Lips of an Angel - Hinder

honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
honey why you calling me so late?

the end is near. I can sense it.. History repeats itself. Enthusiasm dies off. Interests simmers. That's the way how it goes everytime.
It is disgusting how it all follows a pattern. It is disgusting how it is all so predictable. It is disgusting how mundane everything becomes after a while.

I want it to end on my terms. That is the least i can do to protect myself. At the end of the day, you've got to look out for urself.

I hope i can make the right decision.

Cheers.

Far Away - Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Friend: Hey where are you?
Me: In the lib, wassup
Friend: nth
Me: How are you?
Friend: Gd, why the sudden concern?

A short msn conversation that just took place. And i wonder why do i feel like i'm better off alone. This friend of mine used to be my best pal in campus.. Maybe i'm too sensitive.. I guess i had quite a bad weekend, bad day yesterday, bad start today.

I made a promise to myself, if i'm not happy, i wouldn't continue with it. So what's the verdict now?

No idea what i wanna write.. Received a comment that i think too much and am too emo. Perhaps i do, but i guess i can't help it. Am i thinking too much for a 21 year old? I know i can only become more and more jaded, cynical, skeptical..
It is not as if i don't look forward to a simple and naive relationship, but it is like an irreversible chemical reaction.. When you boil a sugar solution, all you get is a solution that turns more and more brown no matter how much heat u supply... You'll never get the sweet sugar ever again...

"Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?"
I promise by Stacie Orrico

I wonder is it something to do with me, that i've never met someone who would do all these for me.. haha That my character, the way i approach a relationship, the way i choose to react when i know a guy likes me as well, the way i do things..
I don't know.
But i do know that i wont be able to find someone like that.

One friend told me that "People don't believe me when i say i am single. But if i ever do tell them my criteria for bf, they'd probably tell me that i'll become a spinster. Because i have very stringent criteria for bf and i'm not willing to compromise, not now."
I know that if it was 3 years ago, i'd have told her that when love comes knocking, she wont know how to say no...
Right now, i know very well, that no one is perfect. Perfect boyfriend only exists in fictions.. And however good he is, he cannot read ur mind.. Moreover, the really good and even the not so good guys have already been snapped up or wont be interested in you.
hAHahah

You know what i know? I know that if i ever see him again, i'll still feel excited like 3 years ago. I know that if i have to choose again, i'll still choose to be together with you. I know that it'd be the best if i never see/contact you again. I know so much more than i really want to.

I lost a part of me the day you left..

I want to become a vegetarian... i want to be alone.. i want to find myself again... To be carefree.. to leave without regret...

I feel like a vampire, i transform at night. Into a character that even i dread. Lack of positivity, lack energy.. Dark. real dark.

Cheers people.

everything ended before anything could have happened. And seriously, a small part of me heaved a sigh of relief. That i have got the peace and calmness back after half a day of disappointment.
Just so you guys know, the guy that i had a crushed on actually told my fren that he 'already had someone in mind'. Translation: She's not my type. Which is a nicer way of saying 'she cannot make it'.
Maybe i'm being too harsh on myself (or not, as some of you out there might think). Then again, i guess the whole thing is more ego crushing than anything (no pun intended). And at the end of the day, it just goes back to 'we all should know where we stand and just keep to our standard'. I should have known that he was out of my reach. And rest assured i'm not just saying this because of this incident.

After half a day of ego breaking pain, i'm finally getting myself together and doing my research. Which is very rewarding and enriching. Maybe next sem i'll just get research paper modules. This ultimately proves my theory that at the end of the day, the only rewarding thing in my life, is to study. And unfortunately, i have been too little of during this sem.

Up till now, i have 4 assigments due end of october and beginning of nov. one written exam in mid nov. All of which i have barely started doing... But i'm determined to pull through this, somehow. And the above mentioned incident actually have some influence on my determination. At the end of the day, feelings come feelings go, people walk in and out of my life. But i have to face myself and my grades for the rest of my life. So tell me again, why am i wasting so much bloody time on people?
The sad thing is that my friends seems to be my priority, or rather i don't know how to reject my friends requests. If only my books will ask me out sometime, i guess i'll do better academically.. I guess at the end of the day, i just don't have discipline. Which is all going to change now..

