heh heh~
had a great day today
shld i say, it's a very significant day.
a day that my perspective changes. a day that i learn more than my 10 over years of studying.
=)

shant elaborate too much on wat i did
jus went to alter my gown and check out de manicure thing
and den went to meet my teacher to shop
hahaha
damn funni yah?
nah, had a great time talking to him lah. really taught me alot of stuff thru de conversation we had today
thankz man!

anyway>> was reading a really small book of zen at borders.
amazing .. de content was so .. dynamic? it's even smaller than a handfone. but when u think of wat it says, it's really amazing.
there's sumthing about breaking de illusions of life. not expecting too much, goin with de flow. accepting things as it is.
so many things but i cant rem much lah. sigh. shld haf bot it man... shall go searching for some other bks as well.
k shan't bore u all with my stupid sudden interest....

man.. my stomach is growling like mad! very hungry. yet to haf my dinner... god.. shall i jus haf instant noodles? i think i dun haf much choice anyway hahahahha

well.. nothing much to talk about.. hahahaha cos my stomach is really hungry...
if i'm still online i'll come back and up date again
=)

wr

hey
i got my prom gown today!
hrmm
mus say sorrie to my sis and her bf..
hai my sis not feeling well stil pei wo eh..
heng she felt betta halfway
*sinful*
sigh. still my fam best =)
so i did a nice thing today
hahaha i swpt my house floor today!!!
hahahaha it's been some time man....

anyway>> i love de gown. jus hope i dun look too out of place on de day.. hiak hiak hiak
=)

anyay>> alot of changes of plans. lazy to type

read a book today. chn book. really nice. by wu qing kang. hai cant agree with him more on somethings. ur atitude really changes frm time to time.
today u can be crazy over something. tml u'll be like, why de heck did i like dat in de first place? today u might think loving someone is de thing u're born to do, tml u'll feel u've wasted ur time on de person, love is no longer something that u hold on to so much. sighs. when u're into something, there's no rite or wrong. only aft u get over it, u can look at it seriously, assess de whole situation and wonder wat was wrong with u in de first place.

abit abstract. cos my language not as power. sigh. somethings, some people are born with the talent of writing, of sharing their tots. mine are meant to be kept.

author mention somehting about songs representing a phase in one's life. do i haf any particular songs that come to mind fr time to time? i suppose. i can think of some now. but so? are u goin to live in de memories of de songs, to live in de pass? or move on. i haf to learn to move on. so many things waiting for me to exp out there. i'll move on. =) everyone learn to pick em'self up yah? tt's wat we did when we're a baby. why cant we do it now?

shant act chim le.
my sis and bf bot me a sweater!
=)
they're really very sweet. they're de onli couple i can go out with now... de rest jus too sweet for me.

everyone: i'm allergic to sweetness now. i might sound about ultra sensitive to u. but rest assure i'll jus move away when i sense i cant take it. i mean. i might sound idiotic running away, trying to look hurt broken sad. i'm not. i jus cant stand de sound sight feel of sweetness. jus ignore me man.

=)

life is great
i'm loving it.

wr

hey hey hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm officially out of jc!
wahhahahahahahhahahahahahha

k let's not talk about de phy ppr today...
one word. sux.

anyway>>
wahhahaha bot my prom shoes today!
wahahahhahahahah my sister say it's goin to hurt my feet
but it's so far the nicest pair le lah...

hrmm on my way back my little aunt offered to sponsor me a new gown
so i dun haf to wear my sis's
as much as i think my sis's is nice.. hrmm
dunnoe leh.. shld i get a new one?
i'll go see tml ba....

anyway>> someone jus ask me what's de point of staying together with him aft what i wrote in my blog... i say see how.. and he say's i'm running away from it..
i also dunnoe eh
i'm so undecisive when it comes to relationship.
i really wonder so much about our relationship.
i neva get a satisfied ans. not even when we sit down and talk about it.
i dun think i noe what's a satisfied ans.
am i waiting for a betta guy to come my way? am i waiting for him to change for de betta? am i staying becos i still feel for him? or am i jus staying cos we've come so far, we've gotten so used to each other that might as well jus stay together?
sigh.
i dunnoe.
i dun feel like thinkin about it.
i wonder alot of things.

that day mr goh say, mayb ur bf got another gf outside tht's why he got no time for u.
maybe.
i'm not sure anymore.

am i painting a very bad picture of him here?
i dun mean to.
he's nice.
he think of my when he saw de alpha bear. he bot me de alpha bear. i put it on our photo frame.
he'll say nice things once in a while.
well.. supposedly when we're out .. i think we'll still oke..

