Me. Myself & i

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got alot of things to say today...

firstly..
i've went thru a emotional roller coaster ride today...
dat kind really go up and down one..
whahahaha
i had good mood when i woke up
cos toopid boy goin to meet me today.. den he msg me he's sick - translation he is not meeting me today. so i got very sad..
den i went to tuition and had my fair share of oogling at some ac guy with a very very low and sexy voice. .. den everything became fine....

until i couldnt do my maths.. i haf this feeling i'll fail all my a's subject..
tt's failing when i dont do well yah?
so.. broke down at tuition centre.. thou mr yan din see.. rah..
rather embarassing..
felt betta when i was hafin de yu pian mian xian!
hahah not bad.. quite nice...
den walked ard bugis like a trail behind mr yan tis choo choo train head..
he really walk damn fast eh... and
hahah de happy thing is dat he say alot of ppl look at me..
i took it in de positive way.. hrmm or mayb they are thinking "wah.. so fat..."
sigh.. nahh... i look fine...(tryin to convince myself here)
muahah anyway.. i'm happy cos i neva notice tt pple act. look at me before.. given that i'm always surrounded by pretty ladies.. i'm more of de leaf lah...

anyway>>
i met chris.. and felt really mentally tired after i bombarded him with all my troubles...
sorrie dear.. i dunnoe who to tell liao.. i noe sometimes i haf to learn to deal with my troubles.. but i jus nid to get if off my chest.. hrmm feel very bad for adding on to ur burden.. sorrie lah...
den we went marina bay and sat at the mrt station waiting for time tt he shld be in...
by then i can already drift off in a daze as i talk.. i wonder what is happening to me...
boss say i shld see a doct..
anyway i feel really bad about blabbering nonsense and drifting away at him cos he's not feeling well.. and he seldoms sees me.. this worries him and i HAD to do all that jus b4 he went in..
i think he was rather worried.. until he got up de wrong train and was late.. it's damn sweet of him to say it's all his fault.. althou we all noe i'm some how to be blamed.. *grinz*.. (jus saying all this to prove that i dun always JUS say his bad points)
hahaha yah mus biao yang him once in a while..

yup
and now for my 2 cents worth of de day
i realise..
life can be really miserable with expectations..
if things dun turn out de way u expected
u get really sad..
tt's de prob with me..
i think i expect too much...
and i'm afraid i dun reach my expectation..
in de mean time .. i fred about not doin enough to meet em..
i forgot that when i fred about all this.. i wont be able to perform my best..
thus realisin the fact that i dun reach my expectation...

i also realised expectation fr relation ship is not .. hrmm.. very healthy for de relationship...
everyone noes the story about cinderella and de slippers..
anyone actually tot wat the slippers symbolises?
i think it symbolises expectation from partner.. tt's why cinderella is a fairy tale..
i dun think a guy like chris will ever wear de slippers i haf in mind yeah?
and i can neva fit into de cinderella image in his mind..
well...
so..
relationship without expectation.. might not work.. but we'll def be happier yeah?
=)
life without expectation.. i'll haf to rem to put in my best foot everytime..

=)
something worth thinking about yeah?
cheers