Sigh..

Since this is the year that most of my friends turn 21, i got all excited after attending two parties, and decided to start planning my own. Thinking i'll have the kind of treatment that my two elder sisters had, my maternal aunts and uncles gave them Ang baos and celebrated their birthday..
My third aunt, one who has the most say around the house, just told me that if i don't do well this sem, i can forget about celebrating my birthday.
I'm not too sure how to take this.. (not my gemini nature acting up..) I guess on one hand you can say that she has so much confidence in my brains, that even i don't have. Thinking that with some incentive, maybe i'll perform to the fullest potential.
On the other, i just feel.. helpless. I really really don't think i'll be able to do well. It's as if someone is telling me, unless the world is flat, we will celebrate your birthday. But i'm sure she's got my interests at heart. However, using my results as a condition is more depressing than anything.
How can i explain to her, that it is not within my control? (Insert the whining about bad results here)

I can feel myself giving up the struggle. From a law school hopeful to someone who is just trying to stay afloat. I know becoming negative wont help, but i guess i cannot face anymore disappointment. At some point, you let urself down so badly, that you start joking about it. It doesn't necessary mean you have accepted the fact, just means you have given up. Why fight it when the jokes will come anyway.

I still rem how i told paul last sem, that i want to prove to others that i can fight for the good grades... Now, i'm not even participating in class.

It is easy to back out. I told myself, if they don't want to celebrate my 21st, den i'll just have a simple affair. I guess if the verdict is such, i don't even want to celebrate if i miraculously do reasonably do well. Perhaps it's too extreme to say that my happiness is judged by my results, but that's the way i feel..

At the end of the day, i still want to believe if you really put your mind to it, you will be able to do it...

Cheers,
WR

Sore loser Jose Moaninho has voiced his support for Benfica in their CL game against Liverpool tonight.

The true potugeese told the press that he has always been a Benfica fan even though he was with Barcelona before joining Chelsea. He never said this before until his team got kicked out of Champions League. Why? If his english team cannot get through, he doesn't want other english teams to get into the final 8, what sore, spoilt brat, loser.
Without anything to complain about the referee who awarded chelski their last minute penalty, in case this big head team lose too badly and risk getting death threats, our 'special one' decided to continue harping on the first leg. "We haven't seen 11 v 11"... Whole load of BS. If your pitch was in a better condition, even with 12 people, i'm pretty sure Ronaldinho will still kick your sorry A**.

Kaos.. Lose den lose laH! Don't give excuses k!

It's a good day...
Will continue to be one when liverpool wins :D

Waiting for 4 am.... meanwhile, i shall pass my time by doing my tutorial...

Regards,
WR

This is hilarious - Man U fans, no offense..

Cheers

It is official, my allergy to Lux-shower cream. (No, not my dropping out of law school, at least not yet...) As soon as i applied it, my left hand started itching. I wonder why medication doesn't act as half as fast?
Anyway, i saw a movie today! Big news, because i haven seen a movie since ... when? i can't rem. Starring Jennifer Aniston and Kevin Cosner - Rumour has it. I particularly like the following conversation.

"I know this isn't the kind of things parents tell their children, but the day your mother came back, we conceived you."
"But you know, dad, i'm so different. I never liked tennis, i drive like a mad person and you drive so slowly!"
"I drive slowly only because you are in the car."
erm, i think at this time i have to explain, Nope, Kevin Cosner did not act as Jennifer's dad... But that's not the point of the conversation...
The conversation, filled with so much love, unconditioned love from a parent to a child. This love, it is without any strings attached, from deep within. So much of it that he has changed his character, his style, because he is afraid that something bad might chance upon his precious girl. This, is the love of a parent, this, is pure love.
Nothing in the world can compare to this, absolutely nothing. It doesn't matter if your parents are chinese, american, english, malay, educated, less educated - they love you the best way they know how...
As bad as you get it outside, you come home and bask in the warmth of their love.

I did something wrong today. I couldn't understand my readings and fell asleep, only waking up when my parents came home in the afternoon. Really bothered by the lack of time and patience, i lost my temper with my mom when she asked me if i was alright. She walked out without a frown and i know she was sad, but she completely understands me. She din flew into a rage and complain why are we always venting our frustration at her. She doesn't come home in the middle of the night and start throwing things around, justifying it by saying 'you guys do it too, why cant i?'. She'll never think about how much we love her but always and will never stop loving us... she always talks about the possibility of leaving once we are independent...

I always wonder why some people value their romantic love more than the love of their parents... Are they even comparable? I don't think i'll ever find a man who can love me like she does, other than my dad, of cos...

With Love,
WR

"The greatest victory to evil, is for the good to do nothing."
This was what my friend told me yesterday, not sure if i got it right but still, very meaningful. My letter to the forum wasn't published, perhaps too minute an issue for the national papers. Kind of disappointed, still i hope i can do something more to help those students. But not being related to the incident anyhow, just makes me a nosey person.
I just wish the parents can stand up for their children, not for the academic achievement but a right that this kids ought to have. To stop being oppressed by the unreasonable demands of the school. Passive parents can only result in passive children. So who do we blame for the indifference in our society?
Disillusioned as i may be, i still think the next generation can be educated correctly. I believe that if we all do our part in educating them, they won't turn out to be like most of us, often wondering if we're just a small pawn in the great economy of Singapore.
I do what i can with my tuition kids. Perhaps they may not be the scholars of their batch, but i'd like to think that at least i'm a positive influence in their lives, teaching them about choices, etc.
Sigh. Bleak...

Regards,
WR


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i guess i will spend my morning writing a letter to the forum for my aunt's student.
hMmmm

I'll write my draft here.. actually, since it doesn't concern me, i have no idea how to write LOL. But it is about education, so i shall try...

MOE Policy regarding student's choice of subject
I am writing regarding the policy of one particular boys' school in Bishan which requires students, who had done relatively well for normal chinese, to drop their higher chinese and concentrate on getting distinction for the former subject. I would like to know if the MOE allows for such imposition.
The student in question had obtained a B3 for his O' Level Mother Tongue, hence his parents and him believe that he will do relatively well for his Higher Chinese. This is important for his aggregate scores because he will be allowed to deduct two points so long as he passes his Higher Mother Tongue.
However, it has been told to them that those who did not achieve a distinction for their Mother Tongue must drop their places in Higher Mother Tongue. This, in fact, has robbed the students their choices and possibly a fighting chance to their dream schools.
I can understand that the school wishes the students to do well in the basic subject before taking on a seemingly more advance course. However, as a student myself, i believe that these students should be given a choice, instead of imposing it on them. Moreover, this student and i'm sure many others are well capable of securing the 2 points deduction, which can make a difference to their scores.

By imposing such policy on students, it is questionable the direction the school is taking. It seems that the school has ignored the individual element, instead, only interested in achieving a seemless track record for itself. Aren't schools suppose to be nurturing thinking students who can make choices for themselves? In order to train responsible citizens we ought to allow students to make their own choices.

I sincerely hope MOE will look into this matter as soon as possible to give these students a justified answer.

I want to play, i don't want to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh....

This NYP sex scandal thing has been going around a few days. Initially, i thought there were too many people talking about it and i kind of pity the girl, hence i din plan on talking about it here. But i just read about her telling the papers that she didn't think she did anything wrong. And i decided to pen my two cents worth here, before i start my trust paper, to get my brain juice flowing.

Well, like i told my uncle, there is nothing morally or legally wrong with taking nude, sex videos for own viewing. Both consenting adults (or rather, capable of consenting in the eyes of law) involved, for watever reason they took it is besides the point.
Nothing wrong definitely, but down right stupid.
1) "It is nothing wrong because everyone is doing it"
Like what my uncle used to tell me when i was younger "Everyone goes and jump down, you jump down also?" This episode is very telling of the sense of right and wrong that teenages (or even youth, the guy is 21) have. If everyone does it, then it must be right. Or rather, if i do it, i shouldn't be deemed as doing a wrong thing.
Whatever happened to principles? To moral values? The line isn't drawn by each individual, but by others.

2) If you want to video ur bed scenes, keep it properly, securely.(if you don't intend to be a porn star)
I'm sure the january Straits Times made it pretty clear how many mobile fones Singapore lose in a year. I believe 22 phones are lost a day. (but to be frank, i don't think cheerleaders read the papers very much..hahah, tt's just me talking.) K, i don't think teenagers nowadays read the papers very much. Hence, if you wish to take something so private, and keep it so, you should have uploaded to a laptop and save it in a CD or even DVD. How much memory can a hp have, seriously? Unless as my uncle suggest, u wanna watch it everywhere u go or show it to your friends?
Paul made a very valid point that no one expects to lose their fones, which i entirely agree.
But everyone knows there is a possibility of losing fones.(when it is getting smaller and smaller everyday) You don't have to expect to lose a fone to secure such information, if that information is so private and important to you
Even if you don't expect to lose ur fone, you risk having friends picking up ur fone to play with. I say this with the assumption that that person in question has not showed her friends the video (which of cos, we are assuming it is for private entertainment).

