GREAT XMAS SONG BY 98 DEGREES
thou abit old.. but nice songs lasts forever and ever..
=)

This gift

The snow is falling
the city is white
ur eyes are shining like diamonds tonite
and we're all alone there's no one home
u're finally in my arms again

the nite is silent
and christmas is here
i couldn't ask for more than having you near
cos i love you girl
and i always will
and now i noe the moment is rite
the moment is rite.

cos i've been waiting to give tis gift tonite
i'm down on my knees there's no betta time
it's something to last for as long as you live
tonite i'm gonna gif you all my heart can give...

i tot i'd gif you something shiny and new
i tried to find something worthy of you
but i realise when i looked inside
there's something that money cant buy
i feel de magic whenever you're near
i feel it even more this time of the year
cos i love you girl
and i always will
and now i noe the moment is rite.
the moment is rite...

cos i've been waiting to give tis gift tonite
i'm down on my knees
there's no betta time
it's something to last for as long as you live
tonite i'm gonna give you all my heart can give

you know i'll always be true to you
and you know i'm de one you can turn to
oh yeah
anytime any place or any where
u noe that i'll always be there....
oh baby

cos i've been waiting to give this gift tonight
i'm down on my knees there's no better time
it's something to last as long as you live
tonight i'm gonna give you all my heart can give......

muahahahahha
woke up brite and early to send a frenster msg.
den decided to put a tag board on my blog
=)
doubt anyone will comment leh
but anyhow
i see already i happy lah
whahahahaha

sian!
might be goin to sing ktv with boss and co. later
i jus realised de uk farmers all not available today
damn.
hahaah oh yah
did i mention i'm having a lil' sore throat..
i'll be noiseless tml
ahhahaha
HOORAy for some of u out there who consider me to be too noisy

bleai
yupZzz
not much to add today.. esp when i jus woke up and have yet to do anything
except tt i'm goin to sweep de floor later..
its been a while since i swept my house floor
hahahahaha can imagine de dust piling up~
right...

yada yada yada.

cheers

hiak hiak hiak~
had a great time at my class chalet..
man i'm goin to miss them.
sigh.
my class!! so small so cosy. seems like i noe everyone abit .. thou not very close but yah.. i'll still miss em...

so many things happened~!
i dunno where to start lah.
doubt i wanna put it here anyway.
hahahaha sorry ahZ...

yupZ
jus sent my gd fren off today. sigh. everyone like flying here and there...
i feel sad. bleai.

anyhow>> i dun haf much tots to put in here today eh..
so all i'm typing is mindless blabbering.. (yah lah.. as usual as some pple might put it.)
heez

yeahh
celebrating my mom's bday today.
got lotsa food... hrmm damn man keep eating
i'm goin jogging tml!!!!
=)
mus jian fei le.. bleaii....
if not become fatso. rah.. yah yah yah.. already qt fat le lah.. k k let's not talk about sensitive issues.

rahhhhh
my job still not confirm.
i think they're rather inefficient
hrmpf

CANT WAIT FOR 19!
hahahaha
shhhhhhhhhh

k lah
i shan't type any more weird stuff here...
in case everyone starts swearing and cursing

take care!

cheers

now it's jus me my blog and de songs in my comp.

i would like to start todays blog saying, i hope i can trust those that noes about tis blog to keep it to emself. i mean, i dunwan pple to be reading it. most pple. it's about my inner most feelings and thoughts. unless my closest frens ask, i wont give de add to em either. of cos u all can stop visiting, i mean who wans to read about wat happens in my boring life. but yah. i trust all of u. =)

secondly i'm dedicating tis blog tis gd fren of mine. i still treasure our frenship.

thirdly, it's rather eventful today. it's really filling up my whole mind and i doubt i'll do well in tml's sat. hopefully i'll be able to make it in de jan one.

i feel lousy. feel like a bitch. perhaps i'm not cut out to be one. perhaps i still cant get use to hurting pple. hurting pple ard me. however, sometimes situation jus calls for it.

tis blog is goin to be full of ideas and tots flying here and there.

i dunno if what i did or said is appropriate today. i believe is betta than givin u false hope. given my situation, i really think i nid to clear up my situation, find myself, move on. instead of getting cropped up again. victimizing u. i really hope u understand.