=)
shan't think too much.

anyway>> i got company. like he said, we'll haf our own time when we're not together. he say he wont interfere with me and my frens and he dunwan me to interfere...

lallalalala
dunnoe lah. jus fin exams dun tax my brain too much.
anyway>> as much as i write he wont see
as much as he see, he wont change. as much as he change, he wont remain.
so~
no point.

yup!
freedom here i come! hahahhahahah i've got so much to do!
so little time and resources!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no money! no money no money!

any rich guy out there?!
hahahahha rich and old is good!
LOL
yeah..
my sis's is kbing for de comp le
whahahaha
bye la!

love u all!
hugz

cheers

hiak hiak hiak~
i feeling damn guilty.
hahaha
went to set's house's gym and swim eh~ budden hor whahahaa
i eating alot .. very bad..
LOL...
nuthin much happen
jus that i think its damn hard to score for phys now lah..
hahaha
plus i already holiday mood le~
zhe me ban!!!! cannot mus start studying tml... hrmm
i good ger =)
maybe got free japanese dinner nez sat~~ muahahahhaa
i think i damn cheapo lah
but u noe, even sometimes pple wanna treat i also dun gif face one k~
so i still see who's treating
wahhahaa
hrmmm

well
act, when i'm so occupied, i dun really haf a chance to think of alot of stuff..
wahhahaha
so i got nuthin to talk about today~

oh yah
did i mention today is de first time i run on treadmill~
wahhahahaa
interesting.

wahha
i goin to eat le
bye la!

oh yah
mus thank setiawan for de hospitality~
thank yoU~

cheers

jus realise wat i typed in chinese din came out..
mayb it's a good thing..

wanted to write in chn... but realised i shldn't be wasting my time typing hypy..
but.. yeah
anyway>>
was super tired today aft meeting niang niang at mos for some phy revision
wasnt very productive thou...
yup
we left immediately when i spotted the ever famous �讪王。de guy who can talk and seat at any seat no matter who's sitting there and no matter wheter ppl mind or not.

on my way home.. tot about the few reasons that can make me feel like goin home or miss home like mad..
firstly, when i'm super duper tired, physically, mentally wateva. jus hide away from de world in my bed. surrounded by the people that care for me de most out of the dunnoe how many billion zillion ppl in de world.
secondly, when i'm extremely happy or sad. extremely happy cos i wanna share it with my fam. no one can appreciate what i feel for betta than my fam, esp my sister~ muahahhaha i mean my eldest sister, currently she's one of de closest person i am bonded to.. *sadly* muahahha. when i'm sad my fam gif me de best listening ear.. i almost forgot.. when i'm angry~!! hahaha they sympathize with me ze most...

thirdly, when i achieve something, the first thing i'll do is to send an sms home.. thru out tis year, i neva fail to imagine de day when i get my a's result and immediately calling all my fam members to tell them good news, that i've done well and got wat i worked so hard for.. but now it seems it's gonna stay as a dream.. but .. i'lll cont to work hard. cont to do what i can to make them proud of me!

forthly, i'll run home when i nid some space to breathe... from all de pple, rules, and what not that close in on u once in a while... at home i dun haf to pretend, i can joke all i wan and say wat i wanna say. i can be less afraid to offend pple. cos they noe me, they noe how i talk how i act, how harmless i am. wont get misunderstood by my fam.

rite.. sounds like i'm taking full advantage of my fam members yeah? hahaha some more stuff that's even worse.. like taking allowance and asking my mum to da bao lunch back summore whahaha .. this is what fam's for... we shld not be afraid that we are taken advantage of, that even so, even we get grumpy about it. we noe we'll still goin to give in to each other becos we're a family. i love my fam... cant help wondering what wld i haf turn out to be if i weren't born here... hahahaa
muackZ
i love them.

haha yah.. den my tots drift to, my bf shld gif me such a feeling. as mention above, like whenever i'm down and out, he's there for me. vice versa. whenever i get excited over something i can share with him. whenever i haf probs he'll be there to share de burden with me, even if he can onli sit there and listen. get angry with me cos someone bully me, or at least pretend to be. hahaha...
i think i'm still waiting for one person to be lydat~ wah.. den i'll propose to him
wahhaha..

