Me. Myself & i

i've officially broken up with him...
he said he's having a hard time at field camp.
he said he missed me..
asking if not meeting was my way of getting back at him or i want to end it all...

i told him, he'd onli miss me when he's having a hard time...
it's only a week of cold shoulder and he couldn't take it
i said i think we're seriously not meant to be...
i tried. i failed. i leave with no regrets.
wished him all de best in his future relationship.
and not to make his mistakes again...

really sad things haf to turn out tis way.
i shld cry.
i haf no tears.
perhaps the impact has yet to set in...

why does relationships starts with all de lovey dovey stuff...
but changes from when one cant live without another,
to one has to learn to survive without another.

why teach me to be dependent on you, den leave me helpless, giving me all kinds of excuses?

i'm glad i got pass de helpless stage.
i dun wish to go there again...
sigh.

i wonder how he's taking it...
i din wanna say a thing cos he's in field camp..
i dunnoe wat will happen if i see him again..

like i've learnt frm my mentor... do things and dun ever regret..
i haf to look forward..
i've got many more things to do..
no time to wallow in self pity..

i'll rem de good times he gave me.
=)

i'd rem that there was once tt i act. tot he's de one.
i'd rem that there was once tt he was de nicest person on earth.
he's de one i ran to when my esteem was badly hurt.
he was de one whom i ran to when i got into trouble with my ct.
he was de one who gave me some of de sweetest mem that i have.

sigh.
things had to turn out tis way.

i din wan to choose de easy way out.
i learn that when u dun see future in de relationship, no matter how much u feel for de person, how much u're willing to give into the relationship. it's not goin to work.

i believe he'll feel less burdened.
without me pestering him to come out meet me.
throwing tantrums when he's late.
sulking when he fails to make me happy.

he'll feel less burden and a sigh of relieve when de issue of pride is over.
i believe he was afraid of hurting me.
tt's why everytime we got to de issue of breaking up, he'll say we can try abit more.

i tot i could pull thru..
i tot i could wait till one day when he realise my worth.
then he'll haf time for me.
then we can jus walk hand in hand down de beach
he'll be with me as and when i wan.

i'm sorry.

he can now find his sporty ger.
tanned, pony tail..
he told me i wasnt the kind of ger he wanted b4...
i hope u find ya ger soon...
someone whom u'll bring home.
someone whom u'll love her with all ur heart
someone whom u'll put her amongst ur top priorties.
someone who will love you
someone who can take care of you
someone who can give u de freedom u hope for.
someone who is independent...

it's not adviceable to listen to songs when u jus broke up...

i'll be strong...
=)