Me. Myself & i

hrm
i feel like crying aft reading their blogs.
i think i've already forgotten wat it means to be a gd fren.
i dunnoe wat am i suppose to do to be a gd fren.

or maybe it has no definition?
i can feel their presence even thou they're not near.
i can relate to their situation, their conversation, even thou we have not met for a few months.
i can laugh and cry with them, get angry for something that does not even concern me with em.
i haf not told these pple i'm consider them as good fren.
i neva labelled anyone as good fren at all.
but i noe deep down inside, these are the pple i wanna keep in my life forever.
meeting em once in a while, get to know their situation.

there're also pple whom i lost contact, emotionally and physically. for as long as a year. den i realised that, i was that close with her. i've finally found her back. but u cant imagine how bad i feel when i heard wat hap to her in dat year. in a year when she needed frens de most. in a situation when i knew if someone was there for her, she'll be able to recover much faster. i cannot forgive myself.

did i tell her : hey, we're de best of frens. u're my gd fren.

no.

i think it's less of wat u say.
more of what u do.

to some whom i believe is not worth it, i usually dun gif much attention to.
to pple whom i see as a gd fren, one call and i'll be there.
i'm not trying to sound noble.
but these are the pple who were there for me.
whom i tot of when i was in deep shit
and turn up for me.
niang niang is one eg ba...

perhaps u all might see me as selfish,
onli when pple treat u well den u treat him/her well.
but tt's how i work.
tt's de diff standards that pple have.
tis is mine.

=)
well, i noe we're still close frens ba...
i dun ask for u all to be there for me all de while.
bi jing, we all haf our own lives.
i mean, in my life, a few gd frens is good enough for me.

hao peng you ying gai hai xu yao yi dian yuan fen ba.

thankz.