Jus had my 24 hour sls assignment yesterday and handed it up this morning. i really have no idea how i have done and would prefer not to find out too soon. The question was quite general, thus we had to do reseach on it first. However, the internet is so vast, everything seems relevant. On top of that, even if i had my own ideas, it jus did not feel rite to write them in the pprs unless i had substantiation or proof from submission or pprs that other people wrote on the internet. it jus seems like i don't have any confidence in what i thought of.
i guess after enrolling into law sch, my confidence level has been dipping and it's currently at the new low. I guess as bad as i was, i've never doubt myself so much before. I've always believed that hardwork will never get you to the top, however it'll bring you somewhere near the top. It jus doesn't seems applicable anymore. or is it that i've not been working hard enough? firstly, i lose out in my language, writen or spoken, i just don't have it. I don't think i even have the belief that i could speak properly in English now. At the same time, my written english just doesn't seems to be for readers of the lecturers' calibre. It looks more for low class newspaper, reporting gossip. Even such reports are grammatically correct.
Also, i'm neither good at remembering things nor a fan of creative thinking. The expectations are such that knowing the rules and tings that were taught are not enough. One has to be able to weave them together, such that you can distinguish what the old cases said and whether the law was right to begin with. I jus find it so hard to critic things there are in our curriculum and even more so when you are brought up to listen and jus learn. Moreover, from the start, there was much emphasis on the importance of certainty in our law system and Precedence by old cases will help to ensure that. it is an indication that in order to be certain in our advice to clients, we are suppose to substantiate all our theories with case lawS
There is this complaint by the industry and our lecturers that local law students are only good at taking exams, in the event that life is an exam, we will definitely score the best in the whole world. How can they blame us? when all the privileges that they provide (such as exchange program and double degree program) hinges so much upon your grades, and first year grades if i may add. it used to be just guessing what the examiner was looking for and write an exam ans to them. Presently, in order to respond to the industry's feedback and government's call for thinking nation, they add the thinking element into the markng scheme. Other than a respond to the question, one has to think out of the box to achieve a good grade. Those people that claim that students are only exam smart has change the examination system. Such that nowadays, people HAve to be exam smart AS well AS think out of the box. so ultimately, Students can continue with their passive learning by memorising wat kind of response is needed to be "thinking out of the box".
There is endless expectations they have of local students, i'm speaking for other levels as well. As long as it is in the demand in the market, they will inflict it upon us on top of all that they had in the past. Grade us for everything and complain that we will only take things seriously if it is graded. Com'on, with all the additional things that we have to do and in consideration that we only have so much time. isn't the fact that if a subject is examinable the most fundamental question you ask urself, in order to allocate your time for these things?
industries based their preliminary impression of a person by his grades; the school based its confidence in u to take up extra curriculum and to represent it upon his grades too. Does these not call for us students to be extra careful with subjects that are going to be graded? I disagree strongly that grades are everything, but grades still count for many things, if not all.
perhaps people may think i'm whining because i am not doin well currently. Think again. Don't you sometimes feel that the government and sch are merely adding on to our workload? when they suddenly realised that what they have taught for last 2 or 3 decades is wrong, there should be a change. However this change comes in the form of additional things to present system instead of making fundamental changes in the system. it's like cracks on an over pressured dam wall - you patch it up here, cracks start to form elsewhere. eventually the whole system is going to collaspe on u.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Monday, November 08, 2004
Well, daily entries turn to weekly entries and slowly became monthly entries... soon i guess i'll forget about this whole blog altogether..
will i?
it has been with me for the most significant part of my life thus far..
Anyway, it's important now that i write in proper english rather than how i speak everyday. I've been receiving comments that my assignments had really bad grammar and the sentences were badly structured. I was totally ruined by my bad english. To say it was devastating was qt an understatement - for first time in my life i realised the need for proper english. However, after some thought, there isn't really any choice but learn to speak and write properly for a change. I mean I'll be relying largely on English for the rest of my education, needless to say my career. Even if i happen to go over and practice for Chinese business, i guess there is still a high probability that i've to use ENGLISH, one way or another, i will be in the clutches of ENGLISH, until the day i DIE.
talk about devastating.
By the way, i just watched De-Lovely yesterday. It was great! It's a musical turned movie, i guess that gave a greater room for creativity than it being a musical. The songs were witty; the plot - thou cliche, but still touches hearts. You can see or rather hear that from the sounds of weeping... and the singing, the actors were superb! hahaha
basically the movie swept me off my feet. Paul suggested it and i'm glad i took his suggestion!
I have been sitting here since ten in the morning, had a break at 1330 for lunch that stretched till 2 plus goin to three... and went for a nap at 1630 to 1845.. and surfing the net till now.. i guess it's time to return to my books, or rather laptop..
exams are near, i totally have no confidence..
sigh..
i think i can say goodbye to my overseas exchange programme in year three.. SULKZ
cheers
wr
will i?
it has been with me for the most significant part of my life thus far..
Anyway, it's important now that i write in proper english rather than how i speak everyday. I've been receiving comments that my assignments had really bad grammar and the sentences were badly structured. I was totally ruined by my bad english. To say it was devastating was qt an understatement - for first time in my life i realised the need for proper english. However, after some thought, there isn't really any choice but learn to speak and write properly for a change. I mean I'll be relying largely on English for the rest of my education, needless to say my career. Even if i happen to go over and practice for Chinese business, i guess there is still a high probability that i've to use ENGLISH, one way or another, i will be in the clutches of ENGLISH, until the day i DIE.
talk about devastating.
By the way, i just watched De-Lovely yesterday. It was great! It's a musical turned movie, i guess that gave a greater room for creativity than it being a musical. The songs were witty; the plot - thou cliche, but still touches hearts. You can see or rather hear that from the sounds of weeping... and the singing, the actors were superb! hahaha
basically the movie swept me off my feet. Paul suggested it and i'm glad i took his suggestion!
I have been sitting here since ten in the morning, had a break at 1330 for lunch that stretched till 2 plus goin to three... and went for a nap at 1630 to 1845.. and surfing the net till now.. i guess it's time to return to my books, or rather laptop..
exams are near, i totally have no confidence..
sigh..
i think i can say goodbye to my overseas exchange programme in year three.. SULKZ
cheers
wr
Monday, October 25, 2004
Hrm, not feeling well today.. the kind of sorethroat i had last dec..
jus watch moulin Rouge yesterday (yes, very lagging) but was by chance found de vcd. so jus sat there and watch the pirated vcd after a long day of research in school.. yes, it was saturday, i went back to do research.. explains my illness today, the law library is unbearably cold.. on top of that, it was raining like nobody's business these few days..
Yup, sobbing like a child while i watch Moulin Rouge.. super maluated.. i mean who cries till like that when watching a show.. Paul commented that he really wondered who actually died looking at the way i cry, he said it looks more like my husband died than nicole kidman.. hahaha i guess i was abit too emotional, and out of control.. haven cried so badly since that time.. haven been so touched by a movie since last samurai..
really busy working on my research binder.. seems impossible for me to finish.. but i really feel good looking for cases to support my case. i mean if there weren't any curriculum, i.e. torts and contracts, to juggle with, i don't mind spending whole day in schl to do the research... but have to keep up with curriculum readings and this.. it's really over stretching and overwhelming.. guess the instructors are really doin a good job of stretching our potential..
hey anyway>> i've gotta go for my tuition.. starts at 630, look at the time now..
yupZz, did i mentioned i felt weird resting at home today, like not used to it? it's qt scary...
take care pple, dun fall sick.
cheers
wr
jus watch moulin Rouge yesterday (yes, very lagging) but was by chance found de vcd. so jus sat there and watch the pirated vcd after a long day of research in school.. yes, it was saturday, i went back to do research.. explains my illness today, the law library is unbearably cold.. on top of that, it was raining like nobody's business these few days..
Yup, sobbing like a child while i watch Moulin Rouge.. super maluated.. i mean who cries till like that when watching a show.. Paul commented that he really wondered who actually died looking at the way i cry, he said it looks more like my husband died than nicole kidman.. hahaha i guess i was abit too emotional, and out of control.. haven cried so badly since that time.. haven been so touched by a movie since last samurai..
really busy working on my research binder.. seems impossible for me to finish.. but i really feel good looking for cases to support my case. i mean if there weren't any curriculum, i.e. torts and contracts, to juggle with, i don't mind spending whole day in schl to do the research... but have to keep up with curriculum readings and this.. it's really over stretching and overwhelming.. guess the instructors are really doin a good job of stretching our potential..
hey anyway>> i've gotta go for my tuition.. starts at 630, look at the time now..
yupZz, did i mentioned i felt weird resting at home today, like not used to it? it's qt scary...
take care pple, dun fall sick.
cheers
wr
Monday, October 18, 2004
heYzz
again it's been some time since i blog
hardly have time for myself nowadays
it's jus sch, bf, law club, tutorials, sleep (hardlY)
i really dunnoe what is happening in my life, the sem is ending and i have no idea what am i doing everday.
it's really mundane.
i'll run to catch a ride from my bf's dad's car, will say hi to the mum, super tired, falls asleep in the car, mayb can sustain awhile and read some newspaper. get to sch about half an hour earlier and go to eat breakfast, may drink coffee or apple juice. then have lecture, go eat lunch, do some reading, talk some crap, take care of my law club stuff... goin home, sometmes with tuition...
i'm losing it. losing direction, where am i goin with this?
it is a serious qn, definitely not becos of pms.
i'm force by myself to do somethings that i really do not like, becos it is inevitable in life. but is this rite?
choices,
it's true that in every situation there's definitely choices. and in everything that you do, it's your choice. However, have anyone wondered that some options are as good as having no choice at all? i mean as an outsider you can say "it's ultimately up to you rite?" but if you had the same considerations as the one making the choice, would you still be able to say the same time. If everything is up to my choice, my likings, my priorities, then there'll never be problem in choosing. It's a matter of how selfish you wanna be, it is a matter of how inconsiderate you can make yourself to be, it is a matter of how self centred you are. I am not saying i'm all noble, always taking other's into considerations first before i make my decisions, but my upbringing is such that i do factor other's feelings into my considerations, jus a matter of degree.
well, for the benefit of those who are still reading, it is about my eca, law club. i've some serious problems with people and the way they work in there. from the beginning the leader has made me lost my faith in her being a good leader, not by the way she speaks, nor because of the way she carry herself. perhaps i'm over sensitive, but it is through sutle actions that shows that she has not put herself into the mindset that she is a leader of a group. i cant deny that she has the capabilities, confidence to take up the post, but has she put herself in that position?it's totally different to say that i want to be a leader and to really do it. to take care of the well being of the group. it's a very small incident, however, it's always the small things that count to me.
i have a vp that always wants things her way, suppose to take care of discipline in the club, did her job and really lose me as well. i mean we're all adults, i agree what we've did is off point and wrong. but com'on, do you really want to say this in the club meetings, how will the person feel? surely there are some better ways to communitcate than publicly point it out? when i say she always wants things her way, i don't think she does it on purpose, she jus haven realised what she is doing. I'm sure she has the club's interests at heart, but when people offer their point of view and most people agree with it, i think we jus have to live with it. That is the meaning of tyranny of majority, and at 19 years old, been through council, she seems to have yet to pick up that point in life.
Thirdly, i have this feeling that the group (i wont call it a team as yet) still cant handle problems in a matured way. if you haf a problem with me, look me up, talk to me, we settle it in a matured way. if you keep talking about it during meeting, whether is it hinting or being sacarstic, will jus make things worse. Morever, sacarsm will not bring the group anywhere, what is important is that now we're all in this. what i do might not make ur job more easy, but we work a way out, meet each other halfway. Know what is the problem of your member and address it, don't hint, or call a meeting to talk about things and end up only addressing to that particular member in the club. You're not helping, jus pushing to member away. such things are really delicate human relations issues that are important in a club, unless they learn it themselves. Of cos i can bring it up to them, it'll just look like i'm complaining and everything will be superficial and not be a lesson learnt, not from the bottom of their heart.
i've talked about this with many people, many times. As usual, typical gemini cant make up her mind, after talking to so many people, hearing so many different sides of viewpoint, the more i cant make up my mind, as usual. Anyway, made up my mind to pull through it for a year after talking to a fren. Really put things into perspective after talking to him. Life is never goin to be goin my way, instead of finding an easier way out, might as well brave through it and find yourself a better person at the end of it. Turning around and walk away is so easy, but am i goin to gain anything out of it? as much as i hate to admit it, it doesn't.
i nid to catch up with my work.
the amount of time spent studying few weeks before did not pay off. i got a b- for my first torts test. as in it is not the amount of time you spent studying, it is how you present your ans, how you argue your point and the way you use ur cases. it's all so easy to say, sit there and you wont know what to do. i dont even deserve a low b. that is the painful part. not to mention i was following lectures then, now i really have no idea what is happening in lectures and have yet to be preparing for lectures. been tryin to revise but have been repeating certain stuff that has yet to set in my mind. it is really messed up plus all the tutorials that we have to prepare for. i'm really up to the top...
well, i think i'll stop here, actually wanted to talk about something else, maybe later after my mugging.
cheers
again it's been some time since i blog
hardly have time for myself nowadays
it's jus sch, bf, law club, tutorials, sleep (hardlY)
i really dunnoe what is happening in my life, the sem is ending and i have no idea what am i doing everday.
it's really mundane.
i'll run to catch a ride from my bf's dad's car, will say hi to the mum, super tired, falls asleep in the car, mayb can sustain awhile and read some newspaper. get to sch about half an hour earlier and go to eat breakfast, may drink coffee or apple juice. then have lecture, go eat lunch, do some reading, talk some crap, take care of my law club stuff... goin home, sometmes with tuition...
i'm losing it. losing direction, where am i goin with this?
it is a serious qn, definitely not becos of pms.
i'm force by myself to do somethings that i really do not like, becos it is inevitable in life. but is this rite?
choices,
it's true that in every situation there's definitely choices. and in everything that you do, it's your choice. However, have anyone wondered that some options are as good as having no choice at all? i mean as an outsider you can say "it's ultimately up to you rite?" but if you had the same considerations as the one making the choice, would you still be able to say the same time. If everything is up to my choice, my likings, my priorities, then there'll never be problem in choosing. It's a matter of how selfish you wanna be, it is a matter of how inconsiderate you can make yourself to be, it is a matter of how self centred you are. I am not saying i'm all noble, always taking other's into considerations first before i make my decisions, but my upbringing is such that i do factor other's feelings into my considerations, jus a matter of degree.
well, for the benefit of those who are still reading, it is about my eca, law club. i've some serious problems with people and the way they work in there. from the beginning the leader has made me lost my faith in her being a good leader, not by the way she speaks, nor because of the way she carry herself. perhaps i'm over sensitive, but it is through sutle actions that shows that she has not put herself into the mindset that she is a leader of a group. i cant deny that she has the capabilities, confidence to take up the post, but has she put herself in that position?it's totally different to say that i want to be a leader and to really do it. to take care of the well being of the group. it's a very small incident, however, it's always the small things that count to me.
i have a vp that always wants things her way, suppose to take care of discipline in the club, did her job and really lose me as well. i mean we're all adults, i agree what we've did is off point and wrong. but com'on, do you really want to say this in the club meetings, how will the person feel? surely there are some better ways to communitcate than publicly point it out? when i say she always wants things her way, i don't think she does it on purpose, she jus haven realised what she is doing. I'm sure she has the club's interests at heart, but when people offer their point of view and most people agree with it, i think we jus have to live with it. That is the meaning of tyranny of majority, and at 19 years old, been through council, she seems to have yet to pick up that point in life.