sigh.
i neva fail to wonder, are we wasting our time together? are we jus being together for de sake of staying together? like he said, we've been together for a year plus, got feeling. so what is tis suppose to mean? def he does not fit my criteria for a potential partner...
我现在深深的体会到，什么��∶�先了解自己，了解自己�什么，�能够找到自己的幸�。
i dunno what i want. i'm so afraid tt hist will repeat itself. that i will start to get pissed off when i see him with someone else. then realise that there's actually no prob btw me and him.
prob with me is i haf a very bad memory. i usually dun rem what we quarrel about and all de unhappines..
but de prob btw us is so intangible, i cant pin point it out. but i noe the prob has always been there, coming back to haunt us every now and then. some times we'll quarrel but nuthin ever came out of anything.
也许�观和逃��是一线之差。也许看似�观的我，�会逃�，没有勇气�对问题。没想到我如此懦弱。。。

hai. i really dunno how and what shld i do to get a good solution to all my prob. issit possible to get rid of every single of ur worry? read a quote somewhere, it says 'if one day we wake up and everyone was of a same race, same religion, same color. we'll look for sumthing else to discriminate about.' it applies to our probs as well.. even if u solve some, u'll soon find urself more things to worry bout...

does that means we shldnt solve them?

wr

heylo~!
muahahaha
today went sch to fin mr goh~
hrmmm
had alot of stuff to ask him manZ.. took me one hr to fin..
and it's onli mcq..
how?!

anyway>> can confirm he's not leaving yj nez year le
wahahah yj damn lucky lah
think the phy department will zhen zhen re shang...

hemo hemo
anyway
on my way home.. i suddenly felt super hungry.. as those like jus recover from sickness lydat.. weak kind of hunger..
scary~
den i came home to eat maggie.. sob sob.. so ke lian rite? no body take care is lydat one.. sigh..
den aft i ate i went to sleep!!! totally coma man.. neva sleep so sound since dunnoe when...

talk about sleeping
did i mention i've been getting hrm.. not very nice dreams latelY?
sigh.. think i've been thinking too much lately... cannot run away from reality even in dreams.. who can come help me!!??

sighhh
oh yeahh..
i must do well for phY!!!!!
muahahaha
i think i've said that b4..
but.. haiii sian~
this yr cambridge like not very happy with my batch eh...
dunnoe wat kind of sai ppr will come out....

i've been qt unfeeling lately... shall elaborate nez time..
sigh

13 and counting down to days of liberation..
i hope i can enjoy fully when all these end....

cheers

hrmm
fin 2 subjects yesterday...
i think not very optimistic eh
but i'd rather not think about it..
totally no feeling or mayb i'm hidding from my fears lah...
dun even dare to hear any comments from anyone..
try my best to comfort those who say they're gonna flop..
but jiang lai jiang qu.. only can say, if u think it's tough , others will think it was as well..
but we all noe its not true.. there's bound to be some idert who can surpass everyone and conquer the impossible... damn those iderts lah.. i jus hope that there's not many of those iderts...

moreover, one still haf to consider the fact that one may make stupid mistakes.. haii.. let's not think so much..

oh yeah.. i'm beginning to enjoy my phy revision.. hahaha
find phy damn interesting. yet again. for one period i act lost de touch lah.. now it's coming back.. hopefully it'll stay till my pprs are over...

i got nuthing much to say liao..
starting to haf lose feeling about everything..
jus sit and stare when pprs are over..
wonder if tis is a good sign...
scary~

now i jus hope to step into university..
pleas dun let me disappoint my fam members...

