it is 217am, just had a few drinks...sleepy now but i just dunwanna go to sleep :p
really puzzled by something.. was having fun but was made to come back because i've gotta help my mom tml. sigh...i haven been waking up at 630 am for a very very long time, doubt i'll be able to wake up tml.. rahhhh
Until now, i still dun understand why i have to go help when i'm totally of no help at all. Just because they think it is fair to have a roster? i mean it isn't fair that i'm doin the housework myself, it isn't fair that i've to take care of my younger sister now and then. Just because they give like 100 or 50 to my parents a month, therefore i have to help at the stall? sian..
come'on what is fair? crap. i don't complain about her painting someone else's house while i have to do spring cleaning all alone (altho i haven started;p) freak.. does it mean i have a stable bf den i can dont do housework? Please, i'll go ROM tml man.
Freak.
and i cant say all these in front of my mom/parents, because it'll break their heart. to see that i simply don't wanna help out. not that i look down on what they do but i just cant do it... i cannot recognise faces, i cannot rem seat numbers or the order. i just cant. I've tried for 6 years or more, and it has been proven again and again, it is just not my cup of tea... why must they brood over something call 'fairness'?????? I do NOT understand. i do do my fair share of housework.
sigh....
darn.
i wanna go sleep and dream....
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Happy new year everyone!!!!! :D
Had a really good time yesterday at PKS, so many nice things happened to me. I was blessed by his Emminence in the blessing session in the afternoon whereas those who went in the evening wasn't. Anyhow, i'm sure his blessing went out to all of them as well. :p After chanting for the whole afternoon from 1515hrs onwards (had dinner break thou), the session ended with His Emminence jumping with joy, literally, with the number of times the scripture was chanted for the week - 200 over million times. The funny part is when all the other lamas were afraid he might fall, because His Emminence was 80++ and has weak legs. :p
He jumped and threw the shawl, signifying that he blessed all who have attended the session. It was a very simple gesture, but there was something that touched me. His simplicity, he was so real, his smile was so sincere, so true. As they walked around the hall, everyone was on their knees. It was so grand, yet i'm sure it was neva meant to, not planned by the organisers to create effect. The reality of that scene touched me and brought me on the verge of tears. :d
The purity in His smile, is very very beautiful.
After the session, i had to help out at the 'spiritual countdown' in PKS as well. Hee, yvette and i were given collectively a very very creative name "Shoe-girls" (sugars) because we were in charge of giving out shoe bags and collecting them. Ahahah i tot it was brilliant, took me a while to understand the pun thou, one long while. The work was minimum, din take up a lot of effort :p Most of my time was spent having fun, eating, talking, standing around, singing, clapping!! posting for pictures! !
I took picture with nix shen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(shen wei jun!!!) hahahaha i cant wait to get the pictures of the event!!! LOL still pretty excited over yesterday i guess. Did really crasy stuff like those times in SN, dancing, jumping around, cheering!!! I have to admit the group spirit is enticing :) so enticing that my sister has been expressing alot of interest. And poor me, will be the one bringing her if she has to go for the events. It is times like this when i hate myself for being soft, why did i bring her there in the first place?! Rahhhh because she will neva understand she is causing trouble for another person, she will think it is her right to be escorted everywher by her very busy sister. Sigh, shall not let her take up so much space in my blog LOL..
Have to go out soon to meet niang niang!!! yeah, it is a good new year, nice weather (cool), nice songs(michael buble) in my laptop, nice orange juice (sunkist), got lunch waiting for me.. LOL, ain't i lucky? :p Don't be too jealous k?
May the new year be full of new possibilities for everyone...
BTW I'm 21 this year u noe? Heeeee
regards,
WR
Had a really good time yesterday at PKS, so many nice things happened to me. I was blessed by his Emminence in the blessing session in the afternoon whereas those who went in the evening wasn't. Anyhow, i'm sure his blessing went out to all of them as well. :p After chanting for the whole afternoon from 1515hrs onwards (had dinner break thou), the session ended with His Emminence jumping with joy, literally, with the number of times the scripture was chanted for the week - 200 over million times. The funny part is when all the other lamas were afraid he might fall, because His Emminence was 80++ and has weak legs. :p
He jumped and threw the shawl, signifying that he blessed all who have attended the session. It was a very simple gesture, but there was something that touched me. His simplicity, he was so real, his smile was so sincere, so true. As they walked around the hall, everyone was on their knees. It was so grand, yet i'm sure it was neva meant to, not planned by the organisers to create effect. The reality of that scene touched me and brought me on the verge of tears. :d
The purity in His smile, is very very beautiful.
After the session, i had to help out at the 'spiritual countdown' in PKS as well. Hee, yvette and i were given collectively a very very creative name "Shoe-girls" (sugars) because we were in charge of giving out shoe bags and collecting them. Ahahah i tot it was brilliant, took me a while to understand the pun thou, one long while. The work was minimum, din take up a lot of effort :p Most of my time was spent having fun, eating, talking, standing around, singing, clapping!! posting for pictures! !
I took picture with nix shen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(shen wei jun!!!) hahahaha i cant wait to get the pictures of the event!!! LOL still pretty excited over yesterday i guess. Did really crasy stuff like those times in SN, dancing, jumping around, cheering!!! I have to admit the group spirit is enticing :) so enticing that my sister has been expressing alot of interest. And poor me, will be the one bringing her if she has to go for the events. It is times like this when i hate myself for being soft, why did i bring her there in the first place?! Rahhhh because she will neva understand she is causing trouble for another person, she will think it is her right to be escorted everywher by her very busy sister. Sigh, shall not let her take up so much space in my blog LOL..
Have to go out soon to meet niang niang!!! yeah, it is a good new year, nice weather (cool), nice songs(michael buble) in my laptop, nice orange juice (sunkist), got lunch waiting for me.. LOL, ain't i lucky? :p Don't be too jealous k?
May the new year be full of new possibilities for everyone...
BTW I'm 21 this year u noe? Heeeee
regards,
WR
Saturday, December 31, 2005
hmmm 31 of dec 2005 - last blog of this year. Pretty sure this is it because i will be out from 1pm onwards and will not be back till after 12midnight. Not because i'm going for some orchard countdown but helping out at pks.
I'm still listening to 'Union' since i got it yesterday.. Hahaha really nice way to start the day. :p
Well well well... What am i goin to blog about? I need to leave house by 1245 to give tuition. Then will make my way to pks cos my uncle says there's blessing at 3pm. Hmm.. Initially i tot they needed people to help out, turn out he asked me to go be blessed ;p den i told him, i din chant for the world for the whole week and now i go down to be blessed... tt's very singaporean. HAHAHAH don't give but take. He told me to go down for next year then. Sigh since i've re-arranged my tuition to an earlier date, might as well go down earlier. Moreover, my uncle, aunt-in-law, aunt, sister and Sinz will be there! hee Like to be doing things with my fam actually LOL..