3) Her fone was stolen, the videos uploaded on the internet.
Logically speaking, if you can 'forget' about having a sex video on ur fone, then probably your friends have all watched it. So, words probably have gotten out that you have such a video. Hence, someone intended to steal it in order to humiliate you publicly (perhaps internationally)
So if we trace this back, are we back to the stupid argument? or something more? On the evening news, it was reported that many JC students have taken nude pictures of themselves and their partners in order to show their friends. It was considered 'hip' and 'cool' and of cos, everyone was doing it (which in teenish, means 'right') In this sense, i'm not too sure if it was merely stupid, or simply vain and wanting to be 'trendy'. It can even be peer pressure. to quote a friend of mine, some of this videos 'it is obvious that these girls are performing for the camera'. All these seem to point to the direction of 'showing off' rather than private consumption.

There is nothing wrong with being stupid. It is lawful to be stupid. In fact, people like to know you're stupid. You don't go to jail, you just go on the headlines.

With all due respect,
Wenrong

hahaaahah!!!
It must be a good day today!!!!
Barca won the first leg in Champions League first knock out round agains the Blue 2-1, at Chelsea's 'potato field'!!!!
Although there was one own goal each from the two teams, Eto'o gave the visitors the edge 10 mins before the game was over...
hahahahha
THE BEST PART:
Chelsea's Del Horno was sent off after tackling the unstoppable Messi. Soccernet termed it as a 'mistimed tackle' which did not justify a red card. But the Argentinian 'rolled in the mud and the Barca players reacted as if he has been murdered'.
I would have stand up for any other team if they were penalised for such play acting, but i have to say this:
CHELSEA DESERVES IT!!!! muahahahhahhaha
To think that mourinho had the cheek to warn his players of Barcelona's players' acting skills. His own Robben is an Oscar winner himself.

And let's not even get to the state of the field. mourinho actually said that pretty people may not be intelligent, ugly might not mean stupid to explain the state of his field!! Friend, ugliness don't affect the intelligence, but i'm pretty sure a bare field will affect the play on the field. What kind of lousy comparison is this?

WooHoo!! and the underdog, Arsenal won Real Madrid 1-0 as visitor!!!! Nothing against Real but with so many super stars but you cant stop Thiery Henry and a team of young players... Shows that money cannot buy everything in the world!!! YEahhhhh
Way to go!

Muahahahah this is a good day to start my trust assignment. :p
Btw, even thou Liverpool lost 1-0 to Benfica in the first leg, i'm sure we'll get it back!!!!

wooHoo!!! Start of my term break!!!! Guess what? I have two assignments due by the end of this one week break... from two 8 credits module. I'd rather not have the break...

argh.
I'm still stuck with my consti law assignment.. i have no idea what to write. But i'll try. Sigh. I think i feel defeated right from the time i read the question, totally no confidence in tackling this. I guess this is the effect of getting too many Cs - in the end you start to question your abilities from the beginning. Puiz.

No life.
My friends have been trying to ask me out a few times... I have no choice but to turn them down. Tuitions, assignments, tutorial, never ending. So many things that you stop doing them, stop wanting to finish them and just watch TV...

Gotta write my resume soon, i don't want to end up like last year, missing the deadline and then do nothing constructive for the rest of my holidays (as much as i want to do that)

I'm just so lazy that sometimes i am amazed at my own laziness. Not hardworking and meticulous enough. i wonder what kind of job can i do nex time... Clean toilet mayb.. dunnid to be too meticulous for that.

Argh... I need to change!!!!!!!!!
HOW?

"I know I have not won against them since coming here and I am being told we haven't beaten them in the FA Cup for 85 years. That has surprised me but it is time to change all those statistics," Rafael said.

HAhahah ERROR.. Paiseh...
I have much to learn and remember :p

Chee On Judicial Independence- another bankruptcy of opposition in Singapore

I've read it but as usual, failed to impress me. Anyhow, people should read it to judge for themselves.
A piece of article, if charged with so much emotions, is difficult to have any academic value. Many examples, many quotes but somehow, it failed to point how what kind of role does judiciary play as part of the three arms of government. Secondly, the piece fail to take into consideration the good of our judicial system, which will definitely be brought up if PAP were to reply to this article(IF).
The worst argument is by bringing up quotes from organisations in other countries. We dont really give two hoots about what other liberal democratics say about our system, don't he understand that by now?
What does the law say? What does the Constitution say? What does the normal practice say? What is wrong with having no lawyer to represent you? I believe if he lists these out instead, he would have gotten more empathy from Singaporeans instead of quoting the ang mohs.

Well, by publishing this, as someone has said, he must have thought that once he is bankrupt, they no longer can punish him for what he says. That's probably why he cc this to MM Lee. What is his point? Is he telling others how bias the judiciary is? Is he complaining?

I cant help but draw an analogy to a situation of a rebellious child, who'd do anything just to upset his parents.
By losing the suit, he has lost all credibility EVEN if it did not cost him his eligibility to stand for elections. Now with this letter, he seems to be 'getting back' at MM Lee and SM Goh, like a child shouting "Na Na Nee Poo Poo!!! IS this all you can do?" He is saying that, "now that i'm a bankrupt, i can write about anything and you can't get to me anymore!" It is true to the extend of physical possessions. But his own letter has also taken away any respect anyone can possibly have towards him (if any) as an opposition fighting for political democracy in Singapore for so long. His fight has slowly deteriorated to a personal grudge against the incumbent party, losing his objectivity and his focus on democracy for Singaporeans.
Which brings me to ask whether is he really working towards political democracy or demolishing it? Such act only further impresses upon us, the electorate, on how immature and incredible the opposition is, collectively.
Is he really pushing for democracy or pushing it futher from us?
If oppositions wanna survive in Singapore, better pay Chee and ask him to get out of politics, before all of us lose faith in opposition.

Anyway, enough about politics. I've been meaning to talk about my personal sensitive issue, about being a supporter of Liverpool FC. Because one of my friend actually accused me of being a Liverpool supporter because of Paul. Here i'd like to clarify.
No doubt i started watching liverpool matches because of Paul, but back then, i watched as a very neutral and objective onlooker. I slowly picked up names of players.
I was exceptionally sad when Liverpool lost to Bolton 2-0, that was when i realised i could be a fan. They're fighting spirit was impressive, nice passes. It was most disappointing because the two goals conceded were rather accidental.
Even before that, i felt that Rafael was a really different manager whom seldom diss other teams (thus far, i've only seen one such report of him being sacarstic). His faith in his players is really strong, especially when Crouch wasn't scoring at first. He is really humble, hardworking and caring manager, unlike other big headed ones from other clubs.
The more reports i read about liverpool and their fans, the more i like the club. How the fans loved Rafael even before he showed any results, cheering for him when they spotted him in the bar. How the team work so hard despite their losing streak.

I was pissed to be called a proxy supporter. Because it doesn't speak very much of me. Paul did taught me what i got to know about liverpool. But trust me, if they were anything like the blue team, i wouldn't waste my time watching their game. To me, to be called a proxy supporter for liverpool is an insult. Not only does it suggest i don't have a mind of my own, i cannot judge for myself, it actually shows how little people think of me. It also speaks of being a soccer fan is a man's right, a woman can only be a proxy fan.
I understands how my friend felt. A lady, who cant pronounce liverpool's manager's name properly, cant be a serious fan. A lady, who doesn't wake up at 4am in the morning to watch Liverpool vs Charlton, cant be a serious fan. A lady, who dint give two hoots about soccer a few months ago, cannot be a serious fan overnight. She is just a proxy fan, claiming to be a know-it-all after watching 2 months of soccer, defending weakly this team she hardly knows from two other Man-u fans. What does she know about soccer compared to us who have watched and played soccer all our lives?
Just for information, I am a fan but not a lunatic. I have lesson 10 am in the morning, having to wake up at 630am, i don't think i should be watching a match at 4am. Just because i'm rational doesn't make me any less supportive. I did check the scores first thing i turned on my computer in the morning.

I'm not trying to prove anything and if ever my friend sees this, i just want to say that i did not confront you there and then is because i know i wont be able to out talk you. But the point is not out-talking each other. It is to realise and accept that soccer talk is not just the men's right. Perhaps not a full fletch soccer fan because i don't watch every match, but i do try to read up on what i like.

Cheers!