not trying to sound noble here. not trying to find ways to justified wat i said. but there are many things that u've yet to take into considerations. i nid someone who can see further than me. that looks things in de big picture.

i cant deny i'm flattered. serious. i believe u're de best looking, most matured, best choice among my guy frens. i also think u haf a huge fan club out there. u haf many to choose from. but u also happen to be one of de nicest guy i noe. i cant lead u on. if not i could haf agreed. rather than trying so hard to explain myself to u. sigh.

all i can say is. i'll take care of myself. wont turn into a party goer. wont flirt ard. i'll cont to go out with guys, but jus as frens. perhaps what i said may haf made u disappointed in me. but diff pple, individual have diff sense of what's acceptable what's not.

i believe u'll come back one day and show me how much i've missed. =) i haf faith in u. u'll make me regret my decision. i'll be happy for u. i'll be hoping u find dat someone that really can treasure u, at the rite time, de rite person.

sigh

btw i'm touched. by what u said. de way u said if i nid help to clear my mess up. and de other things u mentioned. =) thank you. so de more i noe i cant keep u waiting. de more i had to explain my situation. de more i tot u shld find someone betta.

i dun think many pple noe me that well. i've many characteristics that not one person has seen thru and thru. one day u'll tell me u're not de person i was in love with. i've exp it b4, i dunwan it to happen again. =)

life will go on for u as usual.
life will go on for me as usual.

it's tough noeing ur gd fren is goin thru tis and not being able to help. i'm not de one tt shld go comfort him now. feels really bad. but u'll pick urself up.

i haf faith in u.

hrmmm
went many many places today~~~
=)
not really lah
but jus ran ard today to get my stuff done.
and other ppl's stuff done
i'm now a running errand ger. ~~`
hahahaha anyhow it makes me feel impt.
LOL i sound like some attention seeking lil kid .. ~~`
i'm attention seeking... hrmm not very sure if i'm a lil kid
wahhahaha

k enough of crap
yupZ
went to get some prezzie for a couple of frens
bon voyage to em~

anyway>> my mom said bear is handsome!!! ahhahahahaa *Luff my head off*
no offence ah bear. but yah.. hahahahahhahahahahahah k k.. eh.. u jus officially became shi nai sha shou... go figure.

hiak hiak hiak.
oh yah.. wanna to apologise to litong, cos i used up his cam battery on prom. and i aggravated his already bad reputation as a "gay" hahahaha SORRY TONG! u wont guai wo one rite? =)

hrm.. went thomson plaza starbucks to study SAT for an hour. FUN =)
hahahahhaa rather cozy de sofa. hiakZzzz. i really wanna bring one home eh... man.. sigh.. (*^(*&%(&*%&*^$%！hahaha i hope de chn wont come out.. LOL

had a great time tis week.. suppose tis is my bestest week in my whole hols i believe very strongly that i wont change my mind even till de last week of tis 7 mths. lalalallalala

i always believe when things hit rock bottom, it can onli get betta. =)

life is good. sigh. till sat i suppose.

take care my fren(s)~

cheers

hrmmm
i type one whole page on my prom and de stupid website hang....
k k
i shall go thru it all over again... but i think i'll shorten it
hahahaha

yeahhhh
talk about my prom
let's say all de bad stuff first...

firstly~
we had muslim food!!!!!!!! no offence but i think my table pple din take it very well..
not very used to it..
esp poor tong!!!!!! he dun take spicy food at all!!!! those organizers din spare a tot for those who dun take spicy food can!!!!???!?!?!
end up, we decided that the penut was de nicest dish of all
plus de fruits
ahahahhahaha

secondly~~
de mc suckZ!!!!!!! no only was he tt kind that think his jokes were funny when they're not. he was super sacastic~!!!! i think he offended most pple that took part in de stupid games they prepared. ~~` i mean... he started de nite off by saying "finally you all are movin in" can someone tell me how come he is an mc? i cannot find a teeny weeny bit of quality in him that makes him an mc. except that he talk too much.