Talk about religion and fam, my younger uncle said he wanted to read the bible. hahaha and the other day when the computer hang as he was playing computer game he said "if god wants me to rest, den i probably should" Hahaha i was like "Like u'll listen to Him." "you don't know i believe in God now meh?"
I din. Told him i have a bible, shall pass it to him later.
I believe religion does a person good. Any one can. Believing there is a higher power will keep people's lives on track, more discipline, more loving, nicer. Religions usually provide a reason for us being living in the world now, what is the greater cause of it. Just that the stubborn person in me refuse to listen to anything. ;p
My fickle mind, my want to be different, i believe all gods are real and one and the same one. Like how pre-historic chinese people make gods out of mountains and rivers because of their knowledge, or lack of it and their background. People of everywhere saw the supreme being through the lens of their own culture. Hence the difference in appearance.
Teaching wise, every religion speaks about being caring, compassionate, love mankind and a heaven.. Of cos, there are major differences in terms of rituals, execution of these goals. But i jus it is because of human subjectivity and after so many years, the divergence simply grew bigger.
I don't mean to offend anyone of any religion thou. Jus my lil tot.
I might look a lil crasy to think this way... Think about it, wat's the point of differentiating you are from this religion, i'm from that. *shrugs* The only time there is a difference is when the people have a false sense of superiority, i guess. This competitive nature only exists in humans right? I don't know, i'd like to think that the god/s up there, that i'm believing in, is/are magnanimous and forgiving. I guess every organisation has measures in place to prevent outflow of members, religion is no exception. :p i think i better stop the topic here before i get killed.
I love the song...
Listen, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as one
I don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of one
It takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows another one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing
(Union - BEP, Feat. Sting)
Let's change on the count of three.
In the new year, i hope i become a nicer person. less temper, more love. More positive energy. A more caring person, less bossy. :p More appreciative of the people around me.
Then maybe the world will become a better place in 2100... :p
I'm still listening to 'Union' since i got it yesterday.. Hahaha really nice way to start the day. :p
Well well well... What am i goin to blog about? I need to leave house by 1245 to give tuition. Then will make my way to pks cos my uncle says there's blessing at 3pm. Hmm.. Initially i tot they needed people to help out, turn out he asked me to go be blessed ;p den i told him, i din chant for the world for the whole week and now i go down to be blessed... tt's very singaporean. HAHAHAH don't give but take. He told me to go down for next year then. Sigh since i've re-arranged my tuition to an earlier date, might as well go down earlier. Moreover, my uncle, aunt-in-law, aunt, sister and Sinz will be there! hee Like to be doing things with my fam actually LOL..
Talk about religion and fam, my younger uncle said he wanted to read the bible. hahaha and the other day when the computer hang as he was playing computer game he said "if god wants me to rest, den i probably should" Hahaha i was like "Like u'll listen to Him." "you don't know i believe in God now meh?"
I din. Told him i have a bible, shall pass it to him later.
I believe religion does a person good. Any one can. Believing there is a higher power will keep people's lives on track, more discipline, more loving, nicer. Religions usually provide a reason for us being living in the world now, what is the greater cause of it. Just that the stubborn person in me refuse to listen to anything. ;p
My fickle mind, my want to be different, i believe all gods are real and one and the same one. Like how pre-historic chinese people make gods out of mountains and rivers because of their knowledge, or lack of it and their background. People of everywhere saw the supreme being through the lens of their own culture. Hence the difference in appearance.
Teaching wise, every religion speaks about being caring, compassionate, love mankind and a heaven.. Of cos, there are major differences in terms of rituals, execution of these goals. But i jus it is because of human subjectivity and after so many years, the divergence simply grew bigger.
I don't mean to offend anyone of any religion thou. Jus my lil tot.
I might look a lil crasy to think this way... Think about it, wat's the point of differentiating you are from this religion, i'm from that. *shrugs* The only time there is a difference is when the people have a false sense of superiority, i guess. This competitive nature only exists in humans right? I don't know, i'd like to think that the god/s up there, that i'm believing in, is/are magnanimous and forgiving. I guess every organisation has measures in place to prevent outflow of members, religion is no exception. :p i think i better stop the topic here before i get killed.
I love the song...
Listen, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as one
I don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of one
It takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows another one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing
(Union - BEP, Feat. Sting)
Let's change on the count of three.
In the new year, i hope i become a nicer person. less temper, more love. More positive energy. A more caring person, less bossy. :p More appreciative of the people around me.
Then maybe the world will become a better place in 2100... :p
The song in my last post is Union by Black Eyed Peas (feat. Sting). Can't explain it but i just love this song the first time i heard it. At first it was only because of the upbeat-ness of the song, den i went to look for the lyrics - very meaningful indeed. I've got to say, BEP is really talented. Another song to intro is 'Home' by Michael Buble. His voice is so sexy that you'll simply get lost listening to him*GRINZ*
Listening to so many songs because of the new ipod nano that my sister lent me. she got it for christmas, and she told me i could play with it... I've been wondering what she meant by 'play with it'. Does it mean i get to use it? or does it mean i jus load the songs in, learn how to use it, teach her and tt's it? *sulkz* Anyhow din manage to do anything to it until today, 5 days after xmas. Very unlike me, who likes to meddle with such things once they fall into my hands. I guess i din wanna touch it mostly cos it's not mine. Hahah anyhow my sister asked me to load songs in yday. So loaded the songs in my com into it.. And i carried it around today!!!!!!!!! hahaha k, kind of cool. Felt really good with it. LOL i guess i'm a convert. Used to hate ipod because so many people are carrying it. i liked Zen because it is made in Singapore (k not technically, but the brand is). But Nano has won me over, it is so slick!!!!! yet it can store like 4 Gigs of songs if i rem it correctly. Call me swaku (mountain turtle) but i was most fascinated by the touch pad. hahahahah the way u scroll up and down and adjust the vol.. I thought it was genius. And the packaging was simply awesome. Everything, up to the earphone covers, were packed nicely in white plastic pockets, sealed. (duh) Look like the way medical supplies are packed, e.g. syringes etc. Everything was put nicely in a box which was black in the outside but white in the inside.. The whole thing was screaming CLASS to me..
I'm sorry creative, i wanted to stay loyal to our product. I guess you cant give youngsters wat they wan, you need to create something for them to want.
Saw my SN friend today. Very glad i still get to meet her once in a while and feel like i can tell her anything :D How many friends do i really have to do this.. i think 4? LOL yeah... strictly speaking 2 but yeah... Gotta say someting really cliche here: Time really flies. I got to know her since sec 3, when i was 15. I'm already 20 goin on 21.. and so SO SOOOO many things have happened to her, me and both of us within this 5 years plus... Don't know what is going to happen tomorrow, but i'm sure glad i've got a friend like her, my diary. Thank you KW :D Oh yeah, by the way she don't read my blog LOL so yeah... I don't know why i'm writing this..