cheers

hahaha this song shows the diff bw females and males..
but hrmm seems to be rather bias huh~ rahhhh
but anyhow.. nice
muahahha
男女之间
曲：黄舒骏 | 词：黄舒骏 | 编：
女人最怕男人是一堆沙猪 男人最怕女人脑袋像浆糊
女人通常都是感情的动物 男人大半都是生活的侏儒
女人可以爱的义无反顾 男人只能爱到相当程度
女人失恋容易另寻出路 男人失恋可就万劫不复
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人对爱要求需索无度 男人总是显得马马虎虎
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人的泪可以融化冰雪 男人的哭却是山崩地裂
女人的坚强是金石不变 男人的温柔是沧海一粟
女人的胸前是男人的家 男人的肩膀是女人的床
女人希望男人像一棵大树 男人渴望的是精神支柱
男女之间永远说不清楚 互相厌恶又互相追逐
彼此可以找出千万的错误 却是五十步笑百步
女人说谎保证是天衣无缝 男人说谎终究是百密一疏
女人懂得演戏是一种天赋 男人永远败在经验不足
女人认为爱情是一种付出 男人总是把它当作一种征服
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束
女人好不容易决定开始 男人却好像刚要结束

very nice song.. hahaa very funnie.. try reading de lyrics yeah?
damn cute.

恋爱症候群
曲：黄舒骏 | 词：黄舒骏 | 编：
关于恋爱症候群的发生原因 至今仍然是最大一个谜
不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型 没有一个人可以免疫
有些专家学者研究后相信 恋爱是内分泌失调所引起
却有别人认为恋爱属于滤过性病毒 像感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈
不管你同不同意 自古到今许多例子证明 恋爱不但是一种病态
它还可能是一种变态 一般发病后的初期反应会开始改变一些生活习性
洗澡洗得特别干净 刷牙刷得特别用力 半夜突然爬起来弹钢琴
有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑 有人突然疯疯癫癫 突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆 对着镜子咬着指甲打喷嚏 有人对着小狗骂三字经
女人突然改变发型 男人开始每天练着哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖抽筋都出现在这时期
随着病情越来越变本加厉 人会变得格外敏感勇敢和恶心
写的说的唱的都像天才诗人一般才华洋溢 愈肉麻愈觉得有趣
有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣 有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方 像做了不可告人的事情
每天忙着找人算命 挖空心思改变自己 配合对方的习性
把每天都当作纪念日 把自己当作纪念品 每天漫无目的的腻在一起
言不及意也觉得好有趣 走着坐着躺着趴着都形影不离
像是两人三脚又像连体婴 心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米 也不管路上有人示威抗议 只管爱你
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你 也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管衣索匹亚多少难民 只管爱你 经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期
不久就会开始渐渐痊愈 两人开始互相厌倦 互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜蜜都随风而去 然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒 惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
为了爱情不管一切 不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟 开始感到后悔不已
然后开始感到疲惫沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴燥四肢麻痹 终于受不了要分离
虽然结果颇令人伤心 了解之后也没什么了不起 爱情终究是握不住的云
只是我想要告诉你 哦......在我落寞的岁月里 你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜 如此颤动着我的心灵 轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管是黑夜或是黎明 不管是梦中或是清醒 深深爱你
我要对你说爱你爱你爱你爱你 不管是黑夜或是黎明 不管是梦中或是清醒
深深爱你 多么幸福 让我遇见你 呜......

it's goin to 4
tml is my a's papers..
i hope i can do it
cos i've been studying
dunnoe if it's adequate thou..
sigh
i goin for a nap soon
and waking up to study
cos i'm really totally sick of econs..
but i nid to do well
so no choice...
i hope i dun blank out tml..

anyway i'm really damn angry with chris.
argh
hrmphf
change bf liao!
idert

well
maybe i'm very unreasonable
but i'm having my exams eh!
wateva man.. i've been trying to calm myself down with chants.. it's actually working
i feel peace..
so peaceful that i feel like sleeping
all thanks to my unker for burning de mp3 for me
whahaha
i'm goin mad

reading some gp stuff
shall cont blogging on thurs..
hate my life.

damn
wr

hey... i'm totally drain of energy
haben been sleeping well since de dat b4 yesterday..
online to check if mdm lee send me anything

talk about lee.. she rather sad case lah
she fell sick and still come back for us..
den talk and talk till she wanna coff to death liaoo..
suddenly i feel bad about disliking her all this while..
sigh..
shall gif her some yan wo if i ever do well for econs
wahhaha
tt's if i do well for econs.. or rather satisfactory for me lah..
sighhh
future damn bleak eh.. how?
k k.. i noe all those out there saying "there we go again..."
but.. i jus cant help it lah...
i still think anything lesser than a's and b's is not good leh
shit man..
i nid to sleep... .. and soon...

btw.. bear told me something about an american prof making analysis of singaporean student.
that they look lifeless as they haf their lunch while de american students haf so much fun while eating their lunch
i made an observation today too!
i realised that adults are also expressionless when they go home from work..
or mayb all de time..
think that lead to everyone talking less in sg and then resulting in lack of ability to express ourselves...
sigh...

anyway..
who cares.

goin to sleep..
cheers.