thirdly~~~
de choosing of prom king and queen...hrmm one thing, we din get to nominate our own frens. it was de yr 1 councillors and teachers. HELLO!!!! THE PROM IS FOR US LOh, NOT FOR EM LOH~! rah. i cant believe it eh. they are blind enough to not choose tiong, belle and some pple tt i cant think of now (having short term mem) yah~! and rite!!!! yaqin and any guy shld haf won other than mark~!!!!!!! ..... no offence. he's cute but dun exactly look like he was goin to prom yesterday lah. i mean HELLOW~! PROM KING EH! bloody hell look like some ah beng with a tie. cant even stand str8. k i think i'm offending alot of pple. but yah. i dun haf anything against him lah. jus think that the voting sys is abit rubbish. i mean if a "cannot make it guy" got nominated and he has many LOUD frens are we goin to haf him as a prom king as well. sigh. i wonder why am i so worked up over this. but yah.. de other 4/5 guys, it's a pity.

i was rather sad. strangling myself with my shawl. cos i really wonder if there's a conspiracy among de teachers and councillors to make our batch suffer. even till de last min of our jc life. com'on man. it's our prom and we get such shit. they really hate us or wat? sigh.

enough of complaining.

i love de part when we take pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man. i bet i'll miss my frens in yj. miss like hell. i miss em already. those really close ones. sigh. they're de ones that has pull me thru de bad times in yj... and my odac frens~ they are de ones tt left me good mems when we organize our last camp. man..... sighhhh.....
man... my frens my frens!!! i hope pics wont be de last ting u all leave me k? hahaha =)

yup. and we went clubbing aft that! at chinablack. supposedly a NUS bash. hahaha ended up 3/4 of de pple were yjcian~ tis is a good sign!!!! hahaha yj gonna conquer NUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whahahaha i din drink today. jus brainwashed. LOL... ptd joke. anyway>> yeah.. de party was fun. it's fun when u party where u noe de crowd. u jus move everywhere like u own de place. it was one of de few times when u feel really proud being a yjcian~!! and the place was so smoke free!!!! i bet it'll be de one and onli time i'll ever enjoy such clean and smoke free environment while clubbing! it was better air than de coffee bean we went today!!!! rah... i miss last nite. hahaha

i had a great time today as well. =) altho i had bad tummy in de morning and in de afternoon. perhaps it's de mixing of drinks yday... hahaha i jus took wat i could find on de table and drank ~~ got scolded today by boss... say we gers not street smart at all.. he was rite... i overlooked it. hrmm.. good exp earned. =)

told some1 a really big secret of mine today. that till today on 3 of my frens who noes. sigh... think i'll get black mailed by em pretty soon. hahahaha mus treat em well man...

oh yah~ sad sad sad... i jus realise my frens are flying off here and there!!! rah. one on 6th, set on 8th and bear think on 7th~!!!!! i hate tis.sigh. i wanna send em off!!! but de one on 6th cant make it. cos got stupid sat~!!!!
talk about sat test.. i haven study yet.. haben get de book also! rah.. tis is bad. i nid to get em tml... hope there's still some left. sigh.. i dunwan to go buy... no money le... bleai.

sigh.. mr yong passed away... ~~` i dunno wat to say. wasn't particularly closed to him. but made me realised that some things really cant be predicted in life.... someone told me today, neva regret what u do. perhaps it's de same as do things such that u leave no room for regrets. =)

this few days i learnt alot alot alot. more than i'll ever do in ANY classroom.
thankz LKK~

hahaha

cheers.

wr

well..
bad day today.
might haf 2 things tt cause tis.
may be 'a' or 'b'
hahaha
both confidential..
k k
i noe everyone throwin stones at my way... but everyone has some things that cannot be said yeah?
sigh.

i ask him to see my blog, he say i can publish book le. i take that as a compliment.
guess i'm really physically and mentally tired today to think of how i feel today.
hahaha

i'm goin thru yet another phase of change in my life.
as a gemini, tis happens rather frequently ah? but it's qt a drastic on tis time.
today i realise i can walk in town without worrying how pple look at me.
for de first time in my life i learn how to walk with confidence. it's not as tough as i tot... however that me might not last.

i realise not one 'me' lasts. i can be independent, cool, care free on moment and a bloody whiny girlish dependent childish girl de next. .. these changes are starting to make me think i haf split personality... perhaps i've not found who am i yet. hahaha or maybe my characteristics are simply "someone with everchanging characteristics."