WR

I've got so many things to talk about, wonder if i have the time, or the patience to write about all of them: My latest public law reading: Independence of Judiciary in Singapore; The Danish Cartoon outrage; and on a more personal level, the attack on the reason why i support liverpool. All very sensitive issues, on many different levels, national, inter-national, and personal. But don't expect too much from this post, because i'm in a rush for time (Going back to my very exciting, illuminating, yet depressing public law readings). :p

Independence of Judiciary in Singapore
Many who have attempted to smear the independence of judiciary have been taken to court for contempt and i have full awareness that by writing about this, i am threading on thin ice. Hence, i shall write my disclaimer once again, and change the style of writing today, which i doubt will be of much help.
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Disclaimer: Even after all my public readings, i am a supporter of a competent government, which we obviously have today. Being an advocate for my political awareness does not make me anti-PAP. Readers will draw their own conclusions from what i'm about to write, and i will do my utmost to include the citations, just in case i am sue for making these things up.
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Judiciary is the third arm of the government, separated from the executive and legislative, in order to provide adequate check and balances within the government. To uphold the Rule of Law - a law that ought to be regular and upholds equality (diceyian concept).
In Singapore, the judiciary has two responsibilities: 1)A review of unconstitutionality of laws / acts of executives and 2) A guardian of fundamental rights of individuals, Part IV of the Constitution . These two duties necessarily mean that judiciary is a check on the executive, limiting their 'untrammelled power'. With such a great and difficult duty to discharge, especially since it is against the executive, one would expect the appointment of judges to steer away from the influence of the Executive. However, the fact of the matter is that:
Art 95(1)of the constitution- the CJ, the Judges of Appeal and Judges of the High Court shall be appointed by the President if he, acting in his discretion, concurs with the advice of the Prime Minister.
This same article is applicable to the appointment of High Court judge, Court of Appeal Judge and Judicial commissioner.
The PM shall consult CJ, other than for the appointment of CJ under clause 1.
No doubt, the presence of the Elected President and CJ can outweigh the inclusion of the head of the Executive. However, "these other participants in the appointment process have a potentially small part in the final say as to who should be appointed to the Judiciary." (Michael Hor, "The Independence of the Criminal Justice System in SIngapore", SJLS [2002] 497-513)

Appointment aside, Tenure of the judges will guarantee them their job even if they rule against the incumbent government. Art 98 provides for the Tenure of office of Judges of Supreme Court (higher court)
(1)- Judges of SC shall hold office until he attains the age of 65
judges past the age of 65 'tend to be hired as contract judges for a certain number of years' (Thio Li-Ann, "Lex Rex or Rex Lex", (Pacific Basin Law Journal)20, 2002, Pg 21) These contracts are not extended automatically. According to Francis Seow, "the contracts are renewable at the will of the Prime Minister, is not conducive to judicial independence" ("The Singapore Puzzle, at 116). (I cannot find the profile, age of the high court judges of today, due to my incompetence. All i could find is list of pictures and names of these judges.)
Hence, There is no conclusive evidence that the high court today is filled with contracted judges passed their retirement age, which can influence their decisions on government related cases.
But it is undeniable that such a practice raises suspicion where the succession rate of administrative actions against the government is low, thou not unknown of (Re Fong Tin Choo, [1992] 1 SLR 120). Even though Such low rates, on itself is, again, not conclusive that judiciary independence is lacking. It does not necessarily draw the link, because it may be because there is high prosecutorial efficiency, in bringing only the guilty to the court (Michael Hor). Thus the judges, who are impartial have little choice but to convict, or to rule in the government's favour.

To judge on these different factors independently of the others, it seems that we have a very good system of independent judiciary to protect the individuals, and safeguard the democratic system. However, it is noteworthy that conclusion should not be drawn studying on the factors alone. All of them constitute a bigger picture. Appointment largely influenced by the head of executive; provisions of tenure allows discretion of the executive. There is an inevitable pattern. The judiciary system in Singapore thread in the grey area of neither wholly independent nor dependent. On the face value, there are beautiful safeguards to prevent too much interference by the executive. But during enforcement, what is actually happening when these provisions are executed?
One e.g. to illustrate this:
The president, CJ will balance the weightage of PM's say in the appointment of Supreme Court judges on the face value of the provisions.
Elected Presidency Institution is itself a young institution, yet to developed into a strong veto power it supposedly should possess.
CJ, is appointed by the President, but again, with the advice of the PM.

All these evidence seems to be reinforcing a point, that there is executive influence in every turn of the checks, meant to be exercised on the Executive.

I am not advocating to abolish all these provisions, i.e. that judges retire at the age of 65 regardless of whether there is any competent successor. As a Singaporean, i do not wish to have chaos. Neither do i want to see an over powering judiciary which checks on every trivial matter involving the Executive. That is an extreme I don't wish to see either.
All will be fine with the present system, as long as we are able to trust and have competent people in the executive. But just as PAP said that multi-racial peace in Singapore cannot be ensured in the future, we cannot be sure that the incumbent party will always have and be filled with honourable men.

The post is meant to be as neutral i can ever be on politics. But like what Prof Thio mentioned in class "how can one talks about politics without being political?"

Sorry, think i spent too much time on this that my other two posts will be postponed to some other time...

Cheers!

Doubt i'll be able to watch the match tml morning, i have lesson at 10am.. don't think my tutor will appreciate a student nodding off in his class, after going late for lesson last week... Oh well, Good luck livepool! :D

Just had a taste of how is it like to have two tuition assignments back to back. I think i'm starting to learn how to treasure my time a lil more (not considering my time spent on this blog). I rested and finished most of my tutorial, although i only jotted down the main ideas.. I hope i can keep up and maybe do better.. Right now my mind can only think of the new episode of Desperate Housewives that i've d/l. FOCUS girl!!!

I saw the picture of YJ jogathorn of myself. I really look fat like anything. I think i look fatter than what i used to be. Sigh. that's actually qt devastating. Guess that explains the crunches and sit-ups i was doing before the new post page loaded up. Anyhow, i will try my best to become what i used to me. Sigh...

Feel like sleeping already. Doesn't feel like a mid-week.. think too little work. Probably because i'm trying to block out the thought of the various assignments that are due really soon. Head in the sand... "they're not there. they're not there. they're not there..."
Argh

Hardwork is just not for me man.

Regards,
WR

Sigh, nothing much to post. Din read papers today because i kept thinking my lesson is at 10, so i had to leave home by 830. Which was the time that i woke up... And the clever me took a cab to sch!!! and found out at the entrance of law fac that my lesson is at 12, that leaves me with 2 and a half hours to eat breakfast...

Sitting in Biz Canteen is not very inspiring so i don't think i'll have much to say on my blog.
Was reading Shaun's blog and he's on sexual freedom again, or tt's how i understand it. LOL Some student wrote in to Forum yesterday or a day ago saying the organisation that gave them the 'sex talk' was discouraging the use of condoms because it was not effective in preventing STD or diseases transmitted by sexual intercourse. Reason being, the virus is much smaller than the pore on the condom.
So this parent wrote in today, saying he is relief that there are organisation highlighting the limitations of condoms, that as a parent, he would like his kids to be protected from the scheming manufacturers who care about nothing but profits...

I don't feel very strongly about this issue, so my post will probably wont be a very intellectual piece.

Well, for a start, i don't think that we can reverse the workings of westernisation in the country. The younger generation has access to diverse and volumous infomation in their daily lives, through the internet, tv, papers, magz, etc. Many articles, advertisements, tv programmes uses the topic of sex to sell, or to increase viewership. However, before we start pointing finger at the mass media, ans one simple question, is this young generation a bunch which cannot think for themselves?
If your answer is no, these people can think for themselves, then you should leave it up to them to make the decision. To the parents whose children are of legal age, your children have the right to choose and all you can do as a parent, is to help them make INFORMED decision. Like telling them the possible consequences of certain things that they do, but you cannot MAKE that decision for them. Most definitely, telling them that condom doesn't work against STD seems to be contrary to what i see on posters in hospitals. What am i to believe? Hospital posters or a religion related organisation?

And for those parents whose kids are still young, it is your job to inculcate in them the importance of the decisions they make in life, sex education even though you're afraid of opening the door. The more you try to shun from it, the more mysterious the topic will seem to them and the more they'll try to find out. Parents can't seem to understand that very much.

Of cos, i don't advocate free and easy sexual relationship, where a person can have as many sexual partners as they wish. I believe that it is sometime intimate which cannot be done with any person of the opposite sex that one see. I believe that as long as my children understand this point and know how to protect themselves, my job is done.

Perhaps i'm not qualified to say this, because i've yet to have my own children. But anyway, i always believe that
it matters not what is taught, what matters is that which is learnt.

Yawnz.. another hour to go...
sigh

Regards,
WR

"I'm in a hurry and I must go to the hospital to see how Robben is, he could be in hospital for a week," commented Benitez.

The man is angry and sacarstic. And i'm totally behind him!!! I guess this is the first time he lose it after a match. and for good reason.
Way to go!

Well, i don't know but i think there should be defence of Provocation on the field and it'll fit this case perfectly.