Right now, i'm going back to my research paper.
I'm thankful that this sem, most of the things have worked out well for me. i had the modules of my first choice. My IP lecturer's misfortune has turned into a lucky break for me, final exam was changed to research paper due to her sickness. I wish she'll get better soon. All my modules have stopped and i have plenty of time to prepare for my final exams and do my research, if only i manage my time well.

I need to start somewhere to pick up what i've left behind.

Cheers

experience has taught me that it is more rewarding to put my effort on things which i know will yield returns, ie studies.
The trouble with your heart is that, it never learn from experience.
Not to say that i'm in anyway interested or in love with anyone. I can only say it is always nice to have little crushes here and there, whether they develop into something more is another question altogether.
However, when i'm alone i always like to look for little crushes and talk about them so much that they grow out of hand. And always end up in disaster. I guess it is high time i grow up and stop developing my puppy love crushes.
Crushes dont work because it is superficial. Things that aren't real, that we relate to when we see this person, whether he/she is really like that we dun care. That is why crushes are so exciting, because they are unreal, they are humans whom our mind relate to a certain kind of feeling due to its own imagination of how they are like. K the last sentence is a lil long, take some time to digest that...

So from now on, i guess i'll stop doing this childish act before it gets out of hand again. Yes, i find a particular guy very good looking while he plays bball matches. But that is about it. I shall stop telling my friends about him from today onwards, even though i will be going to watch his match tml.. Yup, end of story.

Love, even if i work hard, it doesn't work out
Friends, they come they go, they leave you and you can't complain.
School, i try hard enough, it shld come...
Family, always here, always can count on them..

So how shld i prioritize my time again?

Cheers.

WR

"Wenrong, you seem to have given up on urself." - from a good friend of mine from law sch.

I'm afraid that's the truth.

1) Why is it that when someone gets a partner, everything and everyone else becomes secondary?

2) What would you do if this was the last day of your life?

3)What would you wish for if you had one wish?

4) Between your family and your career/study, which will you choose?

5) why do people sms/msn you late at night and say "wah so late, still dunwan to sleep ah?"

I don't have much to write, i just feel like ranting when in fact i should be sleeping. I don't know who is crazy enough to be reading my blogs when all the while i simply write about nothing but i appreciate your support.

I want to be nasty.. Real nasty and selfish, so that i don't care how people react when i say certain things. To get things done the way i want it. To refuse to do things that i do not want to do. I don't wanna be a 'push-over'. I want to learn how to say no..

I hate being nice. Hate people who are nice and are being taken advantage of. The worst are those who are taken advantage of and then get angry but refuse to tell the bastar* off. Which obviously includes me..

Or maybe i am already very nasty to some people, just that i haven realised it and they obviously should not be reading this blog if they are pissed off with me.

I want to live on an island. Without people. It is easier to know that your friends are alive somewhere, but not contactable; than they are always contactable but no one actually contacts you or vice versa.

Developing a certain weird attitude nowadays.. If i am not getting the attention i want, e.g. in a conversation, the other person seems distracted or something, i simply say i'm bored and i don't wish to talk to that person anymore. Cos i feel that i'm being neglected and unappreciated so i don't see the point of prolonging the agony for both of us.
I think the same apply for all my human to human relationship.
I am too lazy to hover around, wait for you to turn back and realise that i'm there.

I'm starting to hate the idea of having friends.. Seems more like liability than anything. dislike the idea of thinking of what to say, dislike the hassle of thinking of places to go, squeezing time to meet up, sacrificing someone for the sake of another, misunderstandings arising, irritating people who can only come out when partner is not available...

I'm a walking negative right now, right here. (or rather lying negative, since i'm on my stomach in bed..) I want to go into seclusion. To do my own things.
Doubt i'll go on msn anytime soon after this post..

Friends who are reading this: I wont be contactable on msn for a few weeks until exams over... Need me give me a call or email me.. Replied guaranteed.
Enemies who are reading this: ...can't think of anything to say to yous.

Gd night people. Back into my shell.
Back to myself.. Back to me...