k.. i'm starting to confuse myself.
haha

hahaha oh yah.. did i mention that my criteria for husband went up by a few notches. not that i think i haf betta qualities now.. perhaps it's due to de changing me again. hahah.. but one thing is that>> i realise generally guys in singapore will onli show their gentleman gesture towards the gers that their interested in (well some not even) so actually it's not de gerls instincts that's sharp, it's that u all are too obvious. or shld i say generally asian men. hrmm really not very attractive feature. budden again dey might get mistaken for leading de ger(s) on... so... poor guys. hahahahahah

sigh.
i'm not very aware of what i'm typing le...

i'm jus blabbering whateva that comes to my mind. as usual like what bear said.
anyway>> i'm not goin to be famous, and not many pple look at my blog. so if it's understandable can le..
lalalalalalla

oh... realised that during conversations, most of the time everyone is talking.. but not many listens. as in, everyone will wish to talk and share about their exp, their ideas, their views. but not much development on one person's topic. everyone wans to get their fair share of talking and no one is listening. so end up everyone goes home feeling neglected, lonely. like no one in de world understands.

perhaps it's onlie me.

hahaha i'd wish for some one who'd sit down beside me and listen and share all de stuff with me. but in de first place i dunnoe how to say what to say. sigh. i think i'm in a mess. total mess. i nid to pick up de bits and pieces in my life and instead i go ard telling ppl they're losin their focus in life...

well...
i will survive.

i wont lose my determination on de way, even if i lose my way. =)

wr

heh heh~
had a great day today
shld i say, it's a very significant day.
a day that my perspective changes. a day that i learn more than my 10 over years of studying.
=)

shant elaborate too much on wat i did
jus went to alter my gown and check out de manicure thing
and den went to meet my teacher to shop
hahaha
damn funni yah?
nah, had a great time talking to him lah. really taught me alot of stuff thru de conversation we had today
thankz man!

anyway>> was reading a really small book of zen at borders.
amazing .. de content was so .. dynamic? it's even smaller than a handfone. but when u think of wat it says, it's really amazing.
there's sumthing about breaking de illusions of life. not expecting too much, goin with de flow. accepting things as it is.
so many things but i cant rem much lah. sigh. shld haf bot it man... shall go searching for some other bks as well.
k shan't bore u all with my stupid sudden interest....

man.. my stomach is growling like mad! very hungry. yet to haf my dinner... god.. shall i jus haf instant noodles? i think i dun haf much choice anyway hahahahha

well.. nothing much to talk about.. hahahaha cos my stomach is really hungry...
if i'm still online i'll come back and up date again
=)

wr

hey
i got my prom gown today!
hrmm
mus say sorrie to my sis and her bf..
hai my sis not feeling well stil pei wo eh..
heng she felt betta halfway
*sinful*
sigh. still my fam best =)
so i did a nice thing today
hahaha i swpt my house floor today!!!
hahahaha it's been some time man....

anyway>> i love de gown. jus hope i dun look too out of place on de day.. hiak hiak hiak
=)

anyay>> alot of changes of plans. lazy to type

read a book today. chn book. really nice. by wu qing kang. hai cant agree with him more on somethings. ur atitude really changes frm time to time.
today u can be crazy over something. tml u'll be like, why de heck did i like dat in de first place? today u might think loving someone is de thing u're born to do, tml u'll feel u've wasted ur time on de person, love is no longer something that u hold on to so much. sighs. when u're into something, there's no rite or wrong. only aft u get over it, u can look at it seriously, assess de whole situation and wonder wat was wrong with u in de first place.

abit abstract. cos my language not as power. sigh. somethings, some people are born with the talent of writing, of sharing their tots. mine are meant to be kept.

author mention somehting about songs representing a phase in one's life. do i haf any particular songs that come to mind fr time to time? i suppose. i can think of some now. but so? are u goin to live in de memories of de songs, to live in de pass? or move on. i haf to learn to move on. so many things waiting for me to exp out there. i'll move on. =) everyone learn to pick em'self up yah? tt's wat we did when we're a baby. why cant we do it now?

shant act chim le.
my sis and bf bot me a sweater!
=)
they're really very sweet. they're de onli couple i can go out with now... de rest jus too sweet for me.

everyone: i'm allergic to sweetness now. i might sound about ultra sensitive to u. but rest assure i'll jus move away when i sense i cant take it. i mean. i might sound idiotic running away, trying to look hurt broken sad. i'm not. i jus cant stand de sound sight feel of sweetness. jus ignore me man.