Supposed to be eating my lunch right now, but i had to check out liverpool website after the 2-0 defeat to Chealsea this morning...
I have to say i'm pretty disappointed with the scores, since liverpool dominated the match. It was most frustrating when all you lack is the person who find the net. The first goal that was conceded was completely unnecessary. Only Reina and another two defenders were left in front of the goalpost while everyone else rush towards the ball. It was a very serious mistake in my very amatuer view. Like Rio in the match against Man U, William Gallas was lucky to be at the right place at the right time, which btw, added to my frustration.
The second goal, scored by Crespo, was clearly an offside to me but liverpool's official website said "Crespo beat the offside trap"... Arhhhhhhhhhhh
Thou Reina was disappointing this morning, he din deserve the red card. But he should have gotten a grip of himself instead of 'touching Robben' (quote Benitez) Liverpool is appealing against the decision, otherwise, Liverpool will be playing without Reina for the next few matches against Charlton, Wigan and Arsenal. Bearing in mind that Charlton had force a draw on Chealsea (thou i din catch the match). Personally, i can't stand Robben and cannot appreciate how Chealsea players conducted themselves this morning. I know many pple hate the Team but i din know they can have such effect on first time viewers of their game. Their play was not just rough and lack of style, i have a sneaky suspicion they deliberately left the pitch bare. Because obviously, they would have been used to playing on such substandard pitch. It will only be to the visitors disadvantage, much disadvantage. I'm sure the tycoon who can pay players 100 over millions PER WEEK can afford to do up the pitch of his team's homeground. People dont pay 45 pounds per tkt to such dilapitated stadium!!!!

As all of you can see, i'm pretty worked up by the stupid blue team. Please do not mention their name in front of me, because i don't know what i'll do. I don't know who in the right mind will support such a team. Oh, i forgot, those people who don't watch the matches?

Regards,
WR

Wasn't able to open my blog just now, for a moment i tot my blog got closed down because of the previous post i did on politics. Well, i'm sure the government is more generous than that, i mean what can i do with a small blog space on the vast internet?
Just yesterday, Someone told me that once the elections is declared, we cant write posts that support any political party. He added that not even putting down a particular party, because that means you are supporting another one. I din think that is true logically and mathematically. However, to be on the safe side, i don't think i'll write anything about politics when that time comes.
Well, this week's seminar is on elected presidency. And i remember last week, when the debate between WP and PAP was going on, one of the manifestos publish was to take away the EP scheme. Then, i was wondering if there was anything wrong with having an Elected President.
Our constitution was amended in 1991 to have an Elected president instead of one that was selected. The main reason why he needs to be elected was because of the added responsibility of safe guarding the Nation's reserves. The EP was to be one of the two keys to the national reserves, 150billion when LKY raised the suggestion of this scheme. Main rationale was to safeguard the money from potential contenders who promise the electorate the sky and spend millions from past reserves to realise that promise. Of cos, the junzis from PAP would not and did not have to make such promises to win the seats in Parliament. It was a 'just in case of freak elections' kind of scheme, i would say, and the following amendments to the scheme will tell.
(Keep in mind, the president's job is to guard against drawing of past reserves.)

1) In 2004, Art 22B was amended to:
a)A transfer by a relevant statutory board of its reserves to the Government will not be treated as a draw on the past reserves of that statutory board if the Minister responsible for finance undertakes in writing to add those reserves of that statutory boad to the past reserves of the government;
b)a transfer by a relevant statuory boad of its reserves to a relevant Government company will not be treated as a draw on the past reserves of that statutory boad if the board of directors of that Government company by resoultion resrolves that those reserves of that statory board shall be added to the past reserves of that Government company; and
c)a transfer by a relevant statutory board of its reserves to another relevant statutory board will not be treated as a draw on the past reserves of the transferor statutory board if the transferee statutory board by resolution resolves, or any written law provides, that those reserves of the transferor statutory board shall be added to the past reserves of the transferee statutory board
Constitution of Republic of SIngapore (Amendment) Bill No. 12/2004
The changes proposed in this bill, which was passed later, allowed the Government to transfer its past reserves to statutory boards and government companies.
"the changes, which allow for an unemcumbered flow of reserves between the Government, key statutory boards and Governement companies..." (Today, "Reserves and loophold fears, 3 June 2004)
I'd say that this has great impact on the role of an elected president as a key to the national reserves, it will greatly reduce the check that the president has on the Government.
PAP MPs did not see the bill as a cause for concern. "Our understanding is that it does not compromise the second key," MP Tan Boo Wan.
"Once we accept that, we should have an implicit trust and confidence in how the Government manages our reserves. It is not in the interest of the country to have the specific allocation of the reserves subjected to public scrutiny," Mp Ong Kian Min. With all due respect, i believe this comment totally fly in the face of democracy. A completely paternalistic view which embodies a manifestation of distrust of the electorate. To put it simply, do you think the people are stupid or blind?
However, PM Lee (then DPM) gave a better and more convincing reason which was to 'enable more timely responses by the Government to changing economic or business conditions.' Seems like we have, once again, let pragmatism and efficiency rule the day. Never mind the constitution, never mind the rationale of having an elected president. As long as it makes things easier, it must be correct. Of cos, a balance must be struck between constitutionalism and flexibility, but i see the battle as between the constitution and convenience of the government, not flexibility.

2)
1994 Singapore Parliament Reports, Constitution of the Republic of SIngapore (Amendment No.2) Bill col 417 ff
Among the addition to the list of stat boards added, requiring the president's concurrence, Art 22B and D were introduced. More importantly, the president's discretion will be curb when the drawdown is for defence and security-related measures.
- president will not have power to veto such transactions
- such defence and security transactions will not be made public, even if they are likely to draw on the reserves.
- As an alternative, the transactions must be recommended by both the Chief of Defence Force and the Permanent Secretary of the Ministry of Defence, and then certified by bothe the PM and the Defence Minister.

To summarise, the President is elected by the people, highest office of the country as oppose to Chief of Defence Force and PS of MOF, who are not elected. What mandate do they have to act as an alternative safeguard?
Please do not bring up the Junzi theory, because the very fact that there is such a safeguard, is an indication of general distrust of those in power. To say that that two person proposed as alt are honourable men who can be trusted is just the irony of ironies.
If i may add a quote from Dr Kanwaljit Soin "...in introducing the Bill to have an Elected Presient with special powers,... the government was, in fact, "clipping its own wings". It seems to me that, in introducing this amendment, the Government is now trying to add on some feathers."

Well, as expected, to answer all these doubts, then DPM Lee said we had to balance between safeguards and flexibility. "Can they be suborned? Yes, sure. So can the President. So can the PM. What happens if the PM goes mad? God help us! you are looking for certainty and safety using fallible human digits. And you are trying to make a scheme which will give you that certainty, not a probability of one, but a probability of 99.9% that the system will work even if individual within it go wrong"
For one, i don't think the people would vote a potentially mad President or PM. Second, even if we cannot have a more certain than not kind of safeguard, at least we have ourselves to blame at the end of the day. If all kinds of human safeguards are fallible, two non-elected person vs one elected president, i think the case is crystal clear.

hai.. such a long post. i haven even included the Presidential Elections Council.. Maybe nex time.

Well, the usual, i'm raising these not because i'm Anti-PAP. I just felt people should have more information, which is available on the internet. and that there are too many policies in the name of efficiency, pragmatism which makes it difficult to reconcile the rationale of having those policies in the first place. For example GRC, EP, etc. The people have the right to know the impact of such deviation from the originally or superficial reasons of implementing these policies.

Maybe i am loving my country more. Because i bother.

it's a cycle.
i hate to admit it but it is true. I don't like it but i cant control it. i can only choose how i react to it. Only this time, it will be easier. Because past experience has taught me well, too well in fact. That there is no point to brood over it, to be bothered by something/someone which/whom you cant control.

Cant seems to concentrate on anything today. Wanted to write a post on Elected presidency and the political debate last week, but read too many things afterwards and i lost my train of thoughts.

To many things are happening around me, i'm losing it. Losing myself, my focus, my goals, which are the fundamentals of an individual. without these, nothing else exists. Only when i find them, will i be able to stand alone and find the meaning to what i am doing again.
I cannot derived my identity from others anymore. Feels like a hermit, always hiding behind others. Why do i need others approval? Why do i want someone else's recognition?
I'm bogged down by how others perceive me. Only to realise that, who are they to judge me? I'm the one to judge myself, i will give myself my own value, my identity, my pride and earn the respect for myself.

