Me. Myself & i

I had a messed up weekend. Trying to clean up my act right now. I nearly lost a friend back there.. I hope i had done all i can to try to put things right again. I doubt things will be the same again, I'm apologetic for the error in judgments, but the harm is done.
I wanted to justify my position, my actions. But i guess at the end of the day, we all have our own positions to take care of. At the end of the day, what is important is that I admit that i made a bad call, but at the point of time, given my position, knowledge and conditions of the situation, i would have made the same decisions then and there. At this juncture, i just want to make sure that i understand the impact and address it, instead of saying "I had to do what i did". which of cos cannot help. I'm glad i had a chance to be frank and talk things out. I think if it happened to me, i wont be as cool. It was enough to send me hating the person.
Well, i pretty much screw things up the way i din want it to be. What irony.. Every single thing that was not to be done, was.

It was simply a crazy week for me. I'm glad it is over. Still some loose ends for me to tie up but i think those are fine.

For those who have been reading my blog and were concerned for me, i'm fine. ;)

To those whom i've caused some trauma towards, i'm sincerely sorry. I dun think there's another better way of saying this.

Hopefully i've gotten something out of this. I mean as of every past experiences, i shld have learnt something but i always choose to disregard them.
Clearly i have some things to take care of now, they are obviously not in the category of 'looking for trouble for myself'. Stay off the liquor, it is starting to cloud my mind.
Think coffee will be my best fren for sometime now, can't seem to stay awake for more than two hours without it. Unhealthy yes, but staying awake seems to be more important.

"Brave it out these 8 years, you'll find ur life is more or less set by then." I've gotta do things that i ought to do...
"Whatever it is, just be honest with me." Very simple rule, very basic in a friendship, i haven been able to keep to it.
Decorating your words, beautifying things, making things look alright when they're not only shows how much you trust ur fren.

I can say,
i dunnoe if i can do them anymore.

I'm beginning to scare myself.
hahaha