=)

life is great
i'm loving it.

wr

hey hey hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm officially out of jc!
wahhahahahahahhahahahahahha

k let's not talk about de phy ppr today...
one word. sux.

anyway>>
wahhahaha bot my prom shoes today!
wahahahhahahahah my sister say it's goin to hurt my feet
but it's so far the nicest pair le lah...

hrmm on my way back my little aunt offered to sponsor me a new gown
so i dun haf to wear my sis's
as much as i think my sis's is nice.. hrmm
dunnoe leh.. shld i get a new one?
i'll go see tml ba....

anyway>> someone jus ask me what's de point of staying together with him aft what i wrote in my blog... i say see how.. and he say's i'm running away from it..
i also dunnoe eh
i'm so undecisive when it comes to relationship.
i really wonder so much about our relationship.
i neva get a satisfied ans. not even when we sit down and talk about it.
i dun think i noe what's a satisfied ans.
am i waiting for a betta guy to come my way? am i waiting for him to change for de betta? am i staying becos i still feel for him? or am i jus staying cos we've come so far, we've gotten so used to each other that might as well jus stay together?
sigh.
i dunnoe.
i dun feel like thinkin about it.
i wonder alot of things.

that day mr goh say, mayb ur bf got another gf outside tht's why he got no time for u.
maybe.
i'm not sure anymore.

am i painting a very bad picture of him here?
i dun mean to.
he's nice.
he think of my when he saw de alpha bear. he bot me de alpha bear. i put it on our photo frame.
he'll say nice things once in a while.
well.. supposedly when we're out .. i think we'll still oke..

=)
shan't think too much.

anyway>> i got company. like he said, we'll haf our own time when we're not together. he say he wont interfere with me and my frens and he dunwan me to interfere...

lallalalala
dunnoe lah. jus fin exams dun tax my brain too much.
anyway>> as much as i write he wont see
as much as he see, he wont change. as much as he change, he wont remain.
so~
no point.

yup!
freedom here i come! hahahhahahah i've got so much to do!
so little time and resources!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no money! no money no money!

any rich guy out there?!
hahahahha rich and old is good!
LOL
yeah..
my sis's is kbing for de comp le
whahahaha
bye la!

love u all!
hugz

cheers

hiak hiak hiak~
i feeling damn guilty.
hahaha
went to set's house's gym and swim eh~ budden hor whahahaa
i eating alot .. very bad..
LOL...
nuthin much happen
jus that i think its damn hard to score for phys now lah..
hahaha
plus i already holiday mood le~
zhe me ban!!!! cannot mus start studying tml... hrmm
i good ger =)
maybe got free japanese dinner nez sat~~ muahahahhaa
i think i damn cheapo lah
but u noe, even sometimes pple wanna treat i also dun gif face one k~
so i still see who's treating
wahhahaa
hrmmm

well
act, when i'm so occupied, i dun really haf a chance to think of alot of stuff..
wahhahaha
so i got nuthin to talk about today~

oh yah
did i mention today is de first time i run on treadmill~
wahhahahaa
interesting.

wahha
i goin to eat le
bye la!

oh yah
mus thank setiawan for de hospitality~
thank yoU~

cheers

jus realise wat i typed in chinese din came out..
mayb it's a good thing..

wanted to write in chn... but realised i shldn't be wasting my time typing hypy..
but.. yeah
anyway>>
was super tired today aft meeting niang niang at mos for some phy revision
wasnt very productive thou...
yup
we left immediately when i spotted the ever famous �讪王。de guy who can talk and seat at any seat no matter who's sitting there and no matter wheter ppl mind or not.