No longer dependent, no desire to be a proxy. You will do as you wish, while i'm my own master.

wAHhhhh i need money!!! I wanna buy new fone......... But i got no time to give tuition.. and i'm growing too fat!!!! HELP HELP HELPPPPPPP

"He's always been a goalscorer, and can bring important things to our team. He's not match-fit, how can he be after being out for three months? But he's so clever he can get a goal walking, where other players wouldn't running." Benitez on Fowler's fitness for next match against Birmingham 

In need to rant, but i've still got tons of readings before me, all of them to be done by tml's seminar. Not to mention i have friends coming over at after 12 noon.
My day yesterday was entirely ruin by a morning call. By a certain somebody. For the rest of the day, seems like fate has it that we have to quarrel for the rest of the day, incidents peppered throughout the day, escalating the tension. Neither of us has given in.
I know that, like many times before this, we cant see each other's point of view. I do not know what is he so insistent about certain things and he doesn't know why i do what i did.
Expectations. I almost neva lost my temper with my friends anymore, but i lose it with him many times. Maybe the frequency of seeing each other is a factor. I don't have much time for friends after dividing it between him, family and studies. My friends don't have much time for me either.
I have no solution to reconciling our differences. From the start, we don't have much in common. I did mention what i expect of this relationship, of a partner that i need (instead of want).
Being 20 going to 21, i have to look further. I've got my share of family responsibilities when i graduate and more. Already in debts before i work, my parents, my spinster aunt who has been taking care of us... Right now, i have my studies to worry about. I cannot handle someone who adds on to that.
I cannot keep worrying bout what my family thinks each time you do the things you do. I tried my best the make things easier for you, you think i'm forcing you. Can you even see my effort because i cant seems to sense urs?
Each time i feel i'm angry for a legitimate reason, you'll say things like "you din do this other thing either" so what? we're quits? why cant you address what i said den we can move on to 'this other thing'? Cant you see that this is not a math problem, you can't solve it by bringing something else up?

My love -
I told you before i neva show my love just by telling you i love you everyday. It is something more than that. Seeing you have trouble with getting to know my family, i try to make things easier for you. You have some problem with calling my grandma, i tried to cover up for you. Your fam needs something done, i'm ard to run the errand. You like to watch soccer, i learnt to watch. U're stressed, i tried to understand; You don't like people to force you to do things, i take things slow.
I have my times too i know, i can be very difficult. And i appreciate you for that.

I cannot tell you how to mix with people, how to handle real life problems.

He is a prince, living in the castle. Behind those walls, everyone is friendly, sincere, truthful and polite. The prince goes out once in a while, but the contact between him and the others outside is superficial. He thinks the world is beautiful like the world in his castle. He study many things, learned and well mannered.
He is one thing short of being perfect. Since young, people knew him naturally. People smile at him naturally. People around him loved him naturally.
As long as he lives in the castle, it is no use explaining how he need to learn how to make friends. Because there isn't such a need. As long as he stays there, he has no worries about handling commoners.

"The man who said "I'd rather be lucky than good" saw deeply into life. People are afraid to face how great a part of life is dependent on luck. It's scary to think so much is out of one's control. There are moments in a match when the ball hits the top of the net and for a split second it can either go forward or fall back. With a little luck it goes forward and you win. Or maybe it doesn't and you lose."
From the movie - Matchpoint

A wonderful movie that used the ordinary to show us the extraordinary. In the short 2 hours, the life of a social climbing ex-pro tennis player, Chris Wilton, unfolded before us. From a humble background, he went to London to teach tennis at an exclusive country club. His life took a better turn when he got to know Tom Hewett, son of a wealthy businessman(and many more turns afterwards). Tom's sister, who took a liking to Chris immediately. Things became complicated, when Chris met Tom's fiance, Nola Rice, a sexy American actress...

At a glance, this might seem to be a sleezy movie, where the lead male actor got into an affair, tried something extreme to end it. A typical you-take-a-wrong-step-in-life-you're-done-for-it kind of movie. But the beautiful twist at the end of the story, which incredibly impressed the theme of the whole movie, will at once change your perception of the movie.
The quality, the pace, the story were very well put together. A common thread ran throughout the movie: Tennis and Opera.
Personally, i particularly liked the part when Chris was facing his conscience. When he told himself that he had to push the guilt over before he was consumed by it. The two 'spirits' that embodied his conscience. This part was pretty redundant but the things that Chris said was cynical yet true.

Public law reading has become increasing interesting and depressing at the same time. And i began thinking to myself, what somebody mentioned to me after reading Catherine Lim's article in the Straits times.
He mentioned that Singaporeans aren't being indifferent, just because they choose economy over democracy, doesn't mean that they are reliant on the government. In another words, the people did choose, and they had chosen economic development over individual liberties/political democracy.

i've some problems with that which i couldn't pin point at the time he raised this, i had some time to think it through today. I'd like to raise some questions against this theory.
Again, i wanna clarify that, i have nothing against the government. I enjoy the lovely country that they are running right now, and staying in a constituency that almost always is a walk over. So if i may continue:

First and foremost, the theory that he has proposed is made on the assumption that economic development is mutually exclusive with political democracy.
By political democracy, as i understands it, simply means a levelled playing field for different political parties. Laws that facilitates political pluralism. It doesn't necessary mean that Parliament should consist of different parties, because that is up to the people to elect. But at the very least, give them some breathing space to move. This doesn't necessarily mean chaos or a decline in economic performance. Hence i personally dont think people need to choose economy OVER political democracy, because they can co-exist.

Second, when he said that the people CHOSE economy over political democracy, it is based on the assumption that there was a choice. Economic developments/performance as given and promised by one party, and others by other parties. It is based on the assumption that there IS a choice. I do not have the statistics, if i have to write a paper on this i will find out but there are many walk over constituencies for elections. When an area is a walk over, the incumbent MPs are reinstated on the Nomination Day. An area is a walk over if there are no one contesting for that area. So did the people choose? When no one steps up to challenge, does it mean the people are choosing? or can it mean that people are disillusioned or even cynical about the success rate of challenging?

Third, even if we assume there are choices, we do have opposition MPs like Chiam and Low in the parliament. The theory my friend has suggested is only fair if the choices are informed choices. Shan't elaborate. U can draw ur own conclusion. and i'm not responsible for it.

hai, i decided not to write the last point.
In case i get sued for defamation or arrested by ISA.
It is a depressing day and i wonder if it is because of my readings. How i wish i can type my tutor's academic article here.

I love my country, i respect the government.
At the end of the scrutiny, i can only conclude the power corrupts. Not in the monetary way, but people want to keep the power, retain it, perhaps not for personal gain but for whatever reasons, it cannot be justified. We may have jun zi as our government, what makes these jun zi think that they are the only jun zis or only they can get jun zi?

Risking it,
Wenrong

I was doing my public law reading and the SDP manifesto debate just kept cropping up in my mind. My lecturer mentioned that Low Thia Khiang post a letter in the forum yesterday. Unable to find yesterday's paper, i picked up today's Home, hoping to find PAP's reply to it. Instead, i saw a report on what Chiam said and another reader's letter supporting the PAP.

I should be continuing with my reading now but wanted to air my views somewhat, if i don't wanna write to the papers, the least i can do is write on my own blog. Just as a disclaimer, i do not have anything against PAP. On the contrary, i believe they have done well thus far, in managing Singapore and i'm grateful for that.
The problem that i have, is probably the inherent unfairness in the system that we have and the inadequacy of the opposition parties.

PAP singled out 4 of 52 manifestos of SDP and described them as 'time bomb' and 'poison'. Of they 4, SDP proposed to scrap the president elections, Group Representative Constituency system, the grassroots organisations and to issue subsidies for needy/poor people. PAP gave a point counter point argument against these manifestos, giving their reasons for these system respectively. What i failed to find, was the SDP's reasons for proposing these changes in the papers. The importance will be discussed later. There can only be two possibilities for this: (1) SDP did not mention; (2) The newspaper censored it?
it is for all of us to guess.

The reader who wrote into Forum today, supported the PAP's rationale of the GRC system. He mentioned the importance of having minority representatives in the parliament. More importantly, the fragile nature of our multicultural social fabric. I have to say that i agree absolutely with the rationale. But what are the effects of the GRC system?

1) Unequal voting rights
In order to make it really easy to understand, we'll start with an e.g. Area X is GRC constituency. Area Y is Single member consituency. With one vote, people in area X can vote in 3-6 members of parliament. However, with the same one vote, people in area Y can only vote in 1 MP.
Is it because Area X is bigger than Y, therefore there is a need for more MPs, therefore justifying the unequal voting power?
Art 12 subsection(1) of constitution of Singapore provides "All persons are equal before the law and entitled to the equal protection of the law." Isn't this a clear, direct violation of our rights? So why is GRC in existence when the effect of it is unconstitutional?
May i challenge the readers, to look up which are the SMC and GRC with this unequal voting power in mind?

2) Coat Tailers
A GRC, becoming a town council later, has its implications too, moving away from the rationale of having GRC. As known, town council is in charge of the upkeep and maintenance of the estate, etc. Hence, people are advised to vote for a group, with a good leader, in case they get stuck in the lift and remain there. Because the leader of the Group they vote in, will head the town council. This give rise to the problem of Coat tailers.
Another senario to imagine: In the group of 6, X is a well-known character, with great leadership capacity, very good with people. Y has good relations with people. Z has been the representative of that area for pass 5 years. but there are three others whom no one has heard of. Compare this to another group, a,b,c,d,e,f are all rather unheard of, they have been campaigning hard, trying to win the people over.
But will you take the risk?
Or will you vote in the group with 3 promising rep, knowing they will do well? When the first group is elected, what happens to the other three in the group? They become MPs as well!