Asked Mr Paul to pick me up after my little session with KW and Mel. Hee.. He very nicely obliged, even though he was very tired after a wedding dinner. Thank you Mr Paul. And i very unreasonably asked him to drop mel off at Payar Lebar, when i stay in Yishun. Sorry Mr Paul. Feel so bad :p I don't know about other girls, but i like to ask my bf to drop my friends off.. Most of the time, it is already very late, and my friend happened to be girls as well. And on the other hand, people will think my bf is very very nice and love me very very much to be willing to send him/her all the way to XXX place. :p hahah i'll just feel very loved when my bf drop me home at the end of the day. Rahhhhh Thank you Mr Paul Heee
I guess i'm goin to sleep soon.
Another 20 hours, the year is goin to end, again.
What have i achieved this year? What am i goin to do next year? Where is my life leading me?
When the clock strikes 12 tonight, i will be 6 months closer to being an adult. 21.. How time flies. I'm actually starting to feel scared. I don't feel ready to handle the big 21. All the responsibilities that will come with that, the problems i have to face...
My tuition kid told me this story:
There was a monk who needed to go to the dentist the next day. Being very traumatised by dentists when he was young (as we all were), he was worried sick for the whole day. He cound neither sleep, nor eat. Then come the next day, the monk woke up with little sleep, washed up and was about to leave the house when he received a call. He was told that the dentist will not be free on the day hence his appointment will be changed to the following friday.
Moral of the story:
Don't worry about things that hasn't happen. Dont bother thinking about things you cant control. Dont brood over things that have passed.
My kid has more wisdom than me. :D I try to learn from them too.
Regards,
Wenrong
Listening to so many songs because of the new ipod nano that my sister lent me. she got it for christmas, and she told me i could play with it... I've been wondering what she meant by 'play with it'. Does it mean i get to use it? or does it mean i jus load the songs in, learn how to use it, teach her and tt's it? *sulkz* Anyhow din manage to do anything to it until today, 5 days after xmas. Very unlike me, who likes to meddle with such things once they fall into my hands. I guess i din wanna touch it mostly cos it's not mine. Hahah anyhow my sister asked me to load songs in yday. So loaded the songs in my com into it.. And i carried it around today!!!!!!!!! hahaha k, kind of cool. Felt really good with it. LOL i guess i'm a convert. Used to hate ipod because so many people are carrying it. i liked Zen because it is made in Singapore (k not technically, but the brand is). But Nano has won me over, it is so slick!!!!! yet it can store like 4 Gigs of songs if i rem it correctly. Call me swaku (mountain turtle) but i was most fascinated by the touch pad. hahahahah the way u scroll up and down and adjust the vol.. I thought it was genius. And the packaging was simply awesome. Everything, up to the earphone covers, were packed nicely in white plastic pockets, sealed. (duh) Look like the way medical supplies are packed, e.g. syringes etc. Everything was put nicely in a box which was black in the outside but white in the inside.. The whole thing was screaming CLASS to me..
I'm sorry creative, i wanted to stay loyal to our product. I guess you cant give youngsters wat they wan, you need to create something for them to want.
Saw my SN friend today. Very glad i still get to meet her once in a while and feel like i can tell her anything :D How many friends do i really have to do this.. i think 4? LOL yeah... strictly speaking 2 but yeah... Gotta say someting really cliche here: Time really flies. I got to know her since sec 3, when i was 15. I'm already 20 goin on 21.. and so SO SOOOO many things have happened to her, me and both of us within this 5 years plus... Don't know what is going to happen tomorrow, but i'm sure glad i've got a friend like her, my diary. Thank you KW :D Oh yeah, by the way she don't read my blog LOL so yeah... I don't know why i'm writing this..
Asked Mr Paul to pick me up after my little session with KW and Mel. Hee.. He very nicely obliged, even though he was very tired after a wedding dinner. Thank you Mr Paul. And i very unreasonably asked him to drop mel off at Payar Lebar, when i stay in Yishun. Sorry Mr Paul. Feel so bad :p I don't know about other girls, but i like to ask my bf to drop my friends off.. Most of the time, it is already very late, and my friend happened to be girls as well. And on the other hand, people will think my bf is very very nice and love me very very much to be willing to send him/her all the way to XXX place. :p hahah i'll just feel very loved when my bf drop me home at the end of the day. Rahhhhh Thank you Mr Paul Heee
I guess i'm goin to sleep soon.
Another 20 hours, the year is goin to end, again.
What have i achieved this year? What am i goin to do next year? Where is my life leading me?
When the clock strikes 12 tonight, i will be 6 months closer to being an adult. 21.. How time flies. I'm actually starting to feel scared. I don't feel ready to handle the big 21. All the responsibilities that will come with that, the problems i have to face...
My tuition kid told me this story:
There was a monk who needed to go to the dentist the next day. Being very traumatised by dentists when he was young (as we all were), he was worried sick for the whole day. He cound neither sleep, nor eat. Then come the next day, the monk woke up with little sleep, washed up and was about to leave the house when he received a call. He was told that the dentist will not be free on the day hence his appointment will be changed to the following friday.
Moral of the story:
Don't worry about things that hasn't happen. Dont bother thinking about things you cant control. Dont brood over things that have passed.
My kid has more wisdom than me. :D I try to learn from them too.
Regards,
Wenrong
[Chorus]
(One for all, one for all)
(It's all it's all for one)
Let's start a union, calling every human
It's one for all and all for one
Let's live in unison, calling every citizen
It's one for all and all for one
We don't want war- can't take no more
It's drastic time for sure
We need a antidote and a cure
Coz do you really think Mohammed got a problem with Jehovah
We don't want war – imagine if any prophet was alive
In current days amongst you and I
You think they would view life like you and I do
Or would they sit and contemplate on why
Do we live this way, act and behave this way
We still livin' primitive today
'Cause the peace in the destination of war can't be the way
There's no way, so people just be a woman, be a man
Realise that you can change the world by changing yourself
And understand that we're all just the same
So when I count to three let's change
[Chorus]
Got no time for grand philosophy
I barely keep my head above the tide
I got this mortgage, got three kids at school
What you're saying is the truth that really troubles me inside
I'd change the world if I could change my mind
If I could live beyond my fears
Exchanging unity for all my insecurity
Exchanging laughter for my tears
[Chorus]
I don't know, y'all, we in a real deposition
In the midst of all this negative condition
Divided by beliefs, differences and religion
Why do we keep missing the point on our mission?
Why do we keep killing each other, what's the reason?