on my way home.. tot about the few reasons that can make me feel like goin home or miss home like mad..
firstly, when i'm super duper tired, physically, mentally wateva. jus hide away from de world in my bed. surrounded by the people that care for me de most out of the dunnoe how many billion zillion ppl in de world.
secondly, when i'm extremely happy or sad. extremely happy cos i wanna share it with my fam. no one can appreciate what i feel for betta than my fam, esp my sister~ muahahhaha i mean my eldest sister, currently she's one of de closest person i am bonded to.. *sadly* muahahha. when i'm sad my fam gif me de best listening ear.. i almost forgot.. when i'm angry~!! hahaha they sympathize with me ze most...

thirdly, when i achieve something, the first thing i'll do is to send an sms home.. thru out tis year, i neva fail to imagine de day when i get my a's result and immediately calling all my fam members to tell them good news, that i've done well and got wat i worked so hard for.. but now it seems it's gonna stay as a dream.. but .. i'lll cont to work hard. cont to do what i can to make them proud of me!

forthly, i'll run home when i nid some space to breathe... from all de pple, rules, and what not that close in on u once in a while... at home i dun haf to pretend, i can joke all i wan and say wat i wanna say. i can be less afraid to offend pple. cos they noe me, they noe how i talk how i act, how harmless i am. wont get misunderstood by my fam.

rite.. sounds like i'm taking full advantage of my fam members yeah? hahaha some more stuff that's even worse.. like taking allowance and asking my mum to da bao lunch back summore whahaha .. this is what fam's for... we shld not be afraid that we are taken advantage of, that even so, even we get grumpy about it. we noe we'll still goin to give in to each other becos we're a family. i love my fam... cant help wondering what wld i haf turn out to be if i weren't born here... hahahaa
muackZ
i love them.

haha yah.. den my tots drift to, my bf shld gif me such a feeling. as mention above, like whenever i'm down and out, he's there for me. vice versa. whenever i get excited over something i can share with him. whenever i haf probs he'll be there to share de burden with me, even if he can onli sit there and listen. get angry with me cos someone bully me, or at least pretend to be. hahaha...
i think i'm still waiting for one person to be lydat~ wah.. den i'll propose to him
wahhaha..

sigh.
i neva fail to wonder, are we wasting our time together? are we jus being together for de sake of staying together? like he said, we've been together for a year plus, got feeling. so what is tis suppose to mean? def he does not fit my criteria for a potential partner...
我现在深深的体会到，什么��∶�先了解自己，了解自己�什么，�能够找到自己的幸�。
i dunno what i want. i'm so afraid tt hist will repeat itself. that i will start to get pissed off when i see him with someone else. then realise that there's actually no prob btw me and him.
prob with me is i haf a very bad memory. i usually dun rem what we quarrel about and all de unhappines..
but de prob btw us is so intangible, i cant pin point it out. but i noe the prob has always been there, coming back to haunt us every now and then. some times we'll quarrel but nuthin ever came out of anything.
也许�观和逃��是一线之差。也许看似�观的我，�会逃�，没有勇气�对问题。没想到我如此懦弱。。。

hai. i really dunno how and what shld i do to get a good solution to all my prob. issit possible to get rid of every single of ur worry? read a quote somewhere, it says 'if one day we wake up and everyone was of a same race, same religion, same color. we'll look for sumthing else to discriminate about.' it applies to our probs as well.. even if u solve some, u'll soon find urself more things to worry bout...

does that means we shldnt solve them?

wr

heylo~!
muahahaha
today went sch to fin mr goh~
hrmmm
had alot of stuff to ask him manZ.. took me one hr to fin..
and it's onli mcq..
how?!

anyway>> can confirm he's not leaving yj nez year le
wahahah yj damn lucky lah
think the phy department will zhen zhen re shang...

hemo hemo
anyway
on my way home.. i suddenly felt super hungry.. as those like jus recover from sickness lydat.. weak kind of hunger..
scary~
den i came home to eat maggie.. sob sob.. so ke lian rite? no body take care is lydat one.. sigh..
den aft i ate i went to sleep!!! totally coma man.. neva sleep so sound since dunnoe when...

talk about sleeping
did i mention i've been getting hrm.. not very nice dreams latelY?
sigh.. think i've been thinking too much lately... cannot run away from reality even in dreams.. who can come help me!!??

sighhh
oh yeahh..
i must do well for phY!!!!!
muahahaha
i think i've said that b4..
but.. haiii sian~
this yr cambridge like not very happy with my batch eh...
dunnoe wat kind of sai ppr will come out....