Thirdly, i have this feeling that the group (i wont call it a team as yet) still cant handle problems in a matured way. if you haf a problem with me, look me up, talk to me, we settle it in a matured way. if you keep talking about it during meeting, whether is it hinting or being sacarstic, will jus make things worse. Morever, sacarsm will not bring the group anywhere, what is important is that now we're all in this. what i do might not make ur job more easy, but we work a way out, meet each other halfway. Know what is the problem of your member and address it, don't hint, or call a meeting to talk about things and end up only addressing to that particular member in the club. You're not helping, jus pushing to member away. such things are really delicate human relations issues that are important in a club, unless they learn it themselves. Of cos i can bring it up to them, it'll just look like i'm complaining and everything will be superficial and not be a lesson learnt, not from the bottom of their heart.
i've talked about this with many people, many times. As usual, typical gemini cant make up her mind, after talking to so many people, hearing so many different sides of viewpoint, the more i cant make up my mind, as usual. Anyway, made up my mind to pull through it for a year after talking to a fren. Really put things into perspective after talking to him. Life is never goin to be goin my way, instead of finding an easier way out, might as well brave through it and find yourself a better person at the end of it. Turning around and walk away is so easy, but am i goin to gain anything out of it? as much as i hate to admit it, it doesn't.
i nid to catch up with my work.
the amount of time spent studying few weeks before did not pay off. i got a b- for my first torts test. as in it is not the amount of time you spent studying, it is how you present your ans, how you argue your point and the way you use ur cases. it's all so easy to say, sit there and you wont know what to do. i dont even deserve a low b. that is the painful part. not to mention i was following lectures then, now i really have no idea what is happening in lectures and have yet to be preparing for lectures. been tryin to revise but have been repeating certain stuff that has yet to set in my mind. it is really messed up plus all the tutorials that we have to prepare for. i'm really up to the top...
well, i think i'll stop here, actually wanted to talk about something else, maybe later after my mugging.
cheers
Monday, October 04, 2004
Jus had my 24 hour SLS ppr and a 2 hours tuition... Hmmm
dun really have confidence in my ppr, but hell, i've already tried.. i'm not being easily contented here, but i feel essays are really subjective, especially alot of the things expect you to give ur own views, it's either they like it or they don't... i might really get D for this... but i think tt's de way to learn... i dunnoe if i will be able to see it this way when i get my grades.. dun really feel like thinking about it.
hahah dun be mistaken, i'm not feeling down or wateva due to my ppr.
jus that my whole week end is goin to end soon, and monday is goin to come again... and it's another week
i've gotta revise my contract(terms) and Torts(causation) today, so that i can make something out during tutorial nez week. which reminds me i have library research due nez week and 'meeting the client' on thursday.. i guess it's another busy week for me.. not mentioning my tuition and my law club meeting... on thursday there is an overnite stay in a hotel to meet up with 24th.. darn..
i hate this.
anyway, nothing much has happened, my good fren has talked to me again. wahahhaa who can resist me? :p and all my week was preparation for exam, bf, tuition and more studying..
cant rreally remember what haf i been doin..
rem that the petrol bicycle is being banned and electric bicycle still allowed, taiwanese scolded the whole singapore and that chickens and eggs are available at reasonable price again!
hahhahaha
k, i'm being lame.
i'm really deprive of time...
i think i'll jus stay home de whole day to read up instead of goin to watch movie ALONE,
yes alone. cos my bf is not free on sundays... but i have him for other 6 days, so as i told him, i'm not goin to fight with his heavenly father on sunday.. wahhaha
:P
anyway.. i think i'm goin to bring my barang barang out to the living room.. did i mention i'm growing too fat? all tt eating and sitting down is really killing me...
k k.. study time.. i love studying, gives me direction in life.
ahahaha
btw>> i saw a sign saying "dead slow, living children" in a sch compound yesterday, tot it's qt funny..
wahahahha
regards.
wr
dun really have confidence in my ppr, but hell, i've already tried.. i'm not being easily contented here, but i feel essays are really subjective, especially alot of the things expect you to give ur own views, it's either they like it or they don't... i might really get D for this... but i think tt's de way to learn... i dunnoe if i will be able to see it this way when i get my grades.. dun really feel like thinking about it.
hahah dun be mistaken, i'm not feeling down or wateva due to my ppr.
jus that my whole week end is goin to end soon, and monday is goin to come again... and it's another week
i've gotta revise my contract(terms) and Torts(causation) today, so that i can make something out during tutorial nez week. which reminds me i have library research due nez week and 'meeting the client' on thursday.. i guess it's another busy week for me.. not mentioning my tuition and my law club meeting... on thursday there is an overnite stay in a hotel to meet up with 24th.. darn..
i hate this.
anyway, nothing much has happened, my good fren has talked to me again. wahahhaa who can resist me? :p and all my week was preparation for exam, bf, tuition and more studying..
cant rreally remember what haf i been doin..
rem that the petrol bicycle is being banned and electric bicycle still allowed, taiwanese scolded the whole singapore and that chickens and eggs are available at reasonable price again!
hahhahaha
k, i'm being lame.
i'm really deprive of time...
i think i'll jus stay home de whole day to read up instead of goin to watch movie ALONE,
yes alone. cos my bf is not free on sundays... but i have him for other 6 days, so as i told him, i'm not goin to fight with his heavenly father on sunday.. wahhaha
:P
anyway.. i think i'm goin to bring my barang barang out to the living room.. did i mention i'm growing too fat? all tt eating and sitting down is really killing me...
k k.. study time.. i love studying, gives me direction in life.
ahahaha
btw>> i saw a sign saying "dead slow, living children" in a sch compound yesterday, tot it's qt funny..
wahahahha
regards.
wr
Thursday, September 30, 2004
heyZ.. it's been awhile since i blogged... however, not many people will look at my blog, so there's no stress at all :)
think alot of stuff have been happening throughout this period, gotta slowly update one by one...
well, firstly, for anyone tt's interested, i'm attached. dun think i wanna elaborate too much, jus a really great guy that i think i'm not really good enough for (i'm not being humble here)...
secondly, starting to have papers that count, meaning really had to mug very hard for the pprs, even 5% counts... and had my first tort paper today.. hahaha guess wat, all de talk about not having enough time to finish the paper... i was sitting there 15 mins prior to end of paper, looking at others busy scribling, wondering to myself 'why do they have so much to write'... like 5 min before time's up, i was busy scribling something which does not really appear in the ppr..
when paper ended, though i din write alot, i think i put in enough effort for the ppr. i'm not even thinking about the score..
have the postponed SLS ppr on Sat... my dear lecturer brought the qn to vietnam last week and had difficulty sending it back in time .. it was qt irritating, considering the fact that they were talking about how important it was to hand in assignments in time. becos later in our careers, deadline must be followed really strictly as courts and judges do not give leeway... I mean they even went through the trouble to set up a practice workbin for us to try uploading something just to make sure we could do it... and they themselves have the technical problem... Talk about double standard... should have asked him to write us a report (as we have to write one if we fail to turn up for his lecture...)
thirdly, have extra responsibilities right now.. for all who're letting ur imagination run wild, no i'm not pregnant, i joined law club.. am the social welfare secretary in law club.. alot of meetings, invitation to this and that.. with my tuitionS.. i really wonder if i can juggle them all at once... at this point, i jus wanna say i'm super glad i have a super understanding bf who waited for me till 7 in de evening when his lesson ended at 2, jus to go home with me.. lend me his shoulder to sleep everytime we're travelling.. cos i'm really not sleeping enough.. :p
yeap..
sorta 'quarrel' with my good fren..
really good fren i think..
i think i really neglected the people around me.. growing more and more self-centred as each day passes...
getting really really short tempered nowadays.. really impatient..
but we 'quarrel' not becos of my temper or my lack of patience.. quarrel becos i emailed her telling her i'm attached after a while since we met... she thinks we only go to her cos we haf prob in r/s or have bf stuff to tell her.. i'm qt disappointed.. perhaps our frenship did not really grow with time.. i'm qt disappointed with myself, perhaps i really took her for granted, did not stand in her position to judge if what i was telling her was material enough.. like i did not really pay attention to her as an individual..
i was wrong about how free and easy frenship could be... any kind of relationship needs time and care for it to blossom... without care and attention, think it'll jus wither and die... i tot we had a frenship forged so strong that irregular meetings will be adequate... that we know we'll always be there if something bad happens to each other.. apparently it was not the case..
after this episode, i really dunnoe on what occasion can i look for her? what should i say when i meet her? i have said this to other people before, that if a frenship will require one to think thrice before saying anything, then it's really qt superficial, thinking twice is reasonable.... Din't noe it could apply to us one day..
i should not get too emotional.. it's been awhile since i got too emotional.. and i really dun like the emotional me.. i'm losing touch with that and it is good.. having too much feelings is really not good... be considerate towards other's feelings, but don't have too much feelings urself..
even after you're gone, u cont to teach me... u teach me how to protect myself, by staying in my heart.
be back real soon.
good nite.
wr
think alot of stuff have been happening throughout this period, gotta slowly update one by one...
well, firstly, for anyone tt's interested, i'm attached. dun think i wanna elaborate too much, jus a really great guy that i think i'm not really good enough for (i'm not being humble here)...
secondly, starting to have papers that count, meaning really had to mug very hard for the pprs, even 5% counts... and had my first tort paper today.. hahaha guess wat, all de talk about not having enough time to finish the paper... i was sitting there 15 mins prior to end of paper, looking at others busy scribling, wondering to myself 'why do they have so much to write'... like 5 min before time's up, i was busy scribling something which does not really appear in the ppr..
when paper ended, though i din write alot, i think i put in enough effort for the ppr. i'm not even thinking about the score..
have the postponed SLS ppr on Sat... my dear lecturer brought the qn to vietnam last week and had difficulty sending it back in time .. it was qt irritating, considering the fact that they were talking about how important it was to hand in assignments in time. becos later in our careers, deadline must be followed really strictly as courts and judges do not give leeway... I mean they even went through the trouble to set up a practice workbin for us to try uploading something just to make sure we could do it... and they themselves have the technical problem... Talk about double standard... should have asked him to write us a report (as we have to write one if we fail to turn up for his lecture...)
thirdly, have extra responsibilities right now.. for all who're letting ur imagination run wild, no i'm not pregnant, i joined law club.. am the social welfare secretary in law club.. alot of meetings, invitation to this and that.. with my tuitionS.. i really wonder if i can juggle them all at once... at this point, i jus wanna say i'm super glad i have a super understanding bf who waited for me till 7 in de evening when his lesson ended at 2, jus to go home with me.. lend me his shoulder to sleep everytime we're travelling.. cos i'm really not sleeping enough.. :p
yeap..
sorta 'quarrel' with my good fren..
really good fren i think..
i think i really neglected the people around me.. growing more and more self-centred as each day passes...
getting really really short tempered nowadays.. really impatient..
but we 'quarrel' not becos of my temper or my lack of patience.. quarrel becos i emailed her telling her i'm attached after a while since we met... she thinks we only go to her cos we haf prob in r/s or have bf stuff to tell her.. i'm qt disappointed.. perhaps our frenship did not really grow with time.. i'm qt disappointed with myself, perhaps i really took her for granted, did not stand in her position to judge if what i was telling her was material enough.. like i did not really pay attention to her as an individual..
i was wrong about how free and easy frenship could be... any kind of relationship needs time and care for it to blossom... without care and attention, think it'll jus wither and die... i tot we had a frenship forged so strong that irregular meetings will be adequate... that we know we'll always be there if something bad happens to each other.. apparently it was not the case..
after this episode, i really dunnoe on what occasion can i look for her? what should i say when i meet her? i have said this to other people before, that if a frenship will require one to think thrice before saying anything, then it's really qt superficial, thinking twice is reasonable.... Din't noe it could apply to us one day..
i should not get too emotional.. it's been awhile since i got too emotional.. and i really dun like the emotional me.. i'm losing touch with that and it is good.. having too much feelings is really not good... be considerate towards other's feelings, but don't have too much feelings urself..
even after you're gone, u cont to teach me... u teach me how to protect myself, by staying in my heart.
be back real soon.
good nite.
wr
Sunday, September 12, 2004
hemmmm
din go for dinner with my farmer frenz.
went to study, edit abit of my close memo, read some torts. rather productive compared to stayin at home...
feels much better now :) he said it din haf much impression on him. so i guess i still have a fren
hemm.. eugene says i'm super confused, blur, dunnoe wat i want individual. well, wat to do, when things involve more than one person, it jus gets more complex, in an exponential manner...
it's easier to be alone... with occasional showers of blessings.. haha dun sound right.
i'm goin to blog in my other blog.
talk to u nez time.
wr
din go for dinner with my farmer frenz.
went to study, edit abit of my close memo, read some torts. rather productive compared to stayin at home...
feels much better now :) he said it din haf much impression on him. so i guess i still have a fren
hemm.. eugene says i'm super confused, blur, dunnoe wat i want individual. well, wat to do, when things involve more than one person, it jus gets more complex, in an exponential manner...
it's easier to be alone... with occasional showers of blessings.. haha dun sound right.
i'm goin to blog in my other blog.
talk to u nez time.
wr
Saturday, September 11, 2004
as the heart and mind battles...
hahah never tot i'll be caught again. but i noe this time it's a mild one, i could still get myself out of it. i mean i could see it coming, there's a black hole in front of me, take de plunge or step over it...
looking at the situation, his reactions, my past experience, my fren's experience.. my mind tells me to step over it..
"never let the fear of striking out keep u out of the game.."
i'm a coward
"I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn" usher- burn
grinz.
i dunno what i'm typing. jus typing
need to get some emotions out before i go back to my books, if not any attempt will jus be in vain
random tots..
"It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it" Usher - simple things
stop trying to read into things. been doin that too much. but a girl will always be a girl, think too much... hahah if i could get rid of this as well..
well, i think there goes a fren. think i talked abit too much yesterday. jus rem wat i said at the end of the conversation. hahaha very clever, wat a thing to say... "i nid to get a grip" LOL.. i'm amazed with myself, budden how could u blame a person that is chatting at like 2 am in the morning? well, i guess it makes things abit easier now.. hahaha. ;p
let me see, anymore things to say...
hmmmm
hahaha i think i jus found something very interesting that i said yesterday as well..
:P qt screwed.
k k.. life's much easier now...
thou i dunnoe wat i wan, i think wateva i said has actually decided for me.
life's going to be fine, sunny, occasional showers... and jus me
wr
hahah never tot i'll be caught again. but i noe this time it's a mild one, i could still get myself out of it. i mean i could see it coming, there's a black hole in front of me, take de plunge or step over it...
looking at the situation, his reactions, my past experience, my fren's experience.. my mind tells me to step over it..
"never let the fear of striking out keep u out of the game.."
i'm a coward
"I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn" usher- burn
grinz.
i dunno what i'm typing. jus typing
need to get some emotions out before i go back to my books, if not any attempt will jus be in vain
random tots..
"It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it" Usher - simple things
stop trying to read into things. been doin that too much. but a girl will always be a girl, think too much... hahah if i could get rid of this as well..
well, i think there goes a fren. think i talked abit too much yesterday. jus rem wat i said at the end of the conversation. hahaha very clever, wat a thing to say... "i nid to get a grip" LOL.. i'm amazed with myself, budden how could u blame a person that is chatting at like 2 am in the morning? well, i guess it makes things abit easier now.. hahaha. ;p
let me see, anymore things to say...
hmmmm
hahaha i think i jus found something very interesting that i said yesterday as well..
:P qt screwed.
k k.. life's much easier now...
thou i dunnoe wat i wan, i think wateva i said has actually decided for me.
life's going to be fine, sunny, occasional showers... and jus me
wr
Monday, September 06, 2004
not in a good mood.
stressed out, memories came flooding back, overwhelming me... and i'm super stubborn, cont to listen to all de sappy songs...
i noe it's not the time for me to whine, somehow i think that i dun haf the right to be whining. there's so many things waiting for me to do, to complete, to achieve.. what's there to whine about, what is there to think about? what is there to cry about?
i feel rather lost.
where am i heading? why am i doing all these?
i'm already in this, it's really not up to me to turn back. and i will never turn back.
admitting to defeat is something i don't allow myself to do.
i know i'm goin to pull thru, jus like how i pulled myself thru that period of time... pain is nothing but a process, a phase.. crying will only teach you to be wiser, to learn how to protect yourself from being hurt again...
haha, jus when i tot my life turn for the better, that my fren commented it's been a while since i had been so chirpy. then i realised it never really left, it was at the back of my mind, constantly reminding me of the past.
5 months is not enough.. :) my bestest bud was rite, forget about love, conc on studies, "not hurt enough?" even thou i never told him anything haha
i nid to get a new hobby.. learn how to de-stress. like learning archery? bladding??
i'm sorry about the really bimbotic entry today- i dun mean i haf the looks to be one, but mayb de intellectual level.
wo xin li de gan qing
dou dui ni shuo
ma lu shang tian tian dou zai sai
er yi ge ren tian tian zai deng dai
mei you ni re zi hen hei bai
yuan lai zhe yang jiu shi lian ai
wo xiang yao ni zai wo shen bian
fen xiang wo shen ming de mei yi tian
wo xiang yao tian tian shuo
tian tian shuo
tian tian dui ni shuo....
wo ai ni.
david tao, tian tian
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well, let me think of something nice to say.. to balance it out.
currently, alot of nice frens ard, mostly guys, or all? hemm
good fren, best fren, bestest fren all happens to be guys
and it happens that they're all from ACS, and they're christian~
hmmm
very interesting rite? so far no one tried to convert me yet, maybe they noe they will never succeed hahaha
well, another very interesting factor is they all haf dream gers already !! haha yeap so we're platonic frens k, mai siao siao.. hahah not many pple can have such achievements rite? i'm goin to like become part of them really soon, judging from the fact that been looking at gers (well i still look at guys), and abit violent, and abit loud. starting to curse and swear... very soon, i might not have any suitors at all, not like i have any now but yeah...
hmmm that's de weirdest thing happening around me... *thinks*
yeah>> and my bestest bud is my neighbour, so refer to earlier entry, he has appeared as an eye candy hahah and i actually reminded myself not to give him my blog add. but since we're now bestest bud, i tot it's only right... self proclaimed anti social, cant really talk person. super good christian, dun even drink (wonder why is he a fren now) hmmm good guy, too bad his taken. hahahaha well, if u gers pay me enough mayb i'll keep track of his love life for u all. LOL :) i nid money ah fren.. mus understand..
good fren is supposedly the hottest guy in law fac, i'm still wondering wat they based on to come up with that... cant really comment too much, cos i still want to keep our friendship. hahaha he's cute but definitely not my kind of cute. that's why we can be good frens~ but den again, this guy can be good frens with any ger, think to make his head abit bigger (ego i mean)
and my best fren is an AGP, like a super blur big brother. ask him about outside law stuff and he can talk to u bout it. but think once it comes back to sch work , he always seems to be abit lost. hahaha think my brother here has a bit too much commitments. did i mention we're in same TG for both LAWR/SLS and Torts/contracts? that's why i became his best fren.. easier to inform him about wat to do. i think after some time, we both realised we're both very lost in sch work. hahaha and this is really not working out very well...
well, i think i can haf my male escort agency rather soon, at the rate i'm goin. it's time i find a partner, den start recruiting members. hahahah well, gers can start contacting me and we can start the ball rolling from there...
think i hafta complete my studies in law, i might hafta use my knowlegde nez time....
in de end, it's all going to be worthwhile
when will it be de end?
wat's going to be worthwhile?
who's goin to judge what's worthwhile or not?
shi shang wu nan shiiiiii
Zhiii pa you xing rennnnnnnn
i wannna fly!!!!!!
fly fly fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stressed out, memories came flooding back, overwhelming me... and i'm super stubborn, cont to listen to all de sappy songs...
i noe it's not the time for me to whine, somehow i think that i dun haf the right to be whining. there's so many things waiting for me to do, to complete, to achieve.. what's there to whine about, what is there to think about? what is there to cry about?
i feel rather lost.
where am i heading? why am i doing all these?
i'm already in this, it's really not up to me to turn back. and i will never turn back.
admitting to defeat is something i don't allow myself to do.
i know i'm goin to pull thru, jus like how i pulled myself thru that period of time... pain is nothing but a process, a phase.. crying will only teach you to be wiser, to learn how to protect yourself from being hurt again...
haha, jus when i tot my life turn for the better, that my fren commented it's been a while since i had been so chirpy. then i realised it never really left, it was at the back of my mind, constantly reminding me of the past.