YOyOYoYoy
i'm online~!!!
wahhahaha
feels like a caveman now eh..
anyhow..
suffered from depression on saturday ..
some how..
i couldnt get to sleep
and couldn't study
so.. totally freak out.

all thankZ to my sweet~ bf for tucking me in on sunday and meeting me for movie
now i feel so much betta~
thank u!!!! muacK
wahahhaa
oh yah
mus comment on his good efforts to send me msges everyday aft my endless complaints that i cannot feel my bf's presence~
thankZ for addressing my complains?
wahhaha k k.. he is now a great bf.. presently~ wahhaha

k k
enough of mushiness...

i went joggin today!!!! erm.. not exactly joggin long long dist
but after being told by 2 teachers i got a green face .. hrmm i think i nid to do abit of exercise and relax a bit.
more over mr woo tell me go walk walk.
so i walk abit faster yah?
anyway>> very bad timing lah
cant jog on de road side during 5 plus
can die of inhaling too much carbon monoxide
i think half my lungs become black liao...
talk about externalities...
muahahaha

finally fin with my International trade..
shall fin my econs topics tml
and read up all essays and all case studies...
den thurs and fri dedicated to my maths..
and meanwhile.. i die die haf to read some phy... all dat i did last time..
if not i think i'll be murdered by goh when i get my results...

hrmmm
tml got bloody gp timepiece
argh
essayz
wat de heck
i feel like sleeping already!
damn...
how?

lalalla
sleeping too much
doin too lil
wahhahaha
think i'll go sleep at 1230 today
shld slowly adjust to 11 befor monday comes..
jus in case i cant sleep again..
rahh
mayb i shld get some sleeping pills..

cant wait for this night mare to be over..
anyway>>
i realise that everytime i jog or walk alone, i tend to think of stuffs that i neva think b4...
cant really express that very well
so shall jus keep em to myself...

anyway>> was wonderin as well.. can someone tell me why toilet bowls haf no handles like what we haf on chairs or rather arm chairs? i mean we are suppose to feel relaxed when we shit yeah?

hrmm signing off~~
sorry for updating so late~
hrmmm
still wondering how to put de tag thingy
any help?

cheers

argh
jus fin hcjc qn 5 part a online
not sending to mdm lee yet
cos i dun think i can fin part two liao
de typing is damn fast
it's de bloody diagram that is killing me

sorta brain dead liao
gotta go sleep man
if not i wont be able to wake up in time for mr goh's make up lesson
i think i'm gonna get screwed tml again~
damn it
11 more days onli...
sigh

oh yah
btw
my sister took away de pass word to ensure i dun come online anymore
so ..
everyone out there
i'll miss all of u
sighhhhh
esp coming online
whahaa

yada yada yada
gd nite

hey heyZ~
hrmmm
starting to haf funnie ppl adding me to their frenster but..
some i dun even say hi to?
hrmm
wonder what are these ppl trying to prove..
that they haf alot of frenz?
i mean.. we're not exactly even acquaintance to start with~
sighhh
and dey add me and tt's it lah
no msg no testimonial. i dun even see de link from them to me.
except my ex class mates is in their class..
~~`

anyway>>
manage to fin 2 macro topics.
nia and money~
goin on to third today and doin another njc essay later..
shall do a maths ppr 2 as well .. i think tml
today mus fin hcjc phy ppr 2 before mr goh slaughter me tml~
damn it manz
counting down = 12 days to a's...
it's really do or die liao~
hrmm
wonder how much i can fin in 12 days...
mus bia maths and econs first man..
sighhh
i fang bu xia phys eh..
how?!
undecisive me...

anyway>> effective kenna ignored by some idert.
i think i fan jian leh...
sigh
some pple jus cant be frens with lah...

hrmmm something jus cropped up in my fam again~
rahh
wat 'good' timing...
wonder when will this end man..

did i mention i dun feel like goin u anymore..
as in...
it's so .. regulated?
u haf to comply to this comply to that..
and there is this bidding for cross fac thing that can drive u crasy..
i'm already so unhappy with rules..
how can i cope with all that nonsense....

