnnn
i wannna fly!!!!!!
fly fly fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, September 03, 2004
have qt a number of things to talk about today...
firstly, was reading the newspaper in the morning and came across this article about the SMRT contemplating whether to build railings that cost $5m. due to the fact that too many pple are falling into the track nowadays.
one interesting observation : those that fall into the track are all adults. does that mean that children nowadays are either well taken care of by their parents or just that adults cant really take good care of themselves?
another thing is that don't singaporeans feel embarrass enough to have an annoucement system that tells us to stand behind the yellow line in FOUR languages EVERYTIME a train is coming, like it's not of common sense?
NOW hearing it is not enough, we have to take action to tell the world that we cant really take good care of our own individual self? that we nid physical barriers to stop us from falling off the track?!?
Wat ever happened to all the protesting voices that we are too taken care of? I tot we have an active group of people always calling out for the government to not dictate our lives, not take care of us so well?
As a frequent SMRT commuter, i personally feel that there are a number of reasons why people do fall off the track.
during peak hours, there are really too many people waiting to board the train. at first, everyone will be nice and courteous and stand behind the yellow line, even outside the line that is drawn for people coming how. HOWEVER, once the train began to move into the station, they seems to be attracted to the centre of where the door will be and before you know it, they are like so close to the door even before the train stops. this might not illustrate how a person can fall into the track before the train arrives, but it certainly shows how people don't really think before they act. by bernoulli's principle, the difference in pressure between nearer the moving train to outside will cause people to be 'suck' towards the train (haha my phys teacher gonna be so proud of me~!). Thus by moving beyond the yellow line before the train actually stops is qt a dumb move. and it actually SHOWS how careless adults can be with their own lives. therefore i think they can be qt capable of standing near the track when they feel giddy etc...
at this point, i nid to make it very clear that i have nothing against those victims of such accident, it's purely against the fact of building the railings.
back to the railings that is estimated to cost $5m. ultimately, being a monopoly in singapore (now my econs teacher will come into the picture) that extra cost, either will be subsidise by our ever caring government, or to us, commuters. and it's really people like me, who take the train like twice everyday, going to absorb most of the cost. If you were hoping for the govt to subsidise, start thinking of where that money comes from first. (hint: working adults pay tax)
It's seriously not about the money, it's about how it can be spent in better ways? like upgrading elderly flats which have pipes that are rusty already? i mean, if there were children or old folks falling off the track, yes, i totally agree we shld put railings. But we're talking about adults who are reasonably competent at taking care of themselves here. if they deliberately did so, only a concrete wall can stop them; if they were purely careless, isn't it high time they wake up? i mean, looking at all the previous cases, cant all of us take abit of initiative to take care of ourselves?
another of such incident is the parking problem in joo chiat (the man goin to disrupt church service due to church goers parking in front of his gate)
i'm sure many complaints would have been made to the church before such an outburst take place. and i am sure that the church would have told the congregation about this. it's human nature to wan convenience, i do it myself, but isn't it only polite, to actually ask if u really have to park in front of someone's property? have it actually occur to those inconsiderate people that others might need to drive out anytime during the church service? What if it was an emergency, someone's dying? if the asking had occured before the whole issue occurred, we wouldn't nid to dispatch traffic police to station there every sunday jus to make sure people follow the rules.
but then again, if everyone follow rules and be considerate, i won't have a job in the future...
hahaha
firstly, was reading the newspaper in the morning and came across this article about the SMRT contemplating whether to build railings that cost $5m. due to the fact that too many pple are falling into the track nowadays.
one interesting observation : those that fall into the track are all adults. does that mean that children nowadays are either well taken care of by their parents or just that adults cant really take good care of themselves?
another thing is that don't singaporeans feel embarrass enough to have an annoucement system that tells us to stand behind the yellow line in FOUR languages EVERYTIME a train is coming, like it's not of common sense?
NOW hearing it is not enough, we have to take action to tell the world that we cant really take good care of our own individual self? that we nid physical barriers to stop us from falling off the track?!?
Wat ever happened to all the protesting voices that we are too taken care of? I tot we have an active group of people always calling out for the government to not dictate our lives, not take care of us so well?