5 months is not enough.. :) my bestest bud was rite, forget about love, conc on studies, "not hurt enough?" even thou i never told him anything haha
i nid to get a new hobby.. learn how to de-stress. like learning archery? bladding??
i'm sorry about the really bimbotic entry today- i dun mean i haf the looks to be one, but mayb de intellectual level.
wo xin li de gan qing
dou dui ni shuo
ma lu shang tian tian dou zai sai
er yi ge ren tian tian zai deng dai
mei you ni re zi hen hei bai
yuan lai zhe yang jiu shi lian ai
wo xiang yao ni zai wo shen bian
fen xiang wo shen ming de mei yi tian
wo xiang yao tian tian shuo
tian tian shuo
tian tian dui ni shuo....
wo ai ni.
david tao, tian tian
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
well, let me think of something nice to say.. to balance it out.
currently, alot of nice frens ard, mostly guys, or all? hemm
good fren, best fren, bestest fren all happens to be guys
and it happens that they're all from ACS, and they're christian~
hmmm
very interesting rite? so far no one tried to convert me yet, maybe they noe they will never succeed hahaha
well, another very interesting factor is they all haf dream gers already !! haha yeap so we're platonic frens k, mai siao siao.. hahah not many pple can have such achievements rite? i'm goin to like become part of them really soon, judging from the fact that been looking at gers (well i still look at guys), and abit violent, and abit loud. starting to curse and swear... very soon, i might not have any suitors at all, not like i have any now but yeah...
hmmm that's de weirdest thing happening around me... *thinks*
yeah>> and my bestest bud is my neighbour, so refer to earlier entry, he has appeared as an eye candy hahah and i actually reminded myself not to give him my blog add. but since we're now bestest bud, i tot it's only right... self proclaimed anti social, cant really talk person. super good christian, dun even drink (wonder why is he a fren now) hmmm good guy, too bad his taken. hahahaha well, if u gers pay me enough mayb i'll keep track of his love life for u all. LOL :) i nid money ah fren.. mus understand..
good fren is supposedly the hottest guy in law fac, i'm still wondering wat they based on to come up with that... cant really comment too much, cos i still want to keep our friendship. hahaha he's cute but definitely not my kind of cute. that's why we can be good frens~ but den again, this guy can be good frens with any ger, think to make his head abit bigger (ego i mean)
and my best fren is an AGP, like a super blur big brother. ask him about outside law stuff and he can talk to u bout it. but think once it comes back to sch work , he always seems to be abit lost. hahaha think my brother here has a bit too much commitments. did i mention we're in same TG for both LAWR/SLS and Torts/contracts? that's why i became his best fren.. easier to inform him about wat to do. i think after some time, we both realised we're both very lost in sch work. hahaha and this is really not working out very well...
well, i think i can haf my male escort agency rather soon, at the rate i'm goin. it's time i find a partner, den start recruiting members. hahahah well, gers can start contacting me and we can start the ball rolling from there...
think i hafta complete my studies in law, i might hafta use my knowlegde nez time....
in de end, it's all going to be worthwhile
when will it be de end?
wat's going to be worthwhile?
who's goin to judge what's worthwhile or not?
shi shang wu nan shiiiiii
Zhiii pa you xing rennnnnnnn
i wannna fly!!!!!!
fly fly fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, September 03, 2004
have qt a number of things to talk about today...
firstly, was reading the newspaper in the morning and came across this article about the SMRT contemplating whether to build railings that cost $5m. due to the fact that too many pple are falling into the track nowadays.
one interesting observation : those that fall into the track are all adults. does that mean that children nowadays are either well taken care of by their parents or just that adults cant really take good care of themselves?
another thing is that don't singaporeans feel embarrass enough to have an annoucement system that tells us to stand behind the yellow line in FOUR languages EVERYTIME a train is coming, like it's not of common sense?
NOW hearing it is not enough, we have to take action to tell the world that we cant really take good care of our own individual self? that we nid physical barriers to stop us from falling off the track?!?
Wat ever happened to all the protesting voices that we are too taken care of? I tot we have an active group of people always calling out for the government to not dictate our lives, not take care of us so well?
As a frequent SMRT commuter, i personally feel that there are a number of reasons why people do fall off the track.
during peak hours, there are really too many people waiting to board the train. at first, everyone will be nice and courteous and stand behind the yellow line, even outside the line that is drawn for people coming how. HOWEVER, once the train began to move into the station, they seems to be attracted to the centre of where the door will be and before you know it, they are like so close to the door even before the train stops. this might not illustrate how a person can fall into the track before the train arrives, but it certainly shows how people don't really think before they act. by bernoulli's principle, the difference in pressure between nearer the moving train to outside will cause people to be 'suck' towards the train (haha my phys teacher gonna be so proud of me~!). Thus by moving beyond the yellow line before the train actually stops is qt a dumb move. and it actually SHOWS how careless adults can be with their own lives. therefore i think they can be qt capable of standing near the track when they feel giddy etc...
at this point, i nid to make it very clear that i have nothing against those victims of such accident, it's purely against the fact of building the railings.
back to the railings that is estimated to cost $5m. ultimately, being a monopoly in singapore (now my econs teacher will come into the picture) that extra cost, either will be subsidise by our ever caring government, or to us, commuters. and it's really people like me, who take the train like twice everyday, going to absorb most of the cost. If you were hoping for the govt to subsidise, start thinking of where that money comes from first. (hint: working adults pay tax)
It's seriously not about the money, it's about how it can be spent in better ways? like upgrading elderly flats which have pipes that are rusty already? i mean, if there were children or old folks falling off the track, yes, i totally agree we shld put railings. But we're talking about adults who are reasonably competent at taking care of themselves here. if they deliberately did so, only a concrete wall can stop them; if they were purely careless, isn't it high time they wake up? i mean, looking at all the previous cases, cant all of us take abit of initiative to take care of ourselves?
another of such incident is the parking problem in joo chiat (the man goin to disrupt church service due to church goers parking in front of his gate)
i'm sure many complaints would have been made to the church before such an outburst take place. and i am sure that the church would have told the congregation about this. it's human nature to wan convenience, i do it myself, but isn't it only polite, to actually ask if u really have to park in front of someone's property? have it actually occur to those inconsiderate people that others might need to drive out anytime during the church service? What if it was an emergency, someone's dying? if the asking had occured before the whole issue occurred, we wouldn't nid to dispatch traffic police to station there every sunday jus to make sure people follow the rules.
but then again, if everyone follow rules and be considerate, i won't have a job in the future...
hahaha
firstly, was reading the newspaper in the morning and came across this article about the SMRT contemplating whether to build railings that cost $5m. due to the fact that too many pple are falling into the track nowadays.
one interesting observation : those that fall into the track are all adults. does that mean that children nowadays are either well taken care of by their parents or just that adults cant really take good care of themselves?
another thing is that don't singaporeans feel embarrass enough to have an annoucement system that tells us to stand behind the yellow line in FOUR languages EVERYTIME a train is coming, like it's not of common sense?
NOW hearing it is not enough, we have to take action to tell the world that we cant really take good care of our own individual self? that we nid physical barriers to stop us from falling off the track?!?
Wat ever happened to all the protesting voices that we are too taken care of? I tot we have an active group of people always calling out for the government to not dictate our lives, not take care of us so well?
As a frequent SMRT commuter, i personally feel that there are a number of reasons why people do fall off the track.
during peak hours, there are really too many people waiting to board the train. at first, everyone will be nice and courteous and stand behind the yellow line, even outside the line that is drawn for people coming how. HOWEVER, once the train began to move into the station, they seems to be attracted to the centre of where the door will be and before you know it, they are like so close to the door even before the train stops. this might not illustrate how a person can fall into the track before the train arrives, but it certainly shows how people don't really think before they act. by bernoulli's principle, the difference in pressure between nearer the moving train to outside will cause people to be 'suck' towards the train (haha my phys teacher gonna be so proud of me~!). Thus by moving beyond the yellow line before the train actually stops is qt a dumb move. and it actually SHOWS how careless adults can be with their own lives. therefore i think they can be qt capable of standing near the track when they feel giddy etc...
at this point, i nid to make it very clear that i have nothing against those victims of such accident, it's purely against the fact of building the railings.
back to the railings that is estimated to cost $5m. ultimately, being a monopoly in singapore (now my econs teacher will come into the picture) that extra cost, either will be subsidise by our ever caring government, or to us, commuters. and it's really people like me, who take the train like twice everyday, going to absorb most of the cost. If you were hoping for the govt to subsidise, start thinking of where that money comes from first. (hint: working adults pay tax)
It's seriously not about the money, it's about how it can be spent in better ways? like upgrading elderly flats which have pipes that are rusty already? i mean, if there were children or old folks falling off the track, yes, i totally agree we shld put railings. But we're talking about adults who are reasonably competent at taking care of themselves here. if they deliberately did so, only a concrete wall can stop them; if they were purely careless, isn't it high time they wake up? i mean, looking at all the previous cases, cant all of us take abit of initiative to take care of ourselves?
another of such incident is the parking problem in joo chiat (the man goin to disrupt church service due to church goers parking in front of his gate)
i'm sure many complaints would have been made to the church before such an outburst take place. and i am sure that the church would have told the congregation about this. it's human nature to wan convenience, i do it myself, but isn't it only polite, to actually ask if u really have to park in front of someone's property? have it actually occur to those inconsiderate people that others might need to drive out anytime during the church service? What if it was an emergency, someone's dying? if the asking had occured before the whole issue occurred, we wouldn't nid to dispatch traffic police to station there every sunday jus to make sure people follow the rules.
but then again, if everyone follow rules and be considerate, i won't have a job in the future...
hahaha
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Yoz~
comtemplating if i shld go out later
i haf another 8 minutes to decide
let's list out the pros and cons..
cons are: i've already been laggin in reading. tml there's torts lecture. my mum wont like it. have been slacking since yesterday. i'll feel bad when i come back.
pro is: there's a brazillian cute guy~! hahaha
k.. looks like goin out is not justified.
mayb i shld jus stay home and study
sigh.
as promised, goin to bring you all de topic of "girls and their petty nature"
actually it's not much. jus alot of my guy frens telling me that gers are really petty, like. too sensitive.. yada yada.
and somehow, i'm not like a ger when i can take insults. i wonder why's dat.
i've got nothing against my own gender here but i do feel that sometimes..
now i've two min left before i go back to work.
i'm goin off..
will attempt the topic again later.
:)
smile.
wr
comtemplating if i shld go out later
i haf another 8 minutes to decide
let's list out the pros and cons..
cons are: i've already been laggin in reading. tml there's torts lecture. my mum wont like it. have been slacking since yesterday. i'll feel bad when i come back.
pro is: there's a brazillian cute guy~! hahaha
k.. looks like goin out is not justified.
mayb i shld jus stay home and study
sigh.
as promised, goin to bring you all de topic of "girls and their petty nature"
actually it's not much. jus alot of my guy frens telling me that gers are really petty, like. too sensitive.. yada yada.
and somehow, i'm not like a ger when i can take insults. i wonder why's dat.
i've got nothing against my own gender here but i do feel that sometimes..
now i've two min left before i go back to work.
i'm goin off..
will attempt the topic again later.
:)
smile.
wr
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
i'm not getting day off tml becos of teachers' day...
cos i'm an undergrad~!
another tell tale sign that "age is catching up"
anyway my eye is hurting, due to the lack of rest, over stressing and wearing contacts all day and nite...
i'm not very kind to them eh?
think if they had a choice they would jus jump out and run away or something..
i'm qt hungry now>> was out since 7 today, went yj to give Teachers' day Prezzie... then ran off before flag raising before every teachers see me... in order to prevent them and myself to fulfill the obligations to engage in little conversation.. which i'm sure they feel that, as much as i do, is the last thing u wanna do like 7 in the morning
and then went nus from there, over shot my destination and dropped at commonwealth instead... apparently there was no frustration or anything, i jus walk over and took a train back.. den like running in auto pilot mode, i walked to the bus stop, and saw my sister who was on the train after mine...
went to sch..
decided to stop by the computer centre to settle my ivle prob once and for all... and.. GUESS WAT? i like the biggest fool in the century... based on the illustration(pictures) i went to the log in page meant for maintenance purposes... so i will not get thru there... stupid. on my part. and the guy was like apologising for the picture.. haha qt nice eh? these really nice pple make my day man.. makes me wanna be nice, which is qt seldom lah...
maroon 5 qt a dirty band eh?
hahahhaha
i like.
anyway>> cont with my boring entry of my little day
met my new best fren (self-acclaimed by him) at FASS canteen coincidentally so got company for eating~ not like i nid lah.. hahahaha as usual, my anti-social self..so ate and went to try to do some reading... TRY.. and my tutorial.. but jus fell flat on the table after half an hour..
think all the lectures and tutorials are not worth mentioning.. how boring can it can? i jus type boring things here... hahaha so not boring enough to enter my blog i guess
haha did i mention the excitement about goin home with my neighbour wore off already?
still fun when i can stay awake, but i'm jus too tired at the end of the day to really entertain someone..
den it's like tuition
den went sun plaza with don and damien. had fun
and decided to put my work aside.. for like few hours..
(in denial)
i'm goin off to sleep..
i shall address the topic "gers and their petty nature tml.."
got some ideas today..
hahaha
hope i got time to update.
cheers
wr
had my first contract tutorial today, i have really interesting instructor~ he smiles when he talks about contract, can see he is really passionate about the job... anyway, concluded that it's really useless to go for contract lecture, and yes, i'm goin to skip the one tomorrow, as i really nid my sleep. but it wont be perpetual.. :p hopefully
hahaha
cos i'm an undergrad~!
another tell tale sign that "age is catching up"
anyway my eye is hurting, due to the lack of rest, over stressing and wearing contacts all day and nite...
i'm not very kind to them eh?
think if they had a choice they would jus jump out and run away or something..
i'm qt hungry now>> was out since 7 today, went yj to give Teachers' day Prezzie... then ran off before flag raising before every teachers see me... in order to prevent them and myself to fulfill the obligations to engage in little conversation.. which i'm sure they feel that, as much as i do, is the last thing u wanna do like 7 in the morning
and then went nus from there, over shot my destination and dropped at commonwealth instead... apparently there was no frustration or anything, i jus walk over and took a train back.. den like running in auto pilot mode, i walked to the bus stop, and saw my sister who was on the train after mine...
went to sch..
decided to stop by the computer centre to settle my ivle prob once and for all... and.. GUESS WAT? i like the biggest fool in the century... based on the illustration(pictures) i went to the log in page meant for maintenance purposes... so i will not get thru there... stupid. on my part. and the guy was like apologising for the picture.. haha qt nice eh? these really nice pple make my day man.. makes me wanna be nice, which is qt seldom lah...
maroon 5 qt a dirty band eh?
hahahhaha
i like.
anyway>> cont with my boring entry of my little day
met my new best fren (self-acclaimed by him) at FASS canteen coincidentally so got company for eating~ not like i nid lah.. hahahaha as usual, my anti-social self..so ate and went to try to do some reading... TRY.. and my tutorial.. but jus fell flat on the table after half an hour..
think all the lectures and tutorials are not worth mentioning.. how boring can it can? i jus type boring things here... hahaha so not boring enough to enter my blog i guess
haha did i mention the excitement about goin home with my neighbour wore off already?
still fun when i can stay awake, but i'm jus too tired at the end of the day to really entertain someone..
den it's like tuition
den went sun plaza with don and damien. had fun
and decided to put my work aside.. for like few hours..
(in denial)
i'm goin off to sleep..
i shall address the topic "gers and their petty nature tml.."
got some ideas today..
hahaha
hope i got time to update.
cheers
wr
had my first contract tutorial today, i have really interesting instructor~ he smiles when he talks about contract, can see he is really passionate about the job... anyway, concluded that it's really useless to go for contract lecture, and yes, i'm goin to skip the one tomorrow, as i really nid my sleep. but it wont be perpetual.. :p hopefully
hahaha
Monday, August 30, 2004
wahahha..
suppose to be doing my reading like... 2 hours agO!!!
wat de heck am i doin still online?!
basically its due to the lack of self discipline
and secondly, it's becos i'm talking to my neighbour who is living across de street
and for those of u who are wondering who de heck is he
he is my new found eye candy that stays across de street directly opposite my house, or flat rather, and his sister and him both reading law first year like me.
so actually, when he decides not to wait for his sister, i get to go home with him! hahah actually, even if he does we still can go home together. somehow or rather he says i'm weird. sulkz. but hahaha eye candy~
k, someone please remind me not to give him my blog add.
anyway>>let me see, anything more interesting happening now in my life? other than the tons of readings dat i've yet to go into..
hahaha.. not really
but realised that i cant really talk to my tort's tutor, as in i cant really talk in my torts tutorial cos i've yet to get used to the pple there.. hope it'll get better nez time..
oh no
gotta go my sister wanna use
nez time...
suppose to be doing my reading like... 2 hours agO!!!
wat de heck am i doin still online?!
basically its due to the lack of self discipline
and secondly, it's becos i'm talking to my neighbour who is living across de street
and for those of u who are wondering who de heck is he
he is my new found eye candy that stays across de street directly opposite my house, or flat rather, and his sister and him both reading law first year like me.
so actually, when he decides not to wait for his sister, i get to go home with him! hahah actually, even if he does we still can go home together. somehow or rather he says i'm weird. sulkz. but hahaha eye candy~
k, someone please remind me not to give him my blog add.
anyway>>let me see, anything more interesting happening now in my life? other than the tons of readings dat i've yet to go into..
hahaha.. not really
but realised that i cant really talk to my tort's tutor, as in i cant really talk in my torts tutorial cos i've yet to get used to the pple there.. hope it'll get better nez time..
oh no
gotta go my sister wanna use
nez time...