God made us all equal in his vision
I wish that I could make music as a religion
Then we could harmonise together in this mission
Listen, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as one
I don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of one
It takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows another one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing
[Chorus]
(One for all, one for all)
(It's all it's all for one)
Let's start a union, calling every human
It's one for all and all for one
Let's live in unison, calling every citizen
It's one for all and all for one
We don't want war- can't take no more
It's drastic time for sure
We need a antidote and a cure
Coz do you really think Mohammed got a problem with Jehovah
We don't want war – imagine if any prophet was alive
In current days amongst you and I
You think they would view life like you and I do
Or would they sit and contemplate on why
Do we live this way, act and behave this way
We still livin' primitive today
'Cause the peace in the destination of war can't be the way
There's no way, so people just be a woman, be a man
Realise that you can change the world by changing yourself
And understand that we're all just the same
So when I count to three let's change
[Chorus]
Got no time for grand philosophy
I barely keep my head above the tide
I got this mortgage, got three kids at school
What you're saying is the truth that really troubles me inside
I'd change the world if I could change my mind
If I could live beyond my fears
Exchanging unity for all my insecurity
Exchanging laughter for my tears
[Chorus]
I don't know, y'all, we in a real deposition
In the midst of all this negative condition
Divided by beliefs, differences and religion
Why do we keep missing the point on our mission?
Why do we keep killing each other, what's the reason?
God made us all equal in his vision
I wish that I could make music as a religion
Then we could harmonise together in this mission
Listen, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as one
I don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of one
It takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows another one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing
[Chorus]
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Really soft song... I don't particularly like the lyrics but the song is really nice. I guess if i cant put the song on the blog den the next best alternative is to write the lyrics. Man, how pathetic.
Went to SNAVA chalet yesterday. Yes, i went to a chalet, and a pretty empty one. Because most of the girls went home instead. 4 people in a 4 bed chalet, how luxurious is that? Almost like a hotel exp, minus the beautiful scenery.
You know how it gets a little awkward to gather with people you haven seen for years? Not to mention they are of a different batch from you, the different experiences. I have to say that i din feel awkward at all there, almost at home. Although not everyone from the club was there (i will neva expect full attendance actually), those who were there were pretty pleasant. Erm, maybe it was because most of the time they were inside and i was outside BUT, at the very least, they din irritate me. HAHAHAHHAH :p
Current batches aside, the alumni girls were pretty cute. I wonder if Laodamia and I were too strict last time, they always seem a little frightened of us, except melissa of cos, who's a little eccentric. And she claims i'm weird. :p
Biggest discovery during the bbq, My sec two lit teacher, Mrs Sng, actually suspected me of being spastic when she taught me. NO JOKE. I was so hurt... Just because i had really short hair and always act innocent in front of teachers, she thinks i'm spastic. Dam*
Ohz, did i mention 4 teachers turned up for our little gathering? 2 ex SN teachers and 2 current teachers. So touched!!!!!!!! LOL the best thing is the 2 ex SN teachers will be working in Bouna Vista from Jan onwards, this means i can meet them for lunch or dinner :D *grins*
Hahaha i have no idea why i'll be meeting them, i mean after a while there won't be anything to say to them and vice versa. So yeah...
Yes, i still have many things to do .. and i still haven touched them.
Seeing dentist tml!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *JAW's music playin* *see ghost expression* Rahhh...
Sianed..
Happy holidays everyone.
HOpe ur life is not as boring as mine.
Boo
Regards,
WR
Went to SNAVA chalet yesterday. Yes, i went to a chalet, and a pretty empty one. Because most of the girls went home instead. 4 people in a 4 bed chalet, how luxurious is that? Almost like a hotel exp, minus the beautiful scenery.
You know how it gets a little awkward to gather with people you haven seen for years? Not to mention they are of a different batch from you, the different experiences. I have to say that i din feel awkward at all there, almost at home. Although not everyone from the club was there (i will neva expect full attendance actually), those who were there were pretty pleasant. Erm, maybe it was because most of the time they were inside and i was outside BUT, at the very least, they din irritate me. HAHAHAHHAH :p
Current batches aside, the alumni girls were pretty cute. I wonder if Laodamia and I were too strict last time, they always seem a little frightened of us, except melissa of cos, who's a little eccentric. And she claims i'm weird. :p
Biggest discovery during the bbq, My sec two lit teacher, Mrs Sng, actually suspected me of being spastic when she taught me. NO JOKE. I was so hurt... Just because i had really short hair and always act innocent in front of teachers, she thinks i'm spastic. Dam*
Ohz, did i mention 4 teachers turned up for our little gathering? 2 ex SN teachers and 2 current teachers. So touched!!!!!!!! LOL the best thing is the 2 ex SN teachers will be working in Bouna Vista from Jan onwards, this means i can meet them for lunch or dinner :D *grins*
Hahaha i have no idea why i'll be meeting them, i mean after a while there won't be anything to say to them and vice versa. So yeah...
Yes, i still have many things to do .. and i still haven touched them.
Seeing dentist tml!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *JAW's music playin* *see ghost expression* Rahhh...
Sianed..
Happy holidays everyone.
HOpe ur life is not as boring as mine.
Boo
Regards,
WR
Oohooh ooh oohooh ooh...
C'mon!
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
C'mon!
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
procrastinator...
i've got lotsa things waiting for me, i just cant bring myself to finish them..
1) Spring cleaning of the house
i've got to do this all by myself. My sisters are working, younger one isn't really very helpful. And my bf has decided not to help me out... sigh... my 4 room flat isn't very big, but still.. too big for me to spring clean...
2) YJ ALUMNI E-Newsletter
I've distributed the work out, but it is way too late to start writing in order to email it out in January.. Arghhh... I still have to put it together and send it out. Anyhow it is not within my control now. i'll just have to wait till fri and ask them for the write-ups.. den my stress will set in :(
3) Tuition
NEED another tuition assignment, but haven contacted any tuition agency yet. Matters are complicated because my aunt has a tuition assignment centre, and she has promised to help me with it. However things are taking a little too long because i'm so BROKE right now.. I'm living on the daily allowance my parents are giving me, which should be more than enough if i stay at home and not run around like i do. RAhhh. It is not helping when my current tuition kid is cancelling her lessons every week. *frustration*
4) Packed days
Isn't really something that i have to do, just something that adds on to my frustration. I'm goin to a chalet today (SNAVA - I HAVE TO PAY 20 DOLLARS!!!!) Thurs-hoping to leave it for paul, we'll see. Fri, i have dentist appointment and meeting dear KAIWEI for dinner i think. Really want to go out aft that, but we'll see whether i have enough money to go out :P. And... sat i've gotta go PKS to help out.
I wanna play game... do nothing at home i guess.. Yawns... read my book...
Suckz.
and school is reopening in 1.5weeks' time.
Oh and for all who wants to know how i did for exams: i did badly.