Guys, have your gal ever asked you whether she can go clubbing with some other guy friend(s) and you always wondered how to reply? If you say you wont like it, she says you are possessive, selfish, MCP.. If you say go ahead, she say you don't love her enough, don't care about her, etc.. If you ask whether she wants to go, she'll just throw the question back at you, "if you let me go den i go.. " but of cos, you know it is not true.. This is the trick question of the week, Just like the infamous "am i Fat?" question...
hahaha As a girl, what would i want to hear my bf say (disclaimer: I am not in anyway responsible if any reader try this out and results vary..)
If this is a clubbing trip i really wanna go, i'd get angry if he says no. If this is a clubbing trip i really dun wanna go (e.g. some boring stuff), i'd be happy if he says no.. So Really, there isn't an always right answer with me.
The guy might ask "So you must first know when do u really wanna go?"
And seriously speaking, half the time i don't know whether i wish to go or not...
and the guy thinks "So how am i suppose to know if you don't?"
"So you have to know me better than I do."

Hmmm I wonder will there ever be such a person in this world, who knows me so well, that no matter what i say, he knows what i am thinking. Will there ever be a person that pays so much attention to me that i don't even have to tell him how i feel, he can respond..

My mood changes so fast i can hardly keep up.. One moment i can survive so well alone, next moment i feel lonely. one moment i am enjoying someone's company, the next i'll just wish i wasn't there. One moment I'd think i've found the one, the next moment he is just like any other..
To have a good grasp of who i am, that person must really put some effort into knowing me..
I've met this person before, someone who really had chemistry with me. When i'm a kid, he entertained me.. When i'm a thinking adult, he talked to me like an equal. He was always able to match me at my level, a seemingly seamless, perfect combination, something that i'll probably never find in my life. Never..


少，你说的天长地久，对我而言
早已不存在。

LOL... night time is always emo time. It is 12.22am over here.. i'm online, listening to "Stick with you" by pussycat dolls.. What better song to get emo to?

nothing much to write about... Tired.. Sleepy.. Refuse to go to sleep, refuse to let another day pass by just like that.. Haven done much.

I need to do something about my life, i need to feel that i'm still in control. Need to decide to do something. And i know what i am supposed to do.

Love doesn't conquer all, don't you all understand that by now?? I see people rushing to the door of getting into relationships and i smiled. I wonder if they know what they are getting into..

My fren asked me why the pessimism? I asked why not? LIfe itself is pessimistic. It is like a terminal disease, once you have it, you eventually die..

How i wish i can dig my heart and conscience out too, and bury it in an island? Forget about it and lead my life without them.. How many people have done it? I don't know, i just wish i can too..

*weak smile*

I'd live on because i have to.

hwahahahaha i had no time yesterday to write my gym record for yesterday (24/09)
Well Instead of 20 mins i jogged 30 mins.. 8.8 for first 2 laps den 9 for the rest of the time.. managed to go for 4.6 in 30 mins.. I tot that was pretty good for me wahhaha..

Den did weights for my arms.. wahhahaha small small weights nia.. 2 kg and 1 kg.. While i was doing the repetitive workout, did what i always do when i'm alone - looked around.. There were 3 girls in the gym who were carrying 6 kg with both hands.. Don't really know what are they training for.. Nearly all the other girls were accompanied by their bfs. Is this a new trend? Gf accompanying their bf to gym or bf drag gf along.. just like how girls used to drag guys along to shopping? :p But the girlfriends don't look very interested.. Doesn't that dampen the guys' mood? Hmmmzz.. No comments..
Den my thighs.. Nothing much to write about thigh work out as well wahhaha
Den i had a tough time doing my sit ups because the last time i was there, i was 'tricked' into doing inclined sit ups not knowing the seat was inclined. So i did 15 X 3... It was really bad when i tried to do it yesterday.. but i still managed a 10X3 ...

K that was my gym workout.. I guess it is very diff to keep a record since i always do the same thing. WHAhahaha except that it hurts today more than the last time...