Monday, August 16, 2004
i still cannot access my modules in my IVLE!!!!!
i'm officially pissed off with whoever is in charge of it! stupid stupid stupid ..
i cant find out what am i suppose to read!
wat is this man!
even after i sent an email like 2 days ago still no one to rectify the problem?
den what am i suppose to do when de stupid lecturers keep uploading things like they dun nid a break?!
i'm fried.
jus read de pprs, qt interesting stuff they haf on sundays.. or is it i'm getting too boring?
hahaha
there's this report about the MPs gonna go ard collecting suggestions from youths on how they want their country to be govern. one of them said he dun believe that singaporean youths are apathetic when it comes to politics, jus that there is no sufficient avenues for them to voice their opinions.
one thing is that, it took them qt long to realise that?
another is that, i haf a strong feeling, their jus gonna get pple suggesting that we shld haf more rollerblading, skateboarding places, the youths need a break yada yada yada, before you noe it, the dialogue session might jus turn into a complain session... actually, i haf no idea wat is de age range for youth
hahaha 13 to 35?
ok, i think i'm not being fair to our youths..
it's really a good try, perhaps something will come out of it.. instead of youths complaining, and dissing everyone off in online blogs.. i think this is a much more effective avenue, and at least they might see some changes.
if they are hoping to get more youths involved in politics and the shaping of the new singapore, i was thinking mayb they can start like internship for youths aspiring to be a politiciaN? or perhaps they already haf this in place. cos to me it would be interesting to learn how the ministries are run?
well, perhaps the different ministris shld try to work together when coming up with policies.. we all noe that when there's societal problems, it's not only contributed by onli one factor, which comes under the control of one ministry..
anyhow, tt's my 1 cent's worth..
and~
while i'm on de topic of blogging, some chick by de name of xiaxue(or so her blog add claims) got an award fr hongkong for her blog. which the newspaper reported to have been dissing everyone she met off, and her encounters with her exboyfrens.. very interesting world we live in today eh? i mean u get award for openly dissing pple online, being pissed off and vulgar and all that..
from the interview, can tell that she's rather sharp.. from de picture she's rather pretty..
so there goes the theory that pple who appears to be bitter and all that in blogs are ugly freaks who feels that de world owe them a living, shld all be nice and courteous to them becos they are ugly, being considerate for these pple's self esteem.
i'm sayin they are ugly not becos they really look ugly, it's becos they feel ugly and ACT ugly and hate the world for everything, to them, is unfair towards them cos they are ugly.
ppl like this, who cant stop hating the world for everything and do something about themselves, nid two tight slaps, telling them to wake up before their life comes to and end and they look back, recollecting nothing but cursing and swearing at the world for everything that happened to them in life.
or they can jus shoot themselves in the head, if they think the world is such a hopeless place filled with pple who judge them jus becos of looks, save themselves the misery and save others de misery of dealing with their negativity..
do some charity, learn to appreciate the world in a brighter light.. seeing the pple u help smile and laugh and u'll find that u have wasted ur stupid life.
other than complaining pple write sub standard blogs talking about their shopping trips and nitty gritty details bout how loving her bf is, complaining how nokia is designing fones that does serve a purpose, other than dissing ur lecturers about how fierce or authoratative they are,that life is goin to be so much better if you don't hafta study, that the salesperson was so rude to you, that the cute ger in sch is getting so much attention, ur guy teachers are flirting with their students, which i think most probably are subjective views, maybe these pple shld be be brought together and thrown into some poor countries for 3 weeks and learn wat is life. learn how other pple are try to cope with life, and here they are with a computer (some haf more than one), aircon, nice clothes, reasonable good food, great and peaceful country, stressful but semi compulsory education, complaining the world is being unfair to them...
well everyone is entitled to their own views, i wouldn't deny that. but it's jus so irritating when u actually come across blogs that say the world is so bleak cos pple are not getting a grip of their lives... it's sad lah..
well i haf made my comments. and it's probably very biased
but no one will care
hahaha
cos everyone diss everyone in blogs don't they?
i'm jus another blogger
cheers
i'm officially pissed off with whoever is in charge of it! stupid stupid stupid ..
i cant find out what am i suppose to read!
wat is this man!
even after i sent an email like 2 days ago still no one to rectify the problem?
den what am i suppose to do when de stupid lecturers keep uploading things like they dun nid a break?!
i'm fried.
jus read de pprs, qt interesting stuff they haf on sundays.. or is it i'm getting too boring?
hahaha
there's this report about the MPs gonna go ard collecting suggestions from youths on how they want their country to be govern. one of them said he dun believe that singaporean youths are apathetic when it comes to politics, jus that there is no sufficient avenues for them to voice their opinions.
one thing is that, it took them qt long to realise that?
another is that, i haf a strong feeling, their jus gonna get pple suggesting that we shld haf more rollerblading, skateboarding places, the youths need a break yada yada yada, before you noe it, the dialogue session might jus turn into a complain session... actually, i haf no idea wat is de age range for youth
hahaha 13 to 35?
ok, i think i'm not being fair to our youths..
it's really a good try, perhaps something will come out of it.. instead of youths complaining, and dissing everyone off in online blogs.. i think this is a much more effective avenue, and at least they might see some changes.
if they are hoping to get more youths involved in politics and the shaping of the new singapore, i was thinking mayb they can start like internship for youths aspiring to be a politiciaN? or perhaps they already haf this in place. cos to me it would be interesting to learn how the ministries are run?
well, perhaps the different ministris shld try to work together when coming up with policies.. we all noe that when there's societal problems, it's not only contributed by onli one factor, which comes under the control of one ministry..
anyhow, tt's my 1 cent's worth..
and~
while i'm on de topic of blogging, some chick by de name of xiaxue(or so her blog add claims) got an award fr hongkong for her blog. which the newspaper reported to have been dissing everyone she met off, and her encounters with her exboyfrens.. very interesting world we live in today eh? i mean u get award for openly dissing pple online, being pissed off and vulgar and all that..
from the interview, can tell that she's rather sharp.. from de picture she's rather pretty..
so there goes the theory that pple who appears to be bitter and all that in blogs are ugly freaks who feels that de world owe them a living, shld all be nice and courteous to them becos they are ugly, being considerate for these pple's self esteem.
i'm sayin they are ugly not becos they really look ugly, it's becos they feel ugly and ACT ugly and hate the world for everything, to them, is unfair towards them cos they are ugly.
ppl like this, who cant stop hating the world for everything and do something about themselves, nid two tight slaps, telling them to wake up before their life comes to and end and they look back, recollecting nothing but cursing and swearing at the world for everything that happened to them in life.
or they can jus shoot themselves in the head, if they think the world is such a hopeless place filled with pple who judge them jus becos of looks, save themselves the misery and save others de misery of dealing with their negativity..
do some charity, learn to appreciate the world in a brighter light.. seeing the pple u help smile and laugh and u'll find that u have wasted ur stupid life.
other than complaining pple write sub standard blogs talking about their shopping trips and nitty gritty details bout how loving her bf is, complaining how nokia is designing fones that does serve a purpose, other than dissing ur lecturers about how fierce or authoratative they are,that life is goin to be so much better if you don't hafta study, that the salesperson was so rude to you, that the cute ger in sch is getting so much attention, ur guy teachers are flirting with their students, which i think most probably are subjective views, maybe these pple shld be be brought together and thrown into some poor countries for 3 weeks and learn wat is life. learn how other pple are try to cope with life, and here they are with a computer (some haf more than one), aircon, nice clothes, reasonable good food, great and peaceful country, stressful but semi compulsory education, complaining the world is being unfair to them...
well everyone is entitled to their own views, i wouldn't deny that. but it's jus so irritating when u actually come across blogs that say the world is so bleak cos pple are not getting a grip of their lives... it's sad lah..
well i haf made my comments. and it's probably very biased
but no one will care
hahaha
cos everyone diss everyone in blogs don't they?
i'm jus another blogger
cheers
Saturday, August 14, 2004
hahaha i'm qt happy!~
jus sort of finished my first assignment...
i think it's really not up to standard.. but as shervon (my instructor for legal writing) puts it, we're all learning and we're all new to the subject, so no one is expecting you to be fantastic in ur first assignment..
yeah, as long as i hand it up and spend a reasonable amount of time on it ..
i still have like 10 to 15 cases to read to prepare for torts lecture nez week. there goes my weekend..
and i've yet to read up for my SLS... think the only module that yet to haf any reading is contract ..
i'm super lost in sch
no idea wat to bring
no idea how to go about preparing for classes
when they ask us to read, are we suppose to jus read or make some notes..
can i survive without my laptop
wat's de purpose of my laptop anyway?
cant really participate in class cos there are so many smart pple ard, and those who try to sound smart but ask stupid qn. in de end, whenever this particular person raise his/her hand, everyone jus switch off and exchange looks in the LT..
geesh.. wat am i suppose to do with my textbks?
hahaha
other than struggling with the urge to tear it apart.. ;p
i'm qt buried by my books and pprs
and super stressed out by de ppl ard me..
i now only haf a vague idea of wat is jurisdiction, common law, tort, contract, high court, supreme court, court of appeal, subordinate court, legislative, executive, A-G council, yada yada yada and the lists goes on.. and all de big words dat pple use..
they are driving me nuts.
:P
but i'll pull thru!!!!!!
hahahah
i hope
before i become crasy
wahhaha
cheers..
wr
jus sort of finished my first assignment...
i think it's really not up to standard.. but as shervon (my instructor for legal writing) puts it, we're all learning and we're all new to the subject, so no one is expecting you to be fantastic in ur first assignment..
yeah, as long as i hand it up and spend a reasonable amount of time on it ..
i still have like 10 to 15 cases to read to prepare for torts lecture nez week. there goes my weekend..
and i've yet to read up for my SLS... think the only module that yet to haf any reading is contract ..
i'm super lost in sch
no idea wat to bring
no idea how to go about preparing for classes
when they ask us to read, are we suppose to jus read or make some notes..
can i survive without my laptop
wat's de purpose of my laptop anyway?
cant really participate in class cos there are so many smart pple ard, and those who try to sound smart but ask stupid qn. in de end, whenever this particular person raise his/her hand, everyone jus switch off and exchange looks in the LT..
geesh.. wat am i suppose to do with my textbks?
hahaha
other than struggling with the urge to tear it apart.. ;p
i'm qt buried by my books and pprs
and super stressed out by de ppl ard me..
i now only haf a vague idea of wat is jurisdiction, common law, tort, contract, high court, supreme court, court of appeal, subordinate court, legislative, executive, A-G council, yada yada yada and the lists goes on.. and all de big words dat pple use..
they are driving me nuts.
:P
but i'll pull thru!!!!!!
hahahah
i hope
before i become crasy
wahhaha
cheers..
wr
Thursday, August 05, 2004
geesh!!!
been a really busy week~
let me see...
went overnite cycling saturday evening...
saw fireworks on my way to ecp!!!! super nice hahahah great timing yeah?
hrm... had alot of waiting to do.. got there like 8 plus, had some fries and den waited all de way till 11 or 12 before we started cycling.. inclusive of playing ice breakers and collecting bike..
was a whole new exp for me to cycle on de road..
it's really a big big big difference!!!!
hahaha
damn scary, esp i'm so accident prone.. got honked by a taxi at de end of the trail.. hahaha and i noe i was making alot of noise.. wahhaha really damn kia si loh!!!
:p
hahahah oh yeah, saw a really cute guy in my group, nice frenly and all that. and he commented that i dun look like i ever had bf before. this is like de 3rd person saying so.. reason being : i look like those who cannot commit...
i wonder if this is why guys always come to me as good frens and brothers..
hahahaha
but i'm comfortable with status quo, think nothing could be better .. except... :)
oh yeah.. so cycle till like 5 and reach ecp.. not very tiring, except the part about me missing my sleep.. came home ard 7. was so blur that i left without calling becca, and left her like waiting there.. damn man.. and i slept all de way back to ys, so din hear the fone... feel so guilty!!!!!! :P got home, washe up and went to sleep. suppose to wake up at 10 to go give tuition at 11.. but slept all de way to 1252hrs and kept calling my tuition kid.. cos that day i had to get my white long sleeve shirt and black pants for my in-augaration on monday.. and i haf no money.. so i had to go for tuition to get my pay.. but ended up she cancelled tuition.. and i was left stranded, dunnoe who to turn to..
this teaches us not to count our chickens before they hatch... had no choice but to beg borrow from aunt mich.. damn paiseh. only when i have trouble den i msg her.. dunnoe how she sees it lah, but i'm damn uncomfortable with this...
anyhow, had to go all de way to suntec to meet my unker to get it from him instead, since my aunt was in hk working... had lunch at marche (uncle's treat!!) and went to meet niang niang..
our meeting time dragged from 2 all de way to 530.. ultimate.. and 2 pple became 3... hahaha no tt i am complaining lah.. but got my top, bottom and shoes.. aft much hassle and walking ard.. and really felt like killing myself and not turn up for de inaugaration on monday while shopping. yes, i'm one of those few gers who simply cannot stand walking ard aimlessly in shopping centres, hoping to buy something while squeezing through crowds, dat really make me wonder if the whole singapore population is concentrated in town dat day...
however, my mood really swing to de other side right aft i paid for my shoes... and i felt so happY!!! completing my mission!!! hahaha and went to eat at wisma... din really eat since i was meeting dad and mum and sis for roti prata!!!! but paid more den i was suppose to cos i dragged de two poor gers to walk ard with me to get my stuff...
anyhow, monday was qt a serious day, saw our dean, saw my TG (tutorial group) and collected my mailbox keys.. ... did i mention i had to rem ALOT of names.. i'm like.. really bad with names... inaugaration was qt fun.. sat rite in front and doze off when de biggest head was talking.. hahahha first time i dozed off uncontrollably.. wonder if it's him or it's jus me being too tired.. my eyelids simply fell uncontrollably...
hmmm.. woah.. tts only 3 days..
tues went for flag day!!!!
hahaha at first i was really reluctant to go alone!!! den was trying to siam..
budden zy and my ogls too damn cold blooded.. so i was left alone..
aft i got my first 40 cents from an ang mo, i decided to walk to secluded area of somerset to explore, instead of standing a mere 50 steps away from 2 other nus freshie selling flags..
anyway, i walked ard for de sake of exploring, not flaggin! wahhahahah
started flaggin outside a restaurant and fairprice..
really had fun.
even chatted with a couple of donors for some time
whahaha
and i had de heaviest tin when i left, at lunch time. taking into consideration that i was late.. like reached there about 10..
wahhaha
left and de creative talents company called me up on my way to getting my sister a cd..
asked me to go down for an interview de nez day...
in de end i was there later part of de afternoon cos i happened to be free and in town..
was convinced to take some photos on de nez day ..
den i went to give tuition...
today is wednesday.. it is a long day... so i'll cont tml!!
hahaha
cheers
wr
been a really busy week~
let me see...
went overnite cycling saturday evening...
saw fireworks on my way to ecp!!!! super nice hahahah great timing yeah?
hrm... had alot of waiting to do.. got there like 8 plus, had some fries and den waited all de way till 11 or 12 before we started cycling.. inclusive of playing ice breakers and collecting bike..
was a whole new exp for me to cycle on de road..
it's really a big big big difference!!!!
hahaha
damn scary, esp i'm so accident prone.. got honked by a taxi at de end of the trail.. hahaha and i noe i was making alot of noise.. wahhaha really damn kia si loh!!!