As a frequent SMRT commuter, i personally feel that there are a number of reasons why people do fall off the track.
during peak hours, there are really too many people waiting to board the train. at first, everyone will be nice and courteous and stand behind the yellow line, even outside the line that is drawn for people coming how. HOWEVER, once the train began to move into the station, they seems to be attracted to the centre of where the door will be and before you know it, they are like so close to the door even before the train stops. this might not illustrate how a person can fall into the track before the train arrives, but it certainly shows how people don't really think before they act. by bernoulli's principle, the difference in pressure between nearer the moving train to outside will cause people to be 'suck' towards the train (haha my phys teacher gonna be so proud of me~!). Thus by moving beyond the yellow line before the train actually stops is qt a dumb move. and it actually SHOWS how careless adults can be with their own lives. therefore i think they can be qt capable of standing near the track when they feel giddy etc...
at this point, i nid to make it very clear that i have nothing against those victims of such accident, it's purely against the fact of building the railings.
back to the railings that is estimated to cost $5m. ultimately, being a monopoly in singapore (now my econs teacher will come into the picture) that extra cost, either will be subsidise by our ever caring government, or to us, commuters. and it's really people like me, who take the train like twice everyday, going to absorb most of the cost. If you were hoping for the govt to subsidise, start thinking of where that money comes from first. (hint: working adults pay tax)
It's seriously not about the money, it's about how it can be spent in better ways? like upgrading elderly flats which have pipes that are rusty already? i mean, if there were children or old folks falling off the track, yes, i totally agree we shld put railings. But we're talking about adults who are reasonably competent at taking care of themselves here. if they deliberately did so, only a concrete wall can stop them; if they were purely careless, isn't it high time they wake up? i mean, looking at all the previous cases, cant all of us take abit of initiative to take care of ourselves?
another of such incident is the parking problem in joo chiat (the man goin to disrupt church service due to church goers parking in front of his gate)
i'm sure many complaints would have been made to the church before such an outburst take place. and i am sure that the church would have told the congregation about this. it's human nature to wan convenience, i do it myself, but isn't it only polite, to actually ask if u really have to park in front of someone's property? have it actually occur to those inconsiderate people that others might need to drive out anytime during the church service? What if it was an emergency, someone's dying? if the asking had occured before the whole issue occurred, we wouldn't nid to dispatch traffic police to station there every sunday jus to make sure people follow the rules.
but then again, if everyone follow rules and be considerate, i won't have a job in the future...
hahaha
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Yoz~
comtemplating if i shld go out later
i haf another 8 minutes to decide
let's list out the pros and cons..
cons are: i've already been laggin in reading. tml there's torts lecture. my mum wont like it. have been slacking since yesterday. i'll feel bad when i come back.
pro is: there's a brazillian cute guy~! hahaha
k.. looks like goin out is not justified.
mayb i shld jus stay home and study
sigh.
as promised, goin to bring you all de topic of "girls and their petty nature"
actually it's not much. jus alot of my guy frens telling me that gers are really petty, like. too sensitive.. yada yada.
and somehow, i'm not like a ger when i can take insults. i wonder why's dat.
i've got nothing against my own gender here but i do feel that sometimes..
now i've two min left before i go back to work.
i'm goin off..
will attempt the topic again later.
:)
smile.
wr
comtemplating if i shld go out later
i haf another 8 minutes to decide
let's list out the pros and cons..
cons are: i've already been laggin in reading. tml there's torts lecture. my mum wont like it. have been slacking since yesterday. i'll feel bad when i come back.
pro is: there's a brazillian cute guy~! hahaha
k.. looks like goin out is not justified.
mayb i shld jus stay home and study
sigh.
as promised, goin to bring you all de topic of "girls and their petty nature"
actually it's not much. jus alot of my guy frens telling me that gers are really petty, like. too sensitive.. yada yada.
and somehow, i'm not like a ger when i can take insults. i wonder why's dat.
i've got nothing against my own gender here but i do feel that sometimes..
now i've two min left before i go back to work.
i'm goin off..
will attempt the topic again later.