These are just to illustrate how important it is to tell the public why the opposition is proposing in their manifesto. Without knowing the effects of GRC system, i would support the rationale of having it as well.

due to time constraint and fear of being traced for writing this entry, i shall end my post.

But as a Singaporean, i think it is worrying when the majority party cannot differentiate themselves from the government institution anymore.
"This is the reality of politics. Every political party everywhere in the whold has a political programme fot the people. When they are in charge, they implement them. If they do their jobs well, they will be elected. If they bluff the people and cannot deliver on their promises, they will be out very fast, like the SDP MPs. They could not perform and they were out. This is the reality." - Mr Wong Kan Seng 1999 parliamentary debates.
- PAP's offer - upgrading for Cheng San constituent (which ceased to exist the following elections)
Offer was made by PM then, who's own constituent was a walk-over.
Food for thought, what would have happened if opposition won that time?

Risking it,
Wenrong

Just read Catherine Lim's article on TST today. I can only say it is a very honest, sincere piece written by a very observant person. She has very nicely described the political climate in Singapore and expressed her concerns for the lack of freedom of speech. She seems to be disappointed with the people, who'd rather choose economic development over political maturity anytime, with the short story name "The Experiment".

Catherine Lim's article on the minister's salaries
http://www.singapore21.org.sg/art_disaffection.html#debate1

It's 5 am in the morning, and i obviously didn't wake up to do this. But hell, i need to rant. I guess if you slept at 12 and suddenly wake up at 5 am telling yourself you haven't been working hard enough for law sch, you definitely is rather stress. And let's not forget, this is only week 2 of sem 2.
I can't remember how many times "the exchange conversation" had happened, it doesn't help when your bf is going to Germany.
The agony is when you can only work hard but don't know how to score? like a good singaporean student, i try to study. But at the end of the day i have no idea what kind of preparation is needed for Law exam. I tried having all my materials nicely printed out, i tried arranging my ans even before entering the exam hall, i tried everything. The only time i did well, was when i was flipping my textbook like mad, not knowing what the question was asking about. and for that, i got a B.

i AM freaking out.
Because i don't wanna come out a 2-2, or worst 3. I look around my non-law friends, deans-lister, As and Bs, never a C. and me? I think the number of Cs i have is the sum of ALL theirs. I can always comfort myself, no you can't compare lydat, they are very different, different way of grading... But it is not like there are no As and Bs in Law sch, there are plenty, just that i'm not one of them..

I dont know... am i working hard enough?

If it is not today, it has to be some other day
If it wasn't this, it could have been something else

"And on and on. The power of the Christian right rests largely in the fact that they boldly claim religious authority, and by their very boldness convince the rest of us that they must know what they’re talking about. They’re like the guy who gives you directions with such loud confidence that you drive on even though the road appears to be turning into a faint, rutted track. But their theology is appealing for another reason too: it coincides with what we want to believe. How nice it would be if Jesus had declared that our income was ours to keep, instead of insisting that we had to share. How satisfying it would be if we were supposed to hate our enemies. Religious conservatives will always have a comparatively easy sell. "

http://www.harpers.org/ExcerptTheChristianParadox.html

Author is a christian himself, very interesting piece. Do take your time to read it if you're interested in religion :D
Just a personal comment: I think people who accuses some other religion of fighting in the name of God, shld read this.

Just another letter to add to my day of events, with the same theme!!! hahaha

-beyond words-

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Dear Wenrong,

Thank you for your interest in the Student Exchange Programme AY2006-7.

We have considered your application for the SEP very carefully. In competition with other applicants, I regret very much to inform you that your application for the Programme is unsuccessful. It will also NOT be considered further should there be vacancies arising from students who decide to decline an offer of a place.

With best wishes for your studies in Semester 2 AY2005-6.

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Pretty pissed off today...
There seems to be a common thread running through all the things that were pushing my buttons today - I'm not good enough.

I was in school today, wanted to get some files before my lessons officially starts. Wanting to save time, i ask paul to go to the library to photocopy a what was needed in the reading list. His immediate response was "what book? I don't need that!"
I took a deep breathe and i walked in.. To think that just a few minutes ago, he told me off for thinking only for myself.

Also, many of my classmates are leaving for exchange program very soon... I'll be back here, just the way i din like it.

When i tried to brush all that aside, go for a jog at Paul's gym. I was stopped by the security guard when i was walking pass, like always. He asked me for the pass which i obviously din have. And my dear bf, knowing that i was coming over and was suppose to be waiting for me, didn't pick up his fone. So i had to call his house for the second time in 15 minutes, and i was pretty sure his mother wasn't too please with that. Well, all that aside, when i told mr paul i was angry, he actually told him he was angry too!
Being me, i asked him what happened, why was he angry. He only replied "your sister is here, go jog"
Being me again, i told my sister "let's go, i dont wanna jog anymore" and walked out. Full view of the guards.
Humiliating.
Therefore i told my sister on the way, you will neva ever see me in that gym again, neva am i stepping in that condo to use anything.

My boyfriend has decided not to tell me what happened over msn, he say it is alright. and I dun feel like bringing up my new resolution to him.

Just when i thought everything was peaceful now, he told me an ex-classmate of mine was pestering him for his results. This friend did very very well for the last sem and he said he was disappointed in paul's result.
Oh great.
So what does that make me?

I know i don't have to be the pain in the neck for someone else for my own wrong doings. And i shouldn't expect paul to give in to me or never to mention about grades infront of me ever again. BUT THE PROBLEM IS, he neva realise that I DON"T FEEL COMFORTABLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe. argh...
The biggest problem is i feel inferior.
Even if there was no intention to make me feel small, every conversation about grades, anything to do with grades will make me feel small. Because i believe i'm small.

Trust me, i AM cursing and swearing at myself.

It doesn't help when you have a brilliant boyfriend, whom every other brilliant student in Law school know he is brilliant.
They are probably blaming his slightly less perfect grades on me, the useless, brainless, plain-jane girlfriend, that isn't of much help in his life except throwing temper at this, widely-acclaimed good manner, nice boy-next-door.

I assure you, there is no pressure at all, goin thru law school with all that at the back of your mind.
Because there is no pressure, the more i shld be doing well.

I am not blaming my bad grades on him, i never did. But i can't keep up, i dont think i'll ever be able to. and my pride, is very very very seriously ... damaged?
haha i cant even find a proper word for that.

I should drop out.

Aiya.
Alot of things to think about today, don't really know how to put it down into words.. Just so many questions that I'm asking, so lil answers, or rather i don't believe the answers. So many things i want to do but don't know if i'll be able to accomplish them.

But i do know that
for everything i do
i'll have to take a step at a time.

Cheers

Wenrong

Ho Ho ho
Tml i will have to return to school. Sulkz. But you know what they say, you've gotta love going to school to get the grades. I guess i din love school that much for the past 1 and half years. ;P So, this sem, i will love school. I will love my books, love my readings and stop playing games.

Read so much about ambitions these few days and i did not deliberately search for these articles to read. Instead i came across them by chance. An whole 4/5 pages feature on Times and another small column in ST today (sunday btw). Did you know that it is natural instinct for humans to be ambitious? You know that by observing how a baby stands up after a fall from learning how to walk, and continue on his endeavour. But somehow, when the kid attends school, he loses that desire to become better, to reach out for the best, the never-say-die attitude. Experts explained that they learn to be satisfied with what they have and comply with the norm, everyone influences everyone else that mediocre is good enough.
I guess deep inside, everyone wants to think that he or she is ambitious and has a special thing inside himself or herself. I do. I always like to tell myself "if i want to do it, i can. Just when."
Well i guess the last sem has really proved me wrong. So wrong. I wasn't the genius that i secretly thought i was, even thou all along, experience have taught me otherwise. I chose not to believe.
I have neva manage to do well without hardwork. I was neva the kind of kid who can study last minute and pass with flying colours.
Today, one day before my school reopen, i'd like to admit to myself that:
1) I'm not a bright kid. I cant study for 1 month and top the class, be it primary school or kindergarten.
2) I have to work hard, even harder now that i'm surrounded by some of the smartest people in Singapore (excluding the medicine and overseas scholars).
3) I have to re-learn English.
4) I need to have more zest, live and organisation when i do things.

Time will fly pass sooner now, another 2 and half years, i will graduate from law school.
I went back to law fac the other day to accompany paul as he did his research. As i stood outside the lobby, waiting for him to pick me up, i looked at the words "CJ KOH LIBRARY". The memories of how i first step into NUS looking for the library for my interview came back to me. I remember i was in awe of the place, i thought to myself "how nice will it be if i were one of them". And how i haven't achieve anything since i started law school, tryin to scrap pass everything, blaming everything else but myself for the grades.
Perhaps i was naive then, thinking of the glam that was attached to the sentence "hi, i'm wenrong from NUS law fac". But i knew then, that it was a privilege to be in the school of law, not a right.
I know many people would have killed to be in my place, doing everything right to graduate a good law student. And here i am wasting my life in law school.