:p
hahahah oh yeah, saw a really cute guy in my group, nice frenly and all that. and he commented that i dun look like i ever had bf before. this is like de 3rd person saying so.. reason being : i look like those who cannot commit...
i wonder if this is why guys always come to me as good frens and brothers..
hahahaha
but i'm comfortable with status quo, think nothing could be better .. except... :)
oh yeah.. so cycle till like 5 and reach ecp.. not very tiring, except the part about me missing my sleep.. came home ard 7. was so blur that i left without calling becca, and left her like waiting there.. damn man.. and i slept all de way back to ys, so din hear the fone... feel so guilty!!!!!! :P got home, washe up and went to sleep. suppose to wake up at 10 to go give tuition at 11.. but slept all de way to 1252hrs and kept calling my tuition kid.. cos that day i had to get my white long sleeve shirt and black pants for my in-augaration on monday.. and i haf no money.. so i had to go for tuition to get my pay.. but ended up she cancelled tuition.. and i was left stranded, dunnoe who to turn to..
this teaches us not to count our chickens before they hatch... had no choice but to beg borrow from aunt mich.. damn paiseh. only when i have trouble den i msg her.. dunnoe how she sees it lah, but i'm damn uncomfortable with this...
anyhow, had to go all de way to suntec to meet my unker to get it from him instead, since my aunt was in hk working... had lunch at marche (uncle's treat!!) and went to meet niang niang..
our meeting time dragged from 2 all de way to 530.. ultimate.. and 2 pple became 3... hahaha no tt i am complaining lah.. but got my top, bottom and shoes.. aft much hassle and walking ard.. and really felt like killing myself and not turn up for de inaugaration on monday while shopping. yes, i'm one of those few gers who simply cannot stand walking ard aimlessly in shopping centres, hoping to buy something while squeezing through crowds, dat really make me wonder if the whole singapore population is concentrated in town dat day...
however, my mood really swing to de other side right aft i paid for my shoes... and i felt so happY!!! completing my mission!!! hahaha and went to eat at wisma... din really eat since i was meeting dad and mum and sis for roti prata!!!! but paid more den i was suppose to cos i dragged de two poor gers to walk ard with me to get my stuff...
anyhow, monday was qt a serious day, saw our dean, saw my TG (tutorial group) and collected my mailbox keys.. ... did i mention i had to rem ALOT of names.. i'm like.. really bad with names... inaugaration was qt fun.. sat rite in front and doze off when de biggest head was talking.. hahahha first time i dozed off uncontrollably.. wonder if it's him or it's jus me being too tired.. my eyelids simply fell uncontrollably...
hmmm.. woah.. tts only 3 days..
tues went for flag day!!!!
hahaha at first i was really reluctant to go alone!!! den was trying to siam..
budden zy and my ogls too damn cold blooded.. so i was left alone..
aft i got my first 40 cents from an ang mo, i decided to walk to secluded area of somerset to explore, instead of standing a mere 50 steps away from 2 other nus freshie selling flags..
anyway, i walked ard for de sake of exploring, not flaggin! wahhahahah
started flaggin outside a restaurant and fairprice..
really had fun.
even chatted with a couple of donors for some time
whahaha
and i had de heaviest tin when i left, at lunch time. taking into consideration that i was late.. like reached there about 10..
wahhaha
left and de creative talents company called me up on my way to getting my sister a cd..
asked me to go down for an interview de nez day...
in de end i was there later part of de afternoon cos i happened to be free and in town..
was convinced to take some photos on de nez day ..
den i went to give tuition...
today is wednesday.. it is a long day... so i'll cont tml!!
hahaha
cheers
wr
Friday, July 30, 2004
qt pissed off now.
some idert testing my patience by questioning my integrity.
freaking a*sh*le
yawnn... i jus ate something, so dun think it's rite i go sleep now..
BUT I GOTTA WAKE UP AT LIKE 8?
sigh
matriculation tml..
bahzz
i've done up my table!!!
got really nice pictures and a black board (literaly, a black mounting board) behind! hahaha i think it's super nice...
but will definitely becomes messy once i start sch..
i'll officially be an undergraduate tml....
think it means alot to me..
it shld haf been.
now it all means nuthing..
not anymore..
had a really weird dream in de afternoon! think it's becos i've been sleeping too much.. it's really scary and messed up till i dunnoe wat to make of it.. hahaha but it's qt funny, and qt real. *brrrr*
wearing my spectacles after like.. a mth plus plus?
really not used to it. hahaha having a migraine now.
my og mate called to ask wat to bring tomorrow. haha i never knew i've gotten to de stage of being de "nerdy" kind.. that pple call to ask wat to bring for sch. i tot i used to be those calling others last min to get ready my stuff... de interesting thing is, i actually know wat to bring ! ahahah that's a real change for me..
another week of orientation nez week.. so not so bad, think still can slack for another week... and noe pple all over again.. rather tiring.. entertaining pple. *sigh*
was reading my textbk.. singapore legal system first chapter.. defining national legal system, legal tradition and legal culture.. i was like.. wat de ? de guy says legal culture and legal tradition can be difficult to differentiate and yada yada yada... oh no.. looks like a damn long semester to me..
yeah i think i can go sleep le.. gd nite everyone.
sigh
cheers
wr
some idert testing my patience by questioning my integrity.
freaking a*sh*le
yawnn... i jus ate something, so dun think it's rite i go sleep now..
BUT I GOTTA WAKE UP AT LIKE 8?
sigh
matriculation tml..
bahzz
i've done up my table!!!
got really nice pictures and a black board (literaly, a black mounting board) behind! hahaha i think it's super nice...
but will definitely becomes messy once i start sch..
i'll officially be an undergraduate tml....
think it means alot to me..
it shld haf been.
now it all means nuthing..
not anymore..
had a really weird dream in de afternoon! think it's becos i've been sleeping too much.. it's really scary and messed up till i dunnoe wat to make of it.. hahaha but it's qt funny, and qt real. *brrrr*
wearing my spectacles after like.. a mth plus plus?
really not used to it. hahaha having a migraine now.
my og mate called to ask wat to bring tomorrow. haha i never knew i've gotten to de stage of being de "nerdy" kind.. that pple call to ask wat to bring for sch. i tot i used to be those calling others last min to get ready my stuff... de interesting thing is, i actually know wat to bring ! ahahah that's a real change for me..
another week of orientation nez week.. so not so bad, think still can slack for another week... and noe pple all over again.. rather tiring.. entertaining pple. *sigh*
was reading my textbk.. singapore legal system first chapter.. defining national legal system, legal tradition and legal culture.. i was like.. wat de ? de guy says legal culture and legal tradition can be difficult to differentiate and yada yada yada... oh no.. looks like a damn long semester to me..
yeah i think i can go sleep le.. gd nite everyone.
sigh
cheers
wr
Thursday, July 29, 2004
hahaha
wanted to meet niang niang today.. but end up i had to leave too early, so she decided to meet some other day.
anyhow>> went shopping alone for stuff to put on my table, including 2 foto frames and wanted to get a clock, but de clocks in town too damn ex.. not worthy it..
so yeah. asked my mum to get me one of those from market. hahah more economical..
yeap, got a really nice gift box to keep my precious stuff as well. *grinz*
hmmm den went to help my parents at de stall le...
rather sleepy.
my foot is still hurting, and now even my knee is starting to hurt..
geesh.. i'm starting to panic. cos haf a overnite cycling on friday..
;p Oh NO!
den seems like i cant stand too long..
it's all,
u're my sun shine aft de rain
u're de cure against my fear and my pain
cos i'm losing my mind when u're not ard
it's all
it's all becos of u
baby i
really noe by now
since we met that day
u showed me de way
i felt it den u gave me love i cant describe
how much i feel for u
*
honestly
could it be u and me
like it was before
neither less or more
cos when i close my eyes at nite
i realise that no one else
could take ur place
i still can feel
and it's so real
when u're touching me
kisses endlessly..
*
if i knew how to tell u
wat's on my mind
make u understand
den i'll always be there
right by ur side
u're my sunshine after de rain
u're de cure against my fear and my pain
cos i'm losing my mind
when u're not ard
it's all
it's all becos of u
*yawns*
i'm sleepy~
hahaha
oh yeah was on my leg yeah?
getting crippled liao.. cant get down stairs properly as well
wat de heck.
means i cant go jog.
means i'll cont growing fat
OH NO!
disastrous...
starting sch on monday~
not really looking forward to it cos mondays end at 730.. geesh i think there's some hidden clause somewhere and some students will go home earlier, including me...
sigh
too sleepy
i'm goin off~!!
haf fun pple.
:p
wanted to meet niang niang today.. but end up i had to leave too early, so she decided to meet some other day.
anyhow>> went shopping alone for stuff to put on my table, including 2 foto frames and wanted to get a clock, but de clocks in town too damn ex.. not worthy it..
so yeah. asked my mum to get me one of those from market. hahah more economical..
yeap, got a really nice gift box to keep my precious stuff as well. *grinz*
hmmm den went to help my parents at de stall le...
rather sleepy.
my foot is still hurting, and now even my knee is starting to hurt..
geesh.. i'm starting to panic. cos haf a overnite cycling on friday..
;p Oh NO!
den seems like i cant stand too long..
it's all,
u're my sun shine aft de rain
u're de cure against my fear and my pain
cos i'm losing my mind when u're not ard
it's all
it's all becos of u
baby i
really noe by now
since we met that day
u showed me de way
i felt it den u gave me love i cant describe
how much i feel for u
*
honestly
could it be u and me
like it was before
neither less or more
cos when i close my eyes at nite
i realise that no one else
could take ur place
i still can feel
and it's so real
when u're touching me
kisses endlessly..
*
if i knew how to tell u
wat's on my mind
make u understand
den i'll always be there
right by ur side
u're my sunshine after de rain
u're de cure against my fear and my pain
cos i'm losing my mind
when u're not ard
it's all
it's all becos of u
*yawns*
i'm sleepy~
hahaha
oh yeah was on my leg yeah?
getting crippled liao.. cant get down stairs properly as well
wat de heck.
means i cant go jog.
means i'll cont growing fat
OH NO!
disastrous...
starting sch on monday~
not really looking forward to it cos mondays end at 730.. geesh i think there's some hidden clause somewhere and some students will go home earlier, including me...
sigh
too sleepy
i'm goin off~!!
haf fun pple.
:p
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
i'm super sleepy now~!!!
been lydat since de afternoon...
anyway>> had qt a boring day
packed my cupboards threw another bag of stuff out (plus de other day, i threw out 3 bags altogether)
and stuff my textbks into my cupboard and packed my drawers~
grinz
hmm den brought my sister to her piano exam...
spent half an hour sitting at delifrance reading newspaper..
rather fun lah
but if onli i had more time to finish reading it.
erm other than that i was watching tv and playing some msn game..
really really not productive today
which i planned to use it for reading my texts.
oops
hahaha
anyway i think i wanna go sleep or like conc on trying to interpret my fren's and his ex's conversation.
it's really taxing on de brain manz
sighz
matters of de heart, i can neva understand
cheers
been lydat since de afternoon...
anyway>> had qt a boring day
packed my cupboards threw another bag of stuff out (plus de other day, i threw out 3 bags altogether)
and stuff my textbks into my cupboard and packed my drawers~
grinz
hmm den brought my sister to her piano exam...
spent half an hour sitting at delifrance reading newspaper..
rather fun lah
but if onli i had more time to finish reading it.
erm other than that i was watching tv and playing some msn game..
really really not productive today
which i planned to use it for reading my texts.
oops
hahaha
anyway i think i wanna go sleep or like conc on trying to interpret my fren's and his ex's conversation.
it's really taxing on de brain manz
sighz
matters of de heart, i can neva understand
cheers
Saturday, July 24, 2004
jus got scolded by my parents for staying out late too often...
yeap i noe i'm in de wrong...
staying out late never mean good stuff in de house.. not in any normal house...
dunnoe.. getting scolding from my dad means a whole different thing..
i dun like de disappointed look on his face.
he's really angry this time..
jus this afternoon he drove me to see de physician, now i go out in de middle of de nite to eat supper.
nothing's goin rite...
nothing at all..
sighz..
mayb it's jus me..
i chose the wrong things to do...
nothing's goin rite for me..
wr
yeap i noe i'm in de wrong...
staying out late never mean good stuff in de house.. not in any normal house...
dunnoe.. getting scolding from my dad means a whole different thing..
i dun like de disappointed look on his face.
he's really angry this time..
jus this afternoon he drove me to see de physician, now i go out in de middle of de nite to eat supper.
nothing's goin rite...
nothing at all..
sighz..
mayb it's jus me..
i chose the wrong things to do...
nothing's goin rite for me..
wr
peekaboo~!!
i'm bored.... i'm stuck at home cos i twisted my anklE!!!
watching stupid hong kong show that looks like it's shot in 1990?
hahaha
oh nooooo how am i goinn to get to ecp tml!!!! anyone? hELp?
sigh
i dun dare to go to de "die da yi sheng".... :p
wo pa pa...
think my daddy fetching me there later..
sulkzzz
yawnz
i think i can go sleep again... wait for my ma ma to come home..
lalal blog later..
:)
cheers
i'm bored.... i'm stuck at home cos i twisted my anklE!!!
watching stupid hong kong show that looks like it's shot in 1990?
hahaha
oh nooooo how am i goinn to get to ecp tml!!!! anyone? hELp?
sigh
i dun dare to go to de "die da yi sheng".... :p
wo pa pa...
think my daddy fetching me there later..
sulkzzz
yawnz
i think i can go sleep again... wait for my ma ma to come home..
lalal blog later..
:)
cheers
Friday, July 23, 2004
i jus got home, showered.
neva had i been so drunked. good thing i was in my sister's club, if not i wont noe how to get home... i think i sprain my ankle as a descended from de dance floor jus now... ouch.. anyway, had my fair share of clubbing..
got to knoe qt a number of pple at de club.. and all of them got to noe me as de "xiao mei mei"
hahaha technically yes, i'm rather young there...
try to understand, i'm typing rather ... not soberly here?
LOL..
yeah..
if i'm not sober there wil be alot of stuff dat i wanna do.. .. alot alot.
but i'll always be me.
i'll be guarded...
i had alot of baby sitters today!!! grinz.. from de waiter to de regulars.. even thou it's like de first day i'm officially noen there... it's rather interesting.. i like de warmth i get there.. rather fun.. grinz. but it's a whole new story tml, cos i'l haf to pay if i wanna drink tml yeah?
grinz btw for all ur info: it's ladies nite on thurs for siam supper club, and there's no cover charge. age limit is way above my age, by who cares...
sigh,
it's de most lonely when u're surrounded with de most pple.
i'll be another me when i wake up tml. i noe.
cheers
wr
neva had i been so drunked. good thing i was in my sister's club, if not i wont noe how to get home... i think i sprain my ankle as a descended from de dance floor jus now... ouch.. anyway, had my fair share of clubbing..
got to knoe qt a number of pple at de club.. and all of them got to noe me as de "xiao mei mei"
hahaha technically yes, i'm rather young there...
try to understand, i'm typing rather ... not soberly here?
LOL..
yeah..
if i'm not sober there wil be alot of stuff dat i wanna do.. .. alot alot.
but i'll always be me.
i'll be guarded...
i had alot of baby sitters today!!! grinz.. from de waiter to de regulars.. even thou it's like de first day i'm officially noen there... it's rather interesting.. i like de warmth i get there.. rather fun.. grinz. but it's a whole new story tml, cos i'l haf to pay if i wanna drink tml yeah?
grinz btw for all ur info: it's ladies nite on thurs for siam supper club, and there's no cover charge. age limit is way above my age, by who cares...
sigh,
it's de most lonely when u're surrounded with de most pple.
i'll be another me when i wake up tml. i noe.
cheers
wr
Thursday, July 22, 2004
the question is not whether can i live without men... the question is, must they come in de form of boyfrens?
hahaha
i haf alot of guy frens. and platonic frenship btwn guys and gers do exists. unless de gers wanna be treated in a nicer way, say being send home, opening of doors, basically want guys to be nice. if not, guys and gers can be platonic frenz.
wat a song...
right here waiting by richard marx.
if i see you nez to never, how can we say forever?
oh cant u see it baby? u've got me goin crazy...
but in de end if i'm with you
i'll take de chance...
walked from bishan to amk... to buy something..
something else i came up with...
guys, i jus want to be with de best. unfortunately, there's nothing such as de best kind of guys ard. and de good ones are taken.
think it's not de best time to blog now..
hahaha
i haf alot of guy frens. and platonic frenship btwn guys and gers do exists. unless de gers wanna be treated in a nicer way, say being send home, opening of doors, basically want guys to be nice. if not, guys and gers can be platonic frenz.
wat a song...
right here waiting by richard marx.
if i see you nez to never, how can we say forever?
oh cant u see it baby? u've got me goin crazy...
but in de end if i'm with you
i'll take de chance...
walked from bishan to amk... to buy something..
something else i came up with...
guys, i jus want to be with de best. unfortunately, there's nothing such as de best kind of guys ard. and de good ones are taken.
think it's not de best time to blog now..
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
took wrong train at jurong east... took towards boon lay instead, drop at chinese garden...... tot tt since i had de time and i'm there already, i walked to chinese garden... and walked ard and climb the pagoda... haha too bad de door on de top floor is locked... so can onli look out from de 7th floor...
rather interesting afternoon. walking ard everywhere...
being alone can be interesting too...
act. nuthin much.. dun really wanna go bishan tml..
damn but marina called...
i dunwan to wake up again..
ever again...
hahaha no worries, i will neva take my life. will never.
grinz
cheers.
rather interesting afternoon. walking ard everywhere...
being alone can be interesting too...
act. nuthin much.. dun really wanna go bishan tml..
damn but marina called...
i dunwan to wake up again..
ever again...
hahaha no worries, i will neva take my life. will never.
grinz
cheers.
Monday, July 19, 2004
hmmmmm nothin much to write today...
went to cwp and walk ard.. din find wat i was looking for.
yawnz. read one and a half book.. din get my bks from de ger, cos tenny said he'll find some1 else to sell de bks to me... 365 is too much... :p
hahaha totally braindead, i haf no idea how am i going back to sch in this state of mind.. must be all de alcohol and late nites. i'm becoming retarded. so it's true that alcohol retard growth and stuff lydat.
=p
anyway on my way to cwp, chat with an indian old man. rather interesting. he was eating tobacco (or so he claims, i wonder how pple eat tobacco like sweets) in order to stop smoking...*rather contradicting* hahaha but anyway, it's always interesting to talk to strangers. de things dey tell u...
dun really haf much to blog about.. afraid i might bore u all to death. tt's if anyone's reading
life's getting too mundane!!!!! nothing can spice it up i guess. it's so damn boring... becos it's peaceful.. see, pple are neva contented with wat they haf...
where's my darling brother??? sigh.. din see him online today.
oh no.. de bks are giving me headache!!!!!!
damn.. decisions...
shld i jus take de set that is more complete?
call de ger tml...
3 bks in de list plus 2 not on de list cost 130... i got 7 more to buy!!!
tt's way way way offfff budget i think... or issit? geesh. damn it. i haven yet to see de state de bks are in !
i'm goin to faint
damn!
went to cwp and walk ard.. din find wat i was looking for.
yawnz. read one and a half book.. din get my bks from de ger, cos tenny said he'll find some1 else to sell de bks to me... 365 is too much... :p
hahaha totally braindead, i haf no idea how am i going back to sch in this state of mind.. must be all de alcohol and late nites. i'm becoming retarded. so it's true that alcohol retard growth and stuff lydat.