i've been qt unfeeling lately... shall elaborate nez time..
sigh

13 and counting down to days of liberation..
i hope i can enjoy fully when all these end....

cheers

hrmm
fin 2 subjects yesterday...
i think not very optimistic eh
but i'd rather not think about it..
totally no feeling or mayb i'm hidding from my fears lah...
dun even dare to hear any comments from anyone..
try my best to comfort those who say they're gonna flop..
but jiang lai jiang qu.. only can say, if u think it's tough , others will think it was as well..
but we all noe its not true.. there's bound to be some idert who can surpass everyone and conquer the impossible... damn those iderts lah.. i jus hope that there's not many of those iderts...

moreover, one still haf to consider the fact that one may make stupid mistakes.. haii.. let's not think so much..

oh yeah.. i'm beginning to enjoy my phy revision.. hahaha
find phy damn interesting. yet again. for one period i act lost de touch lah.. now it's coming back.. hopefully it'll stay till my pprs are over...

i got nuthing much to say liao..
starting to haf lose feeling about everything..
jus sit and stare when pprs are over..
wonder if tis is a good sign...
scary~

now i jus hope to step into university..
pleas dun let me disappoint my fam members...

cheers

hahaha this song shows the diff bw females and males..
but hrmm seems to be rather bias huh~ rahhhh
but anyhow.. nice
muahahha
男女之间
曲：黄舒骏 | 词：黄舒骏 | 编：
女人最怕男人是一堆沙猪 男人最怕女人脑袋像浆糊
女人通常都是感情的动物 男人大半都是生活的侏儒
女人可以爱的义无反顾 男人只能爱到相当程度
女人失恋容易另寻出路 男人失恋可就万劫不复
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人对爱要求需索无度 男人总是显得马马虎虎
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人的泪可以融化冰雪 男人的哭却是山崩地裂
女人的坚强是金石不变 男人的温柔是沧海一粟
女人的胸前是男人的家 男人的肩膀是女人的床
女人希望男人像一棵大树 男人渴望的是精神支柱
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人说谎保证是天衣无缝 男人说谎终究是百密一疏
女人懂得演戏是一种天赋 男人永远败在经验不足
女人认为爱情是一种付出 男人总是把它当作一种征服
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束

very nice song.. hahaa very funnie.. try reading de lyrics yeah?
damn cute.

恋爱症候群
曲：黄舒骏 | 词：黄舒骏 | 编：
关于恋爱症候群的发生原因 至今仍然是最大一个谜
不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型 没有一个人可以免疫
有些专家学者研究后相信 恋爱是内分泌失调所引起
却有别人认为恋爱属于滤过性病毒 像感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈
不管你同不同意 自古到今许多例子证明 恋爱不但是一种病态
它还可能是一种变态 一般发病后的初期反应会开始改变一些生活习性
洗澡洗得特别干净 刷牙刷得特别用力 半夜突然爬起来弹钢琴
有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑 有人突然疯疯癫癫 突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆 对着镜子咬着指甲打喷嚏 有人对着小狗骂三字经
女人突然改变发型 男人开始每天练着哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖抽筋都出现在这时期
随着病情越来越变本加厉 人会变得格外敏感勇敢和恶心
写的说的唱的都像天才诗人一般才华洋溢 愈肉麻愈觉得有趣
有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣 有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方 像做了不可告人的事情
每天忙着找人算命 挖空心思改变自己 配合对方的习性
把每天都当作纪念日 把自己当作纪念品 每天漫无目的的腻在一起
言不及意也觉得好有趣 走着坐着躺着趴着都形影不离
像是两人三脚又像连体婴 心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米 也不管路上有人示威抗议 只管爱你
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你 也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管衣索匹亚多少难民 只管爱你 经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期
不久就会开始渐渐痊愈 两人开始互相厌倦 互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜蜜都随风而去 然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒 惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
为了爱情不管一切 不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟 开始感到后悔不已
然后开始感到疲惫沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴燥四肢麻痹 终于受不了要分离
虽然结果颇令人伤心 了解之后也没什么了不起 爱情终究是握不住的云
只是我想要告诉你 哦......在我落寞的岁月里 你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜 如此颤动着我的心灵 轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管是黑夜或是黎明 不管是梦中或是清醒 深深爱你
我要对你说爱你爱你爱你爱你 不管是黑夜或是黎明 不管是梦中或是清醒
深深爱你 多么幸福 让我遇见你 呜......