Time to work hard.

Cheers people

Regards,
Wenrong

hahahahah
I think it is high time i try to lose weight... Went back to yj today and my 'mama' told me i grew fat... Sighhhhh But i have a feeling i said this yesterday. Manz..
This sucks.

not really in the mood to write a post. Been running around YJ hunting teachers for the alumni newsletter and doing up the webpage. ARGH. And i have another meeting with the pro-tem team tml.. Oh which reminds me that i have to re-schedule me tuition to saturday or sunday. Darnz. AND i have to attend some gala dinner meeting as well. :p
SIAN-ed....

I'm hungry..
i need to jog.
WTH

hahahah
End of story, the grill is made of steel/metal not aluminium, so it is impossible to break in tonight without waking the whole family up. Hence i can sleep very well tonight :D

Wah kao.. pissed me off man. If only i can stay home tml. I'll run after him instead of jus oi-ing him. den call police on my way.. hahahaha k, wishful thinking. ;p

aiya, nothing much happened today otherwise.. Went to Nus with Paul, den to east coast and then suntec. Pretty fun :D

Still cant imagine what would have happened if he managed to break in...

Bleai...

wahhhh
Some thief nearly broke into my house when i was sleeping today, my ah gong saved the day with his 'oei'! BUT... he din call the police nor did he wake me up, he chose to tell my mom when she came back at 3pm in the afternoon... Sigh. Now my eldest sister is freaked out.. Right now she is trying to set traps so that when the thief tries to open the windows of my studies, the umbrella will fall and someone may wake up from the noise. LOL... Kindof funny...
Come to think of it, if the thief have successfully broken into my house, my life would have been in danger since i was sleeping. I think that's the third time i kind of escape danger in two weeks. Two occasions of potential accidents and one thief... Hmmm I wonder wat does that signifies..?

Man my parents are back, i got a house to secure.. later...

Regards,
WR

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yah right... Journalism.. Yuckz. But looks like i'm a real gemini.

Beloved mOm and Dad.. Love them. Shaky hand effect :) romantic eh?  

ho ho ho!!!!
I've put up the song...
Home by michael buble
To everyone who's loved one is somewhere far away.
Enjoy...

and my side bar is finally back to normal.. No more long ahhs for me..
Heez.

I like my blog, simple and amatuerish as it is.
Because it is mine..

Cheers people.
Love,
Wr

man.... I don't have breakfast for today. Or mayb i should stop taking breakfast altogther since i'm growing oh-so FAT! Wahhahaha Yes.. i'm growing sideways, very evidently. Sigh...

Some of my friends are complaining about the font i've been using for my blog. Is it really that diff to read? hahaha I do read my own blog, for those of you who don't know, i'm pretty egoistic. Over myself, pretty much nothing to be ego about but yeah... I thought it is the colour of the blog that makes it diff to read because after reading my blog for a while, and you look at something else, u'll see grey. :p Anyhow, don't really plan to do up my blog, if i really have to, i'll add a song and some pictures ... Sorry people.

Going back to YJ for the Nth time after i've graduated. Will be the first this year thou, 3 years after i've graduated. I have to meet some teachers-in-charge for upcoming events in school and 'report' these to the Alumni members. I wonder how much interest will i generate with the E-newsletter, but i've gotta try first. I guess even if it falls flat on my face, at the very least an attempt was made. Instead of the typical YJ approach, 'gauge the response first'... Sure, if i have to pay like a few thousand dollars to organise this, i'll probably gauge the response first.
Looks like i've to spend my whole day there. Gotta meet two teachers for two events and help another fellow alumni teacher with a software. Not that i know how to use it, but two brains will def be better than one. not to mention the MOE laptop doesn't run unregistered software.. So we'll have to use my laptop. At the end of the day, i'll probably be the one maintaining the webpage as well. Gorsh... Wassup man, i din sign up to learn computer software and be a reporter...
And paul comes in and tell me "you chose to do it, wat."
True, so i can't complain.

Nothing else to complain. :p except i don't have breakfast!!!!

it is 217am, just had a few drinks...sleepy now but i just dunwanna go to sleep :p
really puzzled by something.. was having fun but was made to come back because i've gotta help my mom tml. sigh...i haven been waking up at 630 am for a very very long time, doubt i'll be able to wake up tml.. rahhhh
Until now, i still dun understand why i have to go help when i'm totally of no help at all. Just because they think it is fair to have a roster? i mean it isn't fair that i'm doin the housework myself, it isn't fair that i've to take care of my younger sister now and then. Just because they give like 100 or 50 to my parents a month, therefore i have to help at the stall? sian..
come'on what is fair? crap. i don't complain about her painting someone else's house while i have to do spring cleaning all alone (altho i haven started;p) freak.. does it mean i have a stable bf den i can dont do housework? Please, i'll go ROM tml man.
Freak.

and i cant say all these in front of my mom/parents, because it'll break their heart. to see that i simply don't wanna help out. not that i look down on what they do but i just cant do it... i cannot recognise faces, i cannot rem seat numbers or the order. i just cant. I've tried for 6 years or more, and it has been proven again and again, it is just not my cup of tea... why must they brood over something call 'fairness'?????? I do NOT understand. i do do my fair share of housework.

sigh....


darn.

i wanna go sleep and dream....

Happy new year everyone!!!!! :D
Had a really good time yesterday at PKS, so many nice things happened to me. I was blessed by his Emminence in the blessing session in the afternoon whereas those who went in the evening wasn't. Anyhow, i'm sure his blessing went out to all of them as well. :p After chanting for the whole afternoon from 1515hrs onwards (had dinner break thou), the session ended with His Emminence jumping with joy, literally, with the number of times the scripture was chanted for the week - 200 over million times. The funny part is when all the other lamas were afraid he might fall, because His Emminence was 80++ and has weak legs. :p
He jumped and threw the shawl, signifying that he blessed all who have attended the session. It was a very simple gesture, but there was something that touched me. His simplicity, he was so real, his smile was so sincere, so true. As they walked around the hall, everyone was on their knees. It was so grand, yet i'm sure it was neva meant to, not planned by the organisers to create effect. The reality of that scene touched me and brought me on the verge of tears. :d

The purity in His smile, is very very beautiful.

After the session, i had to help out at the 'spiritual countdown' in PKS as well. Hee, yvette and i were given collectively a very very creative name "Shoe-girls" (sugars) because we were in charge of giving out shoe bags and collecting them. Ahahah i tot it was brilliant, took me a while to understand the pun thou, one long while. The work was minimum, din take up a lot of effort :p Most of my time was spent having fun, eating, talking, standing around, singing, clapping!! posting for pictures! !
I took picture with nix shen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(shen wei jun!!!) hahahaha i cant wait to get the pictures of the event!!! LOL still pretty excited over yesterday i guess. Did really crasy stuff like those times in SN, dancing, jumping around, cheering!!! I have to admit the group spirit is enticing :) so enticing that my sister has been expressing alot of interest. And poor me, will be the one bringing her if she has to go for the events. It is times like this when i hate myself for being soft, why did i bring her there in the first place?! Rahhhh because she will neva understand she is causing trouble for another person, she will think it is her right to be escorted everywher by her very busy sister. Sigh, shall not let her take up so much space in my blog LOL..

Have to go out soon to meet niang niang!!! yeah, it is a good new year, nice weather (cool), nice songs(michael buble) in my laptop, nice orange juice (sunkist), got lunch waiting for me.. LOL, ain't i lucky? :p Don't be too jealous k?

May the new year be full of new possibilities for everyone...

BTW I'm 21 this year u noe? Heeeee

regards,
WR

hmmm 31 of dec 2005 - last blog of this year. Pretty sure this is it because i will be out from 1pm onwards and will not be back till after 12midnight. Not because i'm going for some orchard countdown but helping out at pks.
I'm still listening to 'Union' since i got it yesterday.. Hahaha really nice way to start the day. :p

Well well well... What am i goin to blog about? I need to leave house by 1245 to give tuition. Then will make my way to pks cos my uncle says there's blessing at 3pm. Hmm.. Initially i tot they needed people to help out, turn out he asked me to go be blessed ;p den i told him, i din chant for the world for the whole week and now i go down to be blessed... tt's very singaporean. HAHAHAH don't give but take. He told me to go down for next year then. Sigh since i've re-arranged my tuition to an earlier date, might as well go down earlier. Moreover, my uncle, aunt-in-law, aunt, sister and Sinz will be there! hee Like to be doing things with my fam actually LOL..