=p
anyway on my way to cwp, chat with an indian old man. rather interesting. he was eating tobacco (or so he claims, i wonder how pple eat tobacco like sweets) in order to stop smoking...*rather contradicting* hahaha but anyway, it's always interesting to talk to strangers. de things dey tell u...
dun really haf much to blog about.. afraid i might bore u all to death. tt's if anyone's reading
life's getting too mundane!!!!! nothing can spice it up i guess. it's so damn boring... becos it's peaceful.. see, pple are neva contented with wat they haf...
where's my darling brother??? sigh.. din see him online today.
oh no.. de bks are giving me headache!!!!!!
damn.. decisions...
shld i jus take de set that is more complete?
call de ger tml...
3 bks in de list plus 2 not on de list cost 130... i got 7 more to buy!!!
tt's way way way offfff budget i think... or issit? geesh. damn it. i haven yet to see de state de bks are in !
i'm goin to faint
damn!
Thursday, July 15, 2004
zouk is officially off my list of clubbing places.
twice i went, twice bad exp... PACKED with pple, impossible to move ard. de 45 mins i was there, was spent TRYING to move arnd and LOOKing for pple. how fun is that? wat were they thinking when they say it's goin to be happening? happening cos u can walk ard and say "OH HI! u're here! it's so happening huh? i saw XXX jus now near de bar. oh yeah, see u ard later huh..."
hell.
i'm sorry.
qt pissed with de place.
a song on class 95 jus saved de pissed off day....
A WHOLE NEW WORLD!!!
grinz. sweet, walt-disney, fairy-airy.. song...
i wanna be young again, young and naive again...
believe in happily ever after...
believe that everyone is nice...
nothing much to do except fall in love.
met kaiwei for dinner jus now... talked about wat happened in our lives lately...
i dun feel like bloggin today..
cheers.
wr
twice i went, twice bad exp... PACKED with pple, impossible to move ard. de 45 mins i was there, was spent TRYING to move arnd and LOOKing for pple. how fun is that? wat were they thinking when they say it's goin to be happening? happening cos u can walk ard and say "OH HI! u're here! it's so happening huh? i saw XXX jus now near de bar. oh yeah, see u ard later huh..."
hell.
i'm sorry.
qt pissed with de place.
a song on class 95 jus saved de pissed off day....
A WHOLE NEW WORLD!!!
grinz. sweet, walt-disney, fairy-airy.. song...
i wanna be young again, young and naive again...
believe in happily ever after...
believe that everyone is nice...
nothing much to do except fall in love.
met kaiwei for dinner jus now... talked about wat happened in our lives lately...
i dun feel like bloggin today..
cheers.
wr
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
k get back to business...
yeap.. my eye is more or less back to normal.
did i mention i dyed my hair...
well..
class 95 says lemon can be spermicide
hahaha from aust ...
20% solution destroy 90% of hiv something
hahahaha out of point.
yeah.. it's difficult to conc when u're listening to de radio...
wahhh now it's even better... my sister brought usher cd back..
i dunnid to sleep liao!!!!
WHAHAHAH
super nice..
i cant blog at all!!!!!
well, almost everyone has gone off...
and i haf to wake up by 930 tml.. act earlier, wanna go joggin...
k now everyone has gone off le.
in de middle of de nite, when everyone's asleep, when u're alone, what is it that is in ur mind?
who is that person ur heart misses?
calling out for?
i've made so many plans for de rest of de week...
de rest of de year..
de rest of my life..
but how sure am i dat i'll live till dat day? dat moment? dat second?
i'm not sure at all..
how sure am i dat i'll want to do dat in dat moment in dat second?
i'm not sure at all..
we make plans for tomorrow, de day after tomorrow and there after...
haf we ever tot that if we neva treasure this moment, this second then there'll never be a tomorrow, becos all the tomorrows dat we talk about.. is made up of many this moments, this seconds.
tomorrow will never come if we neva treasure all de little this moment and this second...
-=je t'aime beaucoup. if tomorrow neva come, i left with love in my heart.i want to know de last words i said is of love for you and not hate. like i always said...=-
treasure.
if you haf someone whom u love and loves you.
to have someone like dat is difficult, to MEEt someone like dat is even more difficult.
cheers.
wr
0006hrs
140704
yeap.. my eye is more or less back to normal.
did i mention i dyed my hair...
well..
class 95 says lemon can be spermicide
hahaha from aust ...
20% solution destroy 90% of hiv something
hahahaha out of point.
yeah.. it's difficult to conc when u're listening to de radio...
wahhh now it's even better... my sister brought usher cd back..
i dunnid to sleep liao!!!!
WHAHAHAH
super nice..
i cant blog at all!!!!!
well, almost everyone has gone off...
and i haf to wake up by 930 tml.. act earlier, wanna go joggin...
k now everyone has gone off le.
in de middle of de nite, when everyone's asleep, when u're alone, what is it that is in ur mind?
who is that person ur heart misses?
calling out for?
i've made so many plans for de rest of de week...
de rest of de year..
de rest of my life..
but how sure am i dat i'll live till dat day? dat moment? dat second?
i'm not sure at all..
how sure am i dat i'll want to do dat in dat moment in dat second?
i'm not sure at all..
we make plans for tomorrow, de day after tomorrow and there after...
haf we ever tot that if we neva treasure this moment, this second then there'll never be a tomorrow, becos all the tomorrows dat we talk about.. is made up of many this moments, this seconds.
tomorrow will never come if we neva treasure all de little this moment and this second...
-=je t'aime beaucoup. if tomorrow neva come, i left with love in my heart.i want to know de last words i said is of love for you and not hate. like i always said...=-
treasure.
if you haf someone whom u love and loves you.
to have someone like dat is difficult, to MEEt someone like dat is even more difficult.
cheers.
wr
0006hrs
140704
grinz..
love songs on class 95...
there's a hero
if you look inside ur heart
u dun haf to be afraid of wat u are
there's an ans.
if you reach into ur soul
and de sorror tat you know
will melt away
and den hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and u cast ur fear aside
u noe u can survive
when u feel ur hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and u'll finally see de truth
that a hero lies in u
its a long road
and u feel alone...
you can find love
if you search within urself
and that emptiness ur feel
will disappear
hold on
there'll be a tomolo
in time
you'll find a way...
i'll find my way.
grinz.
shld haf seen it coming
shld haf read de signs
anyway
i guessed its over
cant believe tt i'm de fool again
i tot this will never end
how was i to noe
u nver told me
cant believe tt i'm de fool again
and i who tot u were my fren
how was i to noe
u never told me
baby
u shld haf called me
when u were lonely
when u nided me to be there
sadly u neva gave me
too many chances to show u how much i care
shld have seen it coming
shld haf read de signs
anyway....
i guess it's over...
wah.. real test of my typing skills... FUN
wahhahaha
love songs on class 95...
there's a hero
if you look inside ur heart
u dun haf to be afraid of wat u are
there's an ans.
if you reach into ur soul
and de sorror tat you know
will melt away
and den hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and u cast ur fear aside
u noe u can survive
when u feel ur hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and u'll finally see de truth
that a hero lies in u
its a long road
and u feel alone...
you can find love
if you search within urself
and that emptiness ur feel
will disappear
hold on
there'll be a tomolo
in time
you'll find a way...
i'll find my way.
grinz.
shld haf seen it coming
shld haf read de signs
anyway
i guessed its over
cant believe tt i'm de fool again
i tot this will never end
how was i to noe
u nver told me
cant believe tt i'm de fool again
and i who tot u were my fren
how was i to noe
u never told me
baby
u shld haf called me
when u were lonely
when u nided me to be there
sadly u neva gave me
too many chances to show u how much i care
shld have seen it coming
shld haf read de signs
anyway....
i guess it's over...
wah.. real test of my typing skills... FUN
wahhahaha
Saturday, July 10, 2004
heard alot these few days.
talked alot these few days.
ran ard alot these few days.
i'm losing myself.
frankly speaking, i really dun't noe who am i now.
this is not a stunt to get attention.
i'm starting to shock myself with things i say, with things i do, with whom i've become sometimes...
pple start to tell me who they think i am and i'm like.."was i?" "am i lydat"
i dunnoe...
i'm really wondering wat is happening..
and who am i now?
wat am i looking for?
what do i want now?
i'm filled with questions that i dunnoe how to ans...
how was i like?
can i go back to who i was?
think i'm really goin into a bad case of identity crisis...
or is this de result of not getting enough sleep..
sometimes somethings i say comes out so fast it shock me.
sometimes de day before i'm all down and out and de nez day i'm alright.. trying to make pple feel betta..
one min i talk about appreciatin my family, nez min i realise i'm not spending enough time at home...
one moment i'm talking bout staying single, nez min i find myself feeling so alone.. so afraid to be alone...
i really cant define myself now..
or are all these definitions of me?
or are these very bad pms that i'm experience...
i hear so many things, gif very cynical comments.
was i like daT?
yet i haf pple telling me i look chirpy, happy, fairy-airy...
hahah from my og.
btw>> i dun think it's cool to be cynical and negative. so... yah...
god only noes wat happened.
-=u saw the angel in me, carved it out and set it free=-
i'm learning how to fly with the wings u gave me... de day i can fly is the day i'll fly back to u...
cheers
wr
talked alot these few days.
ran ard alot these few days.
i'm losing myself.
frankly speaking, i really dun't noe who am i now.
this is not a stunt to get attention.
i'm starting to shock myself with things i say, with things i do, with whom i've become sometimes...
pple start to tell me who they think i am and i'm like.."was i?" "am i lydat"
i dunnoe...
i'm really wondering wat is happening..
and who am i now?
wat am i looking for?
what do i want now?
i'm filled with questions that i dunnoe how to ans...
how was i like?
can i go back to who i was?
think i'm really goin into a bad case of identity crisis...
or is this de result of not getting enough sleep..
sometimes somethings i say comes out so fast it shock me.
sometimes de day before i'm all down and out and de nez day i'm alright.. trying to make pple feel betta..
one min i talk about appreciatin my family, nez min i realise i'm not spending enough time at home...
one moment i'm talking bout staying single, nez min i find myself feeling so alone.. so afraid to be alone...
i really cant define myself now..
or are all these definitions of me?
or are these very bad pms that i'm experience...
i hear so many things, gif very cynical comments.
was i like daT?
yet i haf pple telling me i look chirpy, happy, fairy-airy...
hahah from my og.
btw>> i dun think it's cool to be cynical and negative. so... yah...
god only noes wat happened.
-=u saw the angel in me, carved it out and set it free=-
i'm learning how to fly with the wings u gave me... de day i can fly is the day i'll fly back to u...
cheers
wr
Friday, July 09, 2004
well well..
hafta make a report of how my 08/07 went.
here goes...
let me see...
had my og outing yesterday morning... was late meeting colleen to take zy car to ecp...hahah as usual? paiseh paiseh... but zy said somthing about it drizzling, so no point they go first anyway.. so ended up waiting for me.. de rain saved de dayyyyy.. in a way...
cycle in de rain... .. feel rather dumb lah.. go all de way to ecp to get drenched and an aching buttock.. hahaha they haf a queer definition of enjoyment.. budden had my fair share of fun listening to their 'jokes' and stuff.. hahaha
was ferried by zy to parkway, really thankful to haf someone who drives and has a car in de og... haha and really owe it to him, if not we'll all haf to cycle in de rain to parkway and back to return the bicycles...
ate sushi at parkway.
was effectively ignore on sms. started to feel damn low and pissed off. feel damn bad towards my og.. had to leave early and summore wasn't really myself at sakae.. so.. i'm sorry guys..
anyway, took a bus from parkway to tampines and then to yishun to change to cab to yj... to be late for de meeting... looked at pictures, see de video, teared alittle and den .. alot of stuff happen. at least in my mind there was alot of things goin on at the same time. was really down yesterday and god noes why.
talked to ma ma.. felt much much betta.
i dunnoe wat to say le.
cont tml...
cheers
wr
hafta make a report of how my 08/07 went.
here goes...
let me see...
had my og outing yesterday morning... was late meeting colleen to take zy car to ecp...hahah as usual? paiseh paiseh... but zy said somthing about it drizzling, so no point they go first anyway.. so ended up waiting for me.. de rain saved de dayyyyy.. in a way...
cycle in de rain... .. feel rather dumb lah.. go all de way to ecp to get drenched and an aching buttock.. hahaha they haf a queer definition of enjoyment.. budden had my fair share of fun listening to their 'jokes' and stuff.. hahaha
was ferried by zy to parkway, really thankful to haf someone who drives and has a car in de og... haha and really owe it to him, if not we'll all haf to cycle in de rain to parkway and back to return the bicycles...
ate sushi at parkway.
was effectively ignore on sms. started to feel damn low and pissed off. feel damn bad towards my og.. had to leave early and summore wasn't really myself at sakae.. so.. i'm sorry guys..
anyway, took a bus from parkway to tampines and then to yishun to change to cab to yj... to be late for de meeting... looked at pictures, see de video, teared alittle and den .. alot of stuff happen. at least in my mind there was alot of things goin on at the same time. was really down yesterday and god noes why.
talked to ma ma.. felt much much betta.
i dunnoe wat to say le.
cont tml...
cheers
wr
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
yawnz...
went sentosa today.. suppose to meet niang niang at 11, end up i reached there at like 1130 (late as usual) ahaha and she reached there like 1200!!! expected. LOL
talked alot... mostly bout myself.. hai.. really feel bad.. everytime we go out i'm always yakatee yaking about myself.. but.. bleai.. hahah she never stop me and when i realise it it's like too late le ba... k k.. mus make a mental note to curb myself nez time i see her...
den came home to sleep.. beauty sleep.. hahah seems like i can neva get enough sleep nowadays.. everyday fall into deep sleep.. anytime.. den always wake up with a headache.. wonder why's dat...
yawnz...
tml is a busy busy day!!!!
goin ecp in de morning!!!!! with my og!
grinz
dennnn... goin sch pass bert tutorial and to collect the hugs dat my darling brother owe me! hahaha.. den goin tuition.. den goin ms at nite!!!... wat an eventful day...
friday hafta go med check up and tuition in de evening...
sat... hmmmm somethings on but i cant rem what
anyhow.. rather busy... HOPE I CONT TO BE SO BUSY!!!!
i like to be busy!!
hahahah
and i feel i'm growin old..
sob sob.. i'm 19 and i feel old.. wat de hell
wahhahaha
shldn't stay out late so often le..
hmmm let me think of sumthing more intellectual to talk about...
oh yah... yesterday my mum told me not to stand too near de curb while waiting for bus or public transport. one indian or malay guy rides a bicycle and goes ard groping pple's breast and gets away on de bicycle.... how sick is that? wat's de world coming to?!?! haha wat's de fun in groping others breast? i dun see it ba.. or maybe i shldn't in de first place...
well.. was on de topic of chinese losing it's value in sg, again, with my aunt.. brought up de example of a fren of mine, who went for the teaching scholarship but ended up taking the teaching award jus cos she was majoring chinese in uni.. one reason could be there's less emphasis on chinese now in sg, another is that they could get teachers from china and taiwan at cheaper rate and not haf to pay for their education...
i'm totally disgusted at the tot of wat all these implies. on one hand they say "we're not tryin to play down de importance of chinese, jus hope that students are taking it out of interest and passion..." on the other hand they gif scholars with good grades and cca records the less prestigious award jus becos she's taking chinese. wat is this? hypocrisy is an understatement man... i mean i really feel for those who are really passionate about their mother tongue, becos they are not getting their due recognition! this elitist society is still rather bias against the minority of eng speaking upper class. seems like everything has a price tag stuck to it. if there's no value in learning mother tongue, we'll minimise our resources dedicated to it, cos the rate of return is not as high as other subjects... this is how cruel reality is ba... everything is about value, about returns, about potential...
sigh.
jus got reminded of him.
damn.
and i tried so hard to put him out of my mind today.
hate this.
but i noe i can do it.
i can do it betta than anyone else.
i'm gonna prove my self worth.
to myself, to everyone that cares for me.
i can walk out of this myself....
when there's light, there's shadows.
when there's happiness, there's sadness.
when there's love, there's hatred.
duality to everything..
yin and yang...
hahah priory of sions?
shit. i'm too into it...
cheers.
went sentosa today.. suppose to meet niang niang at 11, end up i reached there at like 1130 (late as usual) ahaha and she reached there like 1200!!! expected. LOL
talked alot... mostly bout myself.. hai.. really feel bad.. everytime we go out i'm always yakatee yaking about myself.. but.. bleai.. hahah she never stop me and when i realise it it's like too late le ba... k k.. mus make a mental note to curb myself nez time i see her...
den came home to sleep.. beauty sleep.. hahah seems like i can neva get enough sleep nowadays.. everyday fall into deep sleep.. anytime.. den always wake up with a headache.. wonder why's dat...
yawnz...
tml is a busy busy day!!!!
goin ecp in de morning!!!!! with my og!
grinz
dennnn... goin sch pass bert tutorial and to collect the hugs dat my darling brother owe me! hahaha.. den goin tuition.. den goin ms at nite!!!... wat an eventful day...
friday hafta go med check up and tuition in de evening...
sat... hmmmm somethings on but i cant rem what
anyhow.. rather busy... HOPE I CONT TO BE SO BUSY!!!!
i like to be busy!!
hahahah
and i feel i'm growin old..
sob sob.. i'm 19 and i feel old.. wat de hell
wahhahaha
shldn't stay out late so often le..
hmmm let me think of sumthing more intellectual to talk about...
oh yah... yesterday my mum told me not to stand too near de curb while waiting for bus or public transport. one indian or malay guy rides a bicycle and goes ard groping pple's breast and gets away on de bicycle.... how sick is that? wat's de world coming to?!?! haha wat's de fun in groping others breast? i dun see it ba.. or maybe i shldn't in de first place...
well.. was on de topic of chinese losing it's value in sg, again, with my aunt.. brought up de example of a fren of mine, who went for the teaching scholarship but ended up taking the teaching award jus cos she was majoring chinese in uni.. one reason could be there's less emphasis on chinese now in sg, another is that they could get teachers from china and taiwan at cheaper rate and not haf to pay for their education...
i'm totally disgusted at the tot of wat all these implies. on one hand they say "we're not tryin to play down de importance of chinese, jus hope that students are taking it out of interest and passion..." on the other hand they gif scholars with good grades and cca records the less prestigious award jus becos she's taking chinese. wat is this? hypocrisy is an understatement man... i mean i really feel for those who are really passionate about their mother tongue, becos they are not getting their due recognition! this elitist society is still rather bias against the minority of eng speaking upper class. seems like everything has a price tag stuck to it. if there's no value in learning mother tongue, we'll minimise our resources dedicated to it, cos the rate of return is not as high as other subjects... this is how cruel reality is ba... everything is about value, about returns, about potential...
sigh.
jus got reminded of him.
damn.
and i tried so hard to put him out of my mind today.
hate this.
but i noe i can do it.
i can do it betta than anyone else.
i'm gonna prove my self worth.
to myself, to everyone that cares for me.
i can walk out of this myself....
when there's light, there's shadows.
when there's happiness, there's sadness.
when there's love, there's hatred.
duality to everything..
yin and yang...
hahah priory of sions?
shit. i'm too into it...
cheers.