Results = devestation ever since i stepped into law school. Hardwork doesn't help. Not to mention hardwork + occassion game playing.
Byebye china exchange program. It is a little late to say i'm not suited for law so i guess i'll just say, i'm just not smart enough for law sch.. Suckz.
This is depressing.
this is life.
i've got lotsa things waiting for me, i just cant bring myself to finish them..
1) Spring cleaning of the house
i've got to do this all by myself. My sisters are working, younger one isn't really very helpful. And my bf has decided not to help me out... sigh... my 4 room flat isn't very big, but still.. too big for me to spring clean...
2) YJ ALUMNI E-Newsletter
I've distributed the work out, but it is way too late to start writing in order to email it out in January.. Arghhh... I still have to put it together and send it out. Anyhow it is not within my control now. i'll just have to wait till fri and ask them for the write-ups.. den my stress will set in :(
3) Tuition
NEED another tuition assignment, but haven contacted any tuition agency yet. Matters are complicated because my aunt has a tuition assignment centre, and she has promised to help me with it. However things are taking a little too long because i'm so BROKE right now.. I'm living on the daily allowance my parents are giving me, which should be more than enough if i stay at home and not run around like i do. RAhhh. It is not helping when my current tuition kid is cancelling her lessons every week. *frustration*
4) Packed days
Isn't really something that i have to do, just something that adds on to my frustration. I'm goin to a chalet today (SNAVA - I HAVE TO PAY 20 DOLLARS!!!!) Thurs-hoping to leave it for paul, we'll see. Fri, i have dentist appointment and meeting dear KAIWEI for dinner i think. Really want to go out aft that, but we'll see whether i have enough money to go out :P. And... sat i've gotta go PKS to help out.
I wanna play game... do nothing at home i guess.. Yawns... read my book...
Suckz.
and school is reopening in 1.5weeks' time.
Oh and for all who wants to know how i did for exams: i did badly.
Results = devestation ever since i stepped into law school. Hardwork doesn't help. Not to mention hardwork + occassion game playing.
Byebye china exchange program. It is a little late to say i'm not suited for law so i guess i'll just say, i'm just not smart enough for law sch.. Suckz.
This is depressing.
this is life.
Monday, December 19, 2005
hahaha let me complete my unfinished business from yday...
as i was saying,
those in-charge weren't doing what they were suppose to do, doing things from other portfolio.. Bad management. I'm not saying everyone should stick to their job and not help others. However, when you want to help, you got to at least finish what you need to cover right?
Moreover, the vice chair and chair always stick together, like bee see honey lydat. Friend, if you donno the portfolio of vice chair right, let me tell you. It is to be there when the chair is not around. When chair is talking to campers, you will give instructions to the organisers. When chair need to attend to outside matters, the vice will take charge of the camp. Pls, don't stick to each other like girls go to toilet. You are running a whole camp of 160 over people, you need each other's company?
K i might be too harsh..the reason why i always get pissed off is because i expect too much from others and too lil of myself. Big big problem of mine. Gotta do something about it. New year resolution :d
I guess this time the good outweighs the bad at the camp because i'm kind of missing the camp. haha can't believe thou, but i don't miss it like the sabah trip thou. I believe it is because of the very nice people whom i met there. Yvette, Liwei (hahaha must write his name ah, cos he is reading), lok wei, rock, chu feng and randal. Logs and games team. Made the waterbombs, put up the castle wall, carry things, lame jokes, ghost stories, slack, eat.. everything together..
i guess of all people in the camp, i learnt the most from them. I guess others may think they're just a bunch of slackers, bunch of followers, indifferent to many things. But i see something else. I see them as a bunch of givers, very selfless people.
Talked to Liwei on msn yday, i still rem what he said "as long as i do what i am suppose to do, the campers are happy, i'm satisfied already"
I don't know how many of the organisers go with this mindset. And how many of them can actually do things behind the scene, not expecting any recognition, watsoever, and their satisfaction is from the camper's laughter and enjoyment.
When they forgot to thank the logs team, i was angry for them. But the logs team wasn't a least bit affected as i saw it. They joked about it to Lawrence, 'Oei... every year lydat one, forget to thank us... Don't do already lah' but they were laughing.
When everyone, GLs and organisers included, asked us for the light sticks, Chu feng insisted that the campers take first. When there wasn't enough and the stupid in charges collected the light sticks back. Yvette went to dig out another bunch from the boxes.
SBMY should be very thankful they don't have a selfish logs team. At the rate they are goin, a selfish logs team wont last long. True, everyone has their forte. They don't like to relate to people, therefore they want to be in logs. Not to say that GLs and other people are useless, but how many people can go on so long without appreciation? Perhaps i do not know the real story behind. I can only say they have earned my respect. A group of guys more matured than they and others think they are.
On the last night, we had our dinner as the campers were having debriefing. i was lying on the floor while ang hwee talked to the three of them. I pretended to sleep because i din want to talk. (partly because i just want to lie down) He commented on each of their character and their desire to learn buddhism. He told them that their desire and determination was weak. As i thought about it today, i wonder if it is because the group has became too big. That those who have certain understanding of buddhism has no time to reach out to them? to sit down and listen to them one to one? Is it time to devise a system, that those who are ready to receive more serious buddhism education to have classes, instead of a one-for-all class?
I just hope that at the end of all the fun, they still remember why they are doing what they set out to do.
as i was saying,
those in-charge weren't doing what they were suppose to do, doing things from other portfolio.. Bad management. I'm not saying everyone should stick to their job and not help others. However, when you want to help, you got to at least finish what you need to cover right?
Moreover, the vice chair and chair always stick together, like bee see honey lydat. Friend, if you donno the portfolio of vice chair right, let me tell you. It is to be there when the chair is not around. When chair is talking to campers, you will give instructions to the organisers. When chair need to attend to outside matters, the vice will take charge of the camp. Pls, don't stick to each other like girls go to toilet. You are running a whole camp of 160 over people, you need each other's company?
K i might be too harsh..the reason why i always get pissed off is because i expect too much from others and too lil of myself. Big big problem of mine. Gotta do something about it. New year resolution :d
I guess this time the good outweighs the bad at the camp because i'm kind of missing the camp. haha can't believe thou, but i don't miss it like the sabah trip thou. I believe it is because of the very nice people whom i met there. Yvette, Liwei (hahaha must write his name ah, cos he is reading), lok wei, rock, chu feng and randal. Logs and games team. Made the waterbombs, put up the castle wall, carry things, lame jokes, ghost stories, slack, eat.. everything together..
i guess of all people in the camp, i learnt the most from them. I guess others may think they're just a bunch of slackers, bunch of followers, indifferent to many things. But i see something else. I see them as a bunch of givers, very selfless people.