it's goin to 4
tml is my a's papers..
i hope i can do it
cos i've been studying
dunnoe if it's adequate thou..
sigh
i goin for a nap soon
and waking up to study
cos i'm really totally sick of econs..
but i nid to do well
so no choice...
i hope i dun blank out tml..

anyway i'm really damn angry with chris.
argh
hrmphf
change bf liao!
idert

well
maybe i'm very unreasonable
but i'm having my exams eh!
wateva man.. i've been trying to calm myself down with chants.. it's actually working
i feel peace..
so peaceful that i feel like sleeping
all thanks to my unker for burning de mp3 for me
whahaha
i'm goin mad

reading some gp stuff
shall cont blogging on thurs..
hate my life.

damn
wr

hey... i'm totally drain of energy
haben been sleeping well since de dat b4 yesterday..
online to check if mdm lee send me anything

talk about lee.. she rather sad case lah
she fell sick and still come back for us..
den talk and talk till she wanna coff to death liaoo..
suddenly i feel bad about disliking her all this while..
sigh..
shall gif her some yan wo if i ever do well for econs
wahhaha
tt's if i do well for econs.. or rather satisfactory for me lah..
sighhh
future damn bleak eh.. how?
k k.. i noe all those out there saying "there we go again..."
but.. i jus cant help it lah...
i still think anything lesser than a's and b's is not good leh
shit man..
i nid to sleep... .. and soon...

btw.. bear told me something about an american prof making analysis of singaporean student.
that they look lifeless as they haf their lunch while de american students haf so much fun while eating their lunch
i made an observation today too!
i realised that adults are also expressionless when they go home from work..
or mayb all de time..
think that lead to everyone talking less in sg and then resulting in lack of ability to express ourselves...
sigh...

anyway..
who cares.

goin to sleep..
cheers.

YOyOYoYoy
i'm online~!!!
wahhahaha
feels like a caveman now eh..
anyhow..
suffered from depression on saturday ..
some how..
i couldnt get to sleep
and couldn't study
so.. totally freak out.

all thankZ to my sweet~ bf for tucking me in on sunday and meeting me for movie
now i feel so much betta~
thank u!!!! muacK
wahahhaa
oh yah
mus comment on his good efforts to send me msges everyday aft my endless complaints that i cannot feel my bf's presence~
thankZ for addressing my complains?
wahhaha k k.. he is now a great bf.. presently~ wahhaha

k k
enough of mushiness...

i went joggin today!!!! erm.. not exactly joggin long long dist
but after being told by 2 teachers i got a green face .. hrmm i think i nid to do abit of exercise and relax a bit.
more over mr woo tell me go walk walk.
so i walk abit faster yah?
anyway>> very bad timing lah
cant jog on de road side during 5 plus
can die of inhaling too much carbon monoxide
i think half my lungs become black liao...
talk about externalities...
muahahaha

finally fin with my International trade..
shall fin my econs topics tml
and read up all essays and all case studies...
den thurs and fri dedicated to my maths..
and meanwhile.. i die die haf to read some phy... all dat i did last time..
if not i think i'll be murdered by goh when i get my results...

hrmmm
tml got bloody gp timepiece
argh
essayz
wat de heck
i feel like sleeping already!
damn...
how?

lalalla
sleeping too much
doin too lil
wahhahaha
think i'll go sleep at 1230 today
shld slowly adjust to 11 befor monday comes..
jus in case i cant sleep again..
rahh
mayb i shld get some sleeping pills..

cant wait for this night mare to be over..
anyway>>
i realise that everytime i jog or walk alone, i tend to think of stuffs that i neva think b4...
cant really express that very well
so shall jus keep em to myself...

anyway>> was wonderin as well.. can someone tell me why toilet bowls haf no handles like what we haf on chairs or rather arm chairs? i mean we are suppose to feel relaxed when we shit yeah?

hrmm signing off~~
sorry for updating so late~
hrmmm
still wondering how to put de tag thingy
any help?

cheers