Well, that's the end of the boring part. Here's the interesting part of my blog entry.. My pervertic neighbour(s) saga..
I have a couple of crazy neighbours, one staying a floor above us and other on 12th floor. Everything started when the 12th floor neighbour started to put their clothes out in the middle of the night without first machine-drying them.. So the excessive water would be dripping on other's, all those directly below this particular crazy family.
It is without a doubt that 11th floor got angry and so like all good singaporean who dun take law into their own hands, they complained to the Town Council. But to no avail. then some how or rather, the two families ended up in court, 11th floor lost the suit.
Any normal person would have stopped while they are ahead, but upon winning, 12th floor din stop.. Instead, they starting to pour waste water/water for mopping/rubbish water down that stretch of window every night.. (one may wonder where they get such water everday, beats me, not the topic of this paper)
This is the part where i get angry.. I mean seriously, if it is just between the two of you, den go settle it somewhere. Fight it out, either one of you get killed, end of story. Why, OH WHyyyyy must an innocent third party like ourselves suffer at the same time? Doesn't he/she know that by pouring that water down that windown, it actually goes all de way and not just stop at 11th floor?
And the best part is, this is not just it.. They even throw rubbish at our corridor, leftovers, ashes, meleon seeds shell... For what purpose i simply have no idea. Either one of them is trying to malign the other or they just want more people to join in the fun..

It is not just the physical clearing of the rubbish, cleaning of the window that is stressful. It is the nagging of my mother that is killing me. It is the feeling that they are doing all these and i have no idea what to do to stop them. It is the feeling of anger that why are they implicating us? It gets to me, and it gets to me real bad. What is wrong with this peoplE? Can't they think straight? Don't they have any other things to do? Don't they have any sane person in the family that can stop them from doing such things? I don't understand at all. When you come home at the end of the day, you still have to be pissed off with such things, how would you feel? I mean i don't mind never knowing my neighbour for as long as i stay here, i'd rather never have to say hi until the day that i die. I don't need to talk to them. Are these people so bored at home that they must do such a thing to get their neighbours talking to them? Even quarrelling is a form of communication to them now.. That no one is giving them attention, therefore they need such attention from people staying around them? HELLO?????

I'll be watching. i'll be watching my corridor closely at night.. If they ever, ever get caught by me, they'll wish that they never had such stupid thoughts in the first place...

well well well, i guess i got a little too emo on my last entry.. today i promise a more chirpy me... After that entry, i had fever the next day. Depression and lack of sleep and sleeping in a cold room on the floor, not a good mix at all. Please don't try it at home.
Had a little time to myself yesterday after my tuition. Made a few plans but din work out, so i went to the gym myself at 845pm. To many guys out there, it might seem as normal as breathing. But i guess the female population won't agree with that. Whenever i told people i watch movies alone, swim alone, etc, i have only one respond "Wah! You go alone ah?? Not weird meh?" Is it suppose to feel weird? I'm not too sure.. I guess it is too difficult to arrange for a troop of people to march to the gym, swimming pool and what not. You have people who ask "who's going", people telling you "don't want lah, we go ... instead", people saying "too far".. everything except an immediate "Ok! Time and place". And all these gets to me, actually spoils my mood to do what i set out to do. Moreover, when you do these things, you don't really interact with your friends whether they are there or not.. Lastly, it is because i don't do these things on a very regular basis, only when i have some time to spare away from my relationship commitment, used to be such. So it is more difficult to find people, because the timing might be weird, or too impromptu for anyone to be able to fit it into their schedule.. Therefore i don't even bother..
Relationship bring with it certain obligations for me.. I realised that i tend to give my other half all the priority in the world when it comes to my schedule. So much so that my plans would be subjected to his. And if he doesn't do much, we'll end up seeing each other for long period everyday, which i can assure you, isn't healthy at all. Hence i'm still getting used to managing my schedule according to my own likings.. Not because a certain him is not free, therefore i go dinner with my friend. Not because he is free, therefore my schedule shld be freed up for him.. This is call "losing yourself in a relationship".. That is one of the reason why people break up..
You no longer recognize yourself as an individual, don't have your own style, your own diary, your own friends, your own time, etc.. Being a couple doesn't mean you have to become that person you love. It might sound obvious, but it is a mistake that most people make at the start of the relationship.. and then it becomes too late to turn back..