:)
smile.
wr
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
i'm not getting day off tml becos of teachers' day...
cos i'm an undergrad~!
another tell tale sign that "age is catching up"
anyway my eye is hurting, due to the lack of rest, over stressing and wearing contacts all day and nite...
i'm not very kind to them eh?
think if they had a choice they would jus jump out and run away or something..
i'm qt hungry now>> was out since 7 today, went yj to give Teachers' day Prezzie... then ran off before flag raising before every teachers see me... in order to prevent them and myself to fulfill the obligations to engage in little conversation.. which i'm sure they feel that, as much as i do, is the last thing u wanna do like 7 in the morning
and then went nus from there, over shot my destination and dropped at commonwealth instead... apparently there was no frustration or anything, i jus walk over and took a train back.. den like running in auto pilot mode, i walked to the bus stop, and saw my sister who was on the train after mine...
went to sch..
decided to stop by the computer centre to settle my ivle prob once and for all... and.. GUESS WAT? i like the biggest fool in the century... based on the illustration(pictures) i went to the log in page meant for maintenance purposes... so i will not get thru there... stupid. on my part. and the guy was like apologising for the picture.. haha qt nice eh? these really nice pple make my day man.. makes me wanna be nice, which is qt seldom lah...
maroon 5 qt a dirty band eh?
hahahhaha
i like.
anyway>> cont with my boring entry of my little day
met my new best fren (self-acclaimed by him) at FASS canteen coincidentally so got company for eating~ not like i nid lah.. hahahaha as usual, my anti-social self..so ate and went to try to do some reading... TRY.. and my tutorial.. but jus fell flat on the table after half an hour..
think all the lectures and tutorials are not worth mentioning.. how boring can it can? i jus type boring things here... hahaha so not boring enough to enter my blog i guess
haha did i mention the excitement about goin home with my neighbour wore off already?
still fun when i can stay awake, but i'm jus too tired at the end of the day to really entertain someone..
den it's like tuition
den went sun plaza with don and damien. had fun
and decided to put my work aside.. for like few hours..
(in denial)
i'm goin off to sleep..
i shall address the topic "gers and their petty nature tml.."
got some ideas today..
hahaha
hope i got time to update.
cheers
wr
had my first contract tutorial today, i have really interesting instructor~ he smiles when he talks about contract, can see he is really passionate about the job... anyway, concluded that it's really useless to go for contract lecture, and yes, i'm goin to skip the one tomorrow, as i really nid my sleep. but it wont be perpetual.. :p hopefully
hahaha
cos i'm an undergrad~!
another tell tale sign that "age is catching up"
anyway my eye is hurting, due to the lack of rest, over stressing and wearing contacts all day and nite...
i'm not very kind to them eh?
think if they had a choice they would jus jump out and run away or something..
i'm qt hungry now>> was out since 7 today, went yj to give Teachers' day Prezzie... then ran off before flag raising before every teachers see me... in order to prevent them and myself to fulfill the obligations to engage in little conversation.. which i'm sure they feel that, as much as i do, is the last thing u wanna do like 7 in the morning
and then went nus from there, over shot my destination and dropped at commonwealth instead... apparently there was no frustration or anything, i jus walk over and took a train back.. den like running in auto pilot mode, i walked to the bus stop, and saw my sister who was on the train after mine...
went to sch..
decided to stop by the computer centre to settle my ivle prob once and for all... and.. GUESS WAT? i like the biggest fool in the century... based on the illustration(pictures) i went to the log in page meant for maintenance purposes... so i will not get thru there... stupid. on my part. and the guy was like apologising for the picture.. haha qt nice eh? these really nice pple make my day man.. makes me wanna be nice, which is qt seldom lah...
maroon 5 qt a dirty band eh?
hahahhaha
i like.
anyway>> cont with my boring entry of my little day
met my new best fren (self-acclaimed by him) at FASS canteen coincidentally so got company for eating~ not like i nid lah.. hahahaha as usual, my anti-social self..so ate and went to try to do some reading... TRY.. and my tutorial.. but jus fell flat on the table after half an hour..
think all the lectures and tutorials are not worth mentioning.. how boring can it can? i jus type boring things here... hahaha so not boring enough to enter my blog i guess
haha did i mention the excitement about goin home with my neighbour wore off already?
still fun when i can stay awake, but i'm jus too tired at the end of the day to really entertain someone..
den it's like tuition
den went sun plaza with don and damien. had fun
and decided to put my work aside.. for like few hours..