they claim that taking cross fac can make one more marketable...
i totally disagree.
how marketable can u be if u learn a subject so superficially and for jus a few mths.
after the term u can totally forget about it and take one sum other thing that is totally unrelated to ur core subjects. and then forget about that in another 6 mths.
i can neva understand how schs or education in singapore works.
moreover, u may not be even interested in de subject and u're taking it cos u're too damn unlucky to failed bidding for de ones u really wanted.
wat the heck~

however.. guess i'm stucked with no where to go. i take onli 3 As, no good in gp, no money to go overseas, no hope for any scholarship.. i damn stuck.it's jus one mistake in my secondary sch life and i'll haf to carry it thru my life..
i think nez time my children will suffer like hell.. cos subconsiously i'll be damn strict with them jus in case they follow in my footsteps..
the onli thing i can do now is to do well and go to bloody local u and suffer for another (hopefullY) 4 years. den come out and fulfil my dreamS!!!!! hiak hiak hiak...
frankly, i still haf no idea what to take.
talk about no goals in life.

argh life.
sighz

hehheh~
cannot resist the temptation to get online yeah?
so shall satisfy my needs before goin back to studyin~!!!
muahaha

went sch for econs initially..
had a break and some visitor wanted to find teacher in charge of student council~
haha
turn out it was for some cheer leading competitioN~
and de lady was very very frenlY~
so ended up talking to her in de canteen instead of goin back for econs lesson~
whahahaha
she's from global association for culture and peace~
vice prez summore~
woah i'm impressed
anyway>> got her card and she's gonna email me bout goin to watch de competition~
sounds damn fun lah de organization
hope its not some hrmm very complicated club~ where pple go for de fun
hrmm and mayb some peace? and international harmony~~
world as a global village..
now now.. where haf i heard tis b4~
whahahaha
gp lah duh!
anyway>> the attractive thing about tis is they go ard de world and play!!!!
as in interact i mean
whahaha
they haf soccer competition, art dance wateva that doest not concern language i think..
as she said.. art and sports is a universal language?
hrmm now this is helping my gp i think~
muahaha

k k
enough of de lady and her club~

think i'm rather mentally worn out~ so mus go take a rest.. and tml got maths tuition~ i'm hoping i dun lost track of time.. cos it's happening now.. i really dunnoe where and which dimension i'm in now.. i'm jus trying to max what i do in de shortest period of time
so
i think it's time i go bathe and haf a wink~

cheers!

wenrong

YoyOyoYoy
jus found a long lost fren
as in he found me on icq~
LOL
it's been a long long while since i talk to him maNzzzz
very happy~

anyway.. realised today i've slack too much
so i wanna fa fen tu qiang liaoooo
dunwan to come online so much liao
5 wks no updates
i think u all can live with that yeah?
whahahaa
i love all my frenz

i go eat liao!!!
ciaoZ

wR

haha today is a happpy day
saw my sec sch clique pple
damn fun
they were decorating siok's house to gif siok a surprise party
as usual... i was late and walking ard de house trying to look busy
not to mention.. occasionally nimbling de food..... muahahahha
my only contribution was to stick de 3 heart shape balloons up de wall
which was rather diff.. wahahha i do more interesting work..
ATE ALOT ALOT ALOT
i'm getting fatter and fatter..
and i cant believe it when they were discussing how fat they were in sioks room..
rahh they are no where near the word fat..
no one is goin to believe that anyway...

lalalalalla
toopid boy jus jog to woodlands back..
hahaha i cannot even reach sembawang lah...
talk about fit. damn it man
i nid to work out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fat fat fat..
it's haunting me!
sighz
read tis some where "god, if u cant make me thinner .. make my frens fatter..."
*evil luff*

i'm so tiredddd
i nid to sleep
but i'm damn full
anyway
tml got tuition again!
wahhaha tat means got cake!
hahah cos siok's bday~
sighh
damn xing fu eh?
dun rem wat hap on my bday liaoo...
bleai...

lalalalalal i hope tml is another okie day...
i jus wanna fin this 5 wks asap..
i miss my life..
wahhahaha
i nid to get it backkkkkk

k k
i got nuthing much to say..
very very tired..
gotta go orh orh liao
BUAI

YoyOyoy
got alot of things to say today...

firstly..
i've went thru a emotional roller coaster ride today...
dat kind really go up and down one..
whahahaha
i had good mood when i woke up
cos toopid boy goin to meet me today.. den he msg me he's sick - translation he is not meeting me today. so i got very sad..
den i went to tuition and had my fair share of oogling at some ac guy with a very very low and sexy voice. .. den everything became fine....

until i couldnt do my maths.. i haf this feeling i'll fail all my a's subject..
tt's failing when i dont do well yah?
so.. broke down at tuition centre.. thou mr yan din see.. rah..
rather embarassing..
felt betta when i was hafin de yu pian mian xian!
hahah not bad.. quite nice...
den walked ard bugis like a trail behind mr yan tis choo choo train head..
he really walk damn fast eh... and
hahah de happy thing is dat he say alot of ppl look at me..
i took it in de positive way.. hrmm or mayb they are thinking "wah.. so fat..."
sigh.. nahh... i look fine...(tryin to convince myself here)
muahah anyway.. i'm happy cos i neva notice tt pple act. look at me before.. given that i'm always surrounded by pretty ladies.. i'm more of de leaf lah...

anyway>>
i met chris.. and felt really mentally tired after i bombarded him with all my troubles...
sorrie dear.. i dunnoe who to tell liao.. i noe sometimes i haf to learn to deal with my troubles.. but i jus nid to get if off my chest.. hrmm feel very bad for adding on to ur burden.. sorrie lah...
den we went marina bay and sat at the mrt station waiting for time tt he shld be in...
by then i can already drift off in a daze as i talk.. i wonder what is happening to me...
boss say i shld see a doct..
anyway i feel really bad about blabbering nonsense and drifting away at him cos he's not feeling well.. and he seldoms sees me.. this worries him and i HAD to do all that jus b4 he went in..
i think he was rather worried.. until he got up de wrong train and was late.. it's damn sweet of him to say it's all his fault.. althou we all noe i'm some how to be blamed.. *grinz*.. (jus saying all this to prove that i dun always JUS say his bad points)
hahaha yah mus biao yang him once in a while..

yup
and now for my 2 cents worth of de day
i realise..
life can be really miserable with expectations..
if things dun turn out de way u expected
u get really sad..
tt's de prob with me..
i think i expect too much...
and i'm afraid i dun reach my expectation..
in de mean time .. i fred about not doin enough to meet em..
i forgot that when i fred about all this.. i wont be able to perform my best..
thus realisin the fact that i dun reach my expectation...

i also realised expectation fr relation ship is not .. hrmm.. very healthy for de relationship...
everyone noes the story about cinderella and de slippers..
anyone actually tot wat the slippers symbolises?
i think it symbolises expectation from partner.. tt's why cinderella is a fairy tale..
i dun think a guy like chris will ever wear de slippers i haf in mind yeah?
and i can neva fit into de cinderella image in his mind..
well...
so..
relationship without expectation.. might not work.. but we'll def be happier yeah?
=)
life without expectation.. i'll haf to rem to put in my best foot everytime..

=)
something worth thinking about yeah?
cheers

had a very bad time jus now..
some how some heat wave hit me and i was so pissed off with everything that is happening.. whether is it the way i breath or de way the moon is tonight...

sighhh
2 wks left...
tell me now why am i online again?
ahhaha
de nearer u are to ur exams ... de more things u do that do not concern ur studies..
rahhhhh i wanna go home...
i wanna go back to when i'm young..
when i was in kindergarden playing rubber bands when the teacher is blabbering..
and i come home to watch cartoon...
mummy!~!!!
i dunwan to be 18 anymore....

i'm down with pms for de moment... will be okie in short while...


yada yada

oh yah!
my ka zhua (cockroach) story continues today!!
ahhahaha
i managed to catch it...
den it was so small that it manage to escape thru a really small hole.. or shld i say slit on de floor..
however it walk right back to where i caught it
and stood there quietly..
maybe it was starting to haf feelings for me
whahahaha
aft all.. i provided a place for it for a few dayZ(considering it's size)
i wonder if it has any siblings nesting ard my table..
yuckZ!
shudders..
let's hope it has lost it's way dat's why it is found near my table..
urggg

my sister jus cooked maggie for me..
now i'm hoping that the myth of eating during dat period of de month will not make one fat.. cos i'm eating alot..
feels like being pregnant huh
wahhaha

hrmm i think i go eat den go do my maths liao
it's really taking too long...

cheers!