Talked to Liwei on msn yday, i still rem what he said "as long as i do what i am suppose to do, the campers are happy, i'm satisfied already"
I don't know how many of the organisers go with this mindset. And how many of them can actually do things behind the scene, not expecting any recognition, watsoever, and their satisfaction is from the camper's laughter and enjoyment.
When they forgot to thank the logs team, i was angry for them. But the logs team wasn't a least bit affected as i saw it. They joked about it to Lawrence, 'Oei... every year lydat one, forget to thank us... Don't do already lah' but they were laughing.
When everyone, GLs and organisers included, asked us for the light sticks, Chu feng insisted that the campers take first. When there wasn't enough and the stupid in charges collected the light sticks back. Yvette went to dig out another bunch from the boxes.
SBMY should be very thankful they don't have a selfish logs team. At the rate they are goin, a selfish logs team wont last long. True, everyone has their forte. They don't like to relate to people, therefore they want to be in logs. Not to say that GLs and other people are useless, but how many people can go on so long without appreciation? Perhaps i do not know the real story behind. I can only say they have earned my respect. A group of guys more matured than they and others think they are.
On the last night, we had our dinner as the campers were having debriefing. i was lying on the floor while ang hwee talked to the three of them. I pretended to sleep because i din want to talk. (partly because i just want to lie down) He commented on each of their character and their desire to learn buddhism. He told them that their desire and determination was weak. As i thought about it today, i wonder if it is because the group has became too big. That those who have certain understanding of buddhism has no time to reach out to them? to sit down and listen to them one to one? Is it time to devise a system, that those who are ready to receive more serious buddhism education to have classes, instead of a one-for-all class?
I just hope that at the end of all the fun, they still remember why they are doing what they set out to do.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Mr Paul is BACK!!!! YEayyyy
Haven been writing anything in the blog, decided to type something before he gets home and call me :D
Just went to help out at a buddhist camp, thankz to alvino and xiong, if not i wouldn't have been there. Probably spent my 3 days doing nothing at home, playing maple story and missing my boyfriend.
but everytime i go for SBMY camp (my second time) i seem to come back with a lot of complaints. Well, i'll elaborate on the good things that happened to me after my angry rant..
actually this time the overall camp was pretty nicely put together. probably because i wasn't a camper but one of the organisers (more like sai kang warrior). They invited speakers who actually look pretty pro, and the usual, meditation games yada yada. The movies were very nice also.
However, i wasn't too happy with the camp mistress, or rather her style of management. On day 0, we were asked to go help bring things from SBMY temple to camp site at LCK. She came in, asked us to gather for briefing. Things started out alright, i tot she looked pretty nice to work for. However, seems like she wanted to compensate for her size, her speech carried a pretty threatening tone. She said things like "Anyone with no forms have to go home tomorrow." and "Every bit of rice you are taking now is bought with the money from the donation box at the temple. Everyone of you should know how difficult it is for us to collect money there. So i hope all of you will not take time off during the camp".. well to both tt statment, i was thinking to myself, "since i dun haf forms i might as well go home now." and "den why am i paying camp fees for?" respectively...
Well, she totally pissed me off.
Anyway, i wasn't there for the first day. so no comments.
Second day onwards started the crazy schedule, (plus i had very bad cramps on dat day) had to walk like... 20 mins under the scorching sun, to the frog farm once i got to campsite. then conduct games till throat was super sore. den stupid timing, all come together.. do till i headache. but i really enjoyed my station.. cos i got to tekan pple. HAw Haw Hawwww
after which just kept making water bombs, cos they needed them to play some sniper games... Which i didn't join cos by then my cramps were killing me.. I just showered and went to bed.
Third day also sianed... morning wake up go sun tan liao... do up the 'castle wall' under the sun. meanwhile feed the ants (cos we were in the field).. afterwhich make water bombs again for war game (7,500 water bombs made altogether) afternoon i go sleep again hahahhaa at night there was campfire..
then i blood boil again.
Before the campfire, there was buffet dinner for us, parents who came for the campfire. organisers had to take last so by the time they finished taking, there was nothing but garnish left for us...
Missy asked us to attend to the parents, entertain them. I look like wat? PR ah? not i dunwan to talk to them, they dunwan to talk to me k. First, they are there to look at their kids interact, film their kids. Second, they were eating, am i suppose to interrupt their meal? third, you have so many GLS who can talk to the parents about their kids, why ask the logs pple to go talk to the parents? tell them how to make waterbombs?
STUPID nia..
YOUR ORGANISERS are sitting down, doesn't mean they haven done anything yet. Allocated the job liao den trust them to do the job, trust ur heads to make them work. Dun say things like "eh, you guys like campers lydat, must call so many times den move". The only reason they're not movie is because ur head is not doing his job, ur head is not doing his job is because YOU are not doing ur job!
Camp mistress always in front of the campers givin instructions, games-IC doing MC job at the same time.
Oeiii i haven finish..
TO BE CONT...
wr
Haven been writing anything in the blog, decided to type something before he gets home and call me :D
Just went to help out at a buddhist camp, thankz to alvino and xiong, if not i wouldn't have been there. Probably spent my 3 days doing nothing at home, playing maple story and missing my boyfriend.
but everytime i go for SBMY camp (my second time) i seem to come back with a lot of complaints. Well, i'll elaborate on the good things that happened to me after my angry rant..
actually this time the overall camp was pretty nicely put together. probably because i wasn't a camper but one of the organisers (more like sai kang warrior). They invited speakers who actually look pretty pro, and the usual, meditation games yada yada. The movies were very nice also.
However, i wasn't too happy with the camp mistress, or rather her style of management. On day 0, we were asked to go help bring things from SBMY temple to camp site at LCK. She came in, asked us to gather for briefing. Things started out alright, i tot she looked pretty nice to work for. However, seems like she wanted to compensate for her size, her speech carried a pretty threatening tone. She said things like "Anyone with no forms have to go home tomorrow." and "Every bit of rice you are taking now is bought with the money from the donation box at the temple. Everyone of you should know how difficult it is for us to collect money there. So i hope all of you will not take time off during the camp".. well to both tt statment, i was thinking to myself, "since i dun haf forms i might as well go home now." and "den why am i paying camp fees for?" respectively...
Well, she totally pissed me off.
Anyway, i wasn't there for the first day. so no comments.
Second day onwards started the crazy schedule, (plus i had very bad cramps on dat day) had to walk like... 20 mins under the scorching sun, to the frog farm once i got to campsite. then conduct games till throat was super sore. den stupid timing, all come together.. do till i headache. but i really enjoyed my station.. cos i got to tekan pple. HAw Haw Hawwww
after which just kept making water bombs, cos they needed them to play some sniper games... Which i didn't join cos by then my cramps were killing me.. I just showered and went to bed.
Third day also sianed... morning wake up go sun tan liao... do up the 'castle wall' under the sun. meanwhile feed the ants (cos we were in the field).. afterwhich make water bombs again for war game (7,500 water bombs made altogether) afternoon i go sleep again hahahhaa at night there was campfire..
then i blood boil again.