(in denial)
i'm goin off to sleep..
i shall address the topic "gers and their petty nature tml.."
got some ideas today..
hahaha
hope i got time to update.
cheers
wr
had my first contract tutorial today, i have really interesting instructor~ he smiles when he talks about contract, can see he is really passionate about the job... anyway, concluded that it's really useless to go for contract lecture, and yes, i'm goin to skip the one tomorrow, as i really nid my sleep. but it wont be perpetual.. :p hopefully
hahaha
Monday, August 30, 2004
wahahha..
suppose to be doing my reading like... 2 hours agO!!!
wat de heck am i doin still online?!
basically its due to the lack of self discipline
and secondly, it's becos i'm talking to my neighbour who is living across de street
and for those of u who are wondering who de heck is he
he is my new found eye candy that stays across de street directly opposite my house, or flat rather, and his sister and him both reading law first year like me.
so actually, when he decides not to wait for his sister, i get to go home with him! hahah actually, even if he does we still can go home together. somehow or rather he says i'm weird. sulkz. but hahaha eye candy~
k, someone please remind me not to give him my blog add.
anyway>>let me see, anything more interesting happening now in my life? other than the tons of readings dat i've yet to go into..
hahaha.. not really
but realised that i cant really talk to my tort's tutor, as in i cant really talk in my torts tutorial cos i've yet to get used to the pple there.. hope it'll get better nez time..
oh no
gotta go my sister wanna use
nez time...
suppose to be doing my reading like... 2 hours agO!!!
wat de heck am i doin still online?!
basically its due to the lack of self discipline
and secondly, it's becos i'm talking to my neighbour who is living across de street
and for those of u who are wondering who de heck is he
he is my new found eye candy that stays across de street directly opposite my house, or flat rather, and his sister and him both reading law first year like me.
so actually, when he decides not to wait for his sister, i get to go home with him! hahah actually, even if he does we still can go home together. somehow or rather he says i'm weird. sulkz. but hahaha eye candy~
k, someone please remind me not to give him my blog add.
anyway>>let me see, anything more interesting happening now in my life? other than the tons of readings dat i've yet to go into..
hahaha.. not really
but realised that i cant really talk to my tort's tutor, as in i cant really talk in my torts tutorial cos i've yet to get used to the pple there.. hope it'll get better nez time..
oh no
gotta go my sister wanna use
nez time...
Monday, August 16, 2004
i still cannot access my modules in my IVLE!!!!!
i'm officially pissed off with whoever is in charge of it! stupid stupid stupid ..
i cant find out what am i suppose to read!
wat is this man!
even after i sent an email like 2 days ago still no one to rectify the problem?
den what am i suppose to do when de stupid lecturers keep uploading things like they dun nid a break?!
i'm fried.
jus read de pprs, qt interesting stuff they haf on sundays.. or is it i'm getting too boring?
hahaha
there's this report about the MPs gonna go ard collecting suggestions from youths on how they want their country to be govern. one of them said he dun believe that singaporean youths are apathetic when it comes to politics, jus that there is no sufficient avenues for them to voice their opinions.
one thing is that, it took them qt long to realise that?
another is that, i haf a strong feeling, their jus gonna get pple suggesting that we shld haf more rollerblading, skateboarding places, the youths need a break yada yada yada, before you noe it, the dialogue session might jus turn into a complain session... actually, i haf no idea wat is de age range for youth
hahaha 13 to 35?
ok, i think i'm not being fair to our youths..
it's really a good try, perhaps something will come out of it.. instead of youths complaining, and dissing everyone off in online blogs.. i think this is a much more effective avenue, and at least they might see some changes.
if they are hoping to get more youths involved in politics and the shaping of the new singapore, i was thinking mayb they can start like internship for youths aspiring to be a politiciaN? or perhaps they already haf this in place. cos to me it would be interesting to learn how the ministries are run?
well, perhaps the different ministris shld try to work together when coming up with policies.. we all noe that when there's societal problems, it's not only contributed by onli one factor, which comes under the control of one ministry..
anyhow, tt's my 1 cent's worth..
and~
while i'm on de topic of blogging, some chick by de name of xiaxue(or so her blog add claims) got an award fr hongkong for her blog. which the newspaper reported to have been dissing everyone she met off, and her encounters with her exboyfrens.. very interesting world we live in today eh? i mean u get award for openly dissing pple online, being pissed off and vulgar and all that..
from the interview, can tell that she's rather sharp.. from de picture she's rather pretty..