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
well... really feel like blogging tonite... so let me haf my share of writing...
siok told me i'd be betta off hating him.. i think it's a whole lot easier for me as well...i'm sure it doesn't hurt as much as before le. i noe everything will get better from here...
siok mentioned wat i lack is a proper closure... i'm not sure if i'm ready for it... a final gdbye. a final end to everything. thou we all noe nothing will be possible anymore... put an end to it... return him all his things... and to haf nothing to do with him or he'll haf nothing to do with me anymore...
i'm not as strong as i tot i was.
je m'ennuie de lui
je m'ennuie de lui beaucoup davantage qu'I pensé je
je t'aime beaucoup...
si seulement vous lisiez ceci...
je veux juste vous dire...
"avez été absent vous depuis le jour vous à gauche. avec chaque battement de coeur et chaque pensée qui croise mon esprit."
i miss him....
siok told me i'd be betta off hating him.. i think it's a whole lot easier for me as well...i'm sure it doesn't hurt as much as before le. i noe everything will get better from here...
siok mentioned wat i lack is a proper closure... i'm not sure if i'm ready for it... a final gdbye. a final end to everything. thou we all noe nothing will be possible anymore... put an end to it... return him all his things... and to haf nothing to do with him or he'll haf nothing to do with me anymore...
i'm not as strong as i tot i was.
je m'ennuie de lui
je m'ennuie de lui beaucoup davantage qu'I pensé je
je t'aime beaucoup...
si seulement vous lisiez ceci...
je veux juste vous dire...
"avez été absent vous depuis le jour vous à gauche. avec chaque battement de coeur et chaque pensée qui croise mon esprit."
i miss him....
lalalalal
went back to sch today to celebrate my didi's bday!!!
hahahah was quite an awkward surprise, din really work out the way it was suppose to be....
saw ma ma...
she was wearing the top i gave her!!!!
hahaha so happy!!! dunnoe jus feels good to see her..
althou we did not talk alot, or told each other alot, jus feels close to her.. something i dun really understand ba.. maybe i noe her much more than it seems..
anyway, mrs george was jealous!!! haha cos i bot mama a shirt but din get her anything.. oops... hahaha
din really haf much to do in sch.. except catching up with old fren, literally, cos it's de drink stall unker... dunno, make it a pt to find him everytime i go back. i think i'm closer to him than any other person in the sch.. jus feels like talking to my dad... when he tells me to take care of myself, dun get a bf so early and study hard and stuff lydat... somehow i feel easier to relate to him than to any of my teachers... LOL... perhaps deep down inside btwn me and my teachers, we'll always think that aft sometime, i'll stop visiting the sch and forget all about than.. in simpler terms, relations turn cold, and the students forget about their teachers and everyone moves on... how cynical. how cold. how adult...
wonder how i'll turn out to be when i'm one of them...
was with siok de whole morning. we talked alot... more than i've talked to all of them altogether since beginning of the year... never expect myself to lose track of time talking to anyone of them actually... talked about almost everything, frens family perspective of life... realise that i really dun wanna grow up... growin up means losing frens, becoming cold and cynical... and more burden to shoulder, more emotional burden... u get hurt but there's no one to go to.. becos u're an adult u shld be able to handle it... u let go of things more easily, see everything more lightly... the things u treasure are more realistic and tangible...
i'm afraid of growing up...
but it's inevitable.
u put up a brave front even when u feel sad... becos u're not suppose to let others see de weaker side of u.. u start to backstab, form alliance against each other... u start to do everything u can to earn more money, to sustain a so called comfortable life style...
u haf to be sensible.
u learn to let go of the love that u claim u'll protect for the rest of ur life.
u learn that there are other more impt things in life than the person u claim to love.
u learn that in life, many things are not within ur control.
u learn that in life, nothing's fair.
u learn that no matter how bad u feel, time heals all wounds.
hhahah ...
i saw an old fren of ours today
she asked about you
i din qt know what to say
heard u've been making more rounds round here
while i've been trying to make tears disappear...
chorus:
now i'm almost over you.
i'm almost shld feel good
so when u come back ard aft painting the town
u'd see i'm almost over you...
u're such a sly one with ur cold cold heart
maybe leaving came easy
but it torn me apart
time heals all wounds they say
and i shld know..
cos it seems like forever
but i'm letting you go....
(chorus)
i can forgive you and soon i'll forget all my shattered dreams
altho u left me with nothing to show
all our misery...
(chorus)
when u come back ard aft painting the town
u'd see i'm almost over you...
went back to sch today to celebrate my didi's bday!!!
hahahah was quite an awkward surprise, din really work out the way it was suppose to be....
saw ma ma...
she was wearing the top i gave her!!!!
hahaha so happy!!! dunnoe jus feels good to see her..
althou we did not talk alot, or told each other alot, jus feels close to her.. something i dun really understand ba.. maybe i noe her much more than it seems..
anyway, mrs george was jealous!!! haha cos i bot mama a shirt but din get her anything.. oops... hahaha
din really haf much to do in sch.. except catching up with old fren, literally, cos it's de drink stall unker... dunno, make it a pt to find him everytime i go back. i think i'm closer to him than any other person in the sch.. jus feels like talking to my dad... when he tells me to take care of myself, dun get a bf so early and study hard and stuff lydat... somehow i feel easier to relate to him than to any of my teachers... LOL... perhaps deep down inside btwn me and my teachers, we'll always think that aft sometime, i'll stop visiting the sch and forget all about than.. in simpler terms, relations turn cold, and the students forget about their teachers and everyone moves on... how cynical. how cold. how adult...
wonder how i'll turn out to be when i'm one of them...
was with siok de whole morning. we talked alot... more than i've talked to all of them altogether since beginning of the year... never expect myself to lose track of time talking to anyone of them actually... talked about almost everything, frens family perspective of life... realise that i really dun wanna grow up... growin up means losing frens, becoming cold and cynical... and more burden to shoulder, more emotional burden... u get hurt but there's no one to go to.. becos u're an adult u shld be able to handle it... u let go of things more easily, see everything more lightly... the things u treasure are more realistic and tangible...
i'm afraid of growing up...
but it's inevitable.
u put up a brave front even when u feel sad... becos u're not suppose to let others see de weaker side of u.. u start to backstab, form alliance against each other... u start to do everything u can to earn more money, to sustain a so called comfortable life style...
u haf to be sensible.
u learn to let go of the love that u claim u'll protect for the rest of ur life.
u learn that there are other more impt things in life than the person u claim to love.
u learn that in life, many things are not within ur control.
u learn that in life, nothing's fair.
u learn that no matter how bad u feel, time heals all wounds.
hhahah ...
i saw an old fren of ours today
she asked about you
i din qt know what to say
heard u've been making more rounds round here
while i've been trying to make tears disappear...
chorus:
now i'm almost over you.
i'm almost shld feel good
so when u come back ard aft painting the town
u'd see i'm almost over you...
u're such a sly one with ur cold cold heart
maybe leaving came easy
but it torn me apart
time heals all wounds they say
and i shld know..
cos it seems like forever
but i'm letting you go....
(chorus)
i can forgive you and soon i'll forget all my shattered dreams
altho u left me with nothing to show
all our misery...
(chorus)
when u come back ard aft painting the town
u'd see i'm almost over you...
angel of mine
when i first saw you
i already knew
there was somthing inside you
something i tot i'll never find.
angel of mine...
i look at u
looking at me
now i know why they say the best things are free
gonna love you till de end of time
angel of mine...
wat u mean to me you'll never know
deep inside i nid to show
you came into my life
sent from above
came out of my dreams such a perfect love
and i'll adore u till de end of time
angel of mine...
nothing means more to me than wat we share
no one in this whole world can ever compare
.....
angel of mine...
wat u mean to me u'll never know
deep inside i nid to show...
you came into my life
sent from above
came out of my dreams such a perfect love
and i'll adore u till de end of time
angel of mine...
i never knew i could feel each moment as if it was new
every breathe i take
bow that i make
i wanna share it with you...
when i first saw u
i already knew
there was something inside of you
something i tot i'll never find..
angel of mine......
when i first saw you
i already knew
there was somthing inside you
something i tot i'll never find.
angel of mine...
i look at u
looking at me
now i know why they say the best things are free
gonna love you till de end of time
angel of mine...
wat u mean to me you'll never know
deep inside i nid to show
you came into my life
sent from above
came out of my dreams such a perfect love
and i'll adore u till de end of time
angel of mine...
nothing means more to me than wat we share
no one in this whole world can ever compare
.....
angel of mine...
wat u mean to me u'll never know
deep inside i nid to show...
you came into my life
sent from above
came out of my dreams such a perfect love
and i'll adore u till de end of time
angel of mine...
i never knew i could feel each moment as if it was new
every breathe i take
bow that i make
i wanna share it with you...
when i first saw u
i already knew
there was something inside of you
something i tot i'll never find..
angel of mine......
Monday, July 05, 2004
i miss him.
my mind fails to block that tot out of my mind as much as i try..
dunwan to appear like i'm whining.. so yah. shall stop here...
anyway>> had an interesting day of giving tuition, yet again.
i qt enjoy running from place to place, facing a diff student for one and half hours. knowing by de end of another 8 sessions i can get some money to spend. haha at least the time spent is worthwhile to me.. rather than goin for movie, doin nothing at home.. facing the computer and typing a blog, like what i'm doin right now....
hahah.. k. sudden change of mood.
think it's pms.
yawns
all alone at home
fun
think i seriously shld learn to enjoy time spent alone..
borrow 3 books from lib... one about bio-ethics.. hahaha wat's happening to me?
hummmm....
like there's no nice songs on de radio...
oh yeah.. read some back dated news about missing chinese tourists here in sg... and lesser local tour agency wanna lias with the chinese tour agency to tour the chinese ard, due to the forfeiting of the 1000 deposit for each chinese tourist that go missing.. and local tour agencies are facing a dilemma rite now... haha and chinese tour agencies and threatening to go to other agencies if they refuse to let the whole lot come over... hmm talk about arrogance... how can we ever be compare with pple from where our ancestors came from? they are after all, pple of the purest breed.
hahaha got scandal!!!!
haizz that's de thing about sch that i miss.. but dun wanna be part of the scandal .. but listening to them is jus damn fun...
sigh.. depending on such things to make my life interesting...
sigh.. talk about pathetic.
yupz. haf u ever love someone so much, it hurts?
yupZ
hahaha
funny.
all u nid is love... all u nid is love, love... love is all ard...
yup i'm sure.
oh no.. suddenly feel like eating prata!
wat de heck..
hahaha
class 95 is on a topic of discussion bout pple who cant be trusted due to past relationships... hahah or perhaps cant trust others due to past exp... jaded? interesting topic... nice song... sigh...
i dont wanna live w/o you
nothing's gonna change my love for u
u ought to noe by now how much i love you
one thing u can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love...
i'm sure wateva two pple say while in a relationship is as true as anything... but it was jus for that moment in time....those words have expiry dates attached to them. de day when he meets someone else, de day he leaves, de day he thinks the relationship is not wat he is looking for, is the day when all those words suddenly becoms meaningless. and haf no effect after that.
sound cynical? but works for me.. sounds logical. at least i believe wat was said was ONCE true.. jus that they gradually become lies...
anyway... too much said for a day.
gotta go back to my lively, chirpy, i-love-life-too-much and family oriented self now...
starting to feel like a schizo...
cheers
my mind fails to block that tot out of my mind as much as i try..
dunwan to appear like i'm whining.. so yah. shall stop here...
anyway>> had an interesting day of giving tuition, yet again.
i qt enjoy running from place to place, facing a diff student for one and half hours. knowing by de end of another 8 sessions i can get some money to spend. haha at least the time spent is worthwhile to me.. rather than goin for movie, doin nothing at home.. facing the computer and typing a blog, like what i'm doin right now....
hahah.. k. sudden change of mood.
think it's pms.
yawns
all alone at home
fun
think i seriously shld learn to enjoy time spent alone..
borrow 3 books from lib... one about bio-ethics.. hahaha wat's happening to me?
hummmm....
like there's no nice songs on de radio...
oh yeah.. read some back dated news about missing chinese tourists here in sg... and lesser local tour agency wanna lias with the chinese tour agency to tour the chinese ard, due to the forfeiting of the 1000 deposit for each chinese tourist that go missing.. and local tour agencies are facing a dilemma rite now... haha and chinese tour agencies and threatening to go to other agencies if they refuse to let the whole lot come over... hmm talk about arrogance... how can we ever be compare with pple from where our ancestors came from? they are after all, pple of the purest breed.
hahaha got scandal!!!!
haizz that's de thing about sch that i miss.. but dun wanna be part of the scandal .. but listening to them is jus damn fun...
sigh.. depending on such things to make my life interesting...
sigh.. talk about pathetic.
yupz. haf u ever love someone so much, it hurts?
yupZ
hahaha
funny.
all u nid is love... all u nid is love, love... love is all ard...
yup i'm sure.
oh no.. suddenly feel like eating prata!
wat de heck..
hahaha
class 95 is on a topic of discussion bout pple who cant be trusted due to past relationships... hahah or perhaps cant trust others due to past exp... jaded? interesting topic... nice song... sigh...
i dont wanna live w/o you
nothing's gonna change my love for u
u ought to noe by now how much i love you
one thing u can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love...
i'm sure wateva two pple say while in a relationship is as true as anything... but it was jus for that moment in time....those words have expiry dates attached to them. de day when he meets someone else, de day he leaves, de day he thinks the relationship is not wat he is looking for, is the day when all those words suddenly becoms meaningless. and haf no effect after that.
sound cynical? but works for me.. sounds logical. at least i believe wat was said was ONCE true.. jus that they gradually become lies...
anyway... too much said for a day.
gotta go back to my lively, chirpy, i-love-life-too-much and family oriented self now...
starting to feel like a schizo...
cheers
Saturday, July 03, 2004
hmmm...
totally brain dead now.
tired...
totally exhausted...
sigh...
had qt a bad day actually..
tiring and sad day
somehow my tots went ard him.us.
starting to really.. find the whole thing a damn joke.
a big joke played on me by him..
or de big guy above.
hahaha
it's really really bad...
dun dare go back .. dunwan to see anything that reminds me of him... but i still hafta return him his stuff.. i wonder how?
hahaha anyway he din ask for anything back...
sigh...
i'm starting to hate him... really really not good...
cos hate means i still feel for him.
sigh...
and happen that he's doin really well w'o me..
he might even be happily attached/engaged right now..
hahaha no idea wats happening to me now
trying really hard to put everything behind me... but even a guy who jus met me say he can feel that i still love him alot...
wat de hell.
but i noe i'm doin fine
grinz
very very buzy lately
dun even haf time to sleep, and enjoy my very very warm bed... sigh.
hahaha i love that feeling of running ard being buzy...
busy over nothing...
i'm lost.
feels stupid.
yawnz.
maybe all these results from lack of sleep...
when sch reopen everything shall be fine!
grinz
i will survive!!!!
mistakes that dun kill u, will only make u stronger..
i'm growing stronger, becoming more matured and love life more and more by de min.
i will survive...
sighz...
totally brain dead now.
tired...
totally exhausted...
sigh...
had qt a bad day actually..
tiring and sad day
somehow my tots went ard him.us.
starting to really.. find the whole thing a damn joke.
a big joke played on me by him..
or de big guy above.
hahaha
it's really really bad...
dun dare go back .. dunwan to see anything that reminds me of him... but i still hafta return him his stuff.. i wonder how?
hahaha anyway he din ask for anything back...
sigh...
i'm starting to hate him... really really not good...
cos hate means i still feel for him.
sigh...
and happen that he's doin really well w'o me..
he might even be happily attached/engaged right now..
hahaha no idea wats happening to me now
trying really hard to put everything behind me... but even a guy who jus met me say he can feel that i still love him alot...
wat de hell.
but i noe i'm doin fine
grinz
very very buzy lately
dun even haf time to sleep, and enjoy my very very warm bed... sigh.
hahaha i love that feeling of running ard being buzy...
busy over nothing...
i'm lost.
feels stupid.
yawnz.
maybe all these results from lack of sleep...
when sch reopen everything shall be fine!
grinz
i will survive!!!!
mistakes that dun kill u, will only make u stronger..
i'm growing stronger, becoming more matured and love life more and more by de min.
i will survive...
sighz...
Friday, July 02, 2004
heh heh...
damn long no blog..
dun think anyone still reading
anyway write for fun .. anyway free now..
jus came back from law camp~
qt fun.. but alot of waiting.. and i mean ALOT...
rather brain dead now...
din sleep last nite
hahaha
1st day, waiting + ice breakers. introduce us to our secret pal, everyone says its an initiative by SDU.. my first exp with SDU....
2nd day, tele matches... lose like hell in de morning. forfeit till siao... but that's for the morning one.. got damn dirty. but fun! hahaha afternoon games nid to use brain... den we got our winning streak back.. thrash all de other ogs~! but they din haf to do forfeit.. started to think there's conspiracy agains my og... hmmmm
3rd day.. water tele.. went to SRC swimming pool.. hahaha i din play lah.. cos damn deep.. 1.7 eh. i'll jus drown. even thou i noe how to swim..
out of four stations my grp onli did 3, including one played with the councillors... cos one og walk over, no one brought swim wear.. (i'm sure...) so i was there purely to play with water onli.. hahaha got float summore damn fun.
had amazing race aft the water tele.. went ard town. nearly dieded there. and found out that our student pass expire le!!! sob sob.. i jus top up leh. wat the hell...den de stupid race qt dumb leh.. cos until the end all de station masters sian diao liao... den not much forfeit. we also sian diao.. last stage we go even betta, ask us to hurry up cos they wanna go eat dinner one.. ~~`
den at nite was blind folded and brought ard nus. tHis iS SUpeR FUN!!!! hahaha also alot of waiting but really pays off lah. some one will lead us by voice, w/o body contact, ard.. up the stairs, turn here and there. den had stations and things to do blind folded.. like de swing, slide, barrel thingy.. my fave is de lorry!!!!! grinz. blind folded to go on de lorry, den ermm.. dunno de driver got pass not lah, think no pass also drive betta than him. but that's de fun part lah..
hahahaha but all de gers were screaming! haha wanted to go for second time... sulkz..
4th day~ do nothing. talk crap until de formal dinner, which we were suppose to stay with our secret pal. kaoz. dun even get me started. dreading de dinner since morning.. den keep kaobeing... but anyway, had to go lah.. argh.. hate to be manipulated lydat... anyway, was damn mean, left my date there most of the time. even thou i tried talking to him, din hit off lah. den went to toilet 3 times. last time lasted for like 15 mins, till de dinner officially ended! hahahahah k.. i'm meanie.. watever..
den went to double o!!!!! hahaha super fun. shan't elaborate. den gossip till today morning... wah.. damn tiring loh.. cannot make it...
hahaha got ONE cute guy in the camp... sigh din get to get his number, always do disappearing act. wanna get his no. from my G1 G2 also cant. cos she was like, why u wan his number? even thou they all noe i think he's cute. SULKZ. shld hav talked more to him yesterday... DAMN.. argh... bah... wait for rag and flag. might jus see him! hiak hiak hiakzz
my grp pple qt fun lah.. qt onz also. ask them do what den do wat one.. hahaha damn cute la some.. den in de grp i damn zho bo. my onli job is to create noise. =p
as usual rite? yah loh.. not clever enough, action also not fast enough.. only de mouth keep exercising.. hahaha hope they found it entertaining lah..
sian. i wan de cute guy's number... anyone?
argh.
got to go for tuition le..
cheers...
damn long no blog..
dun think anyone still reading
anyway write for fun .. anyway free now..
jus came back from law camp~
qt fun.. but alot of waiting.. and i mean ALOT...
rather brain dead now...
din sleep last nite
hahaha
1st day, waiting + ice breakers. introduce us to our secret pal, everyone says its an initiative by SDU.. my first exp with SDU....
2nd day, tele matches... lose like hell in de morning. forfeit till siao... but that's for the morning one.. got damn dirty. but fun! hahaha afternoon games nid to use brain... den we got our winning streak back.. thrash all de other ogs~! but they din haf to do forfeit.. started to think there's conspiracy agains my og... hmmmm
3rd day.. water tele.. went to SRC swimming pool.. hahaha i din play lah.. cos damn deep.. 1.7 eh. i'll jus drown. even thou i noe how to swim..
out of four stations my grp onli did 3, including one played with the councillors... cos one og walk over, no one brought swim wear.. (i'm sure...) so i was there purely to play with water onli.. hahaha got float summore damn fun.
had amazing race aft the water tele.. went ard town. nearly dieded there. and found out that our student pass expire le!!! sob sob.. i jus top up leh. wat the hell...den de stupid race qt dumb leh.. cos until the end all de station masters sian diao liao... den not much forfeit. we also sian diao.. last stage we go even betta, ask us to hurry up cos they wanna go eat dinner one.. ~~`
den at nite was blind folded and brought ard nus. tHis iS SUpeR FUN!!!! hahaha also alot of waiting but really pays off lah. some one will lead us by voice, w/o body contact, ard.. up the stairs, turn here and there. den had stations and things to do blind folded.. like de swing, slide, barrel thingy.. my fave is de lorry!!!!! grinz. blind folded to go on de lorry, den ermm.. dunno de driver got pass not lah, think no pass also drive betta than him. but that's de fun part lah..
hahahaha but all de gers were screaming! haha wanted to go for second time... sulkz..
4th day~ do nothing. talk crap until de formal dinner, which we were suppose to stay with our secret pal. kaoz. dun even get me started. dreading de dinner since morning.. den keep kaobeing... but anyway, had to go lah.. argh.. hate to be manipulated lydat... anyway, was damn mean, left my date there most of the time. even thou i tried talking to him, din hit off lah. den went to toilet 3 times. last time lasted for like 15 mins, till de dinner officially ended! hahahahah k.. i'm meanie.. watever..
den went to double o!!!!! hahaha super fun. shan't elaborate. den gossip till today morning... wah.. damn tiring loh.. cannot make it...
hahaha got ONE cute guy in the camp... sigh din get to get his number, always do disappearing act. wanna get his no. from my G1 G2 also cant. cos she was like, why u wan his number? even thou they all noe i think he's cute. SULKZ. shld hav talked more to him yesterday... DAMN.. argh... bah... wait for rag and flag. might jus see him! hiak hiak hiakzz
my grp pple qt fun lah.. qt onz also. ask them do what den do wat one.. hahaha damn cute la some.. den in de grp i damn zho bo. my onli job is to create noise. =p
as usual rite? yah loh.. not clever enough, action also not fast enough.. only de mouth keep exercising.. hahaha hope they found it entertaining lah..
sian. i wan de cute guy's number... anyone?
argh.
got to go for tuition le..
cheers...
Monday, May 03, 2004
our PM said on his may day rally, people who migrate cos they think the grass is greener on the other side, will look back and regret...
seems like there's alot of pple leaving singapore, in hope of a betta future, a more condusive environment for children etc...
personally, i have never tot of migrating to other countries. firstly cos i dun have the means haha. secondly, i believe that there are still some good left in singapore worthy for me to stay, that outweighs the dislikes i have of singapore... but aft last week.. i tot probably i was wrong...
the reason why i neva tot of moving to other countries is because i had feeling for singapore. it is a place i grew up in, and still growing in. my love ones are here, i became who i am here, it has got most efficient pple ard, it is clean, has got good food. it's all de emotional stuff...
however the things that i dislike seems such a long list now... from the nan chiau high principal incident, made me realised that the system that we tot was good is crumbling from within. there is even talk about teachers not to scold student too harshly nowadays because too many children (i consider the teens nowadays as children becos of their imaturity) are commiting suicide...
so are we expecting the students to have self-discipline since they were babies, from parents who only spend less than 10 hours with the children each day?? even the most un-educated noes that without military force (including the police), the government cannot work, the laws in a country cannot function. so may i know how is a teacher suppose to work without at least the most basic punishments such as scolding and canning? i'm not suggesting canning for anything and everything that the students does wrong, but i trust the teachers to make that choice if i'm sending my children to sch for them to educated because i happen to believe in the long forgotten saying 'spare the rod and spoil the child'.
if it is strict rule abiding people that our education system needs and looking out for den i shld assume the interviews for teaching scholarship is asking the applicant to memorise a thick MOE rule book, and then test them at the interview on how much they can rem, taking in those that can memorise the most. why bother to ask pple what views they have of education, what they plan to do for the system and see if they have the leadership qualities. i see no relevance of the questions to the kind of pple they nid!
i tot during the FTA talk, there was talk about negative listing of rules, only say what is not suppose to be done, the rest by default can be done. why isn't this applied in most situations?
i believe that education is not jus about academic results. it is about teaching them self-discipline, what can be done and what ought not to be done. if parents are so worried that their children are bullied in sch by teachers, or teachers punishing their precious kids wrongly or too harshly. i suggest to these parents to teach their own children at home. i have seen cases of parents not being able to take their children in hand, if they still refuse to stop over protecting their children while they are in school, what is goin to become of these children?
it is understandable that under such high costs of living environment in singapore, most families need to have dual income. thus less time can be spent with their children. isn't this the reason why schools are keeping the students later and later jus in case they loiter ard too much and turn to bad company (as suggested by my GP teacher)? so if the children are spending more time in sch, with teachers and friends, shldn't we trust the teachers abit more if we nid them to teach our children values and discipline?
i have a fren who always tot that if one has to change the system, if one sees a flaw in a system, that change has to come from the top. thus one has to work to the top, and make the change. but lately, my fren and i found it to be untrue. when a system crumbles from within, no matter how much u feel for it, no matter how much u wish u could do something, there's no way to help. esp when u feel victimised by the same flaw. in the end, these pple either leave after being too disappointed by the system or simply go with the flow, "if you cant beat them, join them" isn't it? i mourn for the system, for losing capable pple everyday, for making these pple lose hearts, for showing all the others who dream of making changes to forget about it...
at this rate, growing is out of question, being stagnant would be lucky, goin backwards is most probably what's gonna happen to our country.
i hope and pray that our leaders are goin to wake up their idea, open their eyes. if they are not goin to do something to their system to stop these dynamic pple from leaving, i hope then, they live to see how the country crumbles.
i hope it occurs to our leaders that perhaps some people are not leaving because they feel the grass is greener on the other side... perhaps it's because they dun wish to see how their beloved country continues to disintegrate...
i still love singapore.
for being my homeland.
i still think there's hope... for now..
but there's only a limit to how much a person can do and hope for...
seems like there's alot of pple leaving singapore, in hope of a betta future, a more condusive environment for children etc...
personally, i have never tot of migrating to other countries. firstly cos i dun have the means haha. secondly, i believe that there are still some good left in singapore worthy for me to stay, that outweighs the dislikes i have of singapore... but aft last week.. i tot probably i was wrong...
the reason why i neva tot of moving to other countries is because i had feeling for singapore. it is a place i grew up in, and still growing in. my love ones are here, i became who i am here, it has got most efficient pple ard, it is clean, has got good food. it's all de emotional stuff...
however the things that i dislike seems such a long list now... from the nan chiau high principal incident, made me realised that the system that we tot was good is crumbling from within. there is even talk about teachers not to scold student too harshly nowadays because too many children (i consider the teens nowadays as children becos of their imaturity) are commiting suicide...
so are we expecting the students to have self-discipline since they were babies, from parents who only spend less than 10 hours with the children each day?? even the most un-educated noes that without military force (including the police), the government cannot work, the laws in a country cannot function. so may i know how is a teacher suppose to work without at least the most basic punishments such as scolding and canning? i'm not suggesting canning for anything and everything that the students does wrong, but i trust the teachers to make that choice if i'm sending my children to sch for them to educated because i happen to believe in the long forgotten saying 'spare the rod and spoil the child'.
if it is strict rule abiding people that our education system needs and looking out for den i shld assume the interviews for teaching scholarship is asking the applicant to memorise a thick MOE rule book, and then test them at the interview on how much they can rem, taking in those that can memorise the most. why bother to ask pple what views they have of education, what they plan to do for the system and see if they have the leadership qualities. i see no relevance of the questions to the kind of pple they nid!
i tot during the FTA talk, there was talk about negative listing of rules, only say what is not suppose to be done, the rest by default can be done. why isn't this applied in most situations?
i believe that education is not jus about academic results. it is about teaching them self-discipline, what can be done and what ought not to be done. if parents are so worried that their children are bullied in sch by teachers, or teachers punishing their precious kids wrongly or too harshly. i suggest to these parents to teach their own children at home. i have seen cases of parents not being able to take their children in hand, if they still refuse to stop over protecting their children while they are in school, what is goin to become of these children?
it is understandable that under such high costs of living environment in singapore, most families need to have dual income. thus less time can be spent with their children. isn't this the reason why schools are keeping the students later and later jus in case they loiter ard too much and turn to bad company (as suggested by my GP teacher)? so if the children are spending more time in sch, with teachers and friends, shldn't we trust the teachers abit more if we nid them to teach our children values and discipline?
i have a fren who always tot that if one has to change the system, if one sees a flaw in a system, that change has to come from the top. thus one has to work to the top, and make the change. but lately, my fren and i found it to be untrue. when a system crumbles from within, no matter how much u feel for it, no matter how much u wish u could do something, there's no way to help. esp when u feel victimised by the same flaw. in the end, these pple either leave after being too disappointed by the system or simply go with the flow, "if you cant beat them, join them" isn't it? i mourn for the system, for losing capable pple everyday, for making these pple lose hearts, for showing all the others who dream of making changes to forget about it...
at this rate, growing is out of question, being stagnant would be lucky, goin backwards is most probably what's gonna happen to our country.
i hope and pray that our leaders are goin to wake up their idea, open their eyes. if they are not goin to do something to their system to stop these dynamic pple from leaving, i hope then, they live to see how the country crumbles.
i hope it occurs to our leaders that perhaps some people are not leaving because they feel the grass is greener on the other side... perhaps it's because they dun wish to see how their beloved country continues to disintegrate...
i still love singapore.
for being my homeland.
i still think there's hope... for now..
but there's only a limit to how much a person can do and hope for...
Friday, April 30, 2004
jus recieved an email and ecard from a family fren..
news spread really fast huh?
lol, was reading my entries, wonder if i was trying to convince others i'm fine, or am i trying to convince myself?
hee heez.... ponder ponder...
' i'm looking for a place
serching for a face
is anybody here i know
cos nothings goin rite
everythings in a mess
and no one likes to be alone
is there anyone trying to find me
wont some body come take me home
is a damn cold nite,
trying to figure out this life
wont u take me by the hand take me somewhere new
i dun know who u are
but i
i'm with you...
i'm with you....
heyyy
why is everything so confusing,
mayb i'm jus out of my mind
yeah...
it's damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
wont u take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i dun know who u are
but i
i'm with you...
take me by the hand take me somewhere new
i dun know who u are but i
i'm with u..."
avril lavigne - i'm with you.
some parts really suits me, everything's a mess
haha but dun think i nid someone to take me anywhere,
i'm fine where i am, physically and emotionally, mentally as well
i dun believe in depending on anyone now.
becos as i said, no one will be there for you forever.
i'm not tryin to be cynical, but it is a fact.
=)
lalalalallala
"....not a penny in our pocket but that's alrite now,
strumming all de guitars
all de gers say we rock it
feeling hot now
working on a sun tan we dun even try to block it
and it's hot as hell
but we dun care
cos we dun have to go no where
we're jus chilling day by day...
walk along with me
walk along with me
wont u walk with me
walk in harmony
walk along with me
walk along with me
wont u walk with me
walk in harmony
i still believe
i can FLY
i'll get higher and higher
i will be free
i will FLY
HIGHER AND HIGHER!!!!!!!!!!
higher and higher...
chilling out, having fun
tripping on de good times
hanging with the gers now in the hot sun
strumming on the guitars
acting like a rock start
mama always say baby gotta go real far
crazy life catch a ride
gotta go round the world and see de flip side
you and me
cant u see
we're everything we nid to be now now....."
hahaha
love this song..
jus makes me feel really happy...
news spread really fast huh?
lol, was reading my entries, wonder if i was trying to convince others i'm fine, or am i trying to convince myself?
hee heez.... ponder ponder...
' i'm looking for a place
serching for a face
is anybody here i know
cos nothings goin rite
everythings in a mess
and no one likes to be alone
is there anyone trying to find me
wont some body come take me home
is a damn cold nite,
trying to figure out this life
wont u take me by the hand take me somewhere new
i dun know who u are
but i
i'm with you...
i'm with you....
heyyy
why is everything so confusing,
mayb i'm jus out of my mind
yeah...
it's damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
wont u take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i dun know who u are
but i
i'm with you...
take me by the hand take me somewhere new
i dun know who u are but i
i'm with u..."
avril lavigne - i'm with you.
some parts really suits me, everything's a mess
haha but dun think i nid someone to take me anywhere,
i'm fine where i am, physically and emotionally, mentally as well
i dun believe in depending on anyone now.
becos as i said, no one will be there for you forever.
i'm not tryin to be cynical, but it is a fact.
=)
lalalalallala
"....not a penny in our pocket but that's alrite now,
strumming all de guitars
all de gers say we rock it
feeling hot now
working on a sun tan we dun even try to block it
and it's hot as hell
but we dun care
cos we dun have to go no where
we're jus chilling day by day...
walk along with me
walk along with me
wont u walk with me
walk in harmony
walk along with me
walk along with me
wont u walk with me
walk in harmony
i still believe
i can FLY
i'll get higher and higher
i will be free
i will FLY
HIGHER AND HIGHER!!!!!!!!!!
higher and higher...
chilling out, having fun
tripping on de good times
hanging with the gers now in the hot sun
strumming on the guitars
acting like a rock start
mama always say baby gotta go real far
crazy life catch a ride
gotta go round the world and see de flip side
you and me
cant u see
we're everything we nid to be now now....."
hahaha
love this song..
jus makes me feel really happy...
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