Before the campfire, there was buffet dinner for us, parents who came for the campfire. organisers had to take last so by the time they finished taking, there was nothing but garnish left for us...
Missy asked us to attend to the parents, entertain them. I look like wat? PR ah? not i dunwan to talk to them, they dunwan to talk to me k. First, they are there to look at their kids interact, film their kids. Second, they were eating, am i suppose to interrupt their meal? third, you have so many GLS who can talk to the parents about their kids, why ask the logs pple to go talk to the parents? tell them how to make waterbombs?
STUPID nia..
YOUR ORGANISERS are sitting down, doesn't mean they haven done anything yet. Allocated the job liao den trust them to do the job, trust ur heads to make them work. Dun say things like "eh, you guys like campers lydat, must call so many times den move". The only reason they're not movie is because ur head is not doing his job, ur head is not doing his job is because YOU are not doing ur job!
Camp mistress always in front of the campers givin instructions, games-IC doing MC job at the same time.
Oeiii i haven finish..
TO BE CONT...
wr
Thursday, December 08, 2005
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day "My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating" In 2005, you bummed everyone out. Like you care. |
| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating |
 You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. |
| How You Are In Love |
 You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| You Are Mexican Food |
 Spicy yet dependable. You pull punches, but people still love you. |
| Your Outrageous Name is: |
 |
| You Are 40% Weird |
 Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
| Your Sexy Brazilian Name is: |
 |
| Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible |
 Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun! |
| Your Hair Should Be Pink |
 Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun. You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow. |
| Your Eyes Should Be Brown |
 Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart |
| Your Animal Personality |
 Your Power Animal: Eagle Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale You are active, a challenger, and optimistic. Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal. |
HAhahhaha Saw the birthdate thingy at my friend's blog, decided to try it out(I guess largely because i am waiting for a patch for my game (Romance of the Three Kingdom). Yes i've upgraded (not much thou) to a thinking game.
But the reason why i'm patching it is because i cannot use the cheat codes!!! HAHAHAH i've no shame in saying that. Because i only have like 8 people to protect two carriages! RAHHh How do they expect me to strategise that?!
Obviously i cannot be a war strategist. (how ever that occupation is called)
Muahahah back to try my cheat codes.
(now you guys know i'm busy with...surprise, surprise!)
LOL
WR
But the reason why i'm patching it is because i cannot use the cheat codes!!! HAHAHAH i've no shame in saying that. Because i only have like 8 people to protect two carriages! RAHHh How do they expect me to strategise that?!
Obviously i cannot be a war strategist. (how ever that occupation is called)
Muahahah back to try my cheat codes.
(now you guys know i'm busy with...surprise, surprise!)
LOL
WR
| Your Birthdate: May 29 |
 You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet. Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings. You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action. Your strength: Your vivid imagination Your weakness: Fear of failure Your power color: Coral Your power symbol: Oval Your power month: November |
Friday, December 02, 2005
Actually i got a number of things to blog about, since i haven been blogging for some time. LOL Dun blame me, blame my exams.
Had the Alumni Tea on 26th Nov. I thought it went pretty well for first timers, for starters. Other than the VP telling the members how much money the sch plans to make frm the 20th Anniversary events, i would say things went like we planned.
Actually i couldn't believe it when VP was talking about the amount of donations they hope to get from the Alumni. Not to mention that she was the first to present. Using the same blunt way and telling us that the college only wants money from us like last year, i really wonder why am i doing this.
Tried as i might during my presentation, our presentation, i guess we had lost some of them. On top of that, many did not come wanting to help i guess. Most came for the friends, the teachers.
It is going to be a long and difficult journey...
I guess what YJ students lack is confidence to speak up, like most of the Singaporeans. Or they just cant be bothered. I'd rather the former, at least that is something i can help. People who are indifferent, will remain so. In some aspects of my life, perhaps i should be the last person to criticise about these people. Still, i have to say it. Guess some people lose grip in their life, others neva find it. I really wonder what are they living for? Without dreams, without anything that they are willing to work hard for, without something that they really want, without a belief in life.
I don't know, how do you teach awareness? How do you teach someone to learn how to observe? observe others, observe themselves. Knowing who they are, their principles in life, what do they want.
Met up with a friend from JC yesterday. He changed a lot. No longer the loud mouth that he used to be. I believe he is someone who knows what he want, and he is going out for it. He is trying to better himself. From his mannerism and what he speaks of, i can sense that he went through alot. Became more matured than most of our classmates have. Being one of the students that he has praised, i'm glad this friend of mine has proven him right. More than that, i'm happy for him.
I've heard other guys say 'i think i've matured alot from this. I wont look at life the same angle again.' Then later, he say that 'i would have joined, if there were any pretty girls in the club.' Then you wonder what may his definition of maturity be...
Sian.
-wr-
Had the Alumni Tea on 26th Nov. I thought it went pretty well for first timers, for starters. Other than the VP telling the members how much money the sch plans to make frm the 20th Anniversary events, i would say things went like we planned.
Actually i couldn't believe it when VP was talking about the amount of donations they hope to get from the Alumni. Not to mention that she was the first to present. Using the same blunt way and telling us that the college only wants money from us like last year, i really wonder why am i doing this.
Tried as i might during my presentation, our presentation, i guess we had lost some of them. On top of that, many did not come wanting to help i guess. Most came for the friends, the teachers.
It is going to be a long and difficult journey...
I guess what YJ students lack is confidence to speak up, like most of the Singaporeans. Or they just cant be bothered. I'd rather the former, at least that is something i can help. People who are indifferent, will remain so. In some aspects of my life, perhaps i should be the last person to criticise about these people. Still, i have to say it. Guess some people lose grip in their life, others neva find it. I really wonder what are they living for? Without dreams, without anything that they are willing to work hard for, without something that they really want, without a belief in life.
I don't know, how do you teach awareness? How do you teach someone to learn how to observe? observe others, observe themselves. Knowing who they are, their principles in life, what do they want.
Met up with a friend from JC yesterday. He changed a lot. No longer the loud mouth that he used to be. I believe he is someone who knows what he want, and he is going out for it. He is trying to better himself. From his mannerism and what he speaks of, i can sense that he went through alot. Became more matured than most of our classmates have. Being one of the students that he has praised, i'm glad this friend of mine has proven him right. More than that, i'm happy for him.
I've heard other guys say 'i think i've matured alot from this. I wont look at life the same angle again.' Then later, he say that 'i would have joined, if there were any pretty girls in the club.' Then you wonder what may his definition of maturity be...
Sian.