Anyway, i've made a promise to myself, to start myself off, i'll go to gym regularly.. 3 times a week minimum. And to keep a record of it in my blog such that i'll be disciplined about it. :D
Gym(22/09/06)
i did 20 mins of jogging - i always just press the quick start because i have no idea how to work the machine (i'm refraining from calling the machine stupid because i guess it is me who is dumb...) so it will be a 20 min jog. whahah but i try to increase the speed.. started to 8.5 then 8.8 after 2 laps. Den at 17 min i increased to 9.5 because i wanted to complete 3k in 20min.. But din work even when i added to 10.5 for last 2 mins. 2.97km.. Damn, till my next session.
(this is not a primary schl mathematic question btw)

Den i asked the instructor how do i slim down my arms (bye bye bye-bye-arms)
He taught me the correct way to use weights, the exercises that work different muscles in my arm.. So i did my 3 reps of 14 (he told me to start with 14!!) for each hand and each muscle. wahahhahaha

And then to my thighs (Bye bye billard table legs)
Mr Instructor showed me how to use the 3 machines for thigh.. First was for the front thigh (the name has proven too difficult for my non-sports trained brain), second was the the back of it.. and...For the last machine, when i asked him which part of musle is the machine training, he very humourously replied "leg lah"...Make me look like idiot but since he had taught me some stuff, i shld respect him. And also because he is pretty old.(Not typo, No comma, i don't mean pretty as in good looking) Anw, did my 3 reps on the machines as well..

Then i did some sit ups and i left!!!! whahaha all that took about 1hr+++ and cost me $3.50. Normal price is $2.50 per entry, but i forgot to bring towel.. so i had to buy it at 1 buck!! Nice blue towel thou :D Good buy!!! muahaha

Oh did i mention, mr funny instructor suggested i go back 3 times a week. hahah he is really very nice but don't really know how to relate to people. Doesn't know how to be friendly because always avoiding eye contact if he is standing around doing nothing just to avoid saying hi or something. Very awkward character but nice. whahaha

Next session: Sunday 24/09/06 - before or after my tuition..

Some time for myself.. Emo is the word of the day.. I have been pretty emo for the past two days. For those of you who have no idea, emo means emotional.. Don and Damien came up with it.. haha Used to call Don - Emo Don.. Like a japanese delicacy.. But be warned that it isn't pleasant when donnie is emo.. wahahha.. It is never a good thing when someone is emo..
Talking about them just brings back so much memories.. I've known them for almost three years now.. We shared our most embarrassing moments, they had been there for my worst times, whether they know i'm going thru such a time or not.. They were there to laugh at me, laugh with me, taught me some really good lessons.. Took care of me, worried about me.. We've been through some of the craziest times i've ever had in my life.. The little girl in the group, whom they have no idea why on earth am i mixing with old men like them..

Just as i felt i cannot get anymore complicated, cannot be anymore jaded and skeptical.. I now look back and count myself then a happier and simpler girl then... Issues that used to be so clear back then, principles that seems to be so straight forward last time, no longer applies. You try to rationalise, you try to balance it out by doing something else so as not to feel as guilty as u should.. You don't wish to be the 'bad guy', but u are, to any outsider looking at the situation, there isn't a doubt..
So you try ways and means to convince urself, by doing something else, by saying this other thing, you are trying to better the situation. Telling urself with or without ur involvement, things would have turned out this way, in fact worst...

Alvin commented that there is a huge gap between how i act and the kind of things i think about.. In front of them, i always joke and laugh.. I feel happy, at that moment, sincerely happy with the company, with the stupid things that everyone does. But seriously, how much do they really know me? and how much do i know them? Is it better not to know each other so well? Or is it too superficial a friendship?

I guess to anyone reading, you must be thinking that i'm really lost. Lost in life, lost the plot...
Lost because i no longer believe in putting in too much effort.. Everything is temporary, nothing is permanent, friendship, relationship.. Human and human interaction is too difficult to predict.

"the day that i drop a tear for you, is the day that i'll leave you. I assure you this" - wen

"You've got to be cruel, to be kind..." - The Hardest thing, 98 degrees.
Finally experience what it really mean after hearing it since my secondary school years..

Typing in the dark in my bedroom, listening to songs.. Perfect for writing a blog but i have no idea what to write. Completely lost the plot in my life, my studies. Don't know what am i doin, losing the discipline to do anything to advance myself.

I have a presentation tomorrow.. I have not read all the cases that we'll use, i don't even know what am i going to say tomorrow.. Partly because we have not assigned the parts. Also because i din do much research on my own.. I can just feel the lack of preparation..