so there goes the theory that pple who appears to be bitter and all that in blogs are ugly freaks who feels that de world owe them a living, shld all be nice and courteous to them becos they are ugly, being considerate for these pple's self esteem.
i'm sayin they are ugly not becos they really look ugly, it's becos they feel ugly and ACT ugly and hate the world for everything, to them, is unfair towards them cos they are ugly.
ppl like this, who cant stop hating the world for everything and do something about themselves, nid two tight slaps, telling them to wake up before their life comes to and end and they look back, recollecting nothing but cursing and swearing at the world for everything that happened to them in life.
or they can jus shoot themselves in the head, if they think the world is such a hopeless place filled with pple who judge them jus becos of looks, save themselves the misery and save others de misery of dealing with their negativity..
do some charity, learn to appreciate the world in a brighter light.. seeing the pple u help smile and laugh and u'll find that u have wasted ur stupid life.
other than complaining pple write sub standard blogs talking about their shopping trips and nitty gritty details bout how loving her bf is, complaining how nokia is designing fones that does serve a purpose, other than dissing ur lecturers about how fierce or authoratative they are,that life is goin to be so much better if you don't hafta study, that the salesperson was so rude to you, that the cute ger in sch is getting so much attention, ur guy teachers are flirting with their students, which i think most probably are subjective views, maybe these pple shld be be brought together and thrown into some poor countries for 3 weeks and learn wat is life. learn how other pple are try to cope with life, and here they are with a computer (some haf more than one), aircon, nice clothes, reasonable good food, great and peaceful country, stressful but semi compulsory education, complaining the world is being unfair to them...
well everyone is entitled to their own views, i wouldn't deny that. but it's jus so irritating when u actually come across blogs that say the world is so bleak cos pple are not getting a grip of their lives... it's sad lah..
well i haf made my comments. and it's probably very biased
but no one will care
hahaha
cos everyone diss everyone in blogs don't they?
i'm jus another blogger
cheers
i'm officially pissed off with whoever is in charge of it! stupid stupid stupid ..
i cant find out what am i suppose to read!
wat is this man!
even after i sent an email like 2 days ago still no one to rectify the problem?
den what am i suppose to do when de stupid lecturers keep uploading things like they dun nid a break?!
i'm fried.
jus read de pprs, qt interesting stuff they haf on sundays.. or is it i'm getting too boring?
hahaha
there's this report about the MPs gonna go ard collecting suggestions from youths on how they want their country to be govern. one of them said he dun believe that singaporean youths are apathetic when it comes to politics, jus that there is no sufficient avenues for them to voice their opinions.
one thing is that, it took them qt long to realise that?
another is that, i haf a strong feeling, their jus gonna get pple suggesting that we shld haf more rollerblading, skateboarding places, the youths need a break yada yada yada, before you noe it, the dialogue session might jus turn into a complain session... actually, i haf no idea wat is de age range for youth
hahaha 13 to 35?
ok, i think i'm not being fair to our youths..
it's really a good try, perhaps something will come out of it.. instead of youths complaining, and dissing everyone off in online blogs.. i think this is a much more effective avenue, and at least they might see some changes.
if they are hoping to get more youths involved in politics and the shaping of the new singapore, i was thinking mayb they can start like internship for youths aspiring to be a politiciaN? or perhaps they already haf this in place. cos to me it would be interesting to learn how the ministries are run?
well, perhaps the different ministris shld try to work together when coming up with policies.. we all noe that when there's societal problems, it's not only contributed by onli one factor, which comes under the control of one ministry..
anyhow, tt's my 1 cent's worth..
and~
while i'm on de topic of blogging, some chick by de name of xiaxue(or so her blog add claims) got an award fr hongkong for her blog. which the newspaper reported to have been dissing everyone she met off, and her encounters with her exboyfrens.. very interesting world we live in today eh? i mean u get award for openly dissing pple online, being pissed off and vulgar and all that..
from the interview, can tell that she's rather sharp.. from de picture she's rather pretty..
so there goes the theory that pple who appears to be bitter and all that in blogs are ugly freaks who feels that de world owe them a living, shld all be nice and courteous to them becos they are ugly, being considerate for these pple's self esteem.
i'm sayin they are ugly not becos they really look ugly, it's becos they feel ugly and ACT ugly and hate the world for everything, to them, is unfair towards them cos they are ugly.