-wr-
Monday, November 14, 2005
Woke up bright and early today to study (Sunday eh!), but 3 pages into my CLT text, half my mind is thinking about maple story... So i thought i'll blog instead of starting the game, in case i cannot end it later ;p
Well there isn't much to blog about, have been studying the whole week. Din quarrel with paul, usually no one at home, din even read the papers... Think my life is pretty dead right now. Cannot stop thinking about what i want to do when my papers are over...
I just read about Andy lau yesterday on a two week old magazine. Talks about how he work 365 days a year, given his status and wealth, he can easily take things slowly, become more arrogant, etc. Instead of having more and more silly news like who might he be dating, changing gf every week, he has always appeared 'clean' and well taken care of by the reporters. The report mentioned his 25 years of hard work on the silver screen. What struck me is this paragraph.
When we were in school, we always admire the student who manages to do well without studying but simply smarter than the rest. However, we always neglect the ones who really work for their good results. This is human nature, we like reap what we are lazy to sow. We want to get things without working for it.
This is a perfect description of me.
Everyone wishes to think that he is the smart one, who only have to do a little last minute revision before the exam and can pass with flying colours. I'm one such example, ever since secondary school. I remember the days i spent sleeping in classes, failing all my tests, going to fast food restaurants after school. Come sec 4, mugging near the prelims to pass my maths and sciences. Picking and choosing chapters to study for humanities.
Fortunately, i scrapped through my prelims, ended up in YJ.
Come O'lvls, my results were far worse than what my friends. I couldn't complain.
It was difficult to convince myself that i have to work hard for what i want, because i'm no one special. In fact, all these years of education have taught me that, i'm especially unlucky. If i failed to revise, work hard, then it is more likely than not i wont do well.
It is painful to realise.
Such experience is impossible to teach. As much as you tell someone else this, it will not be effective as going through it yourself.
I told my sister two days ago after joggin,
"I can only support u as much as i can when you are putting in the effort. If you have given up, there isn't must i can do. And remember, no one will wait for you to help u."
I bet she cant rem it by now.
But i guess i was just trying to remind myself of something i've begun to forget.
Cheers!
Well there isn't much to blog about, have been studying the whole week. Din quarrel with paul, usually no one at home, din even read the papers... Think my life is pretty dead right now. Cannot stop thinking about what i want to do when my papers are over...
I just read about Andy lau yesterday on a two week old magazine. Talks about how he work 365 days a year, given his status and wealth, he can easily take things slowly, become more arrogant, etc. Instead of having more and more silly news like who might he be dating, changing gf every week, he has always appeared 'clean' and well taken care of by the reporters. The report mentioned his 25 years of hard work on the silver screen. What struck me is this paragraph.
When we were in school, we always admire the student who manages to do well without studying but simply smarter than the rest. However, we always neglect the ones who really work for their good results. This is human nature, we like reap what we are lazy to sow. We want to get things without working for it.
This is a perfect description of me.
Everyone wishes to think that he is the smart one, who only have to do a little last minute revision before the exam and can pass with flying colours. I'm one such example, ever since secondary school. I remember the days i spent sleeping in classes, failing all my tests, going to fast food restaurants after school. Come sec 4, mugging near the prelims to pass my maths and sciences. Picking and choosing chapters to study for humanities.
Fortunately, i scrapped through my prelims, ended up in YJ.
Come O'lvls, my results were far worse than what my friends. I couldn't complain.
It was difficult to convince myself that i have to work hard for what i want, because i'm no one special. In fact, all these years of education have taught me that, i'm especially unlucky. If i failed to revise, work hard, then it is more likely than not i wont do well.
It is painful to realise.
Such experience is impossible to teach. As much as you tell someone else this, it will not be effective as going through it yourself.
I told my sister two days ago after joggin,
"I can only support u as much as i can when you are putting in the effort. If you have given up, there isn't must i can do. And remember, no one will wait for you to help u."
I bet she cant rem it by now.
But i guess i was just trying to remind myself of something i've begun to forget.
Cheers!
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Fell sick while trying to study. Couldn't sleep then, sickness aggravated. Mum forced me to see the doctor last night. Paul came to pick me up to see the doc...
Very tired now, don't feel like studying after studying from 8am to 12 noon just now. Took a nap till 230pm. But wasn't helpful. Now i feel more drained than anything.
He refused to come over because my parents are home.. Sigh, we've been through this before. I don't know his issues with seeing my parents. He wasn't like that when he wanted to patch. I don't know if i'm asking for too much, but i just want him ard when i'm not feeling well.
Things don't change, do they? maybe i'm whining over nothing. But since i'm down with flu, i have the license to do all these. Just blame it on the medication.
I went to ur event despite being sick, spent the time i shld be resting with you, your family and everything that was important to you. Unlike you, i could have spent that time studying. Perhaps you thought that was for my good. But on my part, all i thought of when i contemplated if i should go, was that it was important for you. Down with cold, sitting in the air-con room for 2 hours plus, i'm willing to go through. My house, with my parents, too much?
It is not because the difference in character.
You're right, i need all your attention.
I'm just too disappointed right now. If history has to repeat itself everytime pressure adds on, i'm sorry, i can't take it.
I have my enough pressure on me, i told you before, i don't need anymore.
Very tired now, don't feel like studying after studying from 8am to 12 noon just now. Took a nap till 230pm. But wasn't helpful. Now i feel more drained than anything.
He refused to come over because my parents are home.. Sigh, we've been through this before. I don't know his issues with seeing my parents. He wasn't like that when he wanted to patch. I don't know if i'm asking for too much, but i just want him ard when i'm not feeling well.
Things don't change, do they? maybe i'm whining over nothing. But since i'm down with flu, i have the license to do all these. Just blame it on the medication.
I went to ur event despite being sick, spent the time i shld be resting with you, your family and everything that was important to you. Unlike you, i could have spent that time studying. Perhaps you thought that was for my good. But on my part, all i thought of when i contemplated if i should go, was that it was important for you. Down with cold, sitting in the air-con room for 2 hours plus, i'm willing to go through. My house, with my parents, too much?
It is not because the difference in character.
You're right, i need all your attention.
I'm just too disappointed right now. If history has to repeat itself everytime pressure adds on, i'm sorry, i can't take it.
I have my enough pressure on me, i told you before, i don't need anymore.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
shld try very hard not to get distracted by anything today...
better start the day by chanting...
mayb will ask uncle to send me that chant again..
ahahhaha
It helps me to focus
:D
WWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNGGGGGGG
oH,
btw it is my younger sister's birthday todaY!!!
she is a halloween baby then, hahaha i think that explains why she is so queer...
Wonder if i shld celebrate for her
ahahahah
better start the day by chanting...
mayb will ask uncle to send me that chant again..
ahahhaha
It helps me to focus
:D
WWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNGGGGGGG
oH,
btw it is my younger sister's birthday todaY!!!
she is a halloween baby then, hahaha i think that explains why she is so queer...
Wonder if i shld celebrate for her
ahahahah
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