Everything is becoming a toll... Everything else. Pardeep was right, i will never learn independence like that.. Just like learning how to ice-skate but keep on holding on to the side rims..

rahhh i dunnoe wat to say.. sleeping time.. Must sleep from 1 to 6 am den go joggin !!! i wanna be discipline too!!!! :D

wR

Either the "love" that can conquer all doesn't exists or the concept of "love" doesn't exists... Haha...the past is coming back to haunt me.. Expecting that day to come, when the sky will come crashing down on me again.. The day when guilt will drown me.. That day when i'll be paralysed with the fear of crushing another's life.. The day when i'll come last in someone else's life, and drop the second things aren't right.. The self protection mechanism is already working, i'm backing off.. I cannot afford to wreck another person's life, i cannot afford to be drop again.. Because i already lost a piece of myself the last time, the most important piece in any relationship - faith...

Anyhow, am really disappointed with friendship as well.. the "very onz" friends that i made recently aside, i think about the friends that i made in the past.. I just get so demoralised.. Although i keep telling myself i shouldn't expect too much from others, i should expect more from myself. As long as i'm here for them, i shldn't expect them to do the same..

Mayb it is pms.. But i really feel the pinch.. It is like i've wasted two years of my life in that freaking school.. All the brothers, all the time spent together meant nothing. No bond, no memories... I'm plain dumb, should have known it when none of them turned up at my 21st chalet..

Yesterday while i listen to my fren's recollection of how drunk he was at his 21st bday, i couldn't help but feel jealous.. Jealous not because i didn't get drunk. But his frens told him "if you are drunk, i'll make sure you get home safely".. What about me? I spent my bday telling my frens that no one was staying for my chalet. Almost to the extent of begging people to stay. Crying at the cold storage while preparing for the chalet... Even my godbrother for almost 7 years couldn't make it to my party...

nv been there for them? din do enough? Selfish? Mayb i really din do a good job as a friend.. I guess this kind of experience will stay with you throughout your life, worse than any kind of hurt a break up can bring you.. It is a testimony of your character, the way you do things..

if not for a few really good friends still existing in my life, i guess i really would have given up on the concept of friendship.. Getting more and more deluded by this bond among people... So fragile, so pathetic, so non-existence.

Have i wasted the past 21 years? Is my life only starting now?

hey hey hey!!!! Been a while. Haven have the time to update anything except uploading some pictures that i've taken.. din do much. except going back to adss for teachers day, did some part time work on friday and went to sentosa on saturday.

Teachers day at Adss was pretty fun. Had farewell for one of the practicum teachers at Hans near upp thompson road.. many lame jokes... I can't really remember what transcend that day because i was very very tired throughout the day. Had to give tuition at 7pm that day even! And after which i went to meet them again.. Was pretty drain by the end of the day.. :p Wat's more i couldn't rem most of the things i said hahaha

The part time job was a last min stand in for someone else.. it had a really slow start, 1 hour of briefing... Half an hour of 'waiting for GOH', which in fact was really standing around doing nothing.. Things only started going when public starting streaming in, telling them about the exhibits etc. Actually it was pretty interesting job for me, cos instead of working i was walking around, looking at the exhibits myself, asking plenty of questions, taking a few name cards for myself ;p hahaha The best part was teaching little kids how to make 'book butterfly', some craft work which applies sci knowledge. At the end of which, the butterfly was suppose to 'fly'.. I was surprised at how good the kids were at receiving instructions. words like "loop, put both legs of your metal stick into the straw, pull it out from the other end, etc" Almost all of them can follow my instructions, which of cos made my job easier.. :d on the whole, really enjoyed myself there. I seriously think i cant do a deskbound job.. I need interaction with people..

Went sentosa yesterday.. :p "to see and be seen" according to my law fren. But seriously, i was looking at people all the time, doubt anyone was looking at me thou. LOL Though i couldn't play vball very well, kind of enjoyed the game. I guess i'll have to take it more seriously next time i go. :p got scolded for being nua. hahahahah And i got my islander temp card!!! Heezzz Power.. so people, sentosa anytime!!!

Anyhow, need to go sleep.. gotta wake up early to STUDY TML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn. yes, i am having semester right now... not holidays.... I miss my 3 months holidays...

WR

HaPPIE~ TeachErs~~~~ DaY~~~~~~~~~ heez.....