ppl like this, who cant stop hating the world for everything and do something about themselves, nid two tight slaps, telling them to wake up before their life comes to and end and they look back, recollecting nothing but cursing and swearing at the world for everything that happened to them in life.
or they can jus shoot themselves in the head, if they think the world is such a hopeless place filled with pple who judge them jus becos of looks, save themselves the misery and save others de misery of dealing with their negativity..
do some charity, learn to appreciate the world in a brighter light.. seeing the pple u help smile and laugh and u'll find that u have wasted ur stupid life.
other than complaining pple write sub standard blogs talking about their shopping trips and nitty gritty details bout how loving her bf is, complaining how nokia is designing fones that does serve a purpose, other than dissing ur lecturers about how fierce or authoratative they are,that life is goin to be so much better if you don't hafta study, that the salesperson was so rude to you, that the cute ger in sch is getting so much attention, ur guy teachers are flirting with their students, which i think most probably are subjective views, maybe these pple shld be be brought together and thrown into some poor countries for 3 weeks and learn wat is life. learn how other pple are try to cope with life, and here they are with a computer (some haf more than one), aircon, nice clothes, reasonable good food, great and peaceful country, stressful but semi compulsory education, complaining the world is being unfair to them...
well everyone is entitled to their own views, i wouldn't deny that. but it's jus so irritating when u actually come across blogs that say the world is so bleak cos pple are not getting a grip of their lives... it's sad lah..
well i haf made my comments. and it's probably very biased
but no one will care
hahaha
cos everyone diss everyone in blogs don't they?
i'm jus another blogger
cheers
Saturday, August 14, 2004
hahaha i'm qt happy!~
jus sort of finished my first assignment...
i think it's really not up to standard.. but as shervon (my instructor for legal writing) puts it, we're all learning and we're all new to the subject, so no one is expecting you to be fantastic in ur first assignment..
yeah, as long as i hand it up and spend a reasonable amount of time on it ..
i still have like 10 to 15 cases to read to prepare for torts lecture nez week. there goes my weekend..
and i've yet to read up for my SLS... think the only module that yet to haf any reading is contract ..
i'm super lost in sch
no idea wat to bring
no idea how to go about preparing for classes
when they ask us to read, are we suppose to jus read or make some notes..
can i survive without my laptop
wat's de purpose of my laptop anyway?
cant really participate in class cos there are so many smart pple ard, and those who try to sound smart but ask stupid qn. in de end, whenever this particular person raise his/her hand, everyone jus switch off and exchange looks in the LT..
geesh.. wat am i suppose to do with my textbks?
hahaha
other than struggling with the urge to tear it apart.. ;p
i'm qt buried by my books and pprs
and super stressed out by de ppl ard me..
i now only haf a vague idea of wat is jurisdiction, common law, tort, contract, high court, supreme court, court of appeal, subordinate court, legislative, executive, A-G council, yada yada yada and the lists goes on.. and all de big words dat pple use..
they are driving me nuts.
:P
but i'll pull thru!!!!!!
hahahah
i hope
before i become crasy
wahhaha
cheers..
wr
jus sort of finished my first assignment...
i think it's really not up to standard.. but as shervon (my instructor for legal writing) puts it, we're all learning and we're all new to the subject, so no one is expecting you to be fantastic in ur first assignment..
yeah, as long as i hand it up and spend a reasonable amount of time on it ..
i still have like 10 to 15 cases to read to prepare for torts lecture nez week. there goes my weekend..
and i've yet to read up for my SLS... think the only module that yet to haf any reading is contract ..
i'm super lost in sch
no idea wat to bring
no idea how to go about preparing for classes
when they ask us to read, are we suppose to jus read or make some notes..
can i survive without my laptop
wat's de purpose of my laptop anyway?
cant really participate in class cos there are so many smart pple ard, and those who try to sound smart but ask stupid qn. in de end, whenever this particular person raise his/her hand, everyone jus switch off and exchange looks in the LT..
geesh.. wat am i suppose to do with my textbks?
hahaha
other than struggling with the urge to tear it apart.. ;p
i'm qt buried by my books and pprs
and super stressed out by de ppl ard me..
i now only haf a vague idea of wat is jurisdiction, common law, tort, contract, high court, supreme court, court of appeal, subordinate court, legislative, executive, A-G council, yada yada yada and the lists goes on.. and all de big words dat pple use..
they are driving me nuts.
:P
but i'll pull thru!!!!!!
hahahah
i hope
before i become crasy
wahhaha
cheers..
wr
Thursday, August 05, 2004
geesh!!!
been a really busy week~
let me see...
went overnite cycling saturday evening...
saw fireworks on my way to ecp!!!! super nice hahahah great timing yeah?
hrm... had alot of waiting to do.. got there like 8 plus, had some fries and den waited all de way till 11 or 12 before we started cycling.. inclusive of playing ice breakers and collecting bike..
was a whole new exp for me to cycle on de road..
it's really a big big big difference!!!!
hahaha
damn scary, esp i'm so accident prone.. got honked by a taxi at de end of the trail.. hahaha and i noe i was making alot of noise.. wahhaha really damn kia si loh!!!
:p
hahahah oh yeah, saw a really cute guy in my group, nice frenly and all that. and he commented that i dun look like i ever had bf before. this is like de 3rd person saying so.. reason being : i look like those who cannot commit...
i wonder if this is why guys always come to me as good frens and brothers..
hahahaha
but i'm comfortable with status quo, think nothing could be better .. except... :)
oh yeah.. so cycle till like 5 and reach ecp.. not very tiring, except the part about me missing my sleep.. came home ard 7. was so blur that i left without calling becca, and left her like waiting there.. damn man.. and i slept all de way back to ys, so din hear the fone... feel so guilty!!!!!! :P got home, washe up and went to sleep. suppose to wake up at 10 to go give tuition at 11.. but slept all de way to 1252hrs and kept calling my tuition kid.. cos that day i had to get my white long sleeve shirt and black pants for my in-augaration on monday.. and i haf no money.. so i had to go for tuition to get my pay.. but ended up she cancelled tuition.. and i was left stranded, dunnoe who to turn to..
this teaches us not to count our chickens before they hatch... had no choice but to beg borrow from aunt mich.. damn paiseh. only when i have trouble den i msg her.. dunnoe how she sees it lah, but i'm damn uncomfortable with this...
anyhow, had to go all de way to suntec to meet my unker to get it from him instead, since my aunt was in hk working... had lunch at marche (uncle's treat!!) and went to meet niang niang..
our meeting time dragged from 2 all de way to 530.. ultimate.. and 2 pple became 3... hahaha no tt i am complaining lah.. but got my top, bottom and shoes.. aft much hassle and walking ard.. and really felt like killing myself and not turn up for de inaugaration on monday while shopping. yes, i'm one of those few gers who simply cannot stand walking ard aimlessly in shopping centres, hoping to buy something while squeezing through crowds, dat really make me wonder if the whole singapore population is concentrated in town dat day...
however, my mood really swing to de other side right aft i paid for my shoes... and i felt so happY!!! completing my mission!!! hahaha and went to eat at wisma... din really eat since i was meeting dad and mum and sis for roti prata!!!! but paid more den i was suppose to cos i dragged de two poor gers to walk ard with me to get my stuff...
anyhow, monday was qt a serious day, saw our dean, saw my TG (tutorial group) and collected my mailbox keys.. ... did i mention i had to rem ALOT of names.. i'm like.. really bad with names... inaugaration was qt fun.. sat rite in front and doze off when de biggest head was talking.. hahahha first time i dozed off uncontrollably.. wonder if it's him or it's jus me being too tired.. my eyelids simply fell uncontrollably...
hmmm.. woah.. tts only 3 days..
tues went for flag day!!!!
hahaha at first i was really reluctant to go alone!!! den was trying to siam..
budden zy and my ogls too damn cold blooded.. so i was left alone..
aft i got my first 40 cents from an ang mo, i decided to walk to secluded area of somerset to explore, instead of standing a mere 50 steps away from 2 other nus freshie selling flags..
anyway, i walked ard for de sake of exploring, not flaggin! wahhahahah
started flaggin outside a restaurant and fairprice..
really had fun.
even chatted with a couple of donors for some time
whahaha
and i had de heaviest tin when i left, at lunch time. taking into consideration that i was late.. like reached there about 10..
wahhaha
left and de creative talents company called me up on my way to getting my sister a cd..
asked me to go down for an interview de nez day...
in de end i was there later part of de afternoon cos i happened to be free and in town..
was convinced to take some photos on de nez day ..
den i went to give tuition...
today is wednesday.. it is a long day... so i'll cont tml!!
hahaha
cheers
wr
been a really busy week~
let me see...
went overnite cycling saturday evening...
saw fireworks on my way to ecp!!!! super nice hahahah great timing yeah?
hrm... had alot of waiting to do.. got there like 8 plus, had some fries and den waited all de way till 11 or 12 before we started cycling.. inclusive of playing ice breakers and collecting bike..
was a whole new exp for me to cycle on de road..
it's really a big big big difference!!!!
hahaha
damn scary, esp i'm so accident prone.. got honked by a taxi at de end of the trail.. hahaha and i noe i was making alot of noise.. wahhaha really damn kia si loh!!!
:p
hahahah oh yeah, saw a really cute guy in my group, nice frenly and all that. and he commented that i dun look like i ever had bf before. this is like de 3rd person saying so.. reason being : i look like those who cannot commit...
i wonder if this is why guys always come to me as good frens and brothers..
hahahaha
but i'm comfortable with status quo, think nothing could be better .. except... :)
oh yeah.. so cycle till like 5 and reach ecp.. not very tiring, except the part about me missing my sleep.. came home ard 7. was so blur that i left without calling becca, and left her like waiting there.. damn man.. and i slept all de way back to ys, so din hear the fone... feel so guilty!!!!!! :P got home, washe up and went to sleep. suppose to wake up at 10 to go give tuition at 11.. but slept all de way to 1252hrs and kept calling my tuition kid.. cos that day i had to get my white long sleeve shirt and black pants for my in-augaration on monday.. and i haf no money.. so i had to go for tuition to get my pay.. but ended up she cancelled tuition.. and i was left stranded, dunnoe who to turn to..
this teaches us not to count our chickens before they hatch... had no choice but to beg borrow from aunt mich.. damn paiseh. only when i have trouble den i msg her.. dunnoe how she sees it lah, but i'm damn uncomfortable with this...
anyhow, had to go all de way to suntec to meet my unker to get it from him instead, since my aunt was in hk working... had lunch at marche (uncle's treat!!) and went to meet niang niang..
our meeting time dragged from 2 all de way to 530.. ultimate.. and 2 pple became 3... hahaha no tt i am complaining lah.. but got my top, bottom and shoes.. aft much hassle and walking ard.. and really felt like killing myself and not turn up for de inaugaration on monday while shopping. yes, i'm one of those few gers who simply cannot stand walking ard aimlessly in shopping centres, hoping to buy something while squeezing through crowds, dat really make me wonder if the whole singapore population is concentrated in town dat day...
however, my mood really swing to de other side right aft i paid for my shoes... and i felt so happY!!! completing my mission!!! hahaha and went to eat at wisma... din really eat since i was meeting dad and mum and sis for roti prata!!!! but paid more den i was suppose to cos i dragged de two poor gers to walk ard with me to get my stuff...
anyhow, monday was qt a serious day, saw our dean, saw my TG (tutorial group) and collected my mailbox keys.. ... did i mention i had to rem ALOT of names.. i'm like.. really bad with names... inaugaration was qt fun.. sat rite in front and doze off when de biggest head was talking.. hahahha first time i dozed off uncontrollably.. wonder if it's him or it's jus me being too tired.. my eyelids simply fell uncontrollably...
hmmm.. woah.. tts only 3 days..
tues went for flag day!!!!
hahaha at first i was really reluctant to go alone!!! den was trying to siam..
budden zy and my ogls too damn cold blooded.. so i was left alone..
aft i got my first 40 cents from an ang mo, i decided to walk to secluded area of somerset to explore, instead of standing a mere 50 steps away from 2 other nus freshie selling flags..
anyway, i walked ard for de sake of exploring, not flaggin! wahhahahah
started flaggin outside a restaurant and fairprice..
really had fun.
even chatted with a couple of donors for some time
whahaha
and i had de heaviest tin when i left, at lunch time. taking into consideration that i was late.. like reached there about 10..
wahhaha
left and de creative talents company called me up on my way to getting my sister a cd..
asked me to go down for an interview de nez day...
in de end i was there later part of de afternoon cos i happened to be free and in town..
was convinced to take some photos on de nez day ..
den i went to give tuition...
today is wednesday.. it is a long day... so i'll cont tml!!
hahaha
cheers
wr
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