Me. Myself & i

yawnz...
went sentosa today.. suppose to meet niang niang at 11, end up i reached there at like 1130 (late as usual) ahaha and she reached there like 1200!!! expected. LOL
talked alot... mostly bout myself.. hai.. really feel bad.. everytime we go out i'm always yakatee yaking about myself.. but.. bleai.. hahah she never stop me and when i realise it it's like too late le ba... k k.. mus make a mental note to curb myself nez time i see her...

den came home to sleep.. beauty sleep.. hahah seems like i can neva get enough sleep nowadays.. everyday fall into deep sleep.. anytime.. den always wake up with a headache.. wonder why's dat...

yawnz...

tml is a busy busy day!!!!
goin ecp in de morning!!!!! with my og!
grinz
dennnn... goin sch pass bert tutorial and to collect the hugs dat my darling brother owe me! hahaha.. den goin tuition.. den goin ms at nite!!!... wat an eventful day...

friday hafta go med check up and tuition in de evening...
sat... hmmmm somethings on but i cant rem what

anyhow.. rather busy... HOPE I CONT TO BE SO BUSY!!!!
i like to be busy!!
hahahah

and i feel i'm growin old..
sob sob.. i'm 19 and i feel old.. wat de hell
wahhahaha
shldn't stay out late so often le..

hmmm let me think of sumthing more intellectual to talk about...
oh yah... yesterday my mum told me not to stand too near de curb while waiting for bus or public transport. one indian or malay guy rides a bicycle and goes ard groping pple's breast and gets away on de bicycle.... how sick is that? wat's de world coming to?!?! haha wat's de fun in groping others breast? i dun see it ba.. or maybe i shldn't in de first place...

well.. was on de topic of chinese losing it's value in sg, again, with my aunt.. brought up de example of a fren of mine, who went for the teaching scholarship but ended up taking the teaching award jus cos she was majoring chinese in uni.. one reason could be there's less emphasis on chinese now in sg, another is that they could get teachers from china and taiwan at cheaper rate and not haf to pay for their education...

i'm totally disgusted at the tot of wat all these implies. on one hand they say "we're not tryin to play down de importance of chinese, jus hope that students are taking it out of interest and passion..." on the other hand they gif scholars with good grades and cca records the less prestigious award jus becos she's taking chinese. wat is this? hypocrisy is an understatement man... i mean i really feel for those who are really passionate about their mother tongue, becos they are not getting their due recognition! this elitist society is still rather bias against the minority of eng speaking upper class. seems like everything has a price tag stuck to it. if there's no value in learning mother tongue, we'll minimise our resources dedicated to it, cos the rate of return is not as high as other subjects... this is how cruel reality is ba... everything is about value, about returns, about potential...

sigh.

jus got reminded of him.
damn.
and i tried so hard to put him out of my mind today.

hate this.
but i noe i can do it.
i can do it betta than anyone else.
i'm gonna prove my self worth.
to myself, to everyone that cares for me.
i can walk out of this myself....

when there's light, there's shadows.
when there's happiness, there's sadness.
when there's love, there's hatred.

duality to everything..
yin and yang...

hahah priory of sions?
shit. i'm too into it...

cheers.