Me. Myself & i

hey heyZ~
hrmmm
starting to haf funnie ppl adding me to their frenster but..
some i dun even say hi to?
hrmm
wonder what are these ppl trying to prove..
that they haf alot of frenz?
i mean.. we're not exactly even acquaintance to start with~
sighhh
and dey add me and tt's it lah
no msg no testimonial. i dun even see de link from them to me.
except my ex class mates is in their class..
~~`

anyway>>
manage to fin 2 macro topics.
nia and money~
goin on to third today and doin another njc essay later..
shall do a maths ppr 2 as well .. i think tml
today mus fin hcjc phy ppr 2 before mr goh slaughter me tml~
damn it manz
counting down = 12 days to a's...
it's really do or die liao~
hrmm
wonder how much i can fin in 12 days...
mus bia maths and econs first man..
sighhh
i fang bu xia phys eh..
how?!
undecisive me...

anyway>> effective kenna ignored by some idert.
i think i fan jian leh...
sigh
some pple jus cant be frens with lah...

hrmmm something jus cropped up in my fam again~
rahh
wat 'good' timing...
wonder when will this end man..

did i mention i dun feel like goin u anymore..
as in...
it's so .. regulated?
u haf to comply to this comply to that..
and there is this bidding for cross fac thing that can drive u crasy..
i'm already so unhappy with rules..
how can i cope with all that nonsense....

they claim that taking cross fac can make one more marketable...
i totally disagree.
how marketable can u be if u learn a subject so superficially and for jus a few mths.
after the term u can totally forget about it and take one sum other thing that is totally unrelated to ur core subjects. and then forget about that in another 6 mths.
i can neva understand how schs or education in singapore works.
moreover, u may not be even interested in de subject and u're taking it cos u're too damn unlucky to failed bidding for de ones u really wanted.
wat the heck~

however.. guess i'm stucked with no where to go. i take onli 3 As, no good in gp, no money to go overseas, no hope for any scholarship.. i damn stuck.it's jus one mistake in my secondary sch life and i'll haf to carry it thru my life..
i think nez time my children will suffer like hell.. cos subconsiously i'll be damn strict with them jus in case they follow in my footsteps..
the onli thing i can do now is to do well and go to bloody local u and suffer for another (hopefullY) 4 years. den come out and fulfil my dreamS!!!!! hiak hiak hiak...
frankly, i still haf no idea what to take.
talk about no goals in life.

argh life.
sighz