Talk about religion and fam, my younger uncle said he wanted to read the bible. hahaha and the other day when the computer hang as he was playing computer game he said "if god wants me to rest, den i probably should" Hahaha i was like "Like u'll listen to Him." "you don't know i believe in God now meh?"
I din. Told him i have a bible, shall pass it to him later.
I believe religion does a person good. Any one can. Believing there is a higher power will keep people's lives on track, more discipline, more loving, nicer. Religions usually provide a reason for us being living in the world now, what is the greater cause of it. Just that the stubborn person in me refuse to listen to anything. ;p
My fickle mind, my want to be different, i believe all gods are real and one and the same one. Like how pre-historic chinese people make gods out of mountains and rivers because of their knowledge, or lack of it and their background. People of everywhere saw the supreme being through the lens of their own culture. Hence the difference in appearance.
Teaching wise, every religion speaks about being caring, compassionate, love mankind and a heaven.. Of cos, there are major differences in terms of rituals, execution of these goals. But i jus it is because of human subjectivity and after so many years, the divergence simply grew bigger.
I don't mean to offend anyone of any religion thou. Jus my lil tot.

I might look a lil crasy to think this way... Think about it, wat's the point of differentiating you are from this religion, i'm from that. *shrugs* The only time there is a difference is when the people have a false sense of superiority, i guess. This competitive nature only exists in humans right? I don't know, i'd like to think that the god/s up there, that i'm believing in, is/are magnanimous and forgiving. I guess every organisation has measures in place to prevent outflow of members, religion is no exception. :p i think i better stop the topic here before i get killed.

I love the song...

Listen, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as one
I don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of one

It takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows another one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing
(Union - BEP, Feat. Sting)

Let's change on the count of three.

In the new year, i hope i become a nicer person. less temper, more love. More positive energy. A more caring person, less bossy. :p More appreciative of the people around me.
Then maybe the world will become a better place in 2100... :p

The song in my last post is Union by Black Eyed Peas (feat. Sting). Can't explain it but i just love this song the first time i heard it. At first it was only because of the upbeat-ness of the song, den i went to look for the lyrics - very meaningful indeed. I've got to say, BEP is really talented. Another song to intro is 'Home' by Michael Buble. His voice is so sexy that you'll simply get lost listening to him*GRINZ*

Listening to so many songs because of the new ipod nano that my sister lent me. she got it for christmas, and she told me i could play with it... I've been wondering what she meant by 'play with it'. Does it mean i get to use it? or does it mean i jus load the songs in, learn how to use it, teach her and tt's it? *sulkz* Anyhow din manage to do anything to it until today, 5 days after xmas. Very unlike me, who likes to meddle with such things once they fall into my hands. I guess i din wanna touch it mostly cos it's not mine. Hahah anyhow my sister asked me to load songs in yday. So loaded the songs in my com into it.. And i carried it around today!!!!!!!!! hahaha k, kind of cool. Felt really good with it. LOL i guess i'm a convert. Used to hate ipod because so many people are carrying it. i liked Zen because it is made in Singapore (k not technically, but the brand is). But Nano has won me over, it is so slick!!!!! yet it can store like 4 Gigs of songs if i rem it correctly. Call me swaku (mountain turtle) but i was most fascinated by the touch pad. hahahahah the way u scroll up and down and adjust the vol.. I thought it was genius. And the packaging was simply awesome. Everything, up to the earphone covers, were packed nicely in white plastic pockets, sealed. (duh) Look like the way medical supplies are packed, e.g. syringes etc. Everything was put nicely in a box which was black in the outside but white in the inside.. The whole thing was screaming CLASS to me..
I'm sorry creative, i wanted to stay loyal to our product. I guess you cant give youngsters wat they wan, you need to create something for them to want.

Saw my SN friend today. Very glad i still get to meet her once in a while and feel like i can tell her anything :D How many friends do i really have to do this.. i think 4? LOL yeah... strictly speaking 2 but yeah... Gotta say someting really cliche here: Time really flies. I got to know her since sec 3, when i was 15. I'm already 20 goin on 21.. and so SO SOOOO many things have happened to her, me and both of us within this 5 years plus... Don't know what is going to happen tomorrow, but i'm sure glad i've got a friend like her, my diary. Thank you KW :D Oh yeah, by the way she don't read my blog LOL so yeah... I don't know why i'm writing this..

Asked Mr Paul to pick me up after my little session with KW and Mel. Hee.. He very nicely obliged, even though he was very tired after a wedding dinner. Thank you Mr Paul. And i very unreasonably asked him to drop mel off at Payar Lebar, when i stay in Yishun. Sorry Mr Paul. Feel so bad :p I don't know about other girls, but i like to ask my bf to drop my friends off.. Most of the time, it is already very late, and my friend happened to be girls as well. And on the other hand, people will think my bf is very very nice and love me very very much to be willing to send him/her all the way to XXX place. :p hahah i'll just feel very loved when my bf drop me home at the end of the day. Rahhhhh Thank you Mr Paul Heee

I guess i'm goin to sleep soon.

Another 20 hours, the year is goin to end, again.
What have i achieved this year? What am i goin to do next year? Where is my life leading me?

When the clock strikes 12 tonight, i will be 6 months closer to being an adult. 21.. How time flies. I'm actually starting to feel scared. I don't feel ready to handle the big 21. All the responsibilities that will come with that, the problems i have to face...

My tuition kid told me this story:
There was a monk who needed to go to the dentist the next day. Being very traumatised by dentists when he was young (as we all were), he was worried sick for the whole day. He cound neither sleep, nor eat. Then come the next day, the monk woke up with little sleep, washed up and was about to leave the house when he received a call. He was told that the dentist will not be free on the day hence his appointment will be changed to the following friday.

Moral of the story:
Don't worry about things that hasn't happen. Dont bother thinking about things you cant control. Dont brood over things that have passed.

My kid has more wisdom than me. :D I try to learn from them too.

Regards,
Wenrong

[Chorus]
(One for all, one for all)
(It's all it's all for one)
Let's start a union, calling every human
It's one for all and all for one
Let's live in unison, calling every citizen
It's one for all and all for one

We don't want war- can't take no more
It's drastic time for sure
We need a antidote and a cure
Coz do you really think Mohammed got a problem with Jehovah
We don't want war – imagine if any prophet was alive
In current days amongst you and I
You think they would view life like you and I do
Or would they sit and contemplate on why
Do we live this way, act and behave this way
We still livin' primitive today
'Cause the peace in the destination of war can't be the way
There's no way, so people just be a woman, be a man
Realise that you can change the world by changing yourself
And understand that we're all just the same
So when I count to three let's change

[Chorus]

Got no time for grand philosophy
I barely keep my head above the tide
I got this mortgage, got three kids at school
What you're saying is the truth that really troubles me inside
I'd change the world if I could change my mind
If I could live beyond my fears
Exchanging unity for all my insecurity
Exchanging laughter for my tears

[Chorus]

I don't know, y'all, we in a real deposition
In the midst of all this negative condition
Divided by beliefs, differences and religion
Why do we keep missing the point on our mission?
Why do we keep killing each other, what's the reason?
God made us all equal in his vision
I wish that I could make music as a religion
Then we could harmonise together in this mission
Listen, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as one
I don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of one

It takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows another one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing

[Chorus]

Really soft song... I don't particularly like the lyrics but the song is really nice. I guess if i cant put the song on the blog den the next best alternative is to write the lyrics. Man, how pathetic.

Went to SNAVA chalet yesterday. Yes, i went to a chalet, and a pretty empty one. Because most of the girls went home instead. 4 people in a 4 bed chalet, how luxurious is that? Almost like a hotel exp, minus the beautiful scenery.

You know how it gets a little awkward to gather with people you haven seen for years? Not to mention they are of a different batch from you, the different experiences. I have to say that i din feel awkward at all there, almost at home. Although not everyone from the club was there (i will neva expect full attendance actually), those who were there were pretty pleasant. Erm, maybe it was because most of the time they were inside and i was outside BUT, at the very least, they din irritate me. HAHAHAHHAH :p
Current batches aside, the alumni girls were pretty cute. I wonder if Laodamia and I were too strict last time, they always seem a little frightened of us, except melissa of cos, who's a little eccentric. And she claims i'm weird. :p

Biggest discovery during the bbq, My sec two lit teacher, Mrs Sng, actually suspected me of being spastic when she taught me. NO JOKE. I was so hurt... Just because i had really short hair and always act innocent in front of teachers, she thinks i'm spastic. Dam*

Ohz, did i mention 4 teachers turned up for our little gathering? 2 ex SN teachers and 2 current teachers. So touched!!!!!!!! LOL the best thing is the 2 ex SN teachers will be working in Bouna Vista from Jan onwards, this means i can meet them for lunch or dinner :D *grins*

Hahaha i have no idea why i'll be meeting them, i mean after a while there won't be anything to say to them and vice versa. So yeah...

Yes, i still have many things to do .. and i still haven touched them.

Seeing dentist tml!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *JAW's music playin* *see ghost expression* Rahhh...

Sianed..

Happy holidays everyone.
HOpe ur life is not as boring as mine.
Boo

Regards,
WR

Oohooh ooh oohooh ooh...
C